i've come to realize i haven't really been achieving a sense of sadness here in davis, discontentment, or even to some extent loneliness(though i still miss you college ppl), but that i have a feeling of... contentment. not extreme happiness, but not extreme sadness either. a point where i kinda just like taking it a bit at a time, getting what comes. if you were to put a facial expression on this, it wouldn't be a big wide grin, or a huge frown, but a sorta lift of the eyebrows, a slight upward turn of the lips. and i'm fine with that... i still wish i felt like i was on fire to do worship and break it out 24/7. of course, this feeling will vanish around the end of finals... because i will probably feel extreme disappointment followed by a peak in happiness.

bob's right, thanksgiving's the only holiday where commercialism isn't the main point... but then, we ARE christians, so then the holidays are for us a time of fellowship and getting reaquainted. for others, the holidays are a feeling of gluttony, greed, and discontentment. how sad... ppl are missing out. i'm beginning to love thanksgiving over christmas, due to the things we do around there... esp this year. too fun, turkey bowl, bdays, and esp friday worship... i just love it. y'kno, if my thanksgiving EVERY year was just like that, i'd be so happy. but the meaning of christmas still holds so much... speaking of which...

superficiality... bah, i loathe it. when you're so shallow that you think christmas is going to be bad because you can't top your department sales of last year... that is pathetic.

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Jesus you alone shall be my first love...

love this upbeat worship song... in distortion of course...