11:00 PM; this marks the 1st time i ever saw fog in davis... just went outside and *whoa*... felt like i was seeing right through smoke... when i picked up my pace to jog a bit around, it got my hair sorta wet. when you can't see something about 5 feet in front of your face, that's pretty bad.

stephan marbury with the layup to beat the clock and win the suns the game! oh man... heh heh... yao ming got a dunk!

anyways, the games area had this special today: $8 for use of all the facilities inside... for free. well, technically it's more like unlimited usage, but for me, if i could shell out extra money, i would be content playing VF on my laptop for a long time so i declined. besides, i don't wanna play Area 51 THAT bad.

am i pumped up for worship? oh yeah... but in what ways? expecting others to join in and show huge attitudes for christ? or expecting my college friends to play extremely well? well, it's more the fact that we are getting together to jam... i wouldn't care if we all sounded like whack... the fact that we get together is it. and our attitude. at least THAT'S what's supposed to count.

God bless david c. back at CTCC... he's helping out the youth, even though things look dire... ditto w/alice t. grace w. has a bit to work there though ;)

recently, everytime i turn on my laptop, all i think about is God and worship... heh heh... if this keeps up, i'm gonna suffer so badly in class ;)

matt redman- holy moment
tim hughes- jesus, you alone
10 shekel shirt- meet with me

^ roXoring worship songs

alright... must pull oneself away from laptop and study....

registering for classes is such a biatch. as is my time that i waste.

Tim Hughes/Paul Oakley- Jesus, You Alone... this worship song roXors! haha... i had to say it, somebody had to say it!

you can see a very distinct difference between the way youth/young college ppl write online to the young adults... take a look at how me and david write online, then take a look at bob, chris, reni, etc... they write so much more.

i had no idea ZhiZhi Wang was now on the Clippers... jon calls him useless, heh heh. well, at least he can inbound the ball ;)

time to hit the MU; my trigger finger's itchy...for those of you who don't know, that's the Memorial Union, the arcade/bowling/pool area on UC Davis(http://gamesarea.ucdavis.edu). it's not the best thing(i would totally prefer X-Cape in UCLA or SVGL), but at least Area 51 is 1 quarter with 5 lives. and besides, i'm pooped; i don't feel like writing the rest of tonight, except for maybe relearning some worship songs.

11.29.02... ARE YOU PUMPED? that's right kiddies, break out the distortion pedals, tune your fenders, tighten the snare drum, and test the reverb on the mikes... we are gonna jam all for God!

244--- <-- G power chord

i can't put anger, frustration, and rage into words, cause there's just no way; i might be able to describe it picturesquely though. so i'm just gonna make a footnote here that i still have a long way to work for what i want to become. some ppl just get on your nerves, and they don't even know it... and yeah, i DO hate the way i feel tonight.

i am a definite long shot from what you would consider to be chink. oh sure, i look asian, but my thoughts are anything but chink. aside from the notion of working hard.

is that all there is to life? just... material possessions, a partner, and children? seriously... how superficial can we get?

i see girls and fame
that's the game
rushing past to claim
anything but true wealth
i find it so hard
living the life you want me to live
this is the tart of life
when you're shallow
it never really gets sweet
and people stop there
never willing to go deep

have you tasted the bread of life?
have you found the truth of unchanges?
until you can open your eyes
i will always be miles above you

according to wes, there was an earthquake in his home about a while ago, mini one, a sway back and forth

FINALLY i finished organizing my winter quarter... i can go back to wandering in my mind.

snl: litter critters... that cracked me up for some time.

haha... thanx for the pics norm

can't wait til thanksgiving... so much to be thankful for...

so many empty promises... so many naive ppl... but i feel some of us are beginning to see the light... that gives me hope...

(referring to a church in berkeley)
mandy: it feels kinda weird though cuz everyone thinks im korean
mandy: cuz chang could be like a korean last name too
mandy: and well they just assume im korean
mandy: and this lady just like randomly started talking to me in korean in the bathroom
me: heh heh; maybe if you squinted your eyes and pushed them upward at the edges ;-)
mandy: HAHAHA
mandy: i know! i totally have chinky eyes, not gooky ones
mandy: aaaaah well

when's the last time someone AIM'd me FIRST? heh heh. and it just happened twice today. from 2 girls, both from CTCC.

if you have not discovered just how superficial this world has become and how much we've become trapped by this system... you don't know just how high i've become... not a single care in the world, and unlike the drug high, mine won't ever wear off... ever.

vacation recap:

this was overall a very nice veterans day weekend that i got, mainly above all that all us CTCC guys/gals got together in socal and just did stuff together. pretty much everyone farted too ;) hey, actually i STILL am! ucla's beans caught up to me, as well as all the meat i ate there. the worship cd we were listening to in the car was also very nice.

Notable stuff:

Friday:
car trip:
-a traffic jam plus me not wisely going to the bathroom when i got the chance meant that i had to so desperately go that we had to pull over on the side of the road while i jumped out, ran a couple of feet into brush and pee for 5 min(can anyone say a retreat repeat?)
-then there was the ever-famous dog incident: after the traffic jam cleared, we sped up, going around 80. the van on the right started slowing down, and right when we were about to pass them 2 large, bulky dogs ambled out slowly. jerm slammed on the brakes, but we still hit them insanely hard and rolled right over them. knocked out a fog light and bent the license plate. jerm was so distraught he wouldn't drive for the rest of the trip down.
-then we saw a buncha trash on a truck that looked so much like an elephant; jerm noticed it first.
-jon also ate most of jerm's onion rings
-jerm farted in the car
-jerm talked about fatsoburger. then he also forgot what tsai translated to in english.
-we had a really nice DEEP spiritual discussion in the car... something that we've not really delved into before.
-honestly, so much happened on the way TO riverside we wondered if we should just go home ;)
at riverside:
-the campus where norm rooms LOOKS SO NICE! it is really something.
-met neeraj... nice. turns out he rooms next to norman. also found out what's up with nik and vik.
-i joked to laura about Davis being the burmuda triangle of girls
-then there was the incident where jon looked like he was soiling himself
-woke up from listening to a conversation between norm and lydia; farted twice. went to sleep. woke up, farted twice more.

Saturday:
-went to tim's apartment building... very nice. we spent the time in there playing pool, watching snl, and later in tim's room playing cs, playing guitar, and doing some fantasy bball
-separating 2 fish from the crab in tim's room
-snl: "f is for friendship!" ;)
-"hey, look it's a bisexual bathroom!" (guys enter) ;) this cracked us up, which prompted lydia to say to laura; "c'mon laura join them; it's a bisexual bathroom!"
-then we thought about crowding the front of the elevator when it would open... only the OTHER door inside opened. heh heh.
-dinner at claim jumper was nice... norman ordered a kiddie dinner and said we should eat super(heh heh), and the waiter had a bet with tim, lydia, laura, and jerm that if they could finish a large meal, he would buy them a rack of ribs. but they felt too full to do so(besides, it would've killed jerm)
-i stepped in a crack between 2 matresses, and fell, which cracked us up a bit.
-played 2 on 1 cs against tim. was nice to know i got about 2-3 kills on him... which is so rare, considering how many times i got raped.
-@tap: laura told jerm to get her honeydew; jerm ordered "honeything" ?!? heh heh.

Sunday:
-this was the fun day... though we didn't do too much, we had a LOTTA good laughs and fun times.
-woke up, and sat on jerm to fart on him.
-went to NewSong church... dang; too much ahead of us! i dunno where to say they are hype or help. cause they have a full worship band(they go as far as to have a special soundbooth for the drummer, have special camera angles and transparencies, and sometimes do body worship.), but a really good speaker who is brief, but used a passage for his message. you get a comfortable, casual feeling going there. feels very hi-tech too. however, at times you wonder if they're so big that they forget to concentrate on fellowship(i can't say for sure cause i of course only went there for sunday). and at times you get a feeling of pride of this church over other churches; the point is to be together as christians, not inside of a church.
-then we had lunch w/paul. that was nice. discovered tuffy almost diarrhea'd all over isabel. and that norm's dog tried DIVING into eating crap. then mike told us why he hated greens... cause they're greens ;)
-laura was right... so many stairs at ucla. the dorm food's really good though; so much variety, and very good. now i understand what the hell laura means in her away messages when she sez "puzzles." hah; we spent some of the time passing around burgers turns out we also saw janet(goes to ucsd) and her friends. their curfew system is VERY strict though. it was hard as heck trying to get in. i'm getting the feeling that it's really how the attitude that you use to approach a college, not the college itself; at the dinner we all realized that there wasn't really anything good within walking distance of any of the uc's. so, in all reality, laura's having the most fun because she's the one who's actually going out making friends.
-saw both of the ucla girls' dorms. they're nice. but crowded.
-some rocky jokes... norm and mike raced up the long set of stairs, then were too tired to walk ;)
-played bball with a pink WNBA bball; heh heh. it was so weird, all of us were missing shots we would've normally made(something to do with the weight and ridges of the bball). got a couple of my single-handed weird hook shots in. got a couple of blocks in too. the ucla outside bball court looks weird; like a modified tennis court.
-you can hear EVERYTHING coming from the bathroom in the building that laura lives in. heard norm dropping his "black child" heh heh.
-hah hah... then there was the incident where norman was trying to look at his boxers by pulling down his gym shorts to see if he DID crap in his pants(it had first emerged when he was talking about holding in his crap til it would come naturally) and then this ucla girl comes around looking hecka shocked at norm while all of us were cracking up like crazy.
-at ucla, we closed the elevator, then rang the emergency bell and norm and mike proceeded to box each other out ;) that was funny
-when we went to santa monica, we just walked around(laura brought up the idea that it would be tight if i had my guitar with me), then we ended up at this mini carnival, so we just spent a few minutes playing some of the games. we didn't make the bball game AT ALL; 0/7. which blew, considering all of us guys tried; ALL of us. hah hah. there was some cracks about the games at that too. like the bball game, and the ladder game. tim gave jerm 10 cents so he could view the weird "back to nature" machine, which cracked him and us up. also mike got the weird toy. i would've played some of the shooting games, but didn't have enough chen. and we saw birdies(or should i say lil duckies, heh heh) trying to run into, then away from the nearby ocean tide.
-showering together w/jerm and tim; too funny. gave both of them a high-five(actually, since of my height, it was hard for tim to give me a high five, and i had to give jerm a low-five), and we shoved soap back and forth under the stalls. jerm tried peeing towards the entrance, and found out it goes through the stall. we also got a butt massage from the shower.
-then there was the incident where we turned off the lights to go to sleep in the study room... then jerm shrieked like crazy after seeing the 2 glow-in-the-dark figures. i quipped that it was lucky that me and sam didn't have our lenses on at the the moment(high-5). heh; he hyperventilated for quite some time.

Monday:
-woke up, and countered jerm's fart. then jon farted on norman.
-bid farewell.... did the socal farewell with i think norman and/or sam, i think maybe hugged norm, but me and laura high-5'd; guess she isn't as socal as we think; there's still hope; we haven't lost her yet ;)

that's it... all in all, it was just fun hanging out with the socal girls this weekend. would've been cool if we had deep conversations more often though. i know it's about that time. augh, can't wait for thanksgiving, then we can jam with god. brought up the subject will all who can help, and they seemed to be willing. that's cool; i'm looking forward to an awesome thanksgiving friday.

but for now, i need to quit... stuff to do... grr