know what sucks? i had to log off just when all my friends were starting to log on... i bet wes would've logged on later. but then, i had to remind myself... which do i value more? God or my friends? i can talk to my friends a couple of times, but my 1st goal should be to get closer to God. hence, going to church. besides, i gotta look at it this way... i can talk to them all i want when we all get to heaven :)

if you're reading this david before sunday, good luck with the fundraising on sunday... i know you guys can do it.

btw, i just realized i'm going sockless this weekend... yes that was a pun, and is true the other way... see if you can figure out what i'm talking about :)

at least my jerseys aren't in the dryer cause i'm going indian :)

ooooh SIIIIICCCCCKKKK!!!! jrich pulled off a alley-oop to self under-the-legs, reverse 1-handed dunk! sick, sick sick!!!! he won!

i got a papercut late last night on my ring finger right at the 1st joint leading out to the end. it's annoying, but the more i think about its parallels to college life, the more i have to say that college is seriously like a papercut; it will hurt, a lot will think it hurts like crazy(much like a papercut), but it is minor in reality, and does very little damage to you... clench your fist, rise up to the occasion, take it in, and you will beat it. stop moaning about its pains and just come right at it head on and never let up. that's the way to survive. and the parallel way you clench your fist is to lean hard on God.

i have to tell about this CS incident i had cause it's pretty funny. basically, I was a counter-terrorist, and headed into a room(aztec, through the double doors if any of you reading this are CS fanatics). late in the round, and i see two terrorists with magnum sniper rifles behind a box, sorta like this:

(corner)
_[xxxx]
T[box_]
T[xxxx]


CT<-(me)

and they're looking perpendicular to me... so they're not seeing me at all. i take the chance and gun both down with my assault rifle. then i turn my back... and get shot by another terrorist who was ALSO behind that box! that was pretty funny the more i thought about it... having 3 snipers huddled all behind 1 box...

there's another incident, not as funny, but made me feel good inside. i had the ak47 as a terrorist, and this was on the dust map. so i'm approaching a tunnel, and sit just slightly outside waiting for the counter-terrorists to show themselves so i could shoot them. so they come out... but instead of rushing well together, they go 1 by 1, with a huge break in-between... so i just started getting all these kills by popping out, shooting, then hiding, rinse and repeat... i got killed by the 4th opponent, but it was hecka cool watching the "kill-detector" on the upper-right corner announcing "ReCharredSigh kills 'name' ", "ReCharredSigh kills 'name2' ", "ReCharredSigh kills 'name3' ", "'name4' kills ReCharredSigh "... all in a row w/o anyone killing anyone else during then... then right afterward one of the guys on the counter-terrorists started dissing his team, going, "why do you CTs keep rushing when we've been losing because of that?" (i think the teams were 5 on 5, so i had severely weakened their team at one go) heh heh :) i have done more damage in other rounds, but here it was cool because the guy apparent got pissed cause his team was losing so bad cause they were rushing, thus indirectly crediting me with their loss :)

oh yeah, i never wrote this down; the DC served kim chee(like real, actual kim chee) yesterday... when's that happened? like actual, authentic azn food at the Davis Cafeteria? most of the time what they serve is weak sauce. while i don't complain about the food i eat at the DC(i'm happy to eat decent food), i have to admit, a lot of times what they try to make is a far cry from what they say the thing is. for instance, since when are won tons made by frying them, so the outside's got a corn tortilla texture?

mandy keeps changing her aim screen name spacing... at times it's just annoying me, but she's bored. eh...

i hate myself... i took notes on how to do the calculations of this one lab, and now i can't decipher what the heck i wrote! i dunno what i wrote means! (ok, so the lab's not due til next week, but it's still pissing me off)... ok, back to work.

damnit... mustard seed ministry didn't seem to want to meet today or maybe they just wanted to meet elsewhere... i tried to go to their fellowship, but literally no one was in the lecture hall when i got there. by then i was just kinda annoyed about it so i just said "screw this" and headed right back to my dorm without going to ABSK or AACF... maybe i'll just stick with one of the two... i haven't even stuck around long enough with either to be able to make a sound judgment.

however, perhaps the main reason why i decided to stay at UCD over the weekend even when jon was going home was so that i could attend church in davis on sunday. we have been to exactly 1 church 1 time out of, well, the start of the school year. i want to change that. i remember george telling me how being a christian isn't just about you and God, it's about daily meeting with other christians to help each other and support each other. that's why i'm sticking here. i mean, i don't even really know of any christians on this campus besides the ones i met in high school.

found this one website advertised at UC Davis in the MU area... check it out on the left... it'll enable you to search for clubs on UCD campus... maybe that'll make my fellowship looking a lot easier.

'k, i'm gonna study the word tonight. i need to think about worship again, as well as other God-related stuff. silence isn't always treasurable, but tonight i'm gonna make it that way.

NBA all-star weekend's this well, weekend... excited? i am. T-Mac, Yao Ming, KG and MJ better be lighting it up.

more to add later, when i have more time and ideas of what to talk about.

this is gonna be a good weekend... i WILL go to church in Davis... i'm serious about this. even if i have to run. then go back and watch the all-star stuff while doing some work.

tetris challenged eh, mandy? i'd rather work on my puzzle fighter skills. game's not as balanced, but it's a lot more complex. and fun.

Philosophy of Biology teacher's not exactly that good... said he was gonna post the next paper topic online by feb 5, and I DON'T SEE IT! (the only reason why i'm still taking this class is cause i can't drop it by now and so far i've been doing good; at least the TA makes us think; wasn't the point of philosophy to think creatively, instead of just listening to dumb-ass lectures and all?)

i never learn from my mistakes... why, oh why?

lesse, i think i'll go eat after my last class, then some work(thinking chem lab, maybe some math hw), worship, maybe jump program? then eat, fellowship, shower, turn in for the night.... i think i'll go w/that.

(comment concerning my song)

"i finally got to listen to it.. MAD SKILLLLLSSS!!!!!!


<3,
mandy"

haha... nice... thanks.

me: hey jerm
jerm: sup
me: can you do me a favor?
jerm: sure.. que es?
me: fill out a survey for me... won't take too long... it's for my language and identity class
me: after you're done, just save the file i'm gonna send over and just send it back
jerm: k
jerm: k
(ReCharred) wants to send file C:\Documents and Settings\ReCharred_Sigh\My Documents\Work-related material\Survey.txt.
(jerm) received C:\Documents and Settings\ReCharred_Sigh\My Documents\Work-related material\Survey.txt.
jerm: darnit
jerm: i got #1 wrong already hehe
me: haha
jerm: i answered. england
me: were you checking to see whether you were right? :-)
me: it's a survey, it really doesn't matter
me: if you want i can explain what i would've said after you finish
me: since you don't have to put your name on it, it's not like everyone at UCD's gonna go, "oh, this here (jerm)'s such a joke"
jerm: lol.. well it said in the US but i said england
jerm: and englands not a state
me: oh, haha

jerm: does Chinglish cou(n)t as a language?
heh heh heh heh

*gasp* y'kno that MV girl who went to christian club at MVHS with me, but we didn't know each other's names? she called me by my first name! (actually, i knew her name the whole name, just that i didn't wanna call her by her name if she didn't know mine) i guess that means next time we meet i have to call her by her name! (if you listen closely i almost never refer to others by their name unless if i'm REALLY comfortable talking around them in person, i dunno if i should stop this, it's just part of what i am) geez, i sound like the biggest loser in the world :)

i think around 1:00 PM me and jon watched some nba short documentary on the '97 Bulls... it was neat, but i wondered if maybe they should've did the documentary on the '98 Bulls, cause that was the one which Jordan hit the outside shot at crunch time in the Delta Center, winning the championship for the Bulls. it's all good though... ykno now i wish i had recorded all the final matchups with the Bulls Vs. Jazz and vise versa on tape... back then i was too young to really comprehend how bball was, i just thought it was a buncha dunking and 3-pt shots. i would LOVE to watch how the young MJ played defense and offense. i mean, he WAS the best bball player, so why not learn watching how he played? some of the clips they showed of him were just sick... goes under the rim with three guys on him and lays up on the other side. or the other where he pulls up at the rim, a guy gets in his face, he manages to pivot his entire body about 90 degrees in the air and make a short-range shot on the other side... sick. and some of his assists.

btw, watching that documentary got me thinking, wouldn't it be funny to have a short documentary on a team on olympic curling? how funny would that be? think: slow mo, up-close shot of broom sweeping in front of the stone... dramatic voice: would the US rise to the occasion? or would they just slick off like last winter olympics? they had been defeated by Germany before, now the game was in Atlanta, home court advantage... etc. just thinking about that got me a huge laugh.

k, i'm going... gonna eat, then some studying, maybe some guitar, then relax for the night. i'm making up for the fact that i got a larger callus on my left thumb doing quarter circle forward motions than i got playing guitar yesterday. God, please give me inspiration when i play; it's perhaps the best way i have of worshipping you. maybe i should dedicate my guitar time to God before each session?

brought my late sleep timing on myself again... it's 1:18 AM and i haven't gone to sleep yet... that's bad for myself... the plus side is that i have only 1 class, which i prob don't even need to go to... the problem is, will i get up extremely late again and waste my time? i pray not...

the only ppl on my AIM buddy list right now who are up are the socal girls... "Sleepless in LA" i bet... prob not the case next morning though

bored? wanna sample full-length tracks to Sanctus Real? click here

sanctus real-say it loud... hits stores feb 11...
twelve stones- self-titled album... already out
spot rock tour- features sanctus real(!), relient k, john reuben, superchick, pillar... a whole bunch of christian bands which are high quality... damnit it's going on everywhere except Davis.

i almost forgot sanctus real is still a punk rock band... it's only after trying to play their songs that i realized that you essentially need the same 4 power chords for each song... it still sounds better than a majority of the other stuff out there.

i can't remember the last time i had this much time to do whatever i wanted in UCD, but here it is, and jon's not in the room... i'm busting out my guitar and worshipping you God... thank you for setting this time up for me, i really appreciate it.

i'm such a fool...

i'm here thinking that jon brought his own troubles upon himself, then God sarcastically told me ,"what type of christian friend are you?" that got me thinking, "oh no... I haven't been sharing the reason why i find joy in christ to him" well, i praise you God for that thought... i will take it upon myself to be more vocal about my joy in you... maybe it'll spread to him... maybe i'll get more thoughts from you like this if i just spent more time in QT more often.

i love Sanctus Real and 12 Stones so much now... did i say that before? yeah, i did huh... oh well... i like too many of their songs, which means only one thing... i am going to buy their CDs... bob, if i find out i don't like the rest of the CD songs, i'll donate it to the church... or we could just chip in together and buy a new Sanctus Real CD... i would compare them to Relient K, but richer in sound... they even got some awards once according to data on their website. and it's prob very cheap, like $10(i remember from last time that 12 Stones was $12) i should bust out my guitar and play their songs... such encouraging words.

i can't remember the last time i liked secular rock... almost all the rock songs that i'm liking now concentrate on God... and that's a good thing... screw the secular world for not opening their eyes to what is definitely beautiful music. seriously, i can't remember the very first time that i went back to cupertino, flipped to 104.9 or 105.3 and got fed up with what i was hearing.

i feel so joyful today... got my math hw done early... and awesome christian rock is filling my ears at the moment... meanwhile jon's knocked out... again... not gonna bust out my guitar just yet out of courtesy(and playing w/headphones would be difficult to appreciate).

i didn't really get a lot of time to do some bible study tonight, so i just looked at one-two verses and pondered them... while listening to sanctus real- audience of one, i came across:

I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonders. I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High. -Psalm 9:1-2

"it's time to turn this thing around... you and i will be alright, if there's nothing more to come... cause the more i know i sing tonight for an audience of one" went the song...

how true... yeah God, I want that to be instilled on my heart, that i might constantly praise God, tell of your wonders, be glad, rejoice in you, and sing tonight to an audience of one... you alone...

it's gonna be a great day... screw what the others around me always think

letting the christian rock spirit in me loose...

the more i listen to songs from Sanctus Real- Say It Loud(that's their album name) and 12 Stones' self-titled album the more i wanna buy both... sanctus is some of the best punk rock i've ever heard for christian rock, 12 stones is one of the best hard rock bands EVER, not to mention they're christian... i'm serious. btw, one of 12 Stones' songs is going to be on the Daredevil soundtrack i think it was ... maybe this'll be their big break?

some new discovered Sanctus Real songs that i really like:
Audience of One(good in and out, prob my fave Sanctus Real song next to Say It Loud)
Sink Or Swim(good in the middle)
Captain's Chair
you can hear the full-length tracks at www.sanctusreal.com

me: so what have you been doing?
mandy: playing too much
mandy: hehe
mandy: so today was kinda a sit down and read/study/hw day
mandy: as is tomorrow
me: sounds un-berkeleyish
mandy: haha
mandy: i know
mandy: horrible
mandy: HORRIBLE!

everytime i hear a really good christian punk rock song it makes me wish there was a bassist and drummer in UCD that were as passionate for creating praise songs for God by jamming... maybe i'm just not looking hard enough.... but then again, i dunno how and where to start. mandy suggests ABSK, so i'll think of that.

pitiful... that some may find college to be desolate... you just don't know where and how to find joy, do you?

i was originally gonna try reading for my philosophy of biology class, until i found out i would need to cover 70 pages before tomorrow... aack! at that rate, i'll just skim some here and there and take good notes at the lecture instead!

www.thexstation.com... it's a christian rock station... i'll look into it later... right now i gotta type...

grr... wut crap... my site won't update... this is a test... if this pops up... then my site will have been updated once again, if not, then maybe blogspots DO have a limit...

i was bored, so i reorganized the left section of my site... check it out, should be a bit easier to navigate now... i was gonna put something down for real name, expertise, and hobbies like those guys using xanga, but i figured it's useless... you can honestly already figure out what i like by what i listed on the left and as for real name... heh heh.

i feel so bad... our electrodes for our chem lab experiment wouldn't function, so the TA suggested just joining another group... all both of us did was copy notes... felt like i've done no work and got data for free... like i just mooched off of someone... oh well, it'll rub off.

...back to studies...

... wut crap...

why does some of the songs playing on air1 sound so much better than when i dl them for sampling?

here's the two that concern me:
Jeremy Camp- Understand(album: stay)
Paul Coleman Trio- Run(album: new map of the world)

understand sounds like 3 doors down(slightly), run just sounds tight... BUT! dl them and they sound SOOO SLOW!

(a few minutes later)

you can screw what i said about jeremy camp- understand, i found the song i was looking for... damn my mouth for opening before my brain operates

# of ppl i know who use xanga to post thoughts... maybe 5-6?
# of ppl i know who use blogspot to post thoughts... maybe 2

yeah... that's just some random thing i realized...

# of ppl who just type short and sweet on their thinking sites... maybe 2(3 if you count me)

instead of having a drudgery attitude towards work and then having an urgent attitude towards computer gaming, perhaps i turn that around and have an urgent attitude about work and worship first? i mean, if i really want to get it done, perhaps i just set it as my first priority?

someone from CTCC please keep me accountable... i wanna do this 9:00 rule on myself for real... and also try to really get into church @UCD... if you don't know what i'm talking about ask, and if you do good... pray for that.

mandy's got a xanga site going on... interesting... one more girl to see how she talks on an online journal... most girls' online journals just RAMBLE on and on... i'll put it on my site later if i am interested.

can you believe that chem lab carbon copy notebooks will only last you through part of 2nd quarter? geez, gotta buy another one.

d.c.short,c.fierce/\sj.jab,sj.short,sj.up.forward,strong air throw,air shinkuu hadoken... the shiznit reset air combo for XvSF Ryu... it's too good... 1/2 a bar of life gone right there(you can do a similar kickass combo w/Sabretooth, except do sj.strong instead of sj.up.forward, and Berzerker Claw X instead of air shinkuu hadoken)
also, my other fave combo of the game:
d.c.short,c.forward,c.fierce-->spin drive smasher,c.short(OTG),s.roundhouse/\sj.jab,sj.short,sj.strong-->cannon drill w/ XvSF Cammy... also 1/2 life... if you can do it in the corner