kinda bummed that the see spot rock tour will swing around la and anaheim, but will not visit davis, sac, or at the very least, nor cal... i don't care about the adoration tour at uc davis(newsboys, audio a, jeremy camp)

ykno, if duncan was just one tenth of a second earlier on that clutch dunk against the painful loss at the bucks, it would've made the top ten at nba.com(really, really, too bad for the spurs)... but instead we gotta settle for redd's shake and bake of horry and duncan for the clutch layup; (but in all honesty)give credit where it's due; that was an awesome play...

had a little scare... had a problem with my graphics driver which caused the cpu to freeze and had to restart... downloaded latest graphics driver... installed... restarted... and couldn't get my cpu to go into windows normally... rinse and repeat that last step until i was debating whether to throw my laptop on the ground in frustration... calmed down... started windows using the last config... downloaded the latest graphics controller... restarted and prayed HARD... my cpu's normal again... thank god... man, all that time wasted that i could've studied before i went to my bio lab... or played tfc... well, that's gonna have to pass... i should go eat instead... then i'd have 2 good hours to cram-errr, study...

i was tired, and add to that that my bio instructor dimmed the lights for the slideshow, and the chairs in soc sci 1100 are COMFY(fabric, not wood backs)... zzzzz... thank god he let you print out the lectures online, but still... i mightve missed a LOTTA details...

i've been hating myself lately... i lack discipline... dunno when to say no...

man, can you believe that oreos are considered kosher?(i'm saying this in a skeptical way, not a hopeful way) don't believe me? go pick up an oreos package and look for a small circle with a capital U in the middle. i remember hearing this in my food science class, and didn't believe it, til i saw it today... it's like saying donuts are good for you or something... you'd think with the hydrogenation done to it that it's supposedly "clean"? and i thought hebrew national hot dogs were supposed to be good... now i'm reevaluating... no wonder jesus said it's not what goes into your mouth that makes you unclean... he mustve predicted the day that we'd call oreos kosher... it's like the atkins diet... i'm disgusted with that diet idea as well...

speaking of atkins diet, from a biological standpoint, i can see the reason why you'd lose weight on it; there are 3 forms of energy that humans use; carbohydrates, proteins, and lipids(fats)... carbs are most readily available, so they're used up first... then proteins, then lipids, which take a long time to digest and to finally be used... lipids provide the most energy per matter, but they never get used, cause yeah... so by taking away the carbs as a source of energy, you start using the proteins and fats in your body you never use... and thus lose weight by actually getting around to using the fats... this is good in the short term, but bad in the long term... why? because you don't consume grains just for the carbs... you consume them for the nutrients they provide... there's a reason you have to ingest vitamins and minerals; to stay healthy... the 3 energy things provide your energy, but the vitamins and minerals are the little things that enable you to stay running... sorta like just feeding your car gas, but not giving it tune-ups, replacing used parts etc... the gas is obviously the main thing, but it's not the only thing... all those guys on the atkins diet are going to suffer long-term effects from various diets that require fiber and the like...

i love how kj-52 addressed the fact that some people think he wrote "dear slim" just to make some money and diss eminem:

“Come on, I do Christian rap. I live in a one-bedroom apartment and drive a beat-up mini van. How much money am I going to make? People download the song [from my Web site] anyway.

… the response I’ve gotten from people saying how much the song changed their lives, to me that was the bigger picture.”

(taken from http://calvinfreitas.f2o.org/blog/archives/2003/07/30/kj52_followup.php)

think you should get rid of christian hip-hop and rock? apparently the ol skoolers don't realize the kids who worship eminem sometimes have heard kj's song and turned their ways around...

found an article on how to bunny hop in tfc... will try some this weekend, provided i'm done studying for bio and rewriting my paper...

i'm liking what i'm hearing from the samples of kj-52's latest album, "pronounced five-two"... man, all these christian cds i'm coveting all of a sudden... waiting for the summer releases of sanctus real, 12 stones, maybe pillar, and now kj-52...

"the hour of the star" is such a weird book... a fiction about a narrator writing about a story about a poor girl, who is just weird and doesn't get it, but is so happy... it's about time i saw that a person wrote a book about a poor person STAYING poor... i think the author tries to make you feel all sorts of things inside from this book; frustration at the poor girl for not getting why she's a loner, but sympathetic because, her background led up to this... ring any bells? (bob, remember the celebration of discipline reference?)

had a little internal clash in my head when i was trying to get up or decide to stay down in my bed(i already missed the bus, if i wanted to get up to run to school, i'd still be late)... no, i wasn't muttering out loud...
optimist side: cmon, get up
pessimist side: what's the use? i'm gonna miss most of class
optimist side: any part of class lecture is still good for you
pessimist side: why? i feel like i've done so many stupid mistakes so far in college; why the hell should i go on at all?
optimist side: that's why god forgave you
pessimist side: i know i'm just gonna sin again; waste my oppurtunities; god's giving me second chances, only to see me blow them away
optimist side: god only gives second chances to people who are willing to try, now GET THE HELL UP!
(that did it and got me up)

so as i was trying to quickly walk to school, i mulled over what my optimist side had said... the very last thing... about god only giving second chances to people who are willing to try... isn't that the truth? thanks for the lesson god, and DON'T LET ME EVER FORGET IT