managed to kill 4 in a row w/no hs in iceworld using a bullpup in one round, and survived for the next one... nice. got the most disruptive and best score award for that round too. i saved a pic, but it got messed up, so this is probably the only validation of that thought. crazy how i just scoped one after the other sniping them out.

non-linguists must be so annoyed at the creation of the internet... it's made the written english language look so informal and like, bad. :)

come back, do some study and work on my 2 papers, buy some recording equipment, start jump program, etc... it's all one big blur. it'll be fun though.

life is one big mystery... those who rush through it are told to slow down... those who take it easy are told to go faster and be adventurous... what ppl want you to do is be plain :) but for me, my entire life's satisfaction lies with God; as long as i'm awestruck/content, i am totally ok with life.

has anyone else noticed how a relationship with God causes you to be even more awestruck at the simplest things he creates or gives to you? or what he is? or are all you just sad and depressed people? i can't remember the last time i started liking rain/wind/fog, and yet here i am giving praise to God for it. i can't remember the last time i relished solitude, but here am i liking it more and more.

anyways, i'll write later... my mind's sorta blank right now.

according to jon, the new CS mod file comes out today, so i'm expecting internet connections at Davis to be slower than usual. sometime it will occur, given the mod's prob about 100+ MB in size, and how many youth guys play CS.

i'll mainly be concerned with studying though, so no worries, well, maybe... if they're still dling at night, the time when i'm supposed to be free.

around 10:30 PM, 1/16/03:

INSPIRATION(big, wide ass grin spreading over my mind right now)...

sometimes the lyrics and melody you just wanna get out come to you at the weirdest of times. it's too bad that i don't remember exactly what i thought up(or for that matter God told me), but the important thing for me was that i got the chorus down. it was surprisingly easy to think up. it's gonna be fun recording and writing down this worship song that was stuck in my head. it's gonna be very fun. just that i won't start actually recording

now i know what is necessary for writing a good worship song; the lyrics just need to apply to everyone. so lay off freestyling, or talking about davis, or talking about guitar or bass or stuff, and concentrate on what a congregation would think. it's that simple. i can't believe i didn't think of that. also, don't get too showy with the instruments when you're singing, though you have tiny breaks to do that.

think i know what i need to buy now:

http://www.hosatech.com/product_page_insert.html
http://www.amusicdirect.com/products/detail.asp?sku=AGRAMINCAB

something like that. it's all good.

it's late... write more tomorrow

super puzzle fighter 2 turbo is SO FRIGGIN fun! well, if you have the credits to play enough of it to get better at it.

how do you guys control your time?

i... will... not... be... overwhelmed... by... the... pressures... of... college... life... because... i... am... totally... above... this!

btw, can anyone tell me what separates a christian rock song from a contemporary worship song? because i want to create a latter one, but dunno what separates them. supposedly it's easier to play/sing and follow along as a congregation, but what about the lyrics and the melody? any help here?

me: damn! 1st 2 times i've gotten a multi-kill!
sam: thats cool
sam: yea i saw you nail like...4 guys in the 1st or 2nd round
me: haha
sam: and i was followin gyou running
sam: and i just saw you shoot
sam: and then your name pops up on the top
me: haha
sam: and then shoot some more

... aw shoot i log in and forget what i was gonna type... oh yeah, it's coming back to me:

NINERS LOSE TO BUCCANEERS! so sad. all i can do now is root for Raiders.

Jon's recently been losing faith(well, not falling away, it's more like losing motivation to soak up life) and hope in Davis... he gets up SO late now, and always goes to bed when he's not doing stuff, even reluctant to do work... another lost christian in college, who lost true happiness... have faith man, have faith...

strange how we never really realize how talking's louder than singing... ditto w/me... until you start freestyling then mixing it with some vocals and go "waitaminute... my rapping totally overpowers my singing!" maybe i'll just have to scream-sing my lyrics :)
in any case God hears ya... don't matter how you worship God, just that you do it with all your heart and concentrating solely on him. "but God, i would truly like a drum set to back me up :)"

i WILL figure out the chords to Psalm 23 by the end of this week! i WILL! which indirectly means i WILL worship this week... it is such a tight worship song when played fast... kinda short though...

must get scholarship form filled out by this week! i procrastinate about it like... like... oh who am i kidding... like myself.

will start jump program soon... MUST start that soon.

you'll never take away my inner contentment... you'll never take away my joy... it's like kj-52 said, happiness lasts only a bit, but joy will always last forever(oh yeah he sounds totally black when he talks, whereas he's more eminem-ish when he freestyles)

i'm out... no really i am...

Today's sermon @harvest.org... here's the notes that I took:

He Believed
-Genesis 12-13

4 steps of ceramics:
-deciding which clay to use
-taking apart the clay, cutting it
-molding the clay
-baking the clay, displaying us

examples:
-Abraham
-Gideon
-Joshua

God wants to bless you, but you have to be willing to change

God detaches yourself from the world
-think of what Abraham had to do to get close to God
-it was BY FAITH that Abraham made his home as an alien in the promised land

God has to develop us
-we have to be tested
-when Abraham didn't trust God, it led to trouble, such as when he travelled down to Egypt
-God doesn't allow things to happen to you without his consent
-Believe means to: trust in, rely on, cling to

God displays us
-Gen 13: Ppl want to do what they wanted first, so Lot instead of being subservient chose first instead of putting his faith in God, and what satisfied his own flesh ended up destroying him
-Lust-> Sin-> Death
-God will give those who follow him EVERYTHING

i don't think that Psalm 23 song me and jon heard at "college life" was a "college life" specific song; Everyone @harvest.org just played that exact same song today, except slightly slower, take a look at the lyrics(i will listen back sometime later this week and figure out the chords):

Psalm 23
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You prepare a table before me
In the presence of my enemies
You anoint my head with oil
And my cup it overflows
With love, peace and joy
With love, peace and joy

Surely goodness and mercy and follow me
All the days of my life,
All the days of my life
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever, forever, forever, amen
Forever, forever, forever, amen

also, it was sweet listening to Everything That Has Breath with a loud bass guitar backup... and good, loud drumming, this is what i miss so much about doing worship solo.