Saturday, October 19, 2002

thank God it's over! 1st midterm over! and not only that, i have a REALLY GOOD FEELING that i did well... thanks a lot God, i owe you one...actually, i owe you more than a couple ;)

jon went to berzerkeley to visit some friends, while i'm still stuck here in davis doin my own thing... how boring of me. but then most of the ppl from MVHS who went to berzerkeley are nerds, ppl who i wouldn't care about. so desolate on saturday here in davis.

what i think so far of the fellowships i've gone to:

College Life: well-intentioned, great worship band, friendly, but possibly over-friendly(they literally won't leave you alone)
ABSK: just-right friendly, good speaker, but a bit large, and i still don't know about how well their worship is
AACF: think CTCC size... somewhat friendly, good worship attitude, but they didn't really talk to me, aside from the get-together times and this one girl who was a bible study leader... ahhh, feels just like CTCC youth group when i was a freshman... heh heh.

i think my song's lyrics need tweaking... figures, you can't figure out the lyrics and expect ALL good guitar fills to go along with it.

Giants: 1 game, Angels: 0

btw, while i was walking around today in davis, i noticed some recycle trash can with a small hole in it: on the top, a label: "cans, ass, plastic." ok, so the ass was really glass, with the gl part off, but it was so funny to me... think about it... small hole, etc. made me crack up for a good 15 sec while no one was luckily around... how childish of me.

Thursday, October 17, 2002

yeaaaa.... 1 last test, and it's math! study? are you kidding? i could fall asleep in that class and still do ok(which i do often, heh heh)!

you won't believe the free stuff you get from on-campus christian groups; what i've gotten so far... 4 new testaments(i've been running past the gideons guys for about 2+ times, and got a paperback one(!?!) from an on-campus christian fellowship), "The Case For Christ" by Lee Strobel, 3 christian CDs(2 are multimedia, one is a sample of an underground music group, one is a "witness CD" and the last one is a collection of some of the common christian artists), a weird yoyo, a drawstring mesh bag, tons of candy/munchies, and 2 free dinners.

steak dinner yesterday... great.

phil hartman's hilarious, so are peter and stewie griffin.

one man pretends to be rich, yet has nothing; another pretends to be poor, yet has great wealth -proverbs 13:7
the fear of the lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding - proverbs 9:10

Wednesday, October 16, 2002

chorus, delay, or phase pedal?
(after looking at the online prices, i am so freaking shocked; ~$100/pedal?!? ack; worship isn't true worship unless you sacrifice something, but oh man...)

paper down, 2 tests to go this week; i feel a trip to the library coming... today. and i need scantrons.

haha... snl... w/phil hartman(his voice's so funny when he's trying to act funny)
-may i introduce you to the classic b**ch electric shaver... but when i say classic b**ch, i mean it in a good way! it not only shaves, it pulls and tangles your hair up... or you can get the classic lesbo electric shaver!
mwhahahahahah! ;)

in SAS1, we were discussing environmental problems as well the current UC strike going on and one guy brought up the thought of "what can we do to help? i dunno where to start." and i replied, "well, we can do either big or small actions." we don't need to do anything big; there are ppl who choose to picket, but we can just do everyday small decisions, like actually eating all the food that's placed on our plate, instead of throwing some away. it doesn't matter whether the actions are big or small, they'll add up, and make a difference. just like how we can't see the difference our misdeeds make in the short term, ditto with our good deeds; we might not even be able to see the fruits of our labor in our lifetime. but it all makes a difference. and who cares really how the other countries act towards us when they don't realize that we HAVE helped? do hungry ppl need to really know where food is coming from?
and that's how i view our ministry of christianity; we don't need to get on the streets and preach to make a difference; the way we live our lives, the kindness we show to others, the gratitude we give, it all adds up. we may not see the fruits of our labor in our lifetime, we may even get insulted and falsely accused for not helping others, but do the hungry really need to know who helped them, as long as someone from God brought them back to him? do they?
(maybe SAS1 IS interesting... still a lotta work though, but i'm getting there)

guess how many free pocket bibles i've gotten from gideons international at davis so far ;) come back to me with an answer

http://www.lpfan.com/main.php3?page=video; currently like looking at the Linkin Park live videos of:
Conan: 1 step closer
House of Blues: Papercut
House of Blues: Pushing Me Away

Tuesday, October 15, 2002

i've been meaning to say this for a long time, so lemme just get it off my chest:
as far as i can tell; FIRST-BORNS HAVE ALWAYS GOT IT BETTER THAN THE SECOND-BORNS. there, i said it. and you can see it, even today in our beloved CTCC church. for the most part, it's been true. daniel goes to berkeley, mike goes to some community college. joyce goes to davis, sam goes to santa barbara. laura goes to UCLA, jen... i dunno what she's going to get into. grace goes to berkeley, lydia goes to UCLA(marginal here, and arguable, but based on college prestige, yeah, it works). dan goes to berkeley, mandy also goes, but has to start later in the school year. joyce goes to UCLA, carolyn doesn't get into UCLA, but goes to berkeley(now i'm basing it on the fact that she didn't make her 1st choice school). jon goes to davis, lewis goes to... i dunno. and not to exclude me, my AWESOME bro phil goes to UCLA, i get into davis. of course, there's probably going to be differences once in a while(like maybe jerm and his sister, or grace and norman, wes and steph, justin and calvin's a push), but not many times i think. you 1st borns always get it easier; be glad if you're 1st born. ;)
(except for the two albinos Nikhil and Vikas; both of them go to riverside, but they're all cool)

go look at my 10/13/2K2 entry to see my praise to God; i gotta figure out how to play this rant with an electric strat sometime, but i think i'll need to toy around with my flanger. will i need a phase, reverb/delay or chorus pedal? or another AC adapter? i hope not as that means i'll have to shell out even more bringbring. tempting though.

alright; i'm out. been a hectic day of writing, writing, typing, more writing. but yet, i feel that something's been carrying me through, like something "saw me and called me 'gain, pulled me up now i find what it takes to float," to quote myself ;)

Sunday, October 13, 2002

final lyrics to my new christian rock song:

Unknown to the world
(the fat of this based upon Proverbs 9:10)

-ReCharredSigh

(everything is rushing right over my head
drowning down right in a pool of thoughts
not swimming just sinking trapped down
in a world of shallowness
now, inside this world knowledge is power
but you saw me and called me 'gain
pulled me up now i find what it takes to float
and i can say)

doom crowds near
word penetrates the filth
unknown to the world
are the secrets you show me
this gives me strength
the fact that i know you
(lost my wealth
kept my hide
they can't take away my faith
only ruin my pride)
the fact that i can rise

(like a flame that consumes inside me again
flaming warmth setting fire so to mend
the spirit of one who loves the weary
his patience lasting for all
they will never extinguish out this gift
the burning for you the warmness of bliss
fearing you now my wisdom is tenfold
to jam in song)

a circle of tension surrounds the loner
the flames nearly consume him
a filter of light peeks outta his chest
and it disperses his pains

doom crowds near
word penetrates the filth
unknown to the world
are the secrets you show me
this gives me strength
the fact that i know you
(lost my wealth
kept my hide
they can't take away my faith
only ruin my pride)
this i cannot hide
(all in all
hype aside
i don't ever wanna leave you
be by my side)
the fact that i can rise