Good Charlotte - The Anthem; though it's much like the stereotypical punk rock song, i like it cause of the DJ turntabling effects during the beginning and the middle of the song sound very nice, when they do some scratching with some distorted guitar power chords... now if only they worked that effect more into the song, they would be labelled as somewhat creative by my standards, which are undefined as of right now by me

osterfag... such a slow ass clumsy baller, he keeps losing the ball... i am stunned that the jazz even won this game, the kings were doing some really stupid things, like double teaming too much, giving the jazz wide open shot-knockdown oppurtunities... they also kept going into the key when the entire jazz team was in there... you guys lost an easy victory guys, seriously... peja just choked on a three too; air-balling the shot completely... i hope the kings come back and whup the jazz game 4; it's not necessarily that i like the kings THAT much(although i do, mainly cause of bobby jackson, and maybe cwebb and/or bibby), but i dislike the jazz; they're a buncha old geezers still playing bball...

what else... the whole jazz team just tries to get fouled, it's annoying me... play the damn game, none of this crap...

haha... on the plus side, scott polland had a NICE block on malone's easy layup, that was just crazy; he just came up from behind and BAM! knocked his wide-open layup into the crowd with a huge swat... you still have to give the jazz credit on that play though, cause a very nice bounce pass set up the mailman for that attempt at the shot

just some final thoughts about spiritual stuff before i go to sleep, since jerm sparked a conversation about it:
-my life's been stagnant; basically, i don't feel incredible joy when i do spiritual stuff; i haven't gotten a lotta time to do really good worship by myself, have trouble reading the bible and keeping up the goal of finishing the entire bible, and haven't been talking with God by prayer as often... do i think that these things make the christian? of course not... legalism isn't what christianity is all about... but if i can do them with incredible joy that i WANT to do them over and over, that shows my love for God, and as for right now, the love's not there...
-i also am thankful that jerm wants to be my accountability partner, that means a lot
-summer i'm gonna crank it up, that's for sure
-also, summer, we're gonna do some serious stuff w/the CTCC ppl

ok that's it; stupid ISDA company won't let me dl Budokan - The Martial Spirit even though EA doesn't even sell the game anymore, and the fact that I actually own the game, just not on a disk that would enable me to play it on my laptop

sooo tired... but i can't sleep... i must not...

i'll write later, when i can muster a bit more strength, and when my 1:10 class is done...

both celtics and twolves win today,so i'm happy... bball-wise... chemwise, that's another story...

btw kenyon martin got his wide-open dunk blocked by the rim :)

go celtics... hope ya beat pacers today... block and rebound them out, battie! last time checked the lead they had was cut down to 4...

hope twolves deal lakers another defeat today... KG4-MVP all the way man! i'm betting shaq's gonna pass more this one when they double-team him...

if any of you are VF fans, i like today's daioh.com match segment... 1 really good sarah player... almost beat 3 ppl in a row, just utilizing smart poking(as opposed to flashiness) and finding good oppurtunities to land her combo starters for huge damage, as well as throws... too bad she eventually was beaten by a kage player, though that loss was a close one... very rare that i see a very good sarah player on those clips often... very rare... my other money character, akira, on the other hand, is seen pretty often, with very good results... ahh... i miss playing VF4 Evo up here...

you should take a look at the way ducks look when they sleep; not only do they sorta turn their head 180 and tuck it under one of their wings, they have a strange way of closing their eyes; a yellowish eyelid actually folds UP to close their eyes, and occasionally it'll open, then reclose... strange...

other than that, i hope i study well today; crunch time's today, and it's game time tomorrow... gotta go; plz pray for me if you can... later

CWebb's back incident

haha.... maybe i'm taking the article out of context, but CWebb was treated at UC Davis Medical Center! heh heh... imagine that... if i keep up what i'm doing and remain here, i might end up treating the Kings in the future!

yay for Twolves...

beat the lakers by 28 pts...

haha... no wonder why my bro wasn't around to answer calls on his bday... he went to the lakers vs twolves game! i wanna see KG! too bad they lost though... and with cwebb recently having troubles w/his ankle or back, that would spell trouble for countering the lakers this year... spurs, it all comes down to you man... do your work plz duncan...

more studying to come today... like it'll ever end...

maybe modify CS scripts, that's all the real entertainment i have planned today... songwriting comes weekend...

matrix reloaded: 5.15.03
T3: sometime during the summer

praise God...
i was feeling kinda down late last night, and even last night was tossing and turning on my bed in the very early morning because my soul was disturbed... after chem, i come back, eat, and when i'm returning, i see one of the most beautiful birds ever for a long time... i dunno how to describe it, cause i've never seen it before... it wasn't a duck, but it was a HUGE bird just walking around with that bobbing stuff walking birds do... its head(which was kinda tiny compared to the rest of its body)was this beautiful shiny green color... and it was just sorta bobbing around looking for things to eat, not really looking frantic... and as i'm gazing at it, basking in the bright sun, i almost sense God going "you see how i can take care of such a creature? and if you're that much 'better' than this creature, don't you think i'll watch over you even more carefully?" it really lifted my spirits just being there and watching this majestic fowl, walk around, carefree, beautiful to behold... and hearing God whisper to me... thanks a lot man, i won't forget it... (btw i think it's a peacock, except it didn't have the huge fanlike feathers protruding from its behind, so that the reason i have doubts about that)

at least that's one upside to UCD over UCLA... nature, as God created it... i tend to see animals i don't usually see at school back home(where all i could remember were seagulls)... and the last time i remember UCLA, it wasn't very grassy or had many trees. squirrels, blue jays, pigeons, crows, ducks, bushtits, peacocks... i've seen all of them... and all of them mystify and entrance me... the peacock especially inspires me though, since it looks so great compared to the other fowl i've seen on campus... but they all look so awesome, you HAVE to believe God made it...

nba final predictions update:
me: kings vs sixers
sam: kings vs sixers
wes: kings vs magic
bob: anyone's grab, but admits kings are fave for west, conceivably sixers for east (*grins* sounds like such a diplomatic answer, but adds not magic, according to him, which kinda sucks, but i think it's true)

bob: ...
bob: man, the East sucks
me: haha
me: that's kinda true

i change my CS configurations more times than a snake sheds its skin... almost got 2 usp 2 deagle kills 1st round today too to save the day for CTs, but i got killed by the last person, and so we lost that round...

maybe i should've gone home this week... it was easter, no one was around even for the church, and i did nothing other than some studying... maybe next time... mom even maybe thinks i don't miss her...

haha... at least my mom suggests not going to the chinese church right now's a good idea; i'm sure you've heard about the chinese-originated disease incidences... although my mom still doesn't like that i know more koreans than chinese right now...

4.20; happy birthday fill... clear your email box plz man...

"help me find the fracture in this dark sky" -12 Stones

current state of mind is very 0_0; i need to get my feeling of optimism and joy back... my best description is that i feel... stunned... unable to move... this is the toll you take when you realize how much things count for you this quarter... and how little you've strove to attain that goal...

the more i think about easter and good friday and their significances, the more i realize that indeed, i am thankful God died for me... the fact of the matter is, i still make mistakes... am i truly regretful that i made them? yes... do i do anything about it? i try, but often i fail again... but somewhere along time God realized those ppl with a true heart for him even sometimes falter and make mistakes... and what God wants most of all is to be close to us... please, easter and good friday as far as you are concerned has NOTHING to do with getting into heaven... it has to do with God being close to you... basically, if those 2 events didn't happen, God could not get close to us... if he did, we would be destroyed by his holiness... so he would have to consign us to a place where he would not even be remotely close to us... but that's not true, and so we are able to take great joy in knowing we can be close to God...

my nba final predictions: kings vs sixers
sam's nba final predictions: kings vs sixers
wes' nba final predictions: kings vs magic