my main guitar setup as of right now; (from left to right) crybaby wah pedal, dod fx75-b stereo flanger pedal, boss sd-2 dual overdrive pedal. 

say what you want about it, but i've always felt that worship music is always better if you're in the spot, either in the audience, or playing the music yourself, surrounded by close band members, the beat lifting you up. a lot of times, the studio stuff by the artists tend to be too soft. honestly. i love it so much more when you're right there. the music is there. and you feel it. and today was good, great. but i always try to take care that i am not bouncing to the beat, but because i am joyful at god's presence, which is hard... so i always end up saying something like this in my head during worship: "please let my actions be about you, not the music."

i think i've never really told anybody new(or the worship team) at the fellowship in davis that i play the electric guitar, out of fear i might end up serving on the worship team doing it just cause it's "what a good christian would do", or feeling a sense of pride in my ability to play lead electric guitar, but oh man... how i crave to once again play alongside a good drummer and acoustic rhythm guitarist and bassist, free to just fool around and figure out how to back others up. sometimes i get so caught up with the idea that i start imagining the lead guitarist alongside the davis worship team and what he(i) would play for fills, or a possible riff... it is something you don't feel anyplace else. and honestly, if i were to do that 16 hrs out of a 24, that'd be heaven for me; singing and playing songs to god and getting all caught up with the whole shebang.

if i ever worshipped god like i do when alone at home, but at a fellowship, assuming it's an upbeat song and every band member's playing loud and stuff, i think i would end up distracting everybody else. you can already see it slightly... i'm clapping my hands, but my body's bouncing with the rhythm, head slightly bobbing... my posture constantly changes, from looking up at the screen, to closing my eyes, and head tilted downward, nodding slightly with the rhythm. i basically am not still. if i went all-out, not only would it be quite difficult for me to do so, but it'd distract others... basically, at home, sometimes i will literally jump... and not like a small hop... no, i'm talking about like one of those bball hops where you plant both feet, pump your arms and get up high. and i do that spontaneously during a song, usually during a melodious build-up(or did i mean harmonious? sorta like during the transitions)... it looks weird, to be frank, and not only are friday nights done in a lecture hall, allowing no room for movement in most cases, if i did so, i KNOW i would be distracting a lot of other ppl. so i refrain. but i wonder about me holding back... i wish i had the ability to mentally block ppl out... that would be so useful sometimes...

interesting thing of note: @msm, if they start out a worship song slow, then make it upbeat in the middle, no one actually starts clapping; you need to start the song fast for them to do it; case in point; i thought "prince of peace"(you are holy) tonight was awesome... but they started slow, then picked it up... nobody tried to clap; i tried to get it started, and jerm started following, but it was pretty much just us two, and so i gave up. at least with the loud, upbeat drummer, i don't think clapping was necessary.

you're my prince of peace, and i will live my life for you.

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here's something to shift the point; as christians, how are we supposed to vote for politicians and laws? some would say "according to what God would do." but we're being a bit vague; nevermind what the various small political sects are doing; let's look @the republicans and the democrats.
the 1st emphasizes that as christians, we need to uphold the law; we need to do what is right. we need to stand strong and hold our values, or we'll succumb, or something like that. do you let a blind person run over a cliff? hence, their negative stance of abortion, stem cell research, etc...
democrats, however, emphasize the "freedom of choice." to them, what you want to do is your right, or your problem/solution. they have no right to interfere. interfering would simply contrast with the principles this country was founded upon.

so what's a christian to do? many of us are very quick to say, based upon the elephant's enforcing of christian laws, i'm going republican. i am one too; my voter registration card says so(although i've never voted yet, just registered). we need to stand and hold our values, that's the stance we're supposed to take. however, jesus taught us that we should never turn religion into a crux for others; his harsh treatment of pharisees emphasized that. stop trying to turn christianity into a law, making it harder for others to follow. also, jesus did not force us to convert; he simply destroyed any obstacles in our path, so that, if we wanted to be near him, we could; if we wanted to simply stay away, we could do so too. the "freedom of choice" thing, is indeed very christianlike.

but hear me out; does that mean we should not lord ANY thing despicable over others? here's another way of putting it; if we had no punishment for robbery or murder, don't you think that would blow the crime rate wide open? some of those laws help keep down certain acts, even if it's still, more-or-less, "freedom of choice"(we're not chained down by the police 24/7, so we COULD commit murder if we wanted, but then we'd be pursued). the punishment helps keep those acts from occurring a lot more, from ppl who are less conscious-driven. so where do we cutoff the "freedom of choice," and where do we allow it? it's an interesting question, and i don't think i'll be able to answer it in this entry. but i would like the reader to mull out it; so many of our political bickering is basically, over whether to enforce a law or give "freedom of choice."

my personal opinion is this; if it causes harm to another person, it should not be allowed. of course, now we dig into deeper debate; some will argue the fetus is not really a living human being. do we punish ppl for squashing ants? those are living creatures too. if we spilled our semen while during sex, that would be essentially, killing a human being, is it not? etc... others argue that we will be endangering the life of a mother if it came down to the mother either being able to live, OR the fetus(ie one will die). how can we judge who will live in cases like those? etc. and of course, if we put in exceptions in the banning of abortions/etc, couldn't some lawyer slick-talk his way to explain the ability to use abortion in a lot more cases than allowed? etc... i've taken many philosophy classes(at least 2 where i had to ponder medical stuff, so i know), but i think at the end of road, even if we come to a definite conclusion, it wouldn't be definite for some; some will continue arguing.

the whole point of this entry though, but not to really reach a definite conclusion... but take things into context, and continue thinking of counter-point to counter-point to counter-point to... and pray... that always helps. consult your bible, and maybe we might someday reach the end of this... and hopefully, either find a convincing end-all argument to ban abortion, or convince others the value of respecting each other, so we don't need to worry about the need of enacting stupid laws like these.

(man, my fingers are like asleep; i think i saw so many grammer errors while typing... but i hope you understand what i'm saying enough to not need me to repost... i'm kinda tired... but if anything looks confusing, you can also comment, asking for clarification)

This may help you Jerm, if you're planning on taking class Tekken 101 w/me

the Ling Xiaoyu FAQ by JKim looks fairly good; give it a try.

(note: not every FAQ here is good)

don't forget, jerm... we finally tekken tomorrow... prepare to get raped everytime i decide to choose nina or jin... or law... maybe bryan. :) and bring some lube; you gonna need it :D cause the rape GONNA BE HARD!

(in the near future, i may decide to actually post some pics of what i cook using my webcam, just for fun, for those peeps who don't live in my apt...)

think the curse is gonna be broken? :D

and lastly, is it just me, or do gel pens seem to run out of ink faster than regular ink pens? it's been 1 month, and i've already gone through 4, maybe 5 bic gel pens. compare that to last year, where i pretty much only ran out of ink from my bic pen 60% of the way through the school year.

HOOPSWORLD.com | Will Tayshaun Prince ever become an All-Star?

i almost most certainly agree... but add one more thing to tayshaun's list of things to improve upon:

his handle.

but i gotta admit; i LOVE his defense. hold that shit down, foo!

Counter-Strike Tactics, Tips and Guides @ FidosRevenge.com!

pretty good guide; surprised i never found it

i love this dog tag that i wear on my neck, because besides looking kinda kewl, it has reminded me of god being by my side at the moment more times than not(at least more than the wwjd bracelet i ALSO wear, but on my right wrist), as well as reminding me to do the right thing and to press on w/it, to not go lazy, or give up. it's great; wearing bible verses on yourself aren't bad in themselves, as long as you don't think you're more righteous than your fellow man for doing so.