another glorious day from God... too bad i'll be spending most of today working on my midterm SAS paper...

more to say as i think up stuff.

bob(or any CTCC or former CTCC bud); Eddy Foye's a pretty interesting worship leader. well, from what i got from at mp3.com, i haven't seen any original stuff of his. BUT, he has some interesting interpretations of some popular worship songs. go over to mp3.com, type in Eddy Foye in the search engine, then find his artist page.

click on the 2 songs:
Everything That Has Breath(i say this one's interesting cause you get more soft distortion in this, plus the electric guitar fills; i personally like it; gives me ideas of what i could do next time i help out a worship band, and i won't have to worry about my pedal drying up the batteries this time)
Be Glorified(again, very interesting fills for the bassist; i'm sorry, i meant electric guitarist, i wasn't listening too carefully)

and if you have the current Windows Media Player, i think you might even be able to save the .mp3 files.

i should go to sleep; i'm gonna pull a later again. but i really should finish my SAS journal before that.

hah hah; grace w. talks SO FAST and SO INACCURATELY on aim; it's like a runaway ferrari. (thinks of possible buddy icon project)

oh yeah bob; i finished Ch 8; if you wanna chat sat, i'm open.

.... everything that.... everything that.... everything that has breath the praise the lord....

what i learned this week:

look at jesus when he was crucified... THAT was how much God HATED SIN... i guess it's a new spin on an old viewpoint... we tend to think that THAT was how much God LOVED US, and in many ways, it's true. but this is a new concept i picked up from a fellowship today... THAT was how each of us was going to suffer for our sin... actually worse, cause in hell, you just die an everlasting death for the rest of eternity. so, you were going to suffer worse than 40 lashes in the back, wearing a crown of thorns, mocked, spit, and struck, then carry this large burdensome piece of wood up to a hill where they were going to drive nails through your limbs into the wood and hang you up until you couldn't breathe and die. makes you so thankful that Jesus DID die for us now, eh?

Christianity isn't about what happens AFTER we die... it's about what we get NOW... well, it is partially, but it's more like what we get NOW, and FOREVER. many philosophies that ppl share are something like this:
"so why do you want to work your butt off?"
"so i can get a good job, find a wife, marry, have children and die..."
why wait to feel happiness in your life? do you realize that when you decide to live in communion with God everyday, your joy can start NOW, and never stop?

Christ preached revolutionary thinking; to LOVE others, to submit to others; by submitting you will listen to others and feel free to not HAVE to have your own way. he even commanded children and wives to obey this, like they HAD a free choice. he ALSO told masters to love their slaves... to take care of them, look after them. but we should only submit til it becomes destructive.

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need a mic that can attach to my laptop... it'd be so cool to hear my own songs played back. i've never gotten the chance to record anything and save it. and after hearing a sample of what josh recorded on his computer... i admire him.
what else: gamepad, AC adaptor for flanger pedal, delay pedal?

g'luck wes on your sat2 tomorrow; chinse and math; don't get masturchis'd!

nice memorable quote: my SAS class on thursday had a guest speaker, and our teacher was trying to adjust the wireless, handless mic so he(the guest speaker) could speak. so he went up to him, and said, "let me just turn you on" ok, so i may have a sick mind, but that was funny.

to much to do, too little time: 1 paper due wednesday, 1 prelab due wednesday, a journal fill-in, math hw, and i STILL need to read some in every class, plus i need to find out more about registering for winter!

'k; i'm out, cause i have nothing to say.

i haven't been playing my electric guitar lately... i should start building up calluses on my left fingers again, and learn to play scales... scales are good practice to play riffs.

i have a feeling that halloween isn't all about evil or something like that, or going door to door to get candy. that's about as realistic as the idea that christmas is about a fat man wearing red clothes going around giving out gifts to kids who are good. the real story of halloween is that our deceased relatives come back to visit us(supposedly), and we're supposed to pay them respects. so while i'm not exactly getting into the mood by dressing up and trick-or-treating, i am celebrating this halloween by honoring my dad. i'm so sorry dad that i treated you so badly while you were still alive; i wish i could undo all the hurt i caused you. you didn't deserve it, at least not from your own son. i hope that you're reading this from heaven and accepting my apology. you really were more than the father i thought and treated you for.

just watched Family Guy - Too Sexy For His Fat... the episode where Chris is trying to lose weight; pretty hilarious; i should've kept it; i'm gonna go dl it again. the exterminator scene cracked me up like crazy.

more to add...

saw some guy who had like 10+ ice cream sandwiches trying to sneak out of the cafeteria... a woman caught him, and made him put all the sandwiches back, telling him that she was going to tell his room adviser that he was stealing. not good, not good. i was wondering why he was pulling all these ice cream sandwiches outta his sweatshirt pocket.
there's this good jap restaurant on J street, according to my doom floor neighbor; she said you get an all-you-can eat for 8.99. not bad. but all i want is some bento. btw, she said there was this weird debate at berkeley w/norcal and socal ppl; and the socal ppl said "we take the 5" whereas nocal ppl said "we take 5", referring to driving on interstate 5. i said to her, "well, you shoulve said, 'well, now you're in norcal, so get used to saying the 5.'" then i wondered to her whether there was such thing as a "CenCal," and of course i had to talk about the little incident in CTCC where we were discussing whether there was a CenCal.

yao ming sucked for his 1st game.. NO points and only 2 rebounds. you may say, big whup, it's his 1st game, but compare that to David Robinson, or Shaq, or the candy man, all which did a LOT better than that in their 1st game in the NBA.

yeah, KG...

heh heh... mj missed a dunk again... i mean, i like the guy(when he was still on the bulls, he was fav bball player), but seriously, miss a dunk AGAIN?!? sheesh, stop repeating the 2K2 all star game.

yeah... right now blazers are 20 pts ahead of the lakers at halftime...

(i'm a genius in a dumbass class... everytime i go to Short Calc, i falll asleep, because i can afford to do it, so far, that is)
fred: why do you go to the math lectures, ReCharred?
me: yeah... why DO i go to the lectures?

king david's wise... read my previous blog this day.

had a dream last night... thought the cops were going to my dorm and busting it open cause they thought i had illegally downloaded mp3 files and were putting me to jail for it... i'm sure it's slightly farfetched(since most of my mp3s are legal, cept for maybe 1 or 2), but it could happen. not to mention i think they can retrace all the things you did on your computer, which would reveal how many mp3s i've illegally dl'd and deleted. it's going to make me extremely paranoid; it already did for me; i had a hard time going back to sleep last night; tossed and turned quite a bit. i wonder if God's predicting the future for me.

strikes me how much King David was wise: there's a lotta examples, but here's a scenario i recently stumbled upon; 2 Sam 15:25-26; read it and compare it with 1 Sam 4:1-11. Do you see the difference? The Israelites in 1 Sam thought that by bringing the ark of God into battle, they would succeed; they trusted too much in earthly shelters, thinking that the ark of God was a good luck charm, in essence. Compare that with David's reaction when he was fleeing Absalom; though the priests were bringing the ark of God with him, he told them to take it back into the city, indicating that if God was pleased with him, he would bring David back into the city and let him see it again. But if God was displeased, then David would be ready for whatever God wanted to do. David recognized that God was not a good-luck charm who could be manipulated to do what he wanted. He saw that God was an actual being who could live anywhere he wanted. Now, i can't say the exact reason why God let David live and let disaster fall upon Absalom, but it could have been due to David's wisdom here.
moral of the story for you here? stop trusting in your temporary shelters, stop looking at the temporary, stop looking at the earthly ways to satisfy yourself, and look to the eternal, the heaven-bound rewards.

*sigh* today makes for the 2nd time i MISSED chem... skipping chem and missing chem are 2 entirely different things; i unintentionally skipped chem. and i blame it on the way i've been going to bed lately. do you hear me God? i need help... i've SKIPPED math before, but that was because i was confident enough sitting in the lecture and looking at the homework that i could figure out what it was... i guess God does give to us, but we're used to growing up in a culture that demands immediate results, and often those types of results are only temporary. i need to be more patient; the things that take just a bit longer to wait for are the things that are the most worthwhile in life.

i need self-control... just self-control. i can't control it when i'm playing VF, i lose track of time. and when i turn off the alarm clock, recently i have no incentive to get up, so i just lay back down and that just jacks up my day often. if you're reading this bob, it'd be nice if you pray for me here... also, i haven't gotten around to finishing Ch 8 yet though... i'm hoping to do so by the end of this week; i know i said i was going to finish it last week's thursday... just wait a bit.

what am i made of?
do i get up when i fall?
how bout when i'm overwhelmed?

i think the proverbs i put down under the constant thoughts can give hope to anyone.

http://artists.mp3s.com/artists/305/losing_daylight.html; Looking to that Day sounds really nice.

current list of stupid things we college freshman have done so far(i may or may not have been witness):
-jon falling outta bed while sleeping
-norm sleeping right through his midterm
-norm having trouble falling asleep then making farting sounds to himself and laughing about it
-sleeping through 1 class(i know we've all done that); i've slept through chemistry once(good thing it was only a lecture that i had prepped for)
-me falling asleep daily in my math class and doing fine(in fact i set the curve for the A range for the last test)
-weird photos that josh and norm do
-laura saying that she's been to the UCLA library and can't find the books cause she's a freshman(taken off of lydia' profile)
-mandy being asked if she would like to smoke pot
-me and jon falling asleep right through a possible oppurtunity to visit a davis church

ok, i'm sure there's more, but i'm too tired to write... i know this will carry right over to the next day, since i'll end up waking up, turning off my alarm clock, then wake up again at 10:00; i should go to sleep or this'll happen, i know it already will.

all we need is a spark... will a worship session and mike's talk in december be it? will it be a large enough spark? damnit i hope so.

it came to my mind that i'm not necessarily bored of Davis... it's the fact that i am bored with both my home AND Davis. so, that means me and jon actually need to explore around, instead of biatching every day. i sense a trip to sac...

sniff, giants lost. if any socaler goes "SO-CAL!" tomorrow, i will lose it. i'm tired of socalers acting like they're on top of the world. not to say that all socalers are like that... this guy named stanley on our dorm floor is actually pretty cool, and doesn't do any of that weird stuff.

i should bring my VF2 to Davis, and get a good gamepad for a laptop, or buy CS... nothing to do. the only disadvantage of doing this is i might get totally sidetracked from studies and worship... mwhahah... VF2 Lau juggle combos...

the only arcade games i play around in Davis is Tekken 3(Nina's awesome in that game), Area 51, sometimes MVC2, and Raiden(the raiden machine at Davis is on free play, so hey, it's a free game). i miss VF4 Evo...

something to try the next time i play Area 51 here in Davis; reload by putting my right index in front of the handgun and shooting; the gun only detects if i'm NOT shooting the screen, so in this way i could be able to fire more often... i saw a tip like this before, well, i'll have to try it myself... heh heh, doing this w/the automatic shotgun could be very nice.

the Man Show Boy is pretty funny.

ok, enough of this rambling... i need to do some hw... except i hear some saxophone going off in the building...

some blogs that i meant to put down for previous dates, but didn't have access to high-speed internet(well, there's one disadvantage to being not in Davis, if any)

10/26/02

deep thinking time:

Now i'm gracious that i actually had the oppurtunity to come back for the weekend and did; Mike, Wes, and Jerm were all there at church, and while we didn't really do anything, it was Mike's plan to talk about his experiences and what he wanted to pass onto us college freshmen as well as Sam and Tim that was the kicker. i was thinking, God, it's so good that Mike's here telling us this. anyways, he basically told us that so many ppl jump into relationships or want a friend who is a different sex. but at the age of around 18-21, you're probably not doing it for marriage, so for what? and if you seriously think about it, would you really want to be involved in something which you know is going to end? would you be comfortable telling your friend, i want to have a relationship with you just to see what it feels like? no, of course not. the fact is ppl are searching for the temporary things, and they think that that's all there is to life: work your way up to get money, get a lover, have children and die. the problem with ppl today isn't necessarily that they don't believe in God, it's that they don't take the time to sit down and deeply think.

here's something that might enforce this thinking; think of the cross as our relationships with each other, the 4 basic relationships of a christian: the 2 side extensions are spouse/lover and peers respectively, the one on top is your leaders, and the bottom are the ppl you lead. now if you concentrate too much on your lover when you're still developing, you're ignoring 3 aspects that would greatly influence the way you are, and what God wants you to be.

and believe me, God, i am so thankful for what you told me through Mike tonight. thanks for the message. thank you for everything you gave me and how far you've brought me. now help me not to forget this, ever. give me the strength, willingness, and love of you that you want me to have. help me to love worshipping you and communicating with you, and to never let this desire die down, but to continuously feed it the fuel needed for it to keep burning brighter and brighter(like the proverb that i noted beforehand). amen.

10/27/02

technically, this should be 10/26, but i'm writing this very late, so i guess that's the irony of it, if any.

anyways, actions speak louder than words. why am i repeating this cliche? because the presence of God is not reflected in how many things we spew outta our mouths. it's reflected in how i think everyday when i'm NOT reading my bible or playing my guitar. it's reflected in whether i take a few quiet moments each day(whenever i can) to think of what i'm sensing and it's connections with God or what he's trying to tell me. in a sense, it's like bob said once, "God is most real in your everyday life." i can tell everyone that on my profile that i say that God is my #1 priority in my life, but unless if i prove it to you by how i act, it's nothing more than me just being another present-day Pharisee. isn't that why so many ppl get turned off by Christians? they're in your face, telling you this and that, then they lose their lover and lose it. or adversity comes down in their face and they cower before it. which brings me to another thought...

what makes you think God can't do what he wants? ok, so he's merciful, but don't you think he knows so much better than we do? so we get pissed when we fail our midterm or get a B or something. or when we lose our lover. and so we biatch about it, thinking why, why, why... i'll tell you why; God knows better. and who can tell God, what have you done? God is God, as Steven Curtis Chapman put it, and like so, can we tell God what to do? no... of course not. of course, not to say i'm above any of you, i struggle with problems like these a couple of times, since i DO have my dreams and such. but if we feel that it should only be about us, you have forgotten to try to see things the way God would see it. don't ever doubt God's strength; what makes you think his arm is too short?

CTCC youth group is crumbling apart... i sense it. in fact, i sense impending doom, drawing closer and closer each day in just about everything... i need to have a word w/God...

i have a feeling we're all growing and maturing with wisdom... mike feels that the next time we gather together, we're probably going to be talking about DEEP things, rather than shallow things such as farts and CS. i feel it too; even though some of us(like me) have kept deep thoughts under rapts, maybe it'll all just come out soon.

finally, i close with this thought... we don't resolve problems in the world by b***hing about them; we solve them by actions... it doesn't matter whether they're small actions or large actions, but if we keep at them, they will make a difference. you may not see the difference you make, the results might not even be reaped in your lifetime, but they WILL be reaped. don't tell me what you want done... SHOW ME.