i dislike it when we college ppl have to register for classes... it's totally not like high-school... you log in and 9/10 of the courses that are mandatory for you to take are occupied... so you end up registering for a math class that occurs @5:10-6:00P on friday... do you realize how much that effs up your chance of an early weekend? granted, i plan on doing longer stretches in UCD over the weekend now, but it'd still be nice to end early on fridays.

bah, i bet only UCD ppl have these types of probs so early... laura's surprised i have to register for classes so early... mandy only needs to register 2x @UCB per school year... bah...

i just realized valentine's day is somewhere around here... it prob passed me... not that it mattered... i've been soloing my life companion-wise for a major part of it right now, and i feel content to be single as of right now... i'm not at the stage where i need to spill all my thoughts to a girl and have her spill hers to me... in exchange for cuddling... it'd be nice, but i would eff my grades over in exchange for it... valantine's day even has less to do w/love than i think it was, a matyred christian? i dunno... america has a way with screwing up everything single holiday we have and ruining it, taking it out of context... since when does easter mean a JCPenney 30 hour sale? and yet...

can someone explain to me what is the significance of presidents' day? what is the historical background behind it, and why do we celebrate it? seems a bit vague to me. do we celebrate it just cause of our US presidents? does it have something to do with our more important US presidents? and if so, why don't we call it "Abe Lincoln's day", or "George Washington's day" on part of that?

a text without a context becomes a pretext for a prooftext... in other words, take every judgment you make into context, or it'll just fire right back at you

to be honest, i have no idea if i am getting better at puzzle fighter, even though i've played it a bit now... i know i'm not doing small attacks as frequently as much, but am i really setting up my attacks better? i need to really learn how to chain attacks together! heard they give so much as a bonus! (have i lost the reader? then again, i prob lost a lot of you @the mention of VF, CS, electric guitars, worship, the like...)

(after playing in CS w/sam and doing my work to win a tough round solo after everyone else died i think, i decided to spray my YLT logo on the ground next to the victim... here's the AIM conversation later)

sam: hey rich
me: hey
sam: you like my knives?
me: haha... yeah
sam: wheredd you get your graffiti thing?
me: i made it
sam: thats hilarious
me: haha
sam: send me man
me: sure thing
sam: when i saw you paint it i laughed out loud
me: haha
(ReCharredSigh) wants to send file C:\Sierra\Counter-Strike\logos\YLT.bmp.
(sam) received C:\Sierra\Counter-Strike\logos\YLT.bmp.
me: i think this is it, just put it in your logos folder
sam: ok cool thanks man
me: sure thing
sam: haha i cant wait to spray this after i get a knife
me: i was originally gonna put YLT on it, but i thought not as many ppl know what that means
sam: haha and its kinda edgy and looks hand written so its funnier
me: haha... it wasn't hard for me to make
me: it's pretty cool
sam: haha yea
me: i usually don't spray it
sam: you should do it after a tough kill or a knife or something
me: i usually use it if i see some guy acting like he's a jackass
sam: when youre the last person alive
me: or if i get a streak goin
me: like once i heard this guy on the opposite team talking trash like "yeah, you like that" and stuff like that and saying stuff like "jackass" to us
sam: haha
me: so when it came to a close round i sprayed it on him after i killed him 1-on-1
sam: hahhaa thats hilarious
me: you might wanna change the color of it, cause i designed it to be like the original logos included with the CS game; it's mono-colored
me: so if it's white you can't really see it
sam: green is good
sam: its funny too
me: yeah
me: haha

played w/sam in cs: down to me vs the rest of the team; got 3 headshots in a row on iceworld with an assault rifle... but died on the 4th person. some guy started going "i think that guy's cheating" :) hecka good feeling.

aw... shoot... i had this good philosophical thought in the morning, and now in the nighttime when i'm intending to write it down here, i forgot. ever hate that? you've got a good train of thought goin, and suddenly "what the hell was i thinking about?" and you can't remember what you were thinking no matter how hard you try.

wait, wait, it's coming back.

often, when we have a fear of something tangible, like for say instance, water, we freeze up when we're near it and try to get away from it as soon as possible. being able to overcome fear is being able to be calm in the face of adversity, in the face of fear, uncertainity, doubt, what not. why do people who can't swim drown? they are afraid of the water and so thrash violently. i remember my early years when i just was afraid of the water in that i thought if i let go of the edge i'd drown. but it's a gradual process(drowning); when i was able to realize that, to be calm, i was able to get somewhere, to let go of the poolside and swim. often ppl drown cause they get so hectic in the water that they start breathing in water. when you learn to be calm, to let go, to stare trouble right in the face with calm, you'll make it out ok. peace is one of the fruits of the Spirit, so yes, it is important to keep a cool and be optimistic about everything you do. and i'm trying to teach myself that day by day, especially in a place where work is hectic. (to be honest this thought is a lot less appealing than when i was thinking about it sitting on the can this morning... a thousand thoughts were racing about my head thinking about it)

i realized some time ago that if the hair between my eyes(there is very tiny fuzz there if you look closely) grew more rapidly, i'd have a unibrow... freaky.

"i think that no matter who you are or what you go through you have good days and you have bad days, and it's not those good or bad days that make you as the person but it's how you go about dealing with those days"
-Paul McCoy, vocalist for 12 Stones, on MTV
put another way, if you're optimistic, you're gonna act optimistic in the face of trouble. if you're patient, you're gonna be patient when work overloads you. if you're calm, you're gonna be that way under pressure.

i can't believe our chem lab equipment was dysfunctional for the 2nd time! so i had to copy someone else's data FOR THE 2ND TIME! makes chem lab so boring... easy yes, but boring. might as well just ask the TA to do the lab for us and give the hard data to us.

(sam joins Ts in the dust map that i'm playing just as this happens)
*runs into double doors, kills i think 1 CT...*
*runs further around the bomb site b and checks, i think maybe i killed another CT?, maybe not*
me(on mic): b's open, b's open...
*runs back, some Ts are filling in to help plant the bomb, then i catch a CT running through the tunnel... gun him down*
-Terrorists Win- (i think i get the best score or most disruptive award, don't remember which one)
me(on mic): WHY ELLLL TTTEEEEEEE!!!
sam: hey richard

another time sam died right in front of me... i pick up his mp5navy, then i just aim and shoot... i get 2 headshots in a row, but get killed by the 3rd CT... still kinda sick... 2 headshots in a row... the only other memorable moment of that was when i was playing T w/sam in italy, then a CT comes up to me trying to knife... i turn around, and immediately headshot him, then say, "don't try to knife me :)" then run over to the bridge and see a CT down there... shoot and luckily get ANOTHER headshot... i got the best score award for that round

my CS abilities are like a roller coaster... they are so random... one moment i can be streaking like crazy, other times, i can just get headshot all over the place. often, i never post over a 50% kill:death ratio consistently, although now my ratio is improving slightly beyond ~33%...

(don't remember the exact CS conversation, but it went something like this while me and sam were playing)

p3nis: your voice comes out funny, doesn't sound like you
ReCharredSigh: haha... nasally?
p3nis: yeah
p3nis: you sound like jonathan
ReCharredSigh: what... gay?
p3nis: ah, too bad he isn't playing with us and seeing this conversation right now

i can't believe everyone is so afraid of the cold! i have this heater going on right now in our dorm cause jon's sick(i'll grant him the exception cause he's sick, but he's still weaksauce of the weather compared to me)... he's wearing a sweatshirt & sweatpants, and i'm wearing... gym shorts. that's it... well, briefs if you wanna be more specific as well, but yeah.

man, Jermaine O'Neal had to screw up MJ's exit to the NBA all-star game... he fouled Kobe at the 3-pt line, which gave him the chance to take 3 free throws... he missed one, and so it went into double OT and the west won. it shouldve been that the east won with MJ hitting the clutch shot to win it, in OT, by 2. doesn't matter though; it's sorta neat knowing that every NBA player gives props to MJ because of his greatness in the NBA. haha... tim's prob happy in irvine knowing that KG won MVP this year :)

T-Mac was on fire on the east side... it's crazy... they should've been giving him the ball whenever... the guy's so good at hitting shots now on the outside mark. and KG... man, that guy's awesome.

in any case, my props to MJ for almost hitting the clutch shot to win the game... neat watching AI bump MJ w/his body after he made that shot :)

praise God...

i finally went to church in UCD again! (thanks to jerm & george for praying for me)

nuff said... truly has to be yet another victory, cause i remember trying to go to sleep yesterday, but for some reason i kept tossing and turning around(does root beer have caffeine? i'm pretty sure it doesn't, so then why?) till get this; about 4. maybe satan really was trying to discourage me from going, and this was more than what i thought it was. i woke up at 8, and GOT OUT OF BED! allelulia! got there right when they started; 9:30. as for comments about UCC, the church i went to, lemme just say, i have never seen a buncha old white folks play with contemporary instruments, but they did, however, they played so slowly. i didn't enjoy the praise session, cause it just wasn't fast enough to get my heart beating. however, the pastor and sermon was good; biblical based and all. what's also great was that i didn't feel sleepy! didn't fall asleep. and that's weird coming from the guy who absolutely can't go in a day without more than 7 hours of sleep without feeling fatigued. what's even stranger is that i don't feel fatigued right now either.

btw, i could swear i saw my former chem lab partner at the same church a few rows in front of me.

i feel that i will have to keep on looking... this is, after all, only the 2nd church that i've visited so far in UCD. praise didn't move me, but the sermon did. next time, i try that korean church :)