i'm wondering if i should go to the fellowship's retreat next week... it's a dilemma... will i be able to keep up my studies on time and still go to it? also, lately i haven't been placing God first; if i go to the retreat, i would be going in with a fun mentality. on the other hand, jon pointed out it could be a catalyst for better things; it might restart my spiritual stuff... i dunno...

kings > lakers... yesssss...

rockets > spurs... then again, spurs were taking it easy... yao ming looks better now... heard he bulked up...

it's interesting really how we KNOW how we're supposed to act, but still get so strongly swayed by the world... we know that GPAs in the long run are nothing compared to the glory of God's will... how come then do i feel really nervous everytime i finish a midterm without really finishing all of the questions confidently? or even leaving some blank because time ran out?

it's kinda funny how this small korean girl at the fellowship i went to today was sitting next to me and jon and saying to jon "i don't have any friends! i'm gonna spend more time around you" or something like that extent, which got me laughing... can you spell knee pon yo?

excuse me for being ignorant, but i just realized yesterday that boston celtics got rid of walker and got lefrentz from the mavs... i think it's a good trade; the celtics got beat in the playoffs last year because they don't have any really dominant big men; lefrentz will help correct that... i wonder if this alone will push them to top east status... well, we'll have to wait the nets and celtics matchup in the playoffs again to find out... go celtics!

(oh yeah; go warriors; being ignorant, i found out today that they also have avery johnson now...)

haha... lakers lost to clippers... ok, so it's one game, but still...

can't wait... wednesday next week it starts... maybe i should just shoot some hoops this weekend?

you have no idea how fast being on high internet with half life running drains a laptop battery if you aren't on AC power(and i didn't even connect to any games); i was wondering what the beeping sound was... at least none of my work was lost. haha... work... i shouldn't use that word... next time i'm not using my laptop w/o AC power

2 more chapters to study before 4:10 tomorrow; i never find that i'd say this, but it seems easier to run through organic chem material for a midterm than it is for a bio midterm; i love bio over organic chem anyday, but it seems that organic chem does seem a bit more straightforward. at the rate which i'm studying for it today, i should be able to go to sleep at a regular time, instead of cramming... although i do have to study for a bio quiz tomorrow, so...

but if we are the body
why aren't his arms reaching?
why aren't his hands healing?
why aren't his words teaching?
and if we are the body
why aren't his feet going?
why isn't his love not showing
that there is a way?

jesus paid much too high a price for us to pick and choose who should come
and we are the body of christ

casting crowns- if we are the body; the chorus and bridge

some music streaming goodness here:

Evanescence - My Immortal
this is a great track; not often you see an evanescence track that is more predominantly piano than distorted electric guitar, and i thought the coming in of the rest of the band was nice

12 Stones audio page
sadly,i couldn't directly link to the song, but it's basically the song "Let Go" this is a great song; i love 12 stones.

ok, i was originally gonna post my response to your comment in the comment box bob, but it has only 400 spaces, so i'll do it here:

here's the thing; all sins are equal in that they place you in hell... however, since God judges fairly, most likely there are various degrees of punishment in hell, thus in that vein sins are not all equal(there are probably no such degrees in heaven, aside from what the disciples got, because you need to be perfect to get in heaven the 1st place, so if you're in, you're in; it's like a written test where you need to get a 100% to PASS)... that is why i'm wondering if the worst sin is open defiance towards God(being constantly preached to, growing up in a church, and turning your back upon your faith, or an unbeliever who has the resources to find out about the truthfulness about the bible, but never does), which covers everything pretty much. what is not covered? people who honestly don't know what sin is. like a secluded tribe somewhere in the jungle where people's morality is vastly different from what we have in secular America. these people commit sin because they didn't know it was sin in the 1st place. are they let off the hook? no; sin is sin; it lands them in hell. but it lands them in a different degree of hell than the people who on purposely defy God, knowing it is wrong.

yeap... csbinds now work...

tfc is so fun when you're playing in small numbers; i've finding out when you play about 4 on 4 on an area which is tiny and closed together, that the heavy weapons guy just rocks everyone's ass; now he's one of my favorite players. for those of you who don't play team fortress classic(tfc), it's basically using this guy who takes about 300% better damage than the other characters, doesn't get pushed around by explosions, and has this huge mini-gun much like terminator 2 where if you get caught in its fire you're shredded... sounds broken? not really; he's slow as molasses, which is why he rapes in small games; you don't get gangbanged as easily... want proof? i got a 32-killstreak when i switched to the hwguy... it's like using the terminator...

...i won't worry my life away, heeeey, oooooooh
i won't, i won't, i won't, i won't worry my life away, heeeey, nooooooo...

-jason mraz- the remedy

i couldn't get my csbinds to work yesterday... let's see if i have better luck today...

anberlin- ready fuels
anberlin- glass to the arson
telecast- the way
sonicflood- god is great(did they write this, or just remix it?)

now i have 2 headbands... the green one i use for balling, and a navy blue one w/the words ucdavis stitched in on one side... i wear this one paul pierce style; it goes on my side of my head... and i wear that one when i'm NOT balling :D sound weird? well, consider this; i often see black ppl walk around campus wearing official nba headbands and wristbands around... and i caught a pale-colored person in the arcades wearing a white headband... so no, it's not that weird... besides, ppl wear wristbands when they're not balling...

the worst sin is defiance... the 2nd worst is ignorance... do you agree or not?

midterm week has arrived... 2/4 completed... prayers would be appreciated... lates you guys...

yay... according to the canaan directory, i'm now a young adult! haha... well, wes, laura, and tim are still, according to the directory, youths... suckers...

cal lost to ucla 23-20; it sucked... cal actually came back with a touchdown pass and 2-pt conversion in the clutch, but obviously lost it in overtime...

came home for the weekend... and loaded up on groceries...