the grass may always be greener on the other side, but where there's troubles, you get strengthened and gain experience... think about that the next time things suck for you.

so i glance at mandy's AIM profile, then at jerm's, then talk w/jerm:

me: chocolate fast now?
me: or is that just mandy? :-)
jerm: i forget what i told mandy hehe
jerm: so i'm fasting it too lol

haha :D

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this christian's coming back... yesterday i attended a fellowship(which i have NOT been attending anything christianish in davis since december); i just felt awesome during the praise session, although i think chinks and caucasians have different senses of humor... there were some things they said that i just couldn't see as being funny... :) didn't seem to concentrate that hard on biblical basis though... still, we see how david was a witness during his work. also, he put God's word over whatever God planned. as for the actual praise stuff, it's always been that different Christians have different ways of worshipping(i need to keep enforcing this thought in my head, cause i had reservations about how some of the others worshipped, how they looked weird, but that means i have sinned, i need to stop thinking what others are doing and what i am doing)... i need to be more physical about my worship... although i was bobbing my head, i should've been bouncing to the beat, something i commonly do alone... i can't really put my thoughts into words, since a lot of it was visual.

God, if you're reading this, help me to concentrate my worship on you and not to get distracted by those around me... this is 1o1... keep reminding me of this.

i still can't believe they selected Vince Carter as a starter for the all-star team; he hasn't been playing for most of the season right now, and MJ didn't make it... that guy has been pulling a lot more than Vince. also, i question whether Yao should have been a starter over Shaq... sure he's tall and been doing pretty impressively... but right now he doesn't have that much experience... of course i don't really like Shaq, but really, it's the truth... Shaq has a lot more experience than him. go KG! (and T-Mac, AI, and Jermaine O'Neal)... i like the tall guys of the west(i like those that can block, rebound and shoot over you :D), but i will be rooting for the east during this game cause i don't like Kobe... damn LA'er has an attitude problem.

no jordan... don't retire... me, mike, and jerm wanna see you make a comeback and take back your NBA champion crown!

this will be a tough day, but one with fun... all in all always remembering the one who created it... help me.

sonic flood's "write your name upon my heart" is definitely one of the coolest worship songs i've ever heard... recently.

God above
in you i live and breathe
and you will always be
Son of God
i owe my life to you
your promises are true

your love goes on and on forever

write your name upon my heart
burn your word into my mind
make a temple outta this body
may your spirit move inside
i have wandered through the valley
i have wondered who i am
you have come to make your mark
so write your name upon my heart

God above
the first the last the same
all glory due your name
Jesus
it's you i adore
Lamb of God and Savior

all my heart and all its strength
are your possession yours forever
how glorious to wear your precious name

random fact; almost all of socal's water comes from northern califonia, from us norcalers... think about that the next time you think socal's the total shiznit. it's not, for sheezy mah neezy.

some of the ppl who try out for american idol just don't get it... they want to hear you sing, not imitate a boy band or christina aguiliera... don't you frikkin get it? seriously, just go and record yourself singing and see how you sound. and what's the deal with the detroit ppl praying for devine intervention here? that's total taking of God for granted; serves you right if you don't make it, treating God like a genie. granted, i would never try out for that, cause i don't just sing, i also play my electric guitar. but even if i did, i sound too flat... no vibrato, no strength coming from my stomach out... it's all in my throat, like the rock vocalists and hip-hoppers.

more AIM dialogue memories:

*i see joe online, so i try to talk to him; here's what happens*
me: joe!
(insert joe's AIM id here) signed off at 4:52:59 PM.

:D happened almost immediately too

i still think wes saying "it'll just brighten your gay" is hilarious...

(wes on the lakers)
wes: its like what mike said..its shaq kobe and 3 guys from the Y

me: eddie griffin: "you mean the NBA instituted the 3-pt shot to give white boys a chance?"
wes: hahaha
wes: black guys can hit it too
me: that's true
wes: just not many white guys taking it hard to the rack
me: but white boys can't do much anything else eh? :-)
wes: cant jump
wes: cept for bird...hes a bleached black man
me: hahaha

wes: if u guys stay inside all the time, your be depressed
wes: at least go to the cafeteria and play cards
(i explain why i don't need to)
wes: hehe at least take walks outside
me: i do, don't worry... had to jog to blockbuster to return "undercover brother" :-)
wes: it'll just brighten ur gay
wes: haha whoops
wes: day*
me: hahahah
me: you just cracked me up

currently, right now almost everyone on my CTCC list is away. on AIM.

i've got this essay to type tonight... and still have to return undercover brother to blockbuster tonight... sigh... i should really start my projects much earlier. but it's so hard to motivate myself. i have a hard time making the most of the every moment i've got. so easy to play games on my laptop. it's like i've got problems... i really need to "say it loud, say it out and loud, forget about, forget about last year, stop wishing it were backwards, it is now or never"

looking at bob's blog makes me wonder why i didn't dedicate a blog to Martin Luther King Jr. so i'll just write some quick blurb up. the man deserves more credit than he gets each year. he used to be a preacher. and his christian principles trickled down into how he fought to combat racism... hate the sin, not the man, so he disobeyed the law because he knew it was wrong, but refused to attack the white man. he recognized the power of love, and saw how hearts needed to be changed, not punished. and what happened was amongst the ways the black man could combat the unfairness around them(submit, full-force disobey, or disobey, but not strike back), this strategy worked the most, it even brought sympathetic white people to his cause.

can't believe we eat the most super bowl sunday. well, maybe we do, considering john tang's super bowl party. GO RAIDERS! just don't burn anything down, for crying out loud!

yeah, that's right, about time judges put a stop to this runaway sue-everyone-for-my-own-problems mess! check out this link!

alright, i'm gonna eat, then lots to do tonight. my mind's blank, so typing up gibberish just wastes my time.

i did not need that y-branched 1/4" cable or the stereo coupler... i hope i can return both, cause i opened both. aside from that, it's all good. i can play on both the laptop and the amp, and they'll both get picked up. what you do is connect electric guitar to 1/4" cable to amp through the input slot. then connect another 1/4" cable out of the output slot(i always wondered where you used that for... i tried it once during church worship practice and found out it didn't work too well, but here it's fine), to a 1/4"-1/8" adapter, to the laptop. so it's all good. only prob is that when i record bass w/wes, that i can't play along without my guitar getting picked up as well.

lex luthor does NOT cross over to the dark side this tuesday's episode! what type of bs is that?

we got the funk... we got the funk... hah hah hah hah :D i should dl that song... so addictive...

johnny english looks like a funny movie... hah hah... rowan atkinson...

talk later... got to... talk and work :)

hooo man... "undercover brother" is sooo friggin funny! seriously one of the most funniest movies i've ever seen. white people are definitely not going to be happy that i said that :)

i think though the main comedy of the movie doesn't go to eddie griffin, but dave chapelle... that guy IS funny. don't wanna give too much away, but one of the funniest things he said during the movie was

"(he was talking about the white man) don't you know they invented the 3-pointer to give the white man a chance?"

let's see if the stuff i bought today will be worth it... i bought something that might help me connect the guitar to the laptop AND the amp. will try it out tonight

weird to say this, but now every time i think of blockbuster video, i will think of davis... i got my membership card here, and it says so on the card. like a remember of where i've been.

when i talked about "undercover brother" with laura she went "oh, martin lawrence, hehe" :) those UCLA white ppl :)

i thought about the fruit-veggie "bittermelon" today at the DC... i remember justin's dad once telling me how bittermelon has a weird sense of sweet flavor to it... and i thought about that... while it's got this nasty upfront bitter taste, if you can ignore that you can taste this hint of sweetness that you don't find anywhere else... he said that's what some people call the "5th dimension of flavor" ie we have 4 different tastes; sweet, sour, salty, bitter. and that got me thinking about how most people will dislike the bittermelon taste when they're young... that was the case with me... but when you grow older, you mature, and are more willing to take stuff... that's when you redive in, and discover what no one else discovers.

and that's the way it is with christianity sometimes... maybe at your young age you rejected it, found it too shallow, or too mechanical, or concentrated way too much on rules. but you grew older, dived back in, and after surviving hardships found the sweetness of it... it's interesting... it's like the biblical phrase "taste and see that the Lord is good."

talk to me... unless you want me to shut up, cause i need to write some.

the rabbit hole just keeps getting deeper the more i spend in college(AIM me if you don't get what i'm talking about);

today's lesson: there are subliminal messages in disney films way too much; go and watch any of their anime; you'll often see(or should i say, hear) how the good guys are portrayed as americans, and the bad guys portrayed as someone else(or some other race). supports that radical statement of how disney's gay... gay indeed(pardon my language)

break down my barriers God; change my heart.

so much work to do....

here's a list:
POB 1 page paper: due tue
math hw: due wed
LAI 3-5 page paper: due thur
math test: fri
chem lab: due fri

on top of that there's the reading i always have to do...

can't talk too much... always too much to do... at least for this week.

thank God for RadioShack... found that 1/4" to 1/8" adapter that i've been wanting to get... it's this dinky little thing, but i think it'll really help when i record... it's even gold plated! :) i bet if i looked around more, i'll be able to find the stuff necessary to connect my electric guitar to both the laptop AND the amp.

is it wrong for a christian to take a biology course which discusses evolution? they don't downplay christianity, but it's obvious they don't give it a good look... the only reason christianity-wise i guess to take it would be so that i could see where evolutionists are coming from.