oh geez... nobody calls me to hang out this break... i'm gonna end up wasting it... either jerm's taking care of his sis @home, or, yeah... maybe i'll just call back... right after i sign off...

oh, my gawd(pushes hand downward)... like, LIKE OH MY GAWD(pushes hand downward)
(geez i hate how some teenage girls talk... and i can't believe it took me 19 years to finally jot something like this down... then again, i'm just writing what comes to mind right now)

'k, i'm signing off... i can't think... something about being home for 2 weeks w/o work to do has really numbed my thinking process... but that could be due to the fact that i'm not doing anything so there's nothing to note.

*sigh* i am so lazy getting up these days i get up at noon, so i'll make my message for thur and Xmas short so i can rise up early and praise God...

I HATE NETZERO POPUP ADS! 1 PER 10 MINUTES IS OK, BUT STOP SPAMMING ME EVERY SINGLE MINUTE! GEEZ...

ok, yesterday i went over to justin's house for dinner, which was nice... hahah... dinner at the lins'... you might get wrong impressions if you didn't know WHICH lin family i was talking about... it was very nice... sukiyaki... and then i played some cs @their house afterward. like i said before, i have the weirest CS config for movement, i don't think the 2 could figure out why i use pinky-ring-middle to move. i think i am either getting good at that game(or i should say better, i still get about a 25% kill:death ratio), or the students in the bay area suck a little. cause i got overjoyed somewhat when lotsa ppl named "Player" showed up, cause then you know they're a newbie, esp if they don't even know how to name themselves :) i should get their IP address sometime, so i can play w/them more. 2 memorable instances playing w/them:
-throw a flashbang down a tunnel, then attempt to rush in when some terrorist on my team misthrows his flashbang, and it blinds me... kinda annoyed and laughing, so i backtrack so i'm not in the line of fire, then type out "next time aim your flashbang better"... he basically threw it from behind me so that just as i was about to enter the tunnel it bounces off the arch overhead and lands at my feet
-'k, so another round... i've rushed in as a terrorist w/an ak-47, taken out 1 counter-terrorist, then guarded the bomb site so a teammate planted his C4 explosive. ...then i hear the bomb ticking faster and shriek outloud "AACCK!" (justin heard me and laughed) so i pulled out my knife(running speed's faster when you carry light weapons) and rush out, but a newbie counter-terrorist is there and starts shooting very slowly with a weak weapon at me(i know it's either weak or he's a newbie cause i was getting hit maybe 10 times in slow intervals before i died)... but i'm panicking and more interested in getting my ass out of the bomb site than shooting him down(which now reflecting if i did i would've gotten an easy kill), so i continue dumbly running straight ahead with a knife and taking the hits til i died... HAD i pulled out my AK-47 instead, i mightve gotten a kill AND still made it out

too bad the celtics got murdered by the nets... ok, it was kinda expected, since the nets are #1 in the east, but still, by a 30 pt deficit? and what... you get 38 to 1 in the 1st quarter? now that's just pathetic. but at least the kings won, on laker territory! so happy about that... down w/la! too bad i didn't watch THAT game... it was highly anticipated, and a huge rivalry feeling(fight between fox and christie, shaq calling kings "queens")... no handshakes during the tip-off. btw, this is kinda late in knowing, but i'm relieved that christie was the one who got into a fight w/fox, and not bibby... had for such a time thought it was bibby... nice... so his beliefs DO reflect how he acts on the court :) oh yeah... t-mac got some HUGE pts yesterday too! that's really nice in knowing...

btw i find it hilarious that divac's doin a "It's Crunch Time" commercial now... haven't seen it, but is it sorta like the dialogue that Shaq does? would be kinda funny... you can't really tell what either player is saying :)

ok... so Case For Christ really is a really nice read(btw happy late bday Jesus!)... it was interesting, cause one of the experts Lee Strobel interviewed in the book is this Christian pastor... who's a Jew... Lee then sidetracks from the usual immediate interview to ask him how he came from a Jew to know Christ and... it was just awesome... basically, long story summed up, the man went back into the Old Testament, read it carefully and found SO many predictions about Jesus being the Messiah, that he calls up his mom to send him a Jewish bible just to be sure Christians weren't tossing about words, and it turns out it's the exact same thing! he then goes into the New Testament and finds out Jesus is actually about Jews in the gospel! reads further, and finds out the Jews are actually the ones who tried to get the news to the Gentiles first! what's more, Lee also shows the example of another jew who is so shocked by what he finds in the old testament about Jesus that he challenges 3 rabbis to disprove this evidence, and they simply couldn't... it's really amazing... go read the book... my short schpew won't even really cover what i think right now and know from reading it...

just to end, a short conv clip w/laura that i thought was funny(and maybe it's just me):

me: plans for tomorrow?
laura: mm nope
laura: well watching a basketball game
laura: at 7
laura: but other than that
laura: nothing
laura: i dont htink
laura: i'll make a bag
laura: hehe
me: haha
me: that's cool... what type of bag?
laura: handbag
laura: haha
laura: id unno
me: what material?
laura: cloth
laura: y
laura: ya

ok, and my mouse's crapping up too, so i'll just quit right now... plans for tomorrow? read more Case For Christ, finish my song(which i have NEVER gotten around to finish recording), then see what's up... oh yeah get IP addresses for CS... etc, etc.

Unknown to the World: about say, 40% finished recording... i'm about done with the chorus and verse one, BUT need to rerecord the power chords for the chorus. guess there's a reason ppl tune down the volume during chorus. it still sounds kinda nice. might want to record some tambourines just to get a rhythum sense in there... damnit wish i could play a drum set. and/or owned one... turntables would also be nice. but when that's done, i'm concentrating on writing a worship song so that me and wes can get together and jam for it. that'll be fun.

NBA double header on Xmas day: ok, Kings better wipe the damn Lakers' asses across the floor. as for the other game... GO MUTUMBO! (and/or Paul Pierce)

what else...

The Case For Christ is starting to become a very interesting read for me. Jesus has always stated how ppl who believe without seeing are going to be more blessed than those who believe BY seeing... but it's still awesome and spellbinding how much evidence there IS of Jesus existing, of him performing miracles and of him being the Son of God that even as a believer seeing that evidence can increase your grasp of Christianity tenfold. for instance, the fact that Jewish ppl referred to Jesus as a sorceror actually means he DID perform miracles. they could not disprove that. so instead, they tried to find some other explanation for it, but of course some of the other explanations don't sound as reasonable. it's really too much to cover what i've learned... part of it would take too long for me, and part of it would also take too long on this site.

it's strange how i miss PART of Davis, though it almost has to completely do with the high speed internet access part: watching VF movies and playing CS... but i'd rather be here playing my guitar in near-perfect silence recording songs to God any day than that deserted place. sometimes i wonder if silence really IS golden... it can be in a lotta cases.

kinda interesting watching my friends play Mahjong yesterday... hmm... Monopoly and/or Risk CAN take friendships apart... sorta... it can look kinda funny playing it with your friends. oh yeah, and it's been so long since i've played Super Smash Bros... Captain Falcon and Link are so fun to use.

friday's fun night was... interesting... the skit section was better last year, but i think other than that Alice did a very nice job of duplicating and even going beyond what we college freshmen tried last year. the skit might've been better if more ppl brought wacky props. that why last years' skit contest was better. but the poems were still very funny, probably the highlight IMO of the contests... esp our groups' fob poem :)

i am BLANK, pretty much unloaded all my thoughts just now...

nothing else satisfies me like worshipping God with all my heart... for this moment in time...

gonna love jamming with you God in the morning and afternoon... so please do me a favor and fan the flame, instead of snuffing it out. and oh yeah... please help get my ass outta bed at exactly 9 AM PST this friday... please.

-read "Case For Christ"
-jam w/God
-maybe read "Celebration of Discipline"

that'll be my top agendas for this friday.

nice... wes'll maybe help out w/bass for a song i record. that'll be cool.

i guess i'll start by griping about how cold my house is... completely forgot the natural coldness of my crib... my fingers are numb as i'm writing this, which means it's even harder to type. AND, i think i've got a headache.

finally got around to testing all the recording equipment i got from my church friends... works. i have a lot more to screw around with, cause it can mix very well, but i have to be able to fool around with it in order to get the volume of the electric guitar not to drown out my voice, yet still remain loud. also, i have to figure out how to convert it to .mp3 format. if i can figure it out even more, i might even be able to add some tambourines in there. but that'll be for any worship songs i can think up of.

TO's too funny... pom poms?!? hahah... I ROCK SO MUCH! I ROCK SO MUCH!

skiiping? jerm talk slower!
why does qq get so scared? and then there was the incident when jerm tried to freak her out...

way to spend your sunday... in a library, when you could've gone to church and hung out with mike.

ok, for the past 3 days, i went with sam, sarah, jon, norm, jerm, mike, alan, tim, eddie(laura sadly couldn't go w/us) to reno. what happened that was notable:
mon: woke up to hear that our trip was cancelled... went back to sleep, woke up to hear that we were going cause weather was improving. got 8x20 piece chicken nuggets for sharing between both suburbans, then took off. ended up going into the wrong lane at the toll bridge on the way to davis, so we ended up blowing $2. snow conditions when it started made it hecka hard to see. slowed down to 30 mph i think. sam pissed outside the suburban in the snow, got a cold dick, and got a fever the next day. then some guy got the stupid idea to check out boreal when it was snowed in, and we got stuck. massive peeing somewhere before reno... before THAT we ended up going into a weigh station by accident. @the rest stop i laughed at the bumper stickers they had up, some of them were funny. when we did get to reno we ate at some restaurant in the nugget(jerm got a 2.45 oj; if he had added 50 cents that would've been a meal) it's kinda funny, i ordered the fried catfish, and some of the others thought how maybe i just knew how to order stuff... jerm said from then on he would order whatever i ordered. we got back and slept. norm woke mike up @3 to tell him that he couldn't sleep :) jerm and norm sorta static-electrified each other and kinda pushed each other in their queen bed :) i chose the reclining couch, but didn't figure out it could recline that night, so i ended up getting up halfway through the night, propping up another chair, and sleeping like that, leg on one chair, body slouched in the couch.
tues: basically, the guys who were skiing left. leaving me, sam(he was sick), sarah, jerm, and mike. jerm's snoring went right through our room to wake sarah and sam up :) anyways, this was the first time i've seen sarah hang out with us without sam around, cause we went to breakfast and left sam in bed to come back later. got some apple cinnamon walnut french toast, which was very good. got back, and me, mike and jerm left for circus circus. ended up wasting $14 apiece, and too bad they closed off about 60% of the games. got 2 fishes, 1 pony and a bullemic bear from the chicken catapult game. some of the games there were interesting though...
fishing game... no matter what you got something, but the real good stuff was to get the rare red dish, and there was no time limit, so we just sat there looking like dorks waiting forever for a red disk... hahah, jon got the medium duck later that night, and got the Xtra large duck on wed... looks like there's something that we can beat tim at eh?
basket game... you toss a ball into a peach bucket... only jerm got this one for an ugly dog
roll the bowling ball... try to roll it so it rests in the dip... only mike got this one for a turdish beaver :) haha... i wanted that
roll the ball so it's +30 or -12... norm got this later that night for a huge bear...
drop the ball in the goblet... norm got this one INSTANTLY later that night for a seal
drop the ball in the shell... only i tried this one and got the pony later that night
we played a LOTTA racing games that night, which prob contributed to our huge loss of money... the camel, and esp the bingo game wasted money like crazy... all for a dogbee, but it was funny watching the guys play that game.
so basically later we head back and pick up sam and sarah... they were swimming... interesting... we joked about getting massages and facials and plain just ending up like women. ;) sam turns out doesn't want to ski that day, so we all go to johnny rockets for lunch then go to the nearby bowling alley to bowl... it was very slippery and long, but fun. sarah would throw these slow, but fairly accurate bowls down the lane, jerm would just drop his balls. i got maybe 4 strikes in our 2nd game, 2 of which were one right after the other on the 10th bowl.
later, we took the elevator down(hey, it's our cupertino library!) and took a look around... hmm... virtual golf arena, mini art gallery, huge candy factory(!), arcade(haha... mike wanted to challenge us to DDR, must be his game... incidently, i played Police 911 earlier), etc. by then it was 5:00 so we headed back to get the others so we could go to a buffet. we ended up taking 1 suburban and packing everyone in. at the buffet, there was so much meat and stuff. lamb, prime rib, ny steak, list goes on and on. good seafood too. too bad i couldn't eat more, it was good stuff. and don't worry, i didn't OD on meat, i know how to restrain myself.
played some circus circus, this time with everyone(we spent so much time on that bingo game), then went to bowl. it was pretty fun; a lotta weird bowling memories, like norm's between the legs. next time i bowl, i'll just remember to follow through more... i find i get better when i do that and don't do anything flashy, unlike others.
get back, and everyone's just farting... well, in our apartment... jerm and norm are just lighting up, but jon and mike are occasionally too. i'm... just glad i've got the couch :) chips... oh that is so cheezy... but FUNNY!
wed: basically, we first go to another buffet for brunch, then go back to circus circus. i'm not used to consuming mass quantities of food; i'm pretty sure i left my appetite in UCD. we go to boreal, meet up for 1 last time, take a picture, then head off. hahah... just when norman gets out of the suburban he slips on the ice and falls. :) and so we spent the last moments of our vacation... heading home.

-i'm done recaping... i can't think.

i dunno whether to say i'm relieved that finals are over or not...

+now winter break starts... time to jam with my guitar like crazy... and RECORD what i jam... not to mention worship on sunday... it's gonna be great...
-i really want to redo my chem final, like restudy all over again, and maybe revise my SAS paper again... oh geez... God please answer my prayer or i am dead... so much about pre-med... and i seriously thought i had studied for it too... God, this is what i mean by giving me good study habits... i just don't have them... HEEELLLLP MEEEE!!!

me: yea... haha... i played CS w/jerm yesterday and today morning :-)
wes: ohhh nice
wes: so the mouse is working quite nice eh?
me: yeah, it is
wes: u getting good?
me: somewhat...
wes: what was your best record
me: against newbies i get over 100% ratio of kills/deaths :-)
wes: haha
me: hey, you wanted my best record; it's against newbies, but you wanted it right?
wes: how about overall
wes: really?
me: ok... let's say on average i get about 25% ratio of kills/deaths
wes: i see
wes: not bad
me: yeah
me: y'kno in CS you can spraypaint on the ground or walls a certain design that you select in the options?
me: so i made one that has YLT on it :-)
wes: yep
wes: haha
me: now i'll just have to get a double kill and spray it :-)
wes: :-)
wes: i went like 24 n 8 once n bhd
me: nice...
me: i went like 1:22 the last time we played :-)
wes: since then ive been doin pretty good
me: the 1 being from that stray grenade i dropped
wes: hahaha
wes: dont worry i started out the same
me: but you had a mouse... that's already a sizeable advantage
me: newbie w/touchpad= free kill
wes: ahh thats with a touchpad..hehe didnt know
me: might as well have just played DOOM style: arrows and left hand fires
wes: :-P

more conversation fun on AIM...

grace: ricHARDDDDDDddddddd
me: hey whassap
me: decided it just wasn't fun anymore w/o someone making fun of ya?
grace: are u goooood at biology
me: oh, THAT... heh heh
me: um, maybe... what's your question?
grace: hahah
grace: ok.. its sorta long
me: it's ok... i'll either cut you off or listen the entire time... shoot :-)
(she asks a 2-part question and i answer the 1st part)
me: so i think that could answer question A
me: ... wait a minute... are you trying to mooch off of me?
grace: maybe...
grace: BUT U CAN MOOCh off of me!
me: ...cause if you are i'm logging off
me: oh... i can mooch off of a hmm... how to put this...
me: coughcoughdimwitchokegacksputter :-)
me: that just makes me feel SOOO much better :-)
me: tell you what... you tell me what you think the answer to question B is and i'll either tell you if it's right or wrong
me: i've already answered 1/2 of your questions
me: ... i bet you're not even trying... you're probably asking someone else now that i won't answer your 2nd question :-)
grace: hAHah faj;sldfj;alskj
grace: thANKS richhardd
me: see, trying to cover it up with your aldjadsj;lfdsjaldkjf
me: hey look i'm grace i talk like afjdk;ljdsa;fsj;
me: :-)
grace: hAHA nerdnERdnerd
me: hey... look who's got a guarenteed spot in UCD?
me: eh? eh?
me: i will be taunting your sorry ass in UCR if you don't figure out how to have good study habits soon :-)
grace: i HAVE GOOD STUDDY ahbits!
me: haha... which explains why you said you didn't last time?
grace: oh
grace: darnit!
grace: really
me: haha
me: please... stop making me roll around with laughter :-)
grace: HAH.. jfa;lskdfja;lsfa;ls bE NICE
me: i am nice... in a weird sarcastic way :-)
me: can't you picture me grinning as i'm writing this?
grace: no
grace: ahhahaha
grace: well yes
me: haha... see... don't you LOOVE that christmas spirit? of me grinning from mocking you?
grace: oooooof course
grace: ahhaah what're u doing
grace: when ju omcing back/
me: see, this is why you're going to UCR... i can't understand what the heck you just wrote :-)
me: now, can you rephrase that... in ENGLISH?
me: :-)
me: oooh... wait... when are you coming back... OOOH... ok... saturday afternoon... why, bored?
grace: OKKKK i dont tlka like that!!!
grace: i talk .. coherently
grace: moST OF hte itme
me: ...now i just DON'T GET WHAT THE HELL YOU'RE SAYING! do you mean most of the time, cause you wrote "most of hte itme" what the heck is "hte itme"? :-)
grace: well
grace: it means the time
grace: HAhah

getting better @CS... i had my moment today... down to 1 on 2... with an AK47... headshot the 1st CT, then strafed back and forth and gunned down the 2nd one for a 2-in-a-row kill, giving our team the win... jerm was watching since he was already dead... he was like "Go ReCharred!" haha... YLT? anyways, it's pretty fun playing CS w/jerm... and i guess i'm not a complete newbie, because i HAVE watched jon play for some time in UCD now :)

i have the weirdest CS config ever... it centers around the fact that i am left-handed and play electric guitar... thus my left-up/down-right is controlled by pinky-ring-middle... and i make use of the fact that i was given an optical mouse w/a wheel, so i reload with the wheel and toggle the 2nd weapon w/the wheel.

plan to create a YLT and nha un doc spraypaint for CS... also plan to record at least one of my songs over break...

also, just registered for my 4th class... i hope God was helping me when i was doing it, cause i have no idea if the electives i chose would be right for me.

talk later... gotta study... pray for me...

oh yeah... now Davis' bowling alley does keep track of your scores electronically, so that's cool... i still mainly go there to play MVC1 now, not bowl... but if you guys ever wanna... why not...

i am about 50% into my SAS essay, am kinda braindead about it though... it's due on saturday, and i can turn it in up to 6 pm... doubtful i'll want to stay that long in UCD though. my math final's done for, so it's just that and chem(i think i can say chem's about 50% done with)...

i would hope that God helps me not to forget him and to foster in me a desire to do the best i can with anything i do... i would also hope he gives me self-control in order to discern what is right from wrong, or what is better from what is worse.

someone pray for all the schoolers that we all know... we ALL need motivation to study... it's what gets the grades... i just want the motivation to learn...

problem w/me playing CS is that i get too panicky when i see more then 1 person at once and so i overaim the mouse... i could turn down the mouse sensitivity, but i think it's more due to my uncalmness that causes this.

i'll talk later... i can't really think right now, and need to study.

i'm doing better at CS- both at playing it, and capping my time :) btw, now everyone on my dorm floor wants to play with opposing force and blue shift :) chem study when i get back, then off to the MU

talked w/olivia today! heh heh, whoopdedoo...

olivia: richard, can i ask you what fuels ur faith?
me: um... hmm... a good worship song, maybe hope?
me: i've never been asked this question before, so i don't know how to answer you :-)
olivia: that's cool...
olivia: just wondering what keep u on track with God... or draws you to Him.. what makes you want to worship HIm?
me: umm... when something makes me stand in awe of him
me: that makes me wanna worship him
me: when someone offers some new insight that i haven't thought of before
me: that makes me get drawn closer to God
olivia: cool.
olivia: mee too.
me: and also when i can remind myself that i have something special in Christianity that nonbelievers don't, that also draws me closer to God
me: there's a lotta stuff that fuels my faith, those are just the general stuff
olivia: ... what gets you daily? Do you talk with jon? do you read? do you go and listen to sermons?
me: i sit and muddle
olivia: hm. :-)
olivia: muddle, eh?
me: yeap
olivia: i'm so glad that God meets you in your muddle time
olivia: :-)

stupid hotmail won't let me in for the past 3 days... anyone else get this problem, or is it just me?

what i find interesting is basically after talking to jerm on the sermon down in riverside, is that:

-the end will come after all the nations have heard the gospel, then support for Israel will withdraw, and then read my other log of this day for more info...

what if you know God and have accepted Jesus, but sin RIGHT when Jesus comes? are we still taken into heaven? jerm asked me this and i didn't know how to respond... i would assume that Jesus would understand and STILL take you into heaven, but i dunno... still this fear... makes me occasionally get on my knees and ask for forgiveness from God cause i fear i don't have it right and might be taken right there.

this kindles an interest for me to start the later books of the old testament... imagine how much stuff has been predicted that has NOT occurred yet.

should we be worried? no, if you're a christian, then this promise applies:

Psalm 91:7-8: A thousand may come at your side, ten thousand at your right side, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.

notes of the sermon @norm's church on 12.8.02... i think it was very interesting and bilical based... plz read my notes that i took... it will clear up a LOT of the questions about what happens near the end of the world.

Luke 21: End of the World Near?

Destruction of temple: parallel to Twin Towers?

What Jesus predicted turned out to be exactly true... think of when the temple was taken down stone by stone
So think of what will be fulfilled in the future that God predicted

Matthew 16:2-3- You can see the obvious, but you can't see the signs of the times, according to Jesus when he's talking to the stiff-minded ppl

You can't find out when Jesus will come back, but you always hear those rumors of when he will come

You can however see many signs of that time coming...

Israel- about 2x of Riverside, Zechariah 12:9
(when Jerusalem is surrounded by armies, the end is near... God wants to destroy all the nations that come against Jerusalem)

Ezekiel 36:22- God brought back the Jews although they were scattered amongst the nations

Ezekiel 36:28-30- Israel has become right

2nd sign: Ezekiel 38-39- Magog... no love for Israel... modern-day is Russia... marches against Israel w/allies(Persia?)

Ezekiel 38:8

Ezekiel 38:9-11

summary of events to end of world
---------------------------------
1st: Israel regathered- DONE
2nd: Israel dwells in confidence- DONE
3rd: Israel has hostile enemies- DONE
4th: Israel isolated; not yet... we the US still support them

as we have kept supporting Israel we would be blessed, but pressure is increasing to withdraw from Israel

after the conflict, God draws back the army, and Israel will mourn, and a revival will occur. he will then pour out his spirit upon Israel.

before this, the rapture will occur. it is not until we meet Christ before the following occurs...

Revolution 13:16-18
there is an antichrist who will come and draw others to himself. he will attempt a peace that supposedly end the conflict between Jews and Palestinians. then he comes up with the idea that someone only allowed to buy w/a mark.

think of the microchip that can be implanted in their skin...

you should be looking for CHRIST though, not the antichrist...

somebody pray for me... haven't gone to fellowship or church in Davis this week... not that i'm falling away from God(i feel like i'm communicating with him more than last year), but i've been going to sleep more later than before... so that totally ruins my strength to get up for church... i'm hoping that i will study and finish all my stuff before friday night so i can attend fellowship again...

haha... our live Math review session on TV looks like a cooking show... with letters substituted for ingredients... oh, lesse, we'll just add a dash of variable y to here(writes on equation on screen), then mix and take this over here, a little subtraction, and viola! we get the equation for a parabola!

i think i will be watching online church again tonight... given if i have the time...

must put a time cap on CS when i play, or i'll just run loose... it happened late last night, it could happen again.

oh yeah, i know we've wondered about this thought before; is God able to sin? i mean, he really is God, he can get away with it, can't he? and of course ppl will respond, "no, cause it goes against his nature." and then it goes back to the thought of his absolute power. so my answer to that is this: YES, God is able to sin, because he is able to do whatever he wants. BUT, he has a reputation to hold up, and because it's the very definition that defines him as the biblical God, he MUST hold up this image of him being a holy, righteous, just God, slow to anger, quick to forgive. basically, God wouldn't be called God if he sinned... he would have absolute power still, but he would NOT be called God. think about what would happen if God really did decide to sin... people would go, "oh, because God's able to sin, I can sin too... God's the creator of the universe and knows everything doesn't he?" if God did sin, then we could argue that atheists are right... because if what we define as a God doesn't match our God, then do we really have a God? but thank God that he's willing to hold up this definition of being a God, and because of that, we have hope...

stuff to do tonight:
finish studying for Math(shouldn't take too long)
write some more for SAS final paper
online church
write some notes on worship
and then when all's said and done... visit the MU for some MVC1 ass-whupping, maybe come back and play some CS

know what Phil gave me for my bday?

Half-Life Platinum Collection...
includes
half-life, opposing force, team fortress classic, blue shift, and counter-strike

that's so tempting...

well, actually i'd still prefer MVC1 over this, but hey, something else to do in Davis now.

i'm getting better @ MVC1... can now combo into Chun-Li's air QCF+2K more reliably... and can rushdown a lot better with her. still need practice with my Ryu though. though it was kinda funny doing a semi tick-throw with him against a challenger yesterday... i guess the 1st time he played against me he knocked out my Chun-Li with his Wolverine dead and Strider still alive, then my Ryu comes in and i immediately do QCB+2K(which i guessed correctly), and overrid his attack for the win. next game i have Ryu and he has the same team w/Wolvie on point, he blocked my QCB+2K(which is counterable but only if you acted quick), landed and threw him which KO'd his Wolverine.

if i answer to you on AIM that i am studying, it can range from writing a term paper, to taking notes, to actually studying for a test... i now lump everything required to do better in college as "studying."

SAS final requirements: 20% completed
Chem final requirements: 10% completed(because that 10% is an estimation of how much i've remembered)
Math final requirements: 80% completed(because that class is braindead easy... i think... but i'm not going to take risks, i'll study manana)

can't wait til Xmas... but i'm not really into that fruity Xmas cheer stuff... it's all about the fellowship... i dislike how fruity commercialism makes Xmas... totally distorts what its true meaning is.

to do list for the rest of tonight...
-after eating, study for chem(gotta start sometime... i can leave the math stuff til the last minute)
-go to MU and play some more MVC1
-come back and write up some notes on worship, pray for others
(i can also figure out my 4th class at the last moment, like 1 day beforehand, so no worry there)

here's the thoughts i'll leave the reader with tonight:
"Two things I ask of you, O Lord; do not refuse me before I die: Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, 'Who is the Lord?' Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God."
-Proverbs 30:7-9 *surprising how this was written by Agur son of Jakeh and not Soloman... also, note how in v2-3 he expresses his humility towards Proverbs 9:10*

always pull the Mike Shinoda when worshipping, and be content in all circumstances.

i would totally trade this concert for Sum 41 playing today...

Spot Rock Tour

and it's taking place @UCI too! grrr... heh heh, well they ARE playing earlier in Sac, so i guess i can't complain, but still... Relient K, Pillar, Sanctus Real?!? that's already 3 christian bands i like...

unnamed new song from David Crowder Band... listen for free

pray for jerm's right knee... no heal, no exercise, and that's bad.

i found this on the final slide of a Powerpoint presentation for my SAS class from a guest speaker, available for download on the class website:

"Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference."

i know that it's the attitude that counts... not the grades... i really want to earn that A... God's not going to give it to me. that's why i want an attitude from God where i WANT to learn, and that will make things so much easier. so when i went into Chemistry 2A, i didn't go in thinking that it's just a buncha chemicals, i went in thinking that i'm studying God's awesome design and structure for objects. therein lies the problem now... with that change of angle, it doesn't make it seem better if i'm not getting an A, cause then i'll be lamenting "I'm flunking God 2A!!!" heh heh... but yeah God... give me that attitude.

worship involves 2 things... the outward and inward. the outward is your appearance and what you do, the inward, your attitude. with only the outward comes legalism. on the other hand, if you really had an attitude for glorifying God on the inside, it WOULD be reflected by your outside... often our reluctance to show our attitude on the outside is more due to our fear than our style. but people don't realize this, and they need to be reschooled to learn this. also, a worship session is much more different from a concert... whereas a concert has musicians performing for many, a worship session has many people performing for one... in that case, the audience is as much a performer as the musicians on stage. also keep in mind that worship is the very nature of our obeying God, and how we should follow him. God also expects you to worship him with all your strength. finally, true worship often involves a sacrifice.

more to add later... should eat.

Sum 41's coming to UCD today at 6 pm... i just made laura jealous with that(no one come to la according to her cept for rxbandits)... she misses rock concerts... wants to jump around. anyways, also the fact that it's only $18.

me: whoa... your fall set of classes are already finished?!?
mandy: hey
mandy: yeah
mandy: but not finals
me: oh... then why so happy?
me: Xmas is a way's off
mandy: dude stop bursting my bubbles!
mandy: =P
me: hahah

me: i don't feel like studying
me: my mind's just sorta like 0_0
mandy: just go sleep
mandy: past a certain pt, its useless to try to study
mandy: well maybe not useless, but very unproductive
me: true that
mandy: just put ur books under ur pillow
mandy: maybe some stuff will sneak in
me: oh yes, mr. osmosis
me: hey if that works, what would happen if i keep my laptop online, hibernate it, and put a pillow over it?
me: would i absorb the www? :-)
mandy: umm
mandy: maybe just radiation
me: hahah... kinda like wondering whether rolling in toxic waste would give me superpowers or lymphoma
mandy: haha
mandy: um
mandy: lets not try that
me: heh heh
me: you're replying slower... acting like 0_0 too eh? :-)
mandy: haha
mandy: yea im tired

adds to prayer list: pastor yap- in coma in san diego

...thanks all who prayed for his right arm and thanks God... no more pain, just slight stiffness...

wonder if God's trying me... i've got a sore right humerus at the connecting point between the ulna and radius on the dorsal side(it IS getting better though... thanks for anyone who prayed for me there)... i also have 3 emulator sega games on my laptop, and a mic and recording software in my dorm, plus the fact that i have finals next week. oh, the agony... at least my last chem lab has been finished... well, at the least the last one of this year.

SSF2 DeeJay has some sick pokes... standing roundhouse is far-ass(i love it), crouching short is a fast mid-range move, close-standing roundhouse can be an anti-air, so can standing fierce. i still need to see what good jump-ins he has, and what of his normal moves is an effective anti-air(i don't think d,u+tapP is very effective since you need to charge it... being able to trade hits with your jumper is actually good enough)... projectile recovers very quickly, almost the same calibur as the sonic boom.

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In a room without a view
A new mother smiles and holds the tiny fingers
Of her brand new baby girl
Her husband takes her by the hand
So unsure about the future and no money
Can they make it in this world
And they pray, Lord all we have to give is love
Then they heard a gentle voice, like an echo from above

I have been there
I know what fear is all about
Yes, I have been there
I'm standing with you now
I have been there
And I came to build a bridge oh so this road could lead you home
Oh I have been there

He'd been a pastor twenty years
But tonight he sits alone and brokenhearted in the corner of the church
He's tried to save a fallen world
With his words and with his wisdom
But it seems like it is only getting worse
And he cried, Oh Lord I just don't understand
And then he felt the hand of grace, and he heard a voice that said

Yes, I have been there
I know what pain is all about
I have been there
And I am standing with you now
I have been there
And I came to build a bridge oh so this road could lead you home
Oh I have been there

An older man up on hill
Holding flowers but he can't hold back the tears
He has come to say goodbye
He thinks about the life she lived
Thinks about how hard it's been to live without her
sixty years right by his side
And he cries, Oh Lord I loved her 'til the end
Then he heard a gentle voice say you'll see her once again

I have been there
I know what sorrow is all about
Yes, I have been there
And I am standing with you now
I have been there
And I came to build a bridge oh so this road could lead her home
The road could lead her home

Oh I have been there
Well I overcame the cross
I have been there
So her life would not be lost
I have been there
And I came to build a bridge oh so this road could lead you home
The road could lead you home
Oh I have been there

I Have Been There
-Mark Schultz
*this song makes me shiver... the bass at the beginning, the lyrics... the bridge right before the chorus... like hope... anytime you feel downhearted, go back and listen to this song
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next time, i'm looking what objects are around me before throwing out my arms like that... my right humerus/tricep is sore and screams out everytime i contract my right bicep. haha... prayer for recovery would be nice...

next time i lead worship, i'm pulling a mike shinoda(read below for more info) ;)

me: cser :-)
jerm: (away message) i am not available because i am playing a game that takes up the whole screen
jerm: lalelallela cs is so fun
me: haha
me: read my blog... i will go jogging/sprinting to jack-in-the-box with you... so will laura
jerm: hahaha
me: and since jack in the box is kinda distant from your house, that means it'll help you more than hurt you
jerm: lol
jerm: jack-in-the box is not tooo far away =)
jerm: prolly half way from my house to church
me: ok, so that's good
jerm: but i don't even LIKE jack in the box
me: fine, fine, you wanna go further, we can try in-and-out :-)
jerm: lol
jerm: run from church to in n out?
jerm: hhahh
me: no, from your house to in-n-out
me: silly :-)
me: well, actually from church is fine too
jerm: lol
me: the key to getting back from in-n-out is to try to run back before it cools :-)
me: there's your motivation to run faster :-)
me: it was for me :-)
jerm: hahah
me: actually, when i carried my food back, it wasn't steaming hot, but wasn't cold either
jerm: LOL
me: i had to tuck my bag under my jersey and sprint like crazy... some people mustve thought i had stolen something :-)
jerm: HAHAHHAH
jerm: possibly!
me: but yeah, let's try this when i get back :-)
jerm: lol maybe
jerm: hahh don't thik 'id make it
me: if you want an extra challenge, we can try this during night... so the food'll cool even faster, making you have to run even faster... not to mention fear of whatever lurks in the night... it'll get you back to church in no time :-)
jerm: hahah
me: c'mon, we can try it...
me: me and laura will back you... she says you can prob run from your house to jack in the box and back...
jerm: bbl.. gotta pi ck up my sister
jerm: hahah
jerm: from church is easier
jerm: lol
jerm: i'll die yo
me: hahah... you'll lose weight, not die... i'll bring a pack of water

i should cut and paste this, i meant to do this a while ago:

Anyways, when you look for a church, try to find one which emphasizes teaching through the Bible, maybe even pastors who exposit entire passages, rather than topical messages. Lot of sorry churches out there. The only way you're gonna really grow in faith is to incorporate the Word into your life, and at a Bible-based church, you'll have more examples of mature believers who do so. College will be make or break for you spiritually, cuz you'll have to set your priorities. Lot of people are seen to fall away in college, because they set their priorities elsewhere.
...
Yeah, I would rather go to a conservative church, that has a high view of the word, than a church with a cool praise band and no teaching. Michelle and I are going to a small church. Most of the people are pretty old, but I like it because because the teaching is sound. There's a lot of heresy going around, and the only objective truth is found in the Bible. That's why we must base our faith from the Bible, not from our own subjective thought. That is a very common philosophy these days (post-modernism), you see it in politics, morals, etc. "If I'm all right with it, than it's alright." But you think about it, this doesn't make sense because there's no absolute truth. Christians even do this when they say, "I think God is like this... instead of this is what the Bible says about God." In the end, we are only creating an idol of who we think God to be, but is really not God at all.

-Fill

bob: just read Paul's musings on contentment this morning for QT
bob: "11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength. "
bob: Phil 4
me: wow... so is my attitude christlike based upon a contentment factor?
bob: I think it's similar to an "inner peace", where your heart is closely attuned to God's, and you are easily moved by those things that move His heart
bob: where "on fire" is not referring to an emotional state but a simple knowledge of purpose
bob: that God is our all, all the time
me: so would "on fire" might be referred to more as determination and less of an emotion?
bob: emotion plays a part, because emotion is a big part of who we are as human beings... what I think we need to strive for though, is to be more like... here's an analogy... like lit charcoal rather than lighter fluid
bob: lighter fluid will flare up real big, and will flare up each time you throw more on the fire
bob: but charcoal will actually be effective in its purpose, which is cooking
me: would lighter fluid be analogious to determination in this picture?
me: because if that's the case, i really think it would be the other way
me: often you don't start something unless if emotion wills you... and then determination carries through
bob: in this picture, charcoal is a "purpose-driven life" and lighter fluid would be more analogous to emotion
bob: sometimes emotion can carry you to make a commitment to something
me: oh, i see, yeah, that makes sense
bob: but the desire to follow through comes from God
me: so God would be the match
bob: God's the cook :-)
bob: the match could be anything that lights you up
bob: could be a sermon, or a testimony, or a missions trip that gives you a vision
me: heh heh
bob: that leads you to the attitude and the place where God wants to use you

me: haha... jerm's reaction to my diet plan was this: "i think if i sprinted to jack-in-the-box i would die midway" :-)
laura: haha
laura: that wouldnt be good
laura: jack in the box is that far from his house?
laura: hmm
me: well, as far as i can remember the jack in the box in mt view is sorta near castro
laura: oic
laura: hmm
laura: there's one on el camino
me: that's what i was gonna say
me: but yeah, would be funny to watch jerm try that :-)
me: painful, actually :-)
laura: aww
laura: he can do it
me: yeah i guess, but it'd be painful to watch him struggle so much :-)
me: maybe just so i don't eat my words i should tag along with him when he does it and run with him... you can be there too :-)
laura: hehe
laura: ok
me: lets do this either xmas break or summer eh? :-)
me: if i can remember i'll remind you again there :-)
me: and jerm :-)
laura: alrite
laura: ok

me: on a sidenote... i keep thinking back to this moment when we were leading worship on friday... it's when we were playing "not be shaken" i felt like i was doing a "mike shinoda"
laura: hahah
laura: you shoula
laura: da
laura: you should have
me: eh?
me: cause you've been to lp concerts
me: it's like during "one step closer" when he's always rallying others saying stuff like "i want you guys to say shut up... i can't hear ya!" and stuff like that
me: and yeah, i felt like that saying "i want you guys to shout when we say shout" :-)
laura: hHh
laura: you did say that
me: yeah, i should do that next time IF we want to do this again... mike really wanted others to get into it... seems only bob and maybe a few others did... only when i rallied them did they break it out
laura: oix
laura: c
laura: we should pray in between songs
laura: and read bible verses
me: that'd be cool, yeah
laura: ya
me: it's really cause of time constraints that we couldn't do that this time, but if we do this again, certainly
laura: oic
laura: ok
laura: yay
laura: good

jerm: needs essay prayer and diet prayer

a large part of what i believe will get me though college is this: recognizing the moment for what it's worth and always swaying with the holy moments

ok, that's all i'm gonna say... chem lab writeups take up a LOT of my time. it's currently 12:37 AM. not that i completely detest them... but i could be doing so much else, y'kno?

this will be my college prayer:
that i will break it out more...
that i will commune w/you more...
that i will look to the attitude first, then the grade...
that you WILL foster that attitude and that it's all you...
that i will look @others in the best of interests though you...
...this is my prayer, God... amen

bball sports hilight
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the final seconds of the college bball match between maryland and indiana were CRAZY... tied at 68, maryland hits a half court shot at the end of the 2nd half at the buzzer... w00000t! but then, it turns out, the player released the ball AFTER the buzzer by like 0.1 of a sec... oh man... indiana then comes back in overtime to win the game, by which they were being punished for the majority of the game... amazing.

yao ming leads the rockets to win over the spurs... crazy. that guy just dominates on offense. put backs, dunks/layups, jumpers, assists... crazy.

yeah, washington beats the bucks 103-78.
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how the grinch stole xmas WAS on cartoon network a few min ago.

me: hey yeah listen, i'm gonna go to lunch now, but if you want the batman beyond episodes i downloaded(for your breaks from the paper), i can give them to ya afterward
laura: nah
me: unless if you're going to tell me TV's bad too :-)
laura: it's alrite
laura: theyre not fnny
laura: tv is bad
me: haha...
me: just like i thought :-)
me: it's like i'm getting a feeling that you think anything involving a screen and considered entertainment is bad :-)
laura: ok ohaha
laura: no
laura: just i could be doing other things
laura: ya
laura: and not hurting my eyes

jerm's reaction to my diet plan: "i think if i sprinted to jack-in-the-box i would die midway"

i've come to realize i haven't really been achieving a sense of sadness here in davis, discontentment, or even to some extent loneliness(though i still miss you college ppl), but that i have a feeling of... contentment. not extreme happiness, but not extreme sadness either. a point where i kinda just like taking it a bit at a time, getting what comes. if you were to put a facial expression on this, it wouldn't be a big wide grin, or a huge frown, but a sorta lift of the eyebrows, a slight upward turn of the lips. and i'm fine with that... i still wish i felt like i was on fire to do worship and break it out 24/7. of course, this feeling will vanish around the end of finals... because i will probably feel extreme disappointment followed by a peak in happiness.

bob's right, thanksgiving's the only holiday where commercialism isn't the main point... but then, we ARE christians, so then the holidays are for us a time of fellowship and getting reaquainted. for others, the holidays are a feeling of gluttony, greed, and discontentment. how sad... ppl are missing out. i'm beginning to love thanksgiving over christmas, due to the things we do around there... esp this year. too fun, turkey bowl, bdays, and esp friday worship... i just love it. y'kno, if my thanksgiving EVERY year was just like that, i'd be so happy. but the meaning of christmas still holds so much... speaking of which...

superficiality... bah, i loathe it. when you're so shallow that you think christmas is going to be bad because you can't top your department sales of last year... that is pathetic.

G F# Em D C B A
G F# Em D C DD
G___________________________C_____DD
Jesus you alone shall be my first love...

love this upbeat worship song... in distortion of course...

and to think no one was going to thank us for doing worship on thanksgiving friday... my heart's touched...

david: i gotta go but i wanted to say thanks for the praise night you guys did and i know this is really late...but happy birthday
david: so yea
me: hahah... thanks a lot
david: i gotta go right now
me: do you think it would be a good idea to do it again next year?
david: iyea
david: it'd be hella cool
me: alright :-)
david: you guys could start a tradition
me: but next time, it'd be cool if i saw more people getting into the music
me: mike expressed this
david: yea
david: maybe get more people to show up as well
me: yeah, i needed to email more ppl... some ppl are still on (sun.com mailing list), not the yahoogroups mailing list
me: and maybe 7:30 was a better idea
me: but yeah... thanks for the feedback
david: hehe yea

is this a joke?

http://www.msn.com/, 7:35 PM, PST:

under the MSN top headlines under MSNBC news, it says this:
"Bush: Iraq signs 'not encouraing' "

hahahah...

i dislike my davis dorm chair, for the simple reason that it isn't stable.

jerm looks too funny sneezing in his webcam.

kazoom is a damn POS of a program... first of all, it didn't speed up my downloads noticeably at all, and when i tried to remove the program, it was insanely hard trying to. plus, there is this one POS file in there that JUST WON'T DELETE! and i swear that kazoom is not on my computer, so i don't see how it can't be deleted because it's still running... POS...

batman beyond roXors... the 1st 2 episodes will blow you away... too good.

wanna try my diet program? just do this:

from tercero K in UCD, sprint all the way across campus, down G street, then leftward to Jack In the Box; order some sandwich and fries, then sprint all the way back... try to keep the sprinting sections down to about 10 minutes each.... since the total trip's about say 3 mi or more. then feel free to consume the sandwich and fries. i just did that. it'd be pretty funny if i ended up losing weight because of this. then i can be recharred the "jack in the box" guy... take that jarrod :)

jerm's reaction: i think if i sprinted to jack-in-the-box i would die midway

thanks again for the recording equipment you CTCC guys... i can't do anything right these 2 weeks cause of finals, but i'll try to get something up by the end of the year. and knowing me...

i loved my thanksgiving break, here's the recap:

wed:
came back and bought the ac adapter for my flanger pedal... heh heh... the guys at guitar center dunno how to work the register. what was nice was the correct adapter cost me $5 less. money saved. then headed to target to purchase a yu gi oh(haha) action figure for jerm's bday. it was basically between that and fake mickeydee's french fries. headed home to call up wes and laura for worship prac.
but the main fun part was going to church, meeting up w/wes and going shopping for jerm's gift. and what did we settle on? heh heh... a huge stuffed snow monster. with a little tuft of hair. i thought the expression of the monster even looked like jeremy when he's scared. btw, we passed an upside down 45 mph sign while going to target.
too much fun practicing worship, with flanger and dis/od pedals. turns out laura came and left while we were shopping, so we had to call her back. 1st time we actually WANTED laura to be late. wes was there playing bass, so was jen, trying to offer up requests that none of us listened to ;) lazy jen, get off your ass and finish your UC aps! jerm arrived late. laura did decide to use phil's acoustic guitar to play, but she was too amp-shy to want to play turned up, and she was also pretty tired, so she ended up being piled on with beanbags in a corner. i think me and wes were the ones who were having the most fun.

thurs:
turkey bowl... there were a couple of incidences, like karen ramming into jeff, andrea stripping bob, jeff's running, eric's tumbling ;) sam going long. then we started off with the smallest team ever. ended up trading michael for george. and everyone else was taking forever to plan plays, while we just huddled and decided on doing the exact same play. also, we're lazy, so we decided on zone defense. i do remember getting a LOT of catches though, cause our primary options almost never worked ;) i still wish i jumped for my 2nd to last play... i just streaked forward, and drew clement and tim towards me... i think all the other guys stopped to watch me, and if i had jumped, i prob would have had a really good chance of making a catch. argh!
jerm's bday party. haha... may god bless you... ?!? good korean BBQ though. mandy's in an Xmas mood... oh yeah, she came home on mon... and when her parents asked if she had class, she just shrugged ;) lydia played innocent which looked kinda funny. also, laura and lydia showed up with... kashi(reason being they were too tired to shop for him on wed, and prob weren't bright enough to realize that all the stores close on thurs, which is why they prob only got stuff from a supermarket)? why do you give that to a guy for his bday present? haha... but it was all good. kiwi crapped... had some stains... on his ass and the cement. it was cool watching jerm open all the gifts. and his reactions with them.
thanksgiving dinner w/mom... it was good, not like the previous years, cause mom was too tired to want to cook an entire turkey, but roasted turkey drumsticks w/ carrots, soup and pumpkin pie was enough.

fri:
woke up too late, which blew the entire purpose of that free day. lesse, then was too unwilling to do math hw. spent most of this day prepping for worship, and ended up getting to church 30 min later than planned. then i couldn't find out how to turn on the sound system for lets say, a good 20 min. of course, laura was unwilling to turn UP the guitar volume or sing into the mike loudly until we started for real. i ended up bringing my laptop cause jerm doesn't have one. it was kinda all a big rush for prep... we ended up cutting the song list short to 12 songs, then requests afterward. practice took a bit to get into. no riffs that i could play cause we couldn't play together... bob, makes me wanna play with the coppercoins team again. but it was fun and pure enthusiasm for god. and no ONE really showed up til 8:00, cept for justin, who showed up precisely at 7:00(god bless that young man) and i wasn't spotless either... i screwed up a couple of times. heh heh... mike did the osama bin hidin, which was funny. but b4 we started, we went back to pray(just like we've been always doing... except laura's new to this... she expressed it too; gotta lot to learn, laurster) in the end though, i have to admit it was extremely fun for me. we all had our screw ups, but it was FUN playing the fast, upbeat songs(jesus you alone, not be shaken, arise, all those were my faves). then we played pressing on, and man, did i screw up :). i need more practice. otherwise it was fun. even mike got into it... throwing his sticks across the room when we finished. i think i did a mike shinoda when i told everyone "i wanna hear you guys shout when we say shout." but it did get everybody into it, and was fun seeing that happen. would be nicer if we keep up this tradition, it was FUN. we need to get more people enthusiastic about this. and for us, the guys who play the instruments, we need to learn how not to taper off near the end of a long chain of upbeat songs. hahah... then jerm started typing weird song lyrics to a song. justin also helped out george with the sound stuff... which was nice to watch. there's a lotta memories all compressed into those 5 hours we spent there.
then we headed to farley, ate some potluck leftovers, and played catch phrase. some memorable incidences involving that.
louis: *tick**tick**tick**tick**tick**tick**buzz*

louis: uh i think the correct answer is *buzz*

mike: ok this is something you put on your arm-
jerm: -vaseline!
mike: -that you use to hit someone with

mike: something you sit on opposite another person and go up and down
jerm: *breaks out laughing*

sat:
my bday, which i wasted until mike invited me to his house. then we went out with some of the guys to bowl. heh heh... i beat jerm. jon showed off his new car. then we went to tony roma's
ok, so we saw like 3 black guys there. 1st time mike spilled his water, norm leaped outta his seat and the 3 black guys cracked up. 2nd time... one of them turned around and said "dang, you do that again? i'm sitting over here!"
then when the waitress called our attention "may i have your attention please... we have a birthday... everyone sing happy birthday to diane!" heh heh... then the black guys hecka cracked jokes it was funny. when they did that with me though, the black guys were saying stuff like "happy birthday dick" and "drinks on dick!" heh heh. then when we left, we heard them saying "you guys need to get dick a girl... he looks like he needs to get laid!" hhahahahahha they could be football players... too bad we never found out.
at tim's house, we watched some he-man(the stretchy neck guy cracks me up)... then laura shows up with nothing for me, but gives me a hug. oh yeah, got some pretty good stuff. thanks again for everyone who wished me a good bday and gave me stuff. norm... wake up... it's the slideshow :) so did phil, which was awesome... you're the best, bro.

sun:
joe and paul showed up. so did laura and lydia. so we all kinda met for sunday worship, then left our own separate ways right afterward. i think me and jerm lingered around the longest. and basically we headed our own separate ways after that... and here i am. i'm gonna go get something to eat nearby...

I LOVE WORSHIP

y'kno, it's gonna get to a point where i just detest ANY cafeteria food at Davis... like right now my breakfast was almost entirely composed of fruit... haven't had any juicy stuff for a long time. most of my 5-a-day has been from vegetables here. steamed ones.

whoopdedoo, laura's getting a guitar around winter break. probably an acoustic one, cause she feels that she isn't so HARDCORE right now, like she says. hey, whoever said i'm hardcore? just need to extend your listening to something i dunno, beyond punk rock?

i'm still surprised that justin wants to know how to play drums... god bless that good man :)

this is the 1st time i've gone nearly total commando style in davis... jon's a veteran though :)

me: btw, you must be pretty happy to type in yellow and pink right now :-)
laura: haha
laura: ya
me: see, if i did that, people would think i'm gay :-)
me: heh heh
laura: haha
laura: no not true
laura: well if you're so not gay
laura: then it's just funny
me: you mean i am? :-)
laura: huh?
laura: well my friend has a pink background
laura: and it's just funny
me: heh heh
me: so maybe i should change my bg to a light purple color and my font color to a bright pink color? :-)
laura: no
laura: that's a bit too much
me: 'k, so *heh heh* how much is "just-right" gay? :-)
laura: mm dont be gay
laura: unless you that secure about it

go watch the music video of Linkin Park's "Cure For the Itch"(techno version... y'kno, the title which isn't spelled correctly) at Launch.com... pure entertainment... nothing but breakdancing during the entire video... and very good turntabling... 2 thumbs up for Hahn's DJing abilities.

my fingers ache... ditto w/my eyes... the road to writing up chorded versions of worship songs is hard and tiring... but the end is worth it

jon: are you going to get jeremy anything for his birthday?
me: i dunno, i don't have a lotta money, so i'll just end up giving something like "this is what i think of when think of you" type of gift
jon: you mean food?
me: yes.... i mean NO!!!! well, maybe i could give him a dog chew bone
jon: help him lose weight

but yeah, seriously, what AM i gonna get him?

i think what'll end up happening for me this year, is that this'll be the 1st year i end up buying something for myself this birthday... i was too lazy to reply back to my brother, and HINT about what i wanted for my bday... oh well, there's always christmas. but i'm starting to not really care... God's blessed me with so much that at this point i'm not sure an additional tangible thing would be necessary, aside from maybe a 12 Stones CD.

to bed i go... class @7:30. don't wanna be crapped out for the rest of the day... gotta finish revising my essay and print it out. and finish writing up the rest of the songs we wanna do.

there's more to pray about than we think... >D

how can jon think davis is chilly now? i seriously love the current weather state... sunny, with occasional gusts of wind... so not too hot, not too cold. if this was heaven's climate, i'd be so happy. just get an extremely great feeling outside, pure adorance of God.

you don't know how much of a relief it is to be done with the 1st draft of your midterm paper... it's like the clouds just broke apart and the sun just burst forth. will edit later, and tomorrow.

David Crowder Band- Our Love Is Loud

nothing gets me in the mood than a good worship band, all playing together in harmony in each instrument's distinct way. like the song i just stated.

heading off to lunch now.

i'm supposed to be typing up my SAS midterm paper right now so i don't have to overwork myself the next 2 days, so lemme make what i wanna say for now short...

after buying the DOD AC adapter, and going back to Davis, it turns out that i bought an AC adapter which won't work... at least they still sell an AC adapter for discontinued fX pedals like the one i have... so i'm gonna have to return it and get the correct one this time... no more mistakes, reach. don't worry though... i still have some batteries, so i'll just have to do this worship session with batteries... well, actually i could do the actual thing with the adapter... just that the practices will have to be with batteries.

jerm needs help losing weight... he really does... pray for him...

that's it... keep encouraging me, bob(and whoever from our church is reading this): i can get pretty lazy at times.

oh yeah, i know we don't usually talk about the taiwanese congregation side of our CTCC church, but if you read this, please pray for Pastor Tong... a large part of the taiwanese congregation doesn't like him. it seems like he's just taking advantage of his long contract. according to my mom, he spends at least 1 week out of 1 month in Indonesia, and when he's here, his sermons are hardly scripture-based. no lesson to them either. and sometimes it also seems like his pride gets in the way... like one time he told the taiwanese choir right in front of the entire congregation that their music wasn't good and that when he was in the indonesian choir, everyone lined up to believe in jesus. what else... oh yeah, how bout the fact that he barely knows anybody from the congregation by name? also, we can't get rid of him, cause we signed a contract that puts him here for 4 yrs i think? so i think the only solution is to pray that the elders will have the courage to talk to Pastor Tong and tell him that some of his actions aren't right and that he needs to change them. now, i'll be honest... i haven't been going to the Taiwanese service, i'm going strictly by what i heard from my mom... haven't asked around the others to see if what my mom's saying is true. but if it is, once again i ask ya to pray for the elders. geez, all this plus what's going on with the youth group makes me wonder how much our church is crumbling apart.

w00t! w00t! w00t! i'm gonna love worshiping God! let's get it on!

grace: im boreddd
me: so i'm helping kill your boredom right now :-)
me: oh yeah, did you check my email?
grace: yessir
me: sir... 1st time i was ever called that... i haven't matured THAT much?
me: but yeah, you gonna come to that?
grace: HAHA
grace: i am not sure yet
me: c'mon, you get so bored when all us college guys leave, and now you cop out on us? way to express your feelings :-)
grace: ahhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it's not you guys
grace: its jsut i dont like fj;aoiuwre yaeh;fouaoir nm
me: oh yeah, i understand THAT :-)
me: *backs off* my bad, my bad :-)
grace: ahahah yes exactlayyy

while the games area on UCD is far from perfect, the MVC1 there's pretty much a steal... 25 cents to play, but wait... 25 cents gives your 5 CREDITS! heh heh... no wonder why everytime i watch someone play against the computer, they offer me to play against them... THAT'S WHY. and yet i STILL can't combo into Chun-Li's air super combo after 20 credits?

lesse, i just visited this site on the net... somewhat sick, but has all these really funny pictures... check it out if you can stomach yourself....

http://www.aardvarkarchie.com/pictures/index.htm

my personal favorite was the squirrel which had male genetalia... heh heh

another lesson relearned: better to study spread over day by day, than by trying to cram it all in the last day. too much info. well, for me, almost like that... i crammed it in the last 2 days. not good, not good. another mistake re-done... how many times til i actually learn God? anyways, if i do get an A on this chem test it would certainly be all you; not that i did that bad, but i don't feel too confident either.

if i can just find some pro audio recording gear... that is under $20... for a laptop.

watched some guy wiping the floor with Chun-Li playing MVC1... oh man, must re-learn that game...

aside from the SAS term paper #3 and Math midterm #3(concentrating on the big events here), i'm pretty much free til thanksgiving break... gonna have some fun breaking out my guitar and going to the MU(they're separate events... i don't play the guitar in the arcade).

AAAAAAAAAA IIIIIIIII! w00t! wipe that floor! wipe that floor!

reading plans... get done with "The Case For Christ" and "Celebration of Discipline" before i end this school year.

although i still yearn for home... there's still another advantage to being in davis besides the high-speed internet access... the winter's a lot more pleasant around here... it's not THAT frigid in the morning, you might even think that it's a somewhat cold spring going on. i get along just fine with a t-shirt, jeans, and long-sleeved jersey.

and i thought norman and laura's legs were white when we went to socal... the cold's kinda pushing all my blood vessels away from my skin. yesterday, when i was taking off my socks to go shower, i seriously took a look at my feet and wondered out loud... "what the hell?!? am i turning byron?!?" pasty-white feet of mine...

how sick would it be to high-5 someone while you're taking a piss?

i wonder how many classes jon's gonna miss in the morning... as i sit here typing this, he just missed another one

ok, so i know god wants us to learn from our mistakes; problem is, we want instant results whereas god tries us and wants us to be patient; i wonder how many mistakes it takes for me to take before i start learning not to make them... stuff like forcing myself to study, to give my teachers what they expect in a paper... geez, that bad omen of mine? somewhat true... not that i got a 65%, but that i got what i didn't want... a par grade. so again... how long? how many?

persistence is god-sent... so is self-control, both of which i need to train myself in...

heh heh... the davis cafeteria's serving trix "nooo... silly rabbit, trix are for kids! damn longears trying to take easter away from jesus! ok you were saying?"

i really dislike how the construction workers are NEVER done with installing the firm alarms in the buildings... for crying out loud, just get it done, instead of trying to wake us all up with your annoying drilling every day! even those that are up are having a dang hard time trying to study above that ruckus.

ok, gonna turn off laptop, and head to the library to study for chem midterm on thursday. i really need to be hard on myself... it's not that i haven't been trying to keep up with work, but i personally work better in TOTAL silence. my stomach's full, so that guarentees maybe 1-2 hrs worth of good study time. pray for me.

diaoh.com... too good; too many good Virtua Fighter 4 Evolution tournament matches to watch...

ok, the blurb-site problem WAS my computer... got it fixed... thanks again, bob.

conversation with a long-time MVHS friend:
me: is work hard @ berkeley?
nikhil: hahaha
nikhil: no, not especially
nikhil: just normal I guess
nikhil: more reading though
nikhil: but less writeen
nikhil: so it balances
me: yeah, i guess there's less written stuff in college, but it seems like there's so much less time, since you actually WANT to be prepped for class
nikhil: hahahaha
nikhil: That may be
me: except for my short calc class... i can fall asleep in that and be just fine :-)
nikhil: hahaha, I do that with mine too

i just HAD to run outta correction tape yesterday when i COULD'VE gotten my chem lab done... auuurgh.

bad omen? dream of getting a 65% on a midterm essay... another prediction from God? tossed and turned last night wondering if it was going to be true.

ok, back to work... somebody please tell me if they're seeing the background of the tables(or boxes) of this blurb-site of mine as a green... it's been ticking me off, but it may just be me.

you have to check this out: go to downloads.com, and download this:

Ots CD Scratch 1200

too funny, like your own turntable for your PC... for free... too bad you can't record what you make, or play mp3s. but then you could always burn your mp3s eh? the only REAL problem is that you can't use 2 hands while doing this... only 1 action essentially at one time. no scratching while messing with the crossfader. but anyhow, had too much fun screwing around with my Linkin Park CD.

ok, just came back from church... online church... ain't that a weird feeling? http://www.day7.tv i've said it before, all of us have grown spiritually, even though you don't think about it; see, norm even invited me to watch his church via the online site. and we had some chit-chat about how the worship service seemed shallow cause we were watching it more than participating. then he joked how he should go wearing something noticeable and tell me to log in.

then wes asked me how my spiritual life was goin, and we had some chit-chat about that... sez he's into ecclesiastes.

nevertheless, here's what i got from the sermon on Genesis chapter 4:

Genesis 4
-The 1st physical death
-This followed the 1st spiritual death, separation from God
-Children have this sinful nature due to the 1st couple
-After man's sin, they were commanded to work
-It could be a testimony to work hard for Christ; he commands us to
-2nd Tess: If you don't work, you don't eat
-You could have fellowship with God AS LONG AS you have the proper attitude; a proper attitude simply comes from the heart(which is the reason why God didn't look on favor towards Cain)
-When 2 or 3 are gathered in my name, I am there with them
-Part of worship is giving
-David: a man after God's heart
-Think about when Jesus saw a widow giving out 2 copper coins
-God loves a cheerful giver
-Most of our anger hurts ourselves, since the other person doesn't even know about it
-God WAS trying to reason with Cain and help him
-NOTHING is hidden
-Ecclesiates: Fear God and keeps his commands, cause God will bring every action into judgment, good or bad
-Matt 10:32-33: If you acknowledge Jesus b4 men, he'll acknowledge you b4 God, but if you disown him b4 men, he'll disown you b4 God

(conversation on group worship on thanksgiving friday)
jerm: i remeber that last year. we really stunk it up at least hahah
me: yeah, he communicated that to us too
jerm: yeye
jerm: hehe
jerm: and her names jenni
jerm: lol
me: uh, plz explain? heh heh
jerm: OOOPs
jerm: wrong im box
jerm: sorry
jerm: lol
me: heh, i thought you were talking about jen su and her FRIENDS
jerm: HAHAHAHHAHAHHA
me: so i was confused, thinking, did jen su ruin your worship last thanksgiving friday?
jerm: heheh
jerm: nope

(me trying to type with my right hand while eating tacos from del taco)
wes: whats luwen's email
me: gimme a sec, i've got hot sauce on my left hand
wes: haha
wes: aite

damn site still doesn't fix the weird green background color! and i am honest in saying i'm not doing anything to the site! i really hope it clears tomorrow.

you'd think i'd learn after the 1st mistake but nooo.... i woke up at 9:00, shut the alarm clock off, and went right back to sleep... right til 12:00. so marks another weekend of missing church. i wonder if God's annoyed at me... i remember thinking to myself why we need a church, and based on what i've thought of, of course it's not necessary as long as you can find ways to learn from God and praise him, but still... we need to keep the sabbath day holy, and unless if i can find some way to do it today, uhh...

heh heh... 1:30 AM marks the 1st time i played mahjong... against lydia, jerm and norm. that was fun. of course, lydia beat us all ;) too bad jon wasn't in on the fun.

right now there's something weird going on with this blurb-site of mine... the background color of the tables are all green... usually they're white. but i don't remember typing any new commands in the template... so i think it should clear up soon... hopefully.

i am so tired today... just work, work, work today.

i hate chem labs... now i didn't say i hated chem, i said i hated chem labs... those things take forever to do a write-up... god knows how many times i screwed up, scribbled out my errors, and continued writing today. i could've been studying for my upcoming chem test if i didn't have that to do... and my midterm paper. and beyond that... couldve been playing guitar. and i'm not even done with that as i sit writing this.

just to write this down so i don't forget the numerous churches around here: http://www.davis411.com/cat/subcat/churches.cfm; will try the University Covenant Church tomorrow.

there are mostly parks around here, not much outside of that. though there's some japanese eateries, pho, and some chinse.

Linkin Park- High Voltage sounds so much better when it's recorded live, like during their House of Blues concert.

-finish chem lab
-start chem prelab
-study for thur chem test
-midterm paper due wed before thanksgiving
and on top of that, i should finish writing down the chorded versions of our planned worship songs... see how much time you high schoolers get? be grateful for what you've got.

11:00 PM; this marks the 1st time i ever saw fog in davis... just went outside and *whoa*... felt like i was seeing right through smoke... when i picked up my pace to jog a bit around, it got my hair sorta wet. when you can't see something about 5 feet in front of your face, that's pretty bad.

stephan marbury with the layup to beat the clock and win the suns the game! oh man... heh heh... yao ming got a dunk!

anyways, the games area had this special today: $8 for use of all the facilities inside... for free. well, technically it's more like unlimited usage, but for me, if i could shell out extra money, i would be content playing VF on my laptop for a long time so i declined. besides, i don't wanna play Area 51 THAT bad.

am i pumped up for worship? oh yeah... but in what ways? expecting others to join in and show huge attitudes for christ? or expecting my college friends to play extremely well? well, it's more the fact that we are getting together to jam... i wouldn't care if we all sounded like whack... the fact that we get together is it. and our attitude. at least THAT'S what's supposed to count.

God bless david c. back at CTCC... he's helping out the youth, even though things look dire... ditto w/alice t. grace w. has a bit to work there though ;)

recently, everytime i turn on my laptop, all i think about is God and worship... heh heh... if this keeps up, i'm gonna suffer so badly in class ;)

matt redman- holy moment
tim hughes- jesus, you alone
10 shekel shirt- meet with me

^ roXoring worship songs

alright... must pull oneself away from laptop and study....

registering for classes is such a biatch. as is my time that i waste.

Tim Hughes/Paul Oakley- Jesus, You Alone... this worship song roXors! haha... i had to say it, somebody had to say it!

you can see a very distinct difference between the way youth/young college ppl write online to the young adults... take a look at how me and david write online, then take a look at bob, chris, reni, etc... they write so much more.

i had no idea ZhiZhi Wang was now on the Clippers... jon calls him useless, heh heh. well, at least he can inbound the ball ;)

time to hit the MU; my trigger finger's itchy...for those of you who don't know, that's the Memorial Union, the arcade/bowling/pool area on UC Davis(http://gamesarea.ucdavis.edu). it's not the best thing(i would totally prefer X-Cape in UCLA or SVGL), but at least Area 51 is 1 quarter with 5 lives. and besides, i'm pooped; i don't feel like writing the rest of tonight, except for maybe relearning some worship songs.

11.29.02... ARE YOU PUMPED? that's right kiddies, break out the distortion pedals, tune your fenders, tighten the snare drum, and test the reverb on the mikes... we are gonna jam all for God!

244--- <-- G power chord

i can't put anger, frustration, and rage into words, cause there's just no way; i might be able to describe it picturesquely though. so i'm just gonna make a footnote here that i still have a long way to work for what i want to become. some ppl just get on your nerves, and they don't even know it... and yeah, i DO hate the way i feel tonight.

i am a definite long shot from what you would consider to be chink. oh sure, i look asian, but my thoughts are anything but chink. aside from the notion of working hard.

is that all there is to life? just... material possessions, a partner, and children? seriously... how superficial can we get?

i see girls and fame
that's the game
rushing past to claim
anything but true wealth
i find it so hard
living the life you want me to live
this is the tart of life
when you're shallow
it never really gets sweet
and people stop there
never willing to go deep

have you tasted the bread of life?
have you found the truth of unchanges?
until you can open your eyes
i will always be miles above you

according to wes, there was an earthquake in his home about a while ago, mini one, a sway back and forth

FINALLY i finished organizing my winter quarter... i can go back to wandering in my mind.

snl: litter critters... that cracked me up for some time.

haha... thanx for the pics norm

can't wait til thanksgiving... so much to be thankful for...

so many empty promises... so many naive ppl... but i feel some of us are beginning to see the light... that gives me hope...

(referring to a church in berkeley)
mandy: it feels kinda weird though cuz everyone thinks im korean
mandy: cuz chang could be like a korean last name too
mandy: and well they just assume im korean
mandy: and this lady just like randomly started talking to me in korean in the bathroom
me: heh heh; maybe if you squinted your eyes and pushed them upward at the edges ;-)
mandy: HAHAHA
mandy: i know! i totally have chinky eyes, not gooky ones
mandy: aaaaah well

when's the last time someone AIM'd me FIRST? heh heh. and it just happened twice today. from 2 girls, both from CTCC.

if you have not discovered just how superficial this world has become and how much we've become trapped by this system... you don't know just how high i've become... not a single care in the world, and unlike the drug high, mine won't ever wear off... ever.

vacation recap:

this was overall a very nice veterans day weekend that i got, mainly above all that all us CTCC guys/gals got together in socal and just did stuff together. pretty much everyone farted too ;) hey, actually i STILL am! ucla's beans caught up to me, as well as all the meat i ate there. the worship cd we were listening to in the car was also very nice.

Notable stuff:

Friday:
car trip:
-a traffic jam plus me not wisely going to the bathroom when i got the chance meant that i had to so desperately go that we had to pull over on the side of the road while i jumped out, ran a couple of feet into brush and pee for 5 min(can anyone say a retreat repeat?)
-then there was the ever-famous dog incident: after the traffic jam cleared, we sped up, going around 80. the van on the right started slowing down, and right when we were about to pass them 2 large, bulky dogs ambled out slowly. jerm slammed on the brakes, but we still hit them insanely hard and rolled right over them. knocked out a fog light and bent the license plate. jerm was so distraught he wouldn't drive for the rest of the trip down.
-then we saw a buncha trash on a truck that looked so much like an elephant; jerm noticed it first.
-jon also ate most of jerm's onion rings
-jerm farted in the car
-jerm talked about fatsoburger. then he also forgot what tsai translated to in english.
-we had a really nice DEEP spiritual discussion in the car... something that we've not really delved into before.
-honestly, so much happened on the way TO riverside we wondered if we should just go home ;)
at riverside:
-the campus where norm rooms LOOKS SO NICE! it is really something.
-met neeraj... nice. turns out he rooms next to norman. also found out what's up with nik and vik.
-i joked to laura about Davis being the burmuda triangle of girls
-then there was the incident where jon looked like he was soiling himself
-woke up from listening to a conversation between norm and lydia; farted twice. went to sleep. woke up, farted twice more.

Saturday:
-went to tim's apartment building... very nice. we spent the time in there playing pool, watching snl, and later in tim's room playing cs, playing guitar, and doing some fantasy bball
-separating 2 fish from the crab in tim's room
-snl: "f is for friendship!" ;)
-"hey, look it's a bisexual bathroom!" (guys enter) ;) this cracked us up, which prompted lydia to say to laura; "c'mon laura join them; it's a bisexual bathroom!"
-then we thought about crowding the front of the elevator when it would open... only the OTHER door inside opened. heh heh.
-dinner at claim jumper was nice... norman ordered a kiddie dinner and said we should eat super(heh heh), and the waiter had a bet with tim, lydia, laura, and jerm that if they could finish a large meal, he would buy them a rack of ribs. but they felt too full to do so(besides, it would've killed jerm)
-i stepped in a crack between 2 matresses, and fell, which cracked us up a bit.
-played 2 on 1 cs against tim. was nice to know i got about 2-3 kills on him... which is so rare, considering how many times i got raped.
-@tap: laura told jerm to get her honeydew; jerm ordered "honeything" ?!? heh heh.

Sunday:
-this was the fun day... though we didn't do too much, we had a LOTTA good laughs and fun times.
-woke up, and sat on jerm to fart on him.
-went to NewSong church... dang; too much ahead of us! i dunno where to say they are hype or help. cause they have a full worship band(they go as far as to have a special soundbooth for the drummer, have special camera angles and transparencies, and sometimes do body worship.), but a really good speaker who is brief, but used a passage for his message. you get a comfortable, casual feeling going there. feels very hi-tech too. however, at times you wonder if they're so big that they forget to concentrate on fellowship(i can't say for sure cause i of course only went there for sunday). and at times you get a feeling of pride of this church over other churches; the point is to be together as christians, not inside of a church.
-then we had lunch w/paul. that was nice. discovered tuffy almost diarrhea'd all over isabel. and that norm's dog tried DIVING into eating crap. then mike told us why he hated greens... cause they're greens ;)
-laura was right... so many stairs at ucla. the dorm food's really good though; so much variety, and very good. now i understand what the hell laura means in her away messages when she sez "puzzles." hah; we spent some of the time passing around burgers turns out we also saw janet(goes to ucsd) and her friends. their curfew system is VERY strict though. it was hard as heck trying to get in. i'm getting the feeling that it's really how the attitude that you use to approach a college, not the college itself; at the dinner we all realized that there wasn't really anything good within walking distance of any of the uc's. so, in all reality, laura's having the most fun because she's the one who's actually going out making friends.
-saw both of the ucla girls' dorms. they're nice. but crowded.
-some rocky jokes... norm and mike raced up the long set of stairs, then were too tired to walk ;)
-played bball with a pink WNBA bball; heh heh. it was so weird, all of us were missing shots we would've normally made(something to do with the weight and ridges of the bball). got a couple of my single-handed weird hook shots in. got a couple of blocks in too. the ucla outside bball court looks weird; like a modified tennis court.
-you can hear EVERYTHING coming from the bathroom in the building that laura lives in. heard norm dropping his "black child" heh heh.
-hah hah... then there was the incident where norman was trying to look at his boxers by pulling down his gym shorts to see if he DID crap in his pants(it had first emerged when he was talking about holding in his crap til it would come naturally) and then this ucla girl comes around looking hecka shocked at norm while all of us were cracking up like crazy.
-at ucla, we closed the elevator, then rang the emergency bell and norm and mike proceeded to box each other out ;) that was funny
-when we went to santa monica, we just walked around(laura brought up the idea that it would be tight if i had my guitar with me), then we ended up at this mini carnival, so we just spent a few minutes playing some of the games. we didn't make the bball game AT ALL; 0/7. which blew, considering all of us guys tried; ALL of us. hah hah. there was some cracks about the games at that too. like the bball game, and the ladder game. tim gave jerm 10 cents so he could view the weird "back to nature" machine, which cracked him and us up. also mike got the weird toy. i would've played some of the shooting games, but didn't have enough chen. and we saw birdies(or should i say lil duckies, heh heh) trying to run into, then away from the nearby ocean tide.
-showering together w/jerm and tim; too funny. gave both of them a high-five(actually, since of my height, it was hard for tim to give me a high five, and i had to give jerm a low-five), and we shoved soap back and forth under the stalls. jerm tried peeing towards the entrance, and found out it goes through the stall. we also got a butt massage from the shower.
-then there was the incident where we turned off the lights to go to sleep in the study room... then jerm shrieked like crazy after seeing the 2 glow-in-the-dark figures. i quipped that it was lucky that me and sam didn't have our lenses on at the the moment(high-5). heh; he hyperventilated for quite some time.

Monday:
-woke up, and countered jerm's fart. then jon farted on norman.
-bid farewell.... did the socal farewell with i think norman and/or sam, i think maybe hugged norm, but me and laura high-5'd; guess she isn't as socal as we think; there's still hope; we haven't lost her yet ;)

that's it... all in all, it was just fun hanging out with the socal girls this weekend. would've been cool if we had deep conversations more often though. i know it's about that time. augh, can't wait for thanksgiving, then we can jam with god. brought up the subject will all who can help, and they seemed to be willing. that's cool; i'm looking forward to an awesome thanksgiving friday.

but for now, i need to quit... stuff to do... grr

when you wish upon a weinstein - heh heh, optimus prime's a jew. "sisters, lock and load!" and the parody of "The Graduate" had me cracking up like crazy.

then when brian's in love with lois - one of the funniest parts was when peter was talking about the drive-in movie that sucked... wmwhhahaha!

the rain and wind last night was VERY strong.... it nearly ripped up my umbrella.

that's it... gotta study, plan for classes....

this is the 1st day that i've seen rain in davis. actually, it was more wind than rain; i was more troubled by the harsh cold breeze than the light sprinkle running to chem class.

also, i was pretty tired from staying up til around 1:30 last night... so after coming back from chem i decided to settle down for a 1.30 hr nap... until i hear the mechanics drilling holes in every1's dorm in order to install the new fire alarms. don't worry, i got sleep.

heh heh... lydia called jon hon yesterday, so i told jon to call lydia sweetie.

so much i wanna do... so little time each day. you should see the plans that i have written somewhere... but i never get around to finishing it any time.

gotta find a DOD AC adapter... i wanna be able to use my flanger whenever i use my Fender.

"cause i hate the way i feel tonight and i know i need you in my life cause i hate the way i feel inside and i promise to make a sacrifice" -12 Stones

wes: u know relient k right?
me: yeap
wes: u know the song pressin on?
me: yeap
wes: good song
me: yeap
wes: u know how to play it?
me: i might...
wes: maybe we can play it for worship sometime along w/ a number of other songs
me: yeah, that'd be tight
wes: hehe we start to practive now so it'd be like the real them when we play

i've realizing my left index finger's been hurting right where the free edge of the cuticle starts recently... perhaps i clipped some skin when i clipped my nails.

norman wanted me to hit jonathan, so i'll do that tonight.

so much to do... gotta make sure i do as much as possible b4 taking off to socal.

where do we draw the line between needing to grow more in christ and being ready to minister? i admit you can and should never stop your walk, but at what point are you considered able to minister to others by God? at what point? recently mike put off the decision to preach to us on december cause he felt he wasn't ready. but all of us are still growing as christians... our job is not to scrutinize others and say well, maybe i'm not fully sound in the gospel to do this... if you have the heart, God will give you the preparation you need. that's the truth. if preachers and pastors are still constantly growing as they help us grow in God, how much more us, when we try to minister to others!

jerm and me had a semi-online prayer session praying for others... might be a kinda cool idea to pray on AIM...

memorable conversation tidbit w/grace:
me: hey
grace: HIIIiiiii
me: i thought you said milk was gross :-)
me: so why are you drinking it?
me: not gonna answer me huh?
grace: IT IS!
grace: i madea deal with my aunt
grace: ahahha
grace: hold up shower timee
me: oh, leaving now that you can't answer me huh?
me: hey did my words pass over your head? :-)
grace: HAHA HEY
grace: THA'TS MESSED UP!
...
me: gnite... and drink more milk
me: or i'll have to talk down at ya... get it? *slaps knee*
grace: ... dork. hahahah gnitte