i don't get why everytime i finally finish a japanese anime or some variant of it, i feel basically melancholy(yes, this is a pun, considering i just finished a series with the word "Melancholy" in the title; keep forgetting the exact title), down, slightly bummed. i don't even know why; often times the final episode isn't supposed to be necessarily saddening. i also think i got the same type of feeling whenever i finished the n64 game "zelda: ocarina in time."

it's not the same feeling compared to when i finish some american cartoon, like say, futurama, justice league unlimited, batman beyond, etc. it's not that i'm grinning ear to ear(although with futurama, that's usually a good bet), it's just that i don't get that saddening feeling.

those japanese people must be stuffing subliminal messages in their animes that i'm just not picking up. making it equivalent to alcohol you cleaned out of your fridge; you feel great til the buzz's over; you then feel terrible, and want more to get rid of the feeling, but there is none left. you gotta wait for the brewery to cook up and ferment a new batch, and who knows how long that'll take?

fyi, i AM feeling kinda down right now.

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i wish i would get calluses on my feet and tanned skin on my chest the way i used to get calluses on my fingers. whenever i got calluses on my fingers playing guitar, they stayed there. but when i get calluses on my feet, the skin falls off eventually, leaving skin that is unused to pressure all over again, bringing on a new wave of pain once i hit the basketball court again. the same with getting a tan-er, sunburn. my darkened skin never stays there; always falls off.

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new drumming goal: work on 16th notes on bass drum.

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i got the weirdest idea last night, and that is, i would try to become as proficient as possible writing with... my RIGHT hand.

i don't despise my left-handedness. i just think that with so many of my favorite activities favoring right-handed orientation(electric guitar, drums, cpu+mouse setup, playing arcade games, basketball) that i figure it might be cool to do it. ambidexterity is never a bad thing. i could say i can't write with my right hand cleanly and quickly, but i never truly put in a large amount of time practicing it. i'm sure if i did, it could look relatively neat.

i also want to try eating primarily with my right hand whenever i'm eating with a fork or spoon.

the goal hence is to make sure that no one sans those who really know me will be able to figure out i'm left-handed, unless i'm eating with chopsticks.