perhaps the ideal thing for me now is fast once per 2 or 3 months

cause it seems that even 1/month made me think i could do this... and we have no place for pride in christianity right?

but now as i'm sitting here about to end my 3-day fast without solid food(i was originally going to fast from everything but water, but then i drank some ginger ale, so i figured i'd limit it to solid food) in 25 min, i realize just how tired i've felt for the last 36 or so hours... despite going to bed at 12-1 consistently now, and getting up at 7:20 or so ish. there were times where i thought i was going to conk out.

hunger has never really affected me during a fast; you drink water and you're fine. that's not bragging, it's the truth.

i decided to go for 3 days because 3's a special number; as jesus once said, as jonah was in the belly of the whale for 3 DAYS AND 3 NIGHTS, so shall the son of god be in the depths of the earth. and the bible has stated that when we are baptized into christ, we DIE with him, then are RESURRECTED with him.

i haven't gotten any special words of guidance from God though yet concerning my future, which was my original intention of fasting in the 1st place, well, one of the main ones was realizing how little i am without God, and well, we covered the other.

but then again, my fast isn't quite over yet; maybe that's why i haven't gotten any words of wisdom yet; i'm not quite yet "alive" :D

(i think i'll break the fast with a small bowl of spaghetti with mushrooms and olives, and some snickers ice cream)

now, i wonder if this applies to whether i should take up small group leadership or not