may God grant me the desire to work harder... i hope he blows my love of video gaming to hell; that thing draws me away pretty hard... it is definitely one god i wish i could do without... it's probably what draws me away from getting better grades... i keep telling myself it's gonna be better next quarter, but...

i've managed to finish both Jeremiah and Lamentations(written by Jeremiah as well) this break... i see how the modern-day american christian fits Jeremiah's personality so well... like him we want out of the job... we think it's unfair that ppl torture and make sport of us... all we can do is tell them an unpopular message; you're sick, and you need help. nobody likes giving stuff up; everybody is to an extent superficial... but all we can do is press on. we know that God is backing us, but wish he'd be a bit more obvious and put the ppl who are against us as well as the troubles that arise from modern-day society to shame.

on a side note; you know that the gods that ppl worshipped during the old testament had cruel commands of obediance, usually demanding that the children be sacrificed so that their dreams of prosperity could occur. God could not accept this and so destroyed Judah so that it would never happen again. you realize just how ingrained it was in the ppl because you see in Jeremiah near the end that the ppl actually blamed Josiah(a very good Judahian king) for their downfall; he banned the Queen of Heaven, a Babylonian god, and a few years later, Babylon invaded them. but now, here's something to think about; aren't abortions used for birth control essentially the same thing? we're sacrificing our own children to gods of responsibility and prosperity(i don't want a kid; then i won't be able to work my job), in order to better our lifestyle. sure, ppl don't think what i'm saying is completely true, but then, it's not completely inaccurate either.