sunday was the 1st time i made miso soup w/tofu and seaweed today in davis(plus a few other things thrown in), and hopefully i won't make the same mistake today; dried seaweed expands LIKE CRAZY; i put in what i thought was going to be about 1/2 a cup of seaweed, and it turned out to be a LOT more than that; my supposedly 1/2 a pot of miso soup turned into a full pot, and man, i feel so stuffed right now...(no, i didn't eat the whole thing; i filled my "leftovers bowl" full, and still had a lot to go left) otherwise it was fairly good, but i still don't like O.D.ing on seaweed, so i'll learn to put a LOT less than what i think is going to be in there... *groans at slightly bloated stomach*...

i didn't go to church again... pisses me off... i really should be able to control my time better, but i can't, and that brings me down even more... what's more, everytime i don't go to a christian thing, jon doesn't go either... i feel like sometimes i'm like a christian big brother to him in davis, in that i should be setting an example... i don't think i'm a better christian than him, but yeah, i think you know what i'm getting at... of course, i don't think you need to go to a church to save your soul, or to even draw closer to God, but you find accountability there... sometimes it can be so hard motivating yourself to take up the disciplines of christianity...

so instead i did some self-study today(for what may be the 1st self-study in the bible up in davis for a long time), and it occurred to me just how satisfying the bible is, since i haven't been reading it for a long time... eats up a LOT of my time though, so i'll read more now, but maybe keep it to 1-2 chapters a day to keep myself from getting too bogged down timewise... in jeremiah right now, and i found out that jeremiah, the reluctant prophet, was actually a priest, when God called him to service... sometimes we are just like jeremiah; think about it; we're christians, and yet we shrink away at the prospect of minstering to others; it makes as much sense as a priest who shrinks away at spreading the word to unhearing ears... i think for those of us who are like that(i know i am), we haven't really REALIZED that God is going to be with us... if God is for you, do you really need to worry about anything? also, it was interesting to see God count 2 sins towards the Israelites; falling away from him AND worshipping other gods... it's interesting, cause usually the 2 happen in one shot, and sometimes could be considered as one, but God counts them at 2... kinda like breaking the 1st 2 commandments... i wonder if it's possible to break one of them without the other...

i think wes forgot i existed, is too socal right now to recognize me, or forgot my screen name entirely; everytime i try to strike up conversation with him on AIM so far, he's either signed off or not responded to me at all... dude, at least tell me you're busy! dark side of cali indeed! you socal'rz... (and it's funny how only the true norcal'rz of our church are seen on AIM now as frequently... me, jon, and jerm... sometimes sam... the rest of them are just ignoring us completely :D)

ever notice how sometimes you're glad God made you like your parents, and other times you wish you weren't like them? i'm finding that more and more i'm like my mom in liking to cook(actually my mom dislikes cooking, but is pretty good at it) and copying her, also, i notice since i wrap all my supermarket groceries in plastic produce bags even if they're processed foods that it annoys the cashiers sometimes(this is something i also have picked up from my mom)... the elderly woman in charge of my groceries was fumbling trying to get the 6 yogurt cups i bought out(with the bag over the upc, it's kinda hard to read it), and so while i was kinda sorry for doing that, it was funny watching the frustration coming over her... finally instead of fooling around with the knot i made, she just ripped open the bag and then proceeded to scan the cups normally...

i've noticed that aside from referring to the attributes of God, jeremy camp usually doesn't say "God" or "Jesus" straight out on his songs... i've looked at the lyrics of his songs, and realized that indeed this guy's music wouldn't hurt to give to a nonchristian friend... the sad part though is that christian music that talks about loving God, but doesn't use his name can fool nonchristians into thinking about love for the opposite sex and nothing else... i remember that before i found out lifehouse was a christian band that i thought "hanging by a moment" was a song about being drunk with love for the opposite sex, or something like that...

there are like 3+ stations up here in davis for K-Love, but NONE for Air1, which is the sister of K-Love... boourns! who needs more than 1 station for K-Love? are all the christian music guys up here conservative while ppl, who can't take alternative rock? (well, i can't say that completely, cause jeremy camp DID come up to davis, see my LONG post)