so winded right now, i just finished an 8-page rough essay... i bet the last 2 pages read like crap, cause that's when i started getting tired @2:00 in the morn, but i'll just revise when i get back from my 7:30 chem class... i bet you're wondering how i manage like that... i can't... God does... but i know i can do better... just that i don't have self-control between work and play as much as i would like...

i am the only one to blame for all my troubles and faults... the reason being i give in to temptation... God please help me to never make a mistake like this ever again... give me the heart and desire to learn... please...

...final thought of tonight... if awestruck was an official emotion, i'd rather be awestruck than happy... awestruck gives me joy... and joy lasts way longer than happiness...