ok, so since my den cpu was severely effed over, i couldn't post some stuff for a while; also, the saratoga library has been closed until this weekend, so i can't post there either. so i'll just make a few recaps as to what has been going on so far:

friday:
i think God's really shown me how much he wants me to keep living on this earth, and not take me early; he could've taken me three times this day. remember the all-nighter i pulled? it took a toll on me when i was driving back... at least 3 times i remember dozing off behind the wheel, only to thankfully wake up to myself swerving slightly across or something. finally, i had to pull over and just relax for a bit so i wouldn't die on the spot. luckily the saturn didn't suffer ANY damage. so yeah, God DOES want me to keep me alive. this raises a lot of questions, like, is there some symbolism to my three times dozing off and waking up? (3's a pretty important biblical number when you think resurrection-wise; could God be telling me he just redeemed me 3x?) anyways, i'm thankful for the message that God sent me; i will NOT ever take my life for granted ever if i can help it; life's too important to stress over bad grades. oh yeah; spurs won, so that was cool. i liked manu ginobili's behind-the-back-pass; that was tight. the youth went to golfland, so i just decided to tag along. they were almost done, but i enjoyed watching them make blunders and stuff.

sat:
nothing really much; i can't even remember what i did; i just remember waking up so damn friggin late, then going to tsing tao w/my mom for dinner...

sun:
during sunday school, me, jerm, jon, and grace lin met up w/pastor dan at PMT; lotta discussion; see, mike and wes kinda want to get away from CTCC as much as possible; don't get me wrong, they're not taking a turn for the worse, but they wanna find another church; seems they associate their past with our church. of course, we sorta mulled over that. dan brought up a couple pointers though; if you need help, the church is there to give what it can, and that it's actually tied to how closely related your parents are to the church. like for jon, his parents are involved in choir, so he's pretty tight, and incidently, he's the one who thinks we should try to stay at our church longer. my dad served as deacon for four years, then my mom is still pretty tight with the church, so i'm one of those ppl too(bob, i'm trying to start back on chapter nine; comment back or email me back on that one); on the other hand, mike's parents are currently not involved with our church, and wes' parents don't want him going to our church, as well as being pastor somewhere else. see my point?
moving on, after church i didn't bother going to the new church; i was thinking of doing something else; i went south to bureans, and got the sanctus real CD; i think i got a really good deal; i LOVE their music; upbeat, slightly riffed up, alternative rock. it's good. i love it. not to mention, it cost: $12.00?? wow... and i like almost 80% of the tracks on that record.
spurs won the series, so i'm happy. man, duncan had such a HUGE night. 20(or 30?)+ points, 10+ assists, 20+ rebounds(!) 8+ blocks... he really is the MVP. just some short comments of mine on that night. -more or less, nets were up most of the game, but duncan was doing his work. so in order for them to come back, it was necessary for someone else on the spurs to step it up as well. that person was jackson. more or less, then everything snapped into place. -haha... one point which made me get pissed, then crack a laugh later... fast break, spurs' ball... the ball is slightly out of reach of stephen jackson, who's trying to chase it down, but the ref is in his way, so you see the ref trying desperately to outrun jackson to get out of his way, while jackson's rapidly catching up trying to get the ball! it went out, net's ball, but i would've been so pissed if nets won by 2 points...
-btw, i'm totally looking forward to US bball... AI and duncan on the same team would be awesome... the more i think of it, both players are true team players on their respective teams... AI has been lately setting ppl up instead of taking it all in, and duncan has been doing likewise too. both can also score or do their other stuff if it comes down to it. to have 2 team players for the starting lineup would be tight... now contrast that with if shaq was on the US bball team...

mon:
i'm starting up my bible reading again... ugh... i'm in 1st kings... that's gonna be monotonous for a bit... 1st day that i bball in the summer... i look like sonic the hedgehog... blue jersey, dark blue AND1 gym shorts, red I-3 sneakers... more or less, i didn't have that good of some games, but i was doing my part... other than that, i've been trying to get back into the whole guitar song-writing of things.

tues:
got a green sweatband, so that was cool. now if i just have white gym shorts and a green armband, i'll be paul pierce(without the black skin and skills)... now i look like paul pierce+sonic the hedgehog... anyways i'm starting to get my spin move down a bit better, and today i was doing a lot better... while i was boxed out by a 6-3 chinese guy, i was faster than him, and i think had better hops than anyone else who played that day... i was pulling ALL the rebounds down, provided i was TRYING for them(ie when i wasn't in the paint, i wasn't the one getting the rebound). when i switched, THEN i started getting mad mutumbo-esque blocks... heh heh... and no one blocked my shots, although not all of them went in. however, there were some where i pulled a duncan; ie missed the layup right up, jumped up, pulled down my own missed ball, and hook shot it right back in. those were nice. but the best play i did that day was run in after a missed shot of someone else's(sam's maybe?), jump up and pull the rebound while everyone's thinking it's gonna come to them(i was outside, so they didn't think someone would run in and get it), dribble along the baseline right back out, turn and fire a midrange J... money... haha... with improvements like these, everyone should get their own sweatband! :D

wed:
that's today; finally got the cpu moved so i could reconnect to the internet from home. eh, maybe songwriting later; i've really been wanting to redo "in the secret", as well as get a couple other songs down... anyways, i've been on this cpu long enough... i'm logging off.

for better or worse, my freshman days are over... it's too early to tell if my GPA's screwed for life, but i'm already fretting over it... oh well... can't undo the past... i might as well enjoy the summer... btw thanks God; even though the test wasn't perfect, i could tell you were helping me at least partway through it...

priority #1 as of summer will be to hone down my ability to control time; successful, and maybe my sophomore year won't be as bad as i anticipate... then i won't have to pull all-nighters like today...

*in a somewhat tired, slow, but smiling voice*:

"you guys missed the sunrise..."

only 2 more hours til i take my chem final...

1 left... for better or for worse, my freshman year is coming to a close...

before i forget:
happy graduation, steven! i dunno whether your ceremony's thurs or fri, in either case, i can't make it(maybe friday, but i kinda wanna hook up with my church homies again), but you're through with high school! have fun at UCLA you bastard! :) oh yeah; keep strong in God, and keep worshipping him on your guitar! if you see lisa chu, pass on my congrats to her too; oh yeah ask her where she's going college-wise, and aim me... or make a private blog in the comments...

and in case he doesn't read that far down my page:
happy graduation wes! high school had its ups and downs, but you made it through! g'luck @UCI! enjoy these short days of summer, cause once this passes, i'm not too sure you can potentially relax during summer anymore... internship and summer classes-wise...

to louis and justin:
i LOVED my senior year in high school; IMO, maybe the greatest school year of my recent life... cause there's nothing you can really do to improve your college entrances(aside from writing a good college essay)... and it's the borderline between childhood and adulthood... so just take it easy during the upcoming senior year... take only 5 classes if you can... do some stuff you never found the time to do... like studying the word of God for extended periods of time... and just have fun...

that's all i gotta say... i'm the last man standing... in UCD, that is... crunch time tomorrow, and you KNOW i can't stop! prayers for these critical hours would be nice:
thurs, 4:00 PM~6:00 PM
fri, 8:00 AM-10:00 AM

SONGWRITING THOUGHTS(to answer bob's diary jot):

1)first of all, lemme get off my chest that if you want, i can help you songwrite during the summer... i've got a few other sideprojects i wanted to do myself, and wanted to change my OLD website to exclusively music stuff... i mean, the songwriting process is hard with a group of ppl, even harder going at it solo, and even harder when you are going solo WITHOUT editing software... i fall in the middle, as i go at it solo, but have some laptop technology to back me up in thinking, drumloops, etc... fun, fun...

2)i'll admit my style tends to like guitar talent more or less greater than the vocals... so i'll admit straight off that i concentrate more on guitar than vocals, although that 1st recorded piece i did wasn't exactly van halen material...

3)but technically, here's what works for me:
-write out a rough poem of what i wanna say
-play my guitar to it, using simple stuff, ie power chords, trying to sing/shout/scream/etc with it
-edit either lyrics or guitar, rinse and repeat...
-when i'm finally satisified with the skeleton of the music, then i try to get more elaborate, sticking in riffs and stuff like that in places of chords...
usually, you can't just finish your poem, and THEN try to work on your guitar... for me, that messes it completely up... i find you usually need to work on tiny parts together at one time...
when you're finally done with the skeleton of it, feel free to go nuts... riffs, fillers, pickings, whatever, it's all open here... for me though, i find that if i'm adding drumloops for recording purposes, that it's best to do it RIGHT after this... that way, you can play it while you're recording your guitar/vocals to keep them in line of tempo...

4)drumloop software...
well, if you're interested, i really LOVE this application:
HammerHead Rhythm Station
easily one of the best software things for creating drumloops on your cpu... it's good... just try it... you can even import other sound schemes to work w/it... like tom-toms, or turntabling sounds... really great for helping out your lil songwriting projects... just remember your sheet music knowledge :)

5)recording software...
um, sorry can't help you there, as far as freeware goes :) i use cakewalk music creator 2K3(it's really good), but i can't find anything freeware on downloads.com that you might be able to use... you can use bon wav2mp3 converter to convert wav files to mp3 files, but the wav recording thing on most win cpus only goes about 1 min max... you'll need to do some searching...

6)recording equipment...
here's how it works for me...
take a look at my guitar setup at the top... now imagine a third 1/4" cable coming out the output part of the amp, coming into a 1/4" to 1/8" mono(or was it stereo? anyways i use mono) adaptor, which plugs into the recording slot of your cpu... if you've got a mic, and a "Y" cable, you can actually record vocals AND guitar at the same time... although for me the adaptor part really helps make the guitar sound a lot more crisp... so you won't have to record the guitar in front of a mic and pick up all sorts of other stuff... and i usually have the drumloop software looping the clip, or playing what i want while i'm going, so it's easy to keep tempo... btw you can get the adaptor @radioshack...

btw, on a more personal note, songwriting has me admiring the whole songwriting process too... granted, sometimes i just wanna get pissed at the crud the media sometimes cranks out(how in the world can you admire a person who has good looks and ONLY uses 3 chords+lyrics about effing everyone?), but more or less, i've learned to admire almost everyone in the songwriting process... guitarists, vocalists, drummers, bassists, and especially the studios+their editing stuff(that's why it always sounds so crisp... they've balanced everything on the tracks to make it perfect, whereas i'm still clipping my guitar tracks or playing them too soft to my taste... or cringing at my own voice)... i bet if i actually made my stuff my professional career, that i'd admire every more ppl in the process(like the ppl who get the word out on the streets or distribute the music, as well as the fans who actually take the time and money to buy the music)

so as i write this, jon has finallly left... wow... the space i missed... it feels more like an actual room now, even if i haven't fully taken advantage of his side of the room... it's still great though... i've already begun moving a few things into his side of the room...

so the series is knotted up... i'm still thinking spurs in 6 IF THEY WIN... today's game was horrible... not even gonna go there... both teams weren't doing good... duncan got into early foul trouble, and then a run started for the nets... then, the spurs came back to take the lead, and then from there it was more or less free throw shooting that determined it... ugly...

sorry, no cs tonight or tomorrow... crunch time is rapidly approaching, and it's time for me to do something... maybe friday near noon for a bit though...

seems like that's my other motivation for working hard... not having to have others worry about me... now if only i could somehow channel that feeling into my school studies...

alright later, that's my thoughts for tonight...

and oh yea wes, if you're reading this... happy graduation man! sorry i couldn't attend... but best wishes to you... hope everything goes well @UCI

here we go... LET'S DO THIS GOD!

so wha'd we do?

-dinner @asian fusion... not bad, the korean BBQ ribs weren't too shabby
-go to phil's apartment as well as see where he's working
-bowling... michelle owned both of us, and phil's attempts to put spin on the ball resulted in too many gutterballs
-old teahouse... pearl green milk tea... not too bad...
-visit my next-school-year apartment area...
-occasional small-talk... how michelle and phil have been, what i've been doing, nba, guitar music, stuff like that... davis life...

that's about it... i wish we could do more... there's things you're more willing to explore as you grow older, such as talk about deeper things... oh yea, phil forgives me for breaking his headphones *whew*

i have to learn to let go of my anger, instead of holding it inside of me...

i'm gonna love summer... i will train myself to be able to control my time during then... hopefully, if everything works out, this will carry into my remaining college years, so i don't waste time...

spurs up 1... 2-1... yeap... 2 left...

1 down... and1 later... 2 left after that... it's crunch time! let's do this God!

haha... i love doing that... it really psykes me up when i shout to myself mentally and throw that semi-prayer up to God by yelling in my head, "LET'S DO THIS, GOD!"

think i'll just chill for the rest of the day... gonna see phil... so happy... too bad i'll have to study, so i can't visit where he's working here in davis during the week, just today, but it's all good.

Genesis 4:4b-5
The LORD looked with favor on Abel and his offering, but on Cain and his offering he did not look with favor. So Cain was very angry, and his face was downcast.
Hebrews 11:4
By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.

Look at Genesis 4:4b; look carefully; the Bible makes it clear that God didn't favor the person or just the offering, but that he looked upon the person AND his offering... this is why Abel offered the better offering... HIS act of worship was right... you have to have the right attitude of worship, AND present your best... it's tempting to think worship just involves all your heart... if it did involve all your heart to God, you'd very much feel like you have to give your best...

that's the lesson i learned today... i'll add this to the stuff i'm gonna talk about in worship... later...

a n.y. jewish man has an american son... the son grows up distorted by the american ways and becomes materialistic... so the jewish man decides to send his son to israel for a period of time, in the hopes that he'd become a better man by learning the jewish ways... when the time has passed, the son comes home, and to the delight of the jewish man, he has become a better man. then he tells his father, "dad! it was great! i've learned so much! i've become a christian!"
the man is shocked to hear that his son has become a christian... so he goes next door to his jewish neighbor, also a devout judaist... when he explains the incident, he is shocked when the neighbor replies, "y'kno, the exact same thing happened to me! i sent my son to israel, and returns a christian!"
stunned, the two try to find their rabbi, to explain the incidents in the hopes that he could help them... to their surprise, he ALSO tells them that he sent his son to israel to find that he has returned a christian!
so all of them are kneeling before Yahweh, praying desperately for a solution to their problems, when a ray of light bursts through the clouds, to hear a booming voice say, "I sent my son to israel too" :D(please tell me you got that)

bittersweet news... phil's gonna be in UCD soon... why bittersweet? because i could spend more time with him if i didn't have these stupid finals... life on earth can sometimes blow so much... anyways, it's been such a long time since i've seen my bro... sometimes i wonder how life would be if i end up living right door next to my bro when i'm older... but then it would be just like "friends"... you might as well ask jonny with his potential-to-be-wife to move in next door as well... then it'll really be "friends"... michelle will be monica, jonny will be ross, phil will be, well, bing(i dunno how to spell his first name), etc, etc... does that make me joey? geez, i guess i'm dumb...

i wish i could say the lyrics of Superchick - Get Up with sincerity, but my faith isn't that strong yet... the only thing i see are my potential grades... i know, i know, worrying like crazy doesn't do jack about it or change my past, but i can't help it... sometimes i envy the animals i see crawling around UCD... sometimes i just stop walking, stare at them, and think, "man, you guys are so lucky... your life is so simple... God provides for you, and you feel no emotional pain, or have to experience the trials of something called capitalist society"

me: btw i'm getting how to create drumloops
me: so that's cool
laura: oooh
laura: niiice
me: move over sonicflood; i'm making my own version of "in the secret" :-)
me: i just hope they don't sue me :-)
laura: hehe
laura: hahaha

i'm not afraid to fall
it means i climbed up high
to fall is not to fail
you fail when you don't try
not afraid to fall
i might just learn to fly
and i will spread these wings of mine

if i get up
i might fall back down again
so let's get up cmon
...

Superchick - Get Up

ign.com sucks... just like any other gaming place... period... check this out, and don't tell me this only applies to die-hard virtua fighter ppl...

http://virtuafighter.com/versuscity/showflat.php?Board=media&Number=73705

hecka pisses me off... so if you're not sounding like crap, you have to take other ppl's work w/o credit to make it look like you're good? bull!

uh, nm... heh heh... :) they just didn't make it very clear that they credited Srider...

series is 1-1... it was still a close game though; if stephen jackson had drained that clutch 3... although what probably cost the spurs the game was duncan's poor free throw shooting...

i see mutumbo still has life in him! so why the hell byron scott did you not decide to let him play earlier in the season?

damnit... stupid construction workers outside with their machinery... hecka pissing me off... i can't get any work done... i'm almost tempted to go to the MU to buy some earplugs...

head... so... friggin... HUUUUUURTS!

this is what i get for staying up late as hell... i'm going to sleep early today... no excuses... no wasting of time... whadda waste of a day; no studying done... me and my lazy ass...

weird new info i got while browsing through the nba.com bios of the various players:
-kobe was named by his parents by some steak(kobe's the name of the steak)... wow, such love... calling your son "steak"
-a lot of the nba ballers like italian food; tmac likes spaghetti and meatballs, ai likes lasagna
-paul pierce likes tennis next to bball, and is single; imagine that... heh... tennis is a byron sport, but it's all good; i mean, i like tennis myself
-tmac is the cousin of vince carter
-i'm surprised a lotta ballers actually majored in something in college(i'm talking about the non-tim duncan-esque guys, like the real olang ppl; like paul pierce majored in crime; tmac took a couple of college classes even though he never went to college(and actually did consider applying to college))
-duncan was a top US olympic-potential swimmer for the 400 freestyle(that's 8 laps for you non-swimmers), until hurricane hugo destroyed his training swimming pool; heh; also, duncan is a video game freak, and has a large knife collection

haha... southwest commercial where burger joint guys are working on ice is hecka funny

after watching game 1, some comments of mine:
-first and foremost, dikembe mutumbo looks hecka funny with his bandaid on his upper lip. it makes him look like he cut him shaving. and since byron scott has lately been not wanting mutumbo to get in along the action, i made a crack remark to jon how after seeing him cut from shaving, byron scott put him on the injured list :) imagine that...
-spurs won; i'm happy; series is 1-0
-on the nets' part, i'd have to say jason kidd and kenyon martin weren't doing their work today; well, martin was doing a decent job, but it wasn't enough and he fouled out; kidd never came on fire though; i'd though he'd abuse parker, but it was the other way around; don't worry; nets will at least win two i believe
-maybe the officiating during the game was whacked; there were a couple bad calls in favor of the spurs; would this have changed the entire output of the game? dunno
-parker had an excellant night; good shooting; one point he drives in, spin move to right and lays in
-duncan; DUDE! guy was a threat, period... he blocked kenyon martin... twice+! crazy... 30+ pts, 20 rebounds, 7 blocks... he was pulling "cwebbs" all over the place with good perimeter shooting over 2 ppl... this guy IS the MVP... good job man!
-"hey kobe and shaq; need tickets?" "jack nicholson watching the finals at home: priceless" these spurs signs cracked me up during the game

hey bob, if you like the sound of downhere - better than life, try this download from mp3.com: back from nowhere - grow; the vocalist reminds me of the lead vocalists from downhere, and this song sounds very similar to better than life, only somewhat heavier... you also get a nice concert string backup... so consider listening to it bob; and don't worry; it's FREE ON MP3.COM, thus it's LEGAL :)

jerm: stupid refs hehe
jerm: did u see mutombo's first fou,l?
me: no
jerm: spedy claxton ran right into his arm head first and fell
me: oh
jerm: they called foul on mutombo it was hilarious
me: !!!
jerm: cuz mutombo was just standing there
me: i didn't see most of the 1st half
jerm: and then bam
jerm: tooottooot foul!
me: haha

me: haha... jon's not waking up to his alarm clock :-)
joe: kick him then
me: ewww... touch that flab?
me: he's 80% naked
joe: cross
joe: then touch the 20% that's not
me: haha
joe: unless it's round the crotch
me: that's the boxer part
me: :-)
joe: then that'll just be gross
joe: haha

me: ykno, if you really wanted to try that security idea, why not go all the way?
me: why don't we just have everybody be naked all the time?
joe: that might be alil too much
me: oh yea i forgot... IT'S SICK!
joe: seeing nasty bodies all the time
me: "good evening ladies and gentlemen... this is your captain speaking... i'm currently commando in the cockpit, as FAA regulations require me to strip and fly naked in order to prevent terrorist activities..." :-D
joe: of coure the captain dun need to!!!
joe: pssh...what r u thinking?!?!?
joe: :-P
me: haha
joe: haha
me: but see that's discrimination
joe: that's saftey
joe: captains n hide anything they want
joe: scares off potential jackers
joe: haha
me: what if the captain's a redneck, and all the passengers are ghetto black ppl?
me: but if the captain's naked, he'll scare off potential jackers too :-)
me: with his biiiigg, flabbbbby, **#@()*@)*#)(*
joe: haha
joe: yes...you're rite
me: of course i am; aggie education :-)
me: the way of the hick

"it's 2 o clock your time, midnight mine, and i could die to have you here" -Ace Troubleshooter

(think of it this way; a thousand years for God are like a couple minutes, and what you THINK should occur doesn't have to; it's God's own timing; also, though we're so far away, i could sacrifice it all to see you again)

nite/good morning everyone...

nba final predictions: spurs > nets in 6; if nets > spurs(which is much less likely to happen), that's in 7, and one of the wins that the nets get over the spurs will be like the typical spurs screw up; they're up 20 in the 1st half, blow it all in the 2nd half

biggest chain in puzzle fighter: 4(damnit, i can't hit that number consistently, although this one i did KO'd the opponent)
things to keep in mind the next time i play this awesome puzzle game:
-KEEP MY BIG GEMS OPEN SO THAT I CAN DROP A CRASH GEM ON THEM AT ANY TIME, INSTEAD OF BURYING THEM
-LEARN TO CHAIN BETTER INTO THE 4+ RANGES INSTEAD OF THE 2-3 HITTERS; MAYBE HAVE 2-3 GEM REACTIONS SITTING NEXT TO A LARGE GEM ATTACK, AND BUILD ON THE LARGE GEM ATTACK AS THE "FUSE" OF THE WHOLE THING?
-DON'T PANIC AS MUCH, AND LEARN TO DROP/POSITION FASTER
-LOOK AT OPPONENT'S GEMS MORE TO SEE IF THEY'RE GONNA ATTACK
-AND MOST IMPORTANTLY AS KEN; DO NOT ATTACK AS OFTEN

spirit west coast looks really intriguing this year to me... now that i've become a lot more aware of the christian music scene and realize that there ARE bands who aren't just contemporary worship, but punk rock, even freestylers(i'm looking at the list though; still no abundance of modern rock or 12 stones, but it's all good)... here's the list of ones i like OFF of the official list at the website

relient k, paul coleman trio, david crowder band, jeremy camp, chris tomlin, lincoln brewster, superchic, kj-52(! too good!), sanctus real(!), ace troubleshooter(2:00 your time is a great song)... however, relient k+sanctus real+kj-52?!? that's already too good by that!

thank God for AirOne... no really... thank God...

yesterday, i stuffed my face with too much mint chocolate chip ice cream @dinner... it was part of the cafeteria exclusive food that day...

sf2 guile is too good... c.jabx3, s.jabx3 dizzies(s.jab has WAAAAY too much range)... then just do j.fierce,s.fierce->sonic boom,s.fierce(redizzies), do that combo again, you won... if they block your jabs, throw them with strong, then hold forward and keep tapping jab to get your free sonic boom, follow it in again... or after the jabs, go for the magic throw into handcuff, magic throw again... how do they even THINK dhalsim is top tier up there with sf2 guile?

ssf2t akuma is just cheap... air fireball just SHUTS EVERYTHING OUT... it's all about geometry f00...

electric guitar, vocalist, freestyler, editing software...

monday's one-liner, taken from http://gci.gospelcom.net/dw/

If a small thing has the power to make you angry, does that not indicate something about your size?
- Sydney J. Harris

hmm... makes me wonder... that IS kinda true... i mean, i tend to get pissed off at very small things... hmm... adds that one to my spritual goals to do over the summer... AND KEEP...

ah yea, i remember these:

AFI- Totalimmortal(i could never figure out the name of this song, only that i heard it a lot during the good ol 98.5 KOME days; it's only watching a CVS2 guile combo exhibition video that i heard the song again; it's a lotta screaming, but the intro's nice)
Lit- Over My Head(right off of the Titan AE soundtrack; one of the more different american anime films; one which actually isn't a stupid disney song-and-dance; it was good; had no idea Drew Barrymore's voice could pass off as a azn tough-girl; psylocke anyone?)

nothing beats the REAL ol skool though... joe satriani KILLS in skill... van halen, eric clapton, jimi hendrix... all these are also wideknown... and much better in talent than anything else you hear today... the closest thing i can think of today has to be creed and 12 stones, but that's about it, more or less.

crunch time for all skoolers, more or less(except for those UCB ppl... damn mandy)... gluck everyone... study hard... forget better luck tomorrow, your actions NOW determine tomorrow... and forget your past... you can't change it now...

some visual learner i am... i can't create drum loops to use for my works of music... basically, i can see what the drummer is doing in my mind, but i can't see the notes appearing on sheet music, which is what the drum loop software more or less uses to get down the sounds... but i'll figure it out... i just was never good with sheet music and timing, esp when i was learning the violin... THAT was what was my main weakness playing the violin... guitar? haha... who NEEDS sheet music? (ok, ok, the better ppl)

my fave quote yesterday on comedy central regarding whether black ppl should fly now, cause there's the terrorist scares and stuff, by a black female comedian:
"you believe in jesus? THEN GET YO ASS ON THAT PLANE!"

sometimes, the only reason i'm dark is cause i feel like i'm gonna explode with anger... meaningless, pissed-off anger... this has a lot to do with my impatience at times... i just don't show it... you only see that i don't smile often, and either have a feelingless face, or a furrowed one...

i'm going to bed before the feeling goes away...

laura: see.. define right away
laura: hahah
me: heh
laura: right back means many diferent things
laura: hehe
laura: back as in today
laura: hehe
me: oh stoppit... this is why i hate lawyers... don't twist my words... you know what i meant :-)
laura: heheh
me: lawyers take the simplest words and blow them out of context
me: the bible says "let your yes be yes, and your no be no"
laura: hehe
laura: my yes means yes
laura: and my no means no
laura: some words are tricky
me: but your brb means something else
laura: liek the word "some"
laura: how many is "some" exactly?
me: not all
laura: it's up to people's interpretation and opinion
me: and not none
me: and not exactly "most of"
laura: okay right back means right away
laura: for lack of time
me: haha

lesse what's on my mind:

spurs > mavs... yay! what i find weird though is that the winning edge this game came from the 3-pt shooting of stephen jackson and... get this... steve kerr? the guy nailed pretty much every 3 he shot in the 4th quarter for 13 mins that he played... incredible... he saved the spurs tonight... as for jackson... the guy was on fire tonight too... what the heck? dude, you're usually sucking every other night... why tonight? better question, why don't you do this more often?

jon's friend though doesn't think the spurs are good... ok, so they're boring, but that doesn't mean they suck... they have a well-rounded team and can play offensively or defensively, so...

i'm rooting for spurs for nba finals... not that i hate the nets, just don't care about them... deciding factor's gonna come from the spurs' shooting guard... manu ginobili anyone? :)

sam: ginobili has this dribbling move i saw him do a couple times
sam: he fakes to the right and dribbles the ball to his far right
sam: then he uses his left hand and brings it to his left side and he drives left
me: oh hmm...
me: that's kinda neat... i should try that sometime
sam: its kinda and1 style
me: yea

warriors make the sprite #1 on the top ten assists... arenas bounce pass to jrich for an alleyoop... siiiiick

i played my electric guitar today! man, how i've changed! i think i might've forgotten all the riffs i played in high school... i should play more... btw thanks god, i needed that strong motivation to worship you today... couldn't have done it w/o you...

i wanna learn drums... and be able to record the sounds... as well as get better w/an electric guitar...

been lately trying to make a SFA2 Valle CC FAQ... it's kinda cool...

so angry at myself right now... i missed another mandatory class, and we were plannning to peer review someone else's draft... great... i get marked down for attendance, and probably will again for not having a draft there... DAMN! i always makes the same frikkin mistakes! why do i procrastinate? WHY? i never learn... i'm so mad at myself right now...

i can find absolutely no FAQ on SFA2's Bread and Butter Valle CCs of the game... damnit... ruin my one chance of getting into the game dont ya?

first all-nighter pulled in davis... was it worth it? well, my chem grades will tell... hopefully, it was worth it...

ouch... detroit's down 3... this could be bad...

indeed... lebron james is going to cleveland... KING JAMES!

warriors are #11 for draft pick... get a tall guy GS, and maybe we'll have better chances of making playoffs... like one of those tall italian guys...

haha... i can't believe i'm actually reading this:

Article about a grapefruit tree that bears beef instead of fruit

... in a way it's humorous... in a way, freaky... i still have no idea whether or not it's ethical... "playing God" is not a very good argument that it's unethical though, as i'm learning in various medical-related philosophy classes... the fact that it could be dangerous to consumers is though... although the good thing is it might lower the cost of beef, whether or not you're a vegetarian... would it have the same types of nutrients though?

and God created meat... and he saw that it was good... but man sinned against God has forever to this day been rebelling against God... then man raised up within himself ingratitude towards the things God had given him, and refused to eat what God had created, even though he had given it to man for food... he caused grapefruit to bear beef, so that he could still follow his own philosophies and ignore God's will without depriving himself... and God saw that it was whack... in other words, you vegetarians are EVIL :)

personally, i think if you wanna eat meat, just eat the real thing... don't look at me and tell me you're eating fruit and give yourself the false sense of security that you're not eating a cow... what are you on, the atkins diet?

yes... spurs even it up...
the two highlights(amer express and speed stick) of the spurs were tight... ginobili to duncan for an alleyoop, and rose blocks bradley's dunk attempt... that was so sick... if you don't think that's impressive, consider this: shawn bradley is 7-6, and malik rose is 6-7... the closest thing i can think of CTCC wise was during our church retreat when i chased down hubert and blocked his layup :) (i still remember the moment, not too vividly though)... hubert's 6-3(or was it 6-1?), i was 5-11 at the time... ah memories...

you know the nba draft lottery's today... while i can't comment too much due to my lack of expertise, i'm looking at the list of candidates here, and my comments:

HAHA... you KNOW whoever gets #1 wants Lebron "King" James! go Lebron! well, we shall see whether all the hyper is justified when he starts to play...
and yet another chinese player... where's the taiwanese ballers representing yo?
2 ppl from internationals are 7-4... since when are the world's tallest players NOT olang?
speaking of olang... James Lang is on there... but i saw him during the MickeyDee's game... he seems kinda short, but heavyset...

forget ihatela.com... it's a laker hater site, but the forums are pretty much just filled with people with hate the lakers and ppl who suck up to the lakers who come in to hate right back... it's basically a kings forum in disguise... the kings fans sound more intelligible, but it's still pretty much bashing of each other... so i'm not sticking around there... as to my response to this year's lakers, all i have to say is:

duncan and ginobili OWNED you! i-i-i'm sorry, who just shot over you and outrebounded you? who just crossed your kobe and then shaq up?

something seems wrong with blogger lately... ah well... i'll just keep writing... not like anyone but bob from church and maybe steven from MVHS reads it...

here's something that sucks when you're a spurs fan or rooting for them in a live nba game: like the warriors, it seems that they always blow huge leads; they could be up by 20 points closing in the 1st half, and yet lose all those points right back somewhere in the 3rd quarter and 4th quarter... it's annoying

head hurts because i went to sleep too late, and didn't want to take any afternoon naps...

davis is so friggin hot recently... it feels worse than a cupertino summer, it feels like i'm in hell... shirtless as usual... i wonder if the guys in socal are feeling the same

eh... bible reading... chem study... maybe guitar...

i am not happy with the nba playoffs; both of the teams i am now rooting for(spurs for west cause of duncan and ginobili, pistons in east cause of ben wallace, even though they've beaten the sixers and warriors in crunch time) are now down 1 from the game 1... damnit, the spurs had it today too... part of the success to beating the mavs has to do with not getting carried away with their fast-paced offense and slowing it down to your level... in order for spurs to win they need to wait for when duncan isn't double-teamed and give it to him, cause he'll either draw the foul or make the shot... or both... you know the tall guys on the mavs can't handle him... also, work on your free throws duncan... you need to make every free throw for your inside game to be killer... i cringe everytime i watch you miss a free throw... also, don't get too carried away with double-teaming on defense... that's a big one... the point is, slow it down spurs, and you'll get it... mavs are nothing but fast-paced offense... imo they really are just that... whenever they're on cold shooting streaks you should be owning them... SLOW IT DOWN AND ABUSE THEM IN THE PAINT, THEN DON"T BE SO WILLING TO DOUBLE-TEAM AND MAKE SURE YOU SQUEEZE EVERY REBOUND OUT OF EVERY SHOT THAT TRICKLES OUT... and when they do double team you, look for the open man, cause there's your free shot, then get ready to rebound...
(i guess in theory that's what'll win, but it's hard... ykno, just TRY to do that... too bad duncan isn't faster, or this would be easier)

i'll post later... i'm not even done with my philosophy paper...

cross-up j.forward\/whiff b.s.jab,punch throw...
counter-hit c.strong,c.forward->hadoken...
c.short,c.short,b.s.roundhouse...
counter-hit anti-air b.s.jab/\air punch throw or jab shoryuken or VC...
rush them down with V-Ryu until they reach the corner, then look for an opening to VC the s*** outta them...
(man i wanna joystick, why so much? i keep screwing up my VCs in the corner)

Lincoln Brewster- Lord I Lift Your Name On High
Lincoln Brewster- Power Of Your Love
Joe Satriani- Summer Song(I LOVE THIS SONG! this was the original song that got me loving his works)

i better not lose my guitar skills... i should play more, but it's like laura's away message yesterday... stupid midterms and paper...

sometimes what is heard can't be put into words...

go watch the JRich highlights @warriors.com... tight stuff... props to my fave warrior!

I Hate LA DOT COM... for all you Laker and Dodger haterz... not surprisingly enough there are also Laker fans who try to hate right back... but the site isn't that full, so i'll pass...

haha... one of my fave replies from a laker fan somewhere on the web(i'll find it later) to try to look like he was talking smack to all the kings fans was that the best team is LA, located in CA's capital(or something like that)... where'd you go to school idiot?

but enough hate for tonight... they're dead this post-season, period, beaten by the san antonio spurs... and i'm happy... somewhat... still would've been nice to have kings live another round, but beggers can't be choosers... besides, the goody-goody christian team beat them, so... duncan did his work, and ginobili crossed up kobe, then shaq going in for a layup... so i'm happy
i can't believe how no Laker fan opens their eyes and notices how you have 2 good players on your team, 3 decent players, and then a crap-ass bench... putting jansen on duncan?!?!? and whatever-pale-faced-guy on whatever spur? when it comes to that i'm just predicting ownage until duncan gets a couple fouls slapped on him, but it didn't happen in game 6 did it?

i wish i could turn back time... so many wrongs i wanna right... yet, as a christian, we should actually be wanting to turn that clock FORWARD... there's more to life... i just wish i could be 100% confident and 100% hopeful when i say that... midterms and papers are bogging me down...

ok, so i guess it is texan pride this year for western conference finals... go spurs...
(man, i can't believe one of jon's friends want mavs to win because of what kings did to jazz... that pisses me off... "in the spirit of Stockton"... wth reason is that? that's like saying i want phoenix to die because my warriors didn't make it into the playoffs! who the hell cares?)

haha... ken rodriguez is hecka funny... he's a mySanAntonio.com writer who wrote a buncha articles on the Spurs-Lakers series... he's a natural comedian at heart... way too funny the way he disses on the lakers just makes me die... like the way louis would've made fun of them... here's a page full of the stuff he wrote(look for anything written by ken rodriguez):
Spurs 2002-2003

my faves are:
Ken Rodriguez: Well, Lakers fans, booo-YAH this(this is a response to the emails he got from the ER article)
Ken Rodriguez: Parker's breakthrough breaks Lakers
Ken Rodriguez: Inspiration all L.A. needed to get going
Ken Rodriguez: L.A. may want a great plastic surgeon
Ken Rodriguez: Hate the Lakers? Join the crowd

so angry at myself because i waste the oppurtunities that God has given me... he gives me a lump of clay, and i turn it into... a dried up lump of crap pulled and punched here and there, with cracks all over... that's what it's like, that's how i feel... pulled... punched... torn inside... i hate myself because i waste what is given me...

sixers lost... boo... damnit... in overtime... sucks when you know they've given all they've got and still lose...

i really think spurs are gonna get the trophy this year... even if kings win, they have a huge disadvantage, considering that their best big man is gone... oh well... they deserve it... they whupped the lakers out of the playoffs...

heh heh... brother's appreciation nite @fellowship... flowers for every1, heh heh...

God's kingdom is as much as you will let God be in your heart...

Whadda difference in viewpoints... i'm printing out both articles tomorrow...
LA reports on Lakers' loss
SA reports on Spurs' win

haha... the funny thing is the way the SA paper disses on the Lakers... ie "Somewhere in the rubble is Phil Jackon's Zen," or something like that

laura: i can't wait to see if the kings win
laura: oh when the kings win
laura: hehe
...
laura: what time is the game tomorrow?
laura: do you know?
me: 8 pm ET i think TNT
me: so that'll be around 6 i guess
laura: hmm
laura: isn't it 5pm?
laura: 3 hour difference?
me: yea
laura: oic okay
laura: sounds good
laura: i dunno i fi ca watch it
me: shuuuuure
laura: i'm going to watch the matrix
me: what!
laura: at 7:45
me: haha
laura: hmm
laura: we'll see
me: and miss rooting for your home team?
laura: haha
me: well, semi-home team?
laura: i dont live in sac
laura: hehe
laura: hehe okays i gg hardcore do hw
laura: so i can go watch matrix 1
laura: hehe
laura: peaCE
me: haha
me: waitaminute... matrix... ONE?
me: i would understand matrix 2... but... 1?
me: aw this is rediculous!
laura: yep
me: haha... i can't understand you so cal girls
laura: watchign it before matrix 2 so i get it more
laura: ya
me: haha
me: oh never watched it before?
laura: i have
laura: 2wice
me: ok...
laura: but i guess i didnt get it all
me: *sigh*.... i guess i will never really get you socal ppl
laura: hahah
laura: i'm not socal
laura: really
me: shuuure... are the friends that are watching matrix 1 socal ppl?
laura: no
laura: all norcal
laura: except 1
me: haha...
...
me: alright i'll leave you alone; go do your hw like a good NORCAL girl
laura: hahah okay
laura: i will
laura: i mean i am

boooourns! don't tell me my bass stereo headphones broke! or my bro's... uh oh(hope he doesn't kill me when he comes back)... man... this means i gotta look around tomorrow... so that means either a radioshack run or UCD bookstore run...

alright, now i know if jerm all of a sudden leaves during a CS game w/o saying bye to me it's cause he's alt+tab'ing it... not that he's actually leaving...

haha... so you guys know i like saying(or rather typing online) "tru dat" when i'm agreeing, something "shuuuure" right? haha... funny conversation clip between me and laura...
laura: truedat
me: haha... you're saying trudat!
me: no no no... you gotta omit the e
laura: hahaha huh?
laura: truedat
laura: ?
laura: trudat?
me: that's how i say it
laura: truethat
laura: true that!
laura: hahaha
me: haha
laura: does that make you angry?
laura: hahaha
me: well, does me saying 0hG00|> |\|3zz make you angry? :-)
laura: hahaha
laura: that's funny
laura: because if you did it.. i wouldn't have been able to get it at first
laura: oh goo
laura: hwat goo?
laura: hahaha
me: typical @Z|\| style
me: 0[-] g0o|) |/|3ZZ !
laura: oy
laura: see that's hard to really get
me: haha
laura: i thought asian style was
me: heh
laura: aZn oHgOoDnEsS
me: heh
me: T|^ (_) D@T!
laura: oy

yes... kings > mavs... looks like a game 7's occurring... although this is bad, cause it'll be occurring on mavs' home turf... good luck guys...

here's a weird thought... if mavs advance, the west conf finals will be texan pride... san antonio vs. dallas... last year it was cali pride; sac vs la, or nor cal vs so cal... interesting thought eh? still, i'm hoping kings win...

yyeeeeeeeaaaaaa! spurs advance! spurs > lakers, 110-82! go duncan! 37 pts, 16 rebounds! i saw duncan take it in against shaq, as well as put up his own miss after a rebound... in fact... the whole spurs team was clicking for the 2nd half...

to reiterate what happened, here are some highlights(some are cut and paste of the below):
ginobili takes it in for the layup, and fakes right sending shaq hopping in his direction for a block attempt, then goes left and gets the layup... in other words... GINOBILI CROSSED UP SHAQ! haha...
so much rebounding, offensively and defensively and point-denyage... and points... from the whole spurs team... that's for sure... how many times have i seen duncan put it up, miss, get his own rebound, and put it back in? or someone else gets the rebound? it was like God took the lakers' game and threw it out the window...
kevin willis with the put back... oh damn
near end of 3rd quarter, kobe makes a three... crowd goes up... get this... tony parker takes the inbound ball... and drives it all the way down past everyone to land a layup with 1.2 seconds left...

(i wonder why i keep mixing up willis with bowen?)

stupid abc sports up here in UCD cut to mavs-kings during the spurs-lakers game... and stayed there... damn you... i wanna see the lakers go down live... spurs are on a NASTY run right now 4th quarter, up 20 pts... everybody's just rebounding the crap outta the lakers... i love this... lakers could go down tonight... and you have to switch to mavs-kings!

highlights:
ginobili takes it in, and crosses up shaq! hahaha!
so much rebounding, offensively and defensively and point-denyage... that's for sure... how many times have i seen duncan put it up, miss, get his own rebound, and put it back in?
kevin willis with the put back... oh damn

the staples center is seriously SILENT when i was last watching... if i come back from eating and they have come back i'm gonna lose it... spurs are just clicking... duncan's got more than 36 pts, 9 rebounds!

of all achievements, i can now spin my pen around my thumb a lot better... it's not perfect though... the key's to keeping your thumb stiff and not moving it at all... all the action comes from the fingers

lately i've been shirtless whenever i'm in my dorm... indeed, UCD IS getting hot... summer IS coming... so sad... how time flies by so quickly...

A-Groove Bison = V-ism Akuma... i wonder if i should play some at the MU... i'm afraid to get owned though...

Ecclesiastes 11
my chapter of the day...

man... sixers < pistons... on GOALTENDING!

aaaannnnddd.... playoffs are once again bittersweet... spurs > lakers(so close near the end... good game, and good momentum build up for the 1st half... at least it looked like it was enough to cushion for a win), but mavs > kings(damnit! i thought the kings were on a roll the 1st half too! you guys have to finish strong!)

damnit... one of my sandals breaks RIGHT when i get back from showering... that is bull... nike you suck...

Switchfoot - Meant to Live (LIVE)

Brown wishes MJ would join sixers
Seriously, that'd be sick... AI DOES admire MJ... having him be VP of sixers would just be tight... for me, if he went to warriors or magic that would be tight too...

booo... nj sweeps boston... and the fact that it came from a double overtime in which walker fouled out the 1st one, and paul pierce missed the clutch jumper that sent it into 2nd OT didn't help either... because that meant that game was MUCH, MUCH too close for them... lakers and spurs tonight... go duncan and ginobili!

where'd time go? i feel like yesterday spring quarter began... and last week winter quarter began...

uh, gross, but meaningful lesson i wanna shout out below, read at your own risk, don't say i didn't warn you:
for my toenails, i usually let them grow about 2-3 weeks' worth before cutting them; this is much different to when i cut my fingernails every 1-2 weeks... because of this, long nails have a greater tendency to bend... thus, for my toenails, they bend towards the skin... so essentially, all the sweat and heat that comes up from the free skin below the nail gets trapped... it makes that area smell really bad, cause it's almost like anaerobic bacteria work on the coagulated sweat there... it's like smelling cheese that has a strong odor, but worse(don't worry, i shower, but since the nails are long, stuff gets not cleaned there, maybe i should)... so when i cut my toenails, it actually exposed those areas to the air... the very 1st cut i made with my clippers immediately made me smell the odor... that's how strong it was... and my face was a good 1-2 feet from my feet... i had no idea it could smell that bad... your toes can smell ok after a shower, and yet, you clip em, and the odor just hits you in the face...
you see, sin's a lot like that... you think you're ok, you're fresh and clean, you just came outta the shower, whatever... your cleaning has to come from the inside... God needs to expose your insides, the filth inside of you in order for you to be really clean... does the outside still matter? yes it does... but it's much easier to clean the outside than the inside... the inside is a 100x harder to clean... but it must be done... your very spirtual life and the act of God smiling upon you lies upon it... however the difference between a spiritual inward cleaning and hygiene inward cleaning is that the spiritual inward cleaning takes so much more time... you can't just whip out the clippers to clean the filth... it's like a lifelong surgery... without anescethetic... you need to experience the pain, to get over it in order to be really clean... and after the operation, you'll still have to fight those urges... like a urge to spiritually smoke... or to spiritually act like an anorexic or bullemic... you get the idea...

yes! sixers even it up... ai had some 30+ pts and 11 assists... team bball man!
ditto w/kings... man... they raped the mavs... YESSSS! i thought they were crap after cwebb left, but kings again prove to me that they are seriously the most versatile team in the nba... they have so many good players, that they could play with 3 injuries... unlike, say, the lakers, who would go down if shaq and kobe were injured... sam's right... your luck against the mavs pretty much comes down to whether their perimeter shooting is hot that night... that's all they are... perimeter shooting... they are NOTHING if they can't shoot from the 3 pt line

again, i can't stress how bad i feel for duncan and the spurs... he collected 36 pts, 9 rebounds, but he got into foul trouble, and that's when the lakers came back... he also missed 2 key free throws IMO, and the game was within reach of them, they just let it slip... one point they were +16, for the most part in the 4th quarter it was always -3 to +3

weird in the morning how when i glance right at my aim buddy list that i don't see bob's sn... prayers go out to you man

Rebecca St. James - I Thank You
Sonicflood - Lord Over All
Chris Tomlin - Not To Us

great when you have close friends who are switchfoot lovers... i finally got a GOOD version of "Meant To Live!" steven, if you want it(if you're internet connection is rather quick), feel free to aim me about it

dude... mandy just writes... and writes... and writes... and writes... in her site... crazy... if ppl like her didn't have online diaries, they would get carpal tunnel within the 1st page of a diary...

i feel like i'm always struggling between what i'm supposed to do and what i want to do... i hate this... my dad never had laziness genes... why me? maybe it's my mom... lagger... as it says in the bible, sin is punished to the 4th generation... i dunno how true this is... does God still punish sons and daughters just cause someone else sinned? i thought Jesus clarified that the blind man's dad or mom didn't sin, but that he was born blind so that God might be glorified in him. or does it mean that our genes for sin are passed down to the 4th generation, therefore we get the same punishment for those sins? i'm pretty sure israelites didn't have a word for "gene" back then, hence why they could've used simpler language. hmm...

how can you see what's good inside of me? all i see is soot, blackness, dust, ugly, evil thoughts and tendencies... how do you, the author of all that is good, see the good in me? (because i love you, son... i don't care how much you sinned against me, or what you've done... i want you just as you are... i can change you... i only ask that you give me your heart and soul)

eh... that's all from me this morning...

playoffs update:

sixers: 1, pistons: 2(sixers > pistons last game :D)
spurs: 2, lakers: 2(lakers > spurs last game... damnit, it was so friggin close; duncan worked so hard, they lost it on inbound passing and not passing to their open man)
nets: 3, celtics: 0(man... walker is just being abused by martin, it's not funny *sniff*)
mavs: 2, kings: 1(kings may lose this series just because cwebb got injured *sniff*... damn mavs, go down already)

i find this surprising, but i may end up supporting spurs more than any of the other playoff teams right now... mainly cause their playing against lakers, but i really respect duncan... he's arguably the best big man right now(and i like big men who can do a lot for their team, except for shaq)... i think he got the MVP award, so some may even think he's better than shaq... and unlike shaq, he's willing to give up the ball, acting like a team player. his bank shots are really good too. other than that i really like ginobilli... the guy's got style, unlike most of the other spurs... and bowen has a better 3 pt % than his free throw % :D
(basically, unless if kings pull themselves out of their slump, sixers come back, and celtics make a miraculous 4 win streak comeback, i'm rooting for spurs... well, i could support detroit, cause i like ben wallace, but they're playing against sixers right now, so that'll have to wait)

playing cops and mexican illegal immigrants with the hide_and_seek map in CS is hecka fun... me, jerm and tim had a blast... either pretend you are the mexican immigrants and try to cross the california border, or that you're la migra and need to stop those idiots w/o a green card... sam, luigi, jon, you guys should seriously try this
(when i told laura about it she laughed and said "you guys are crazy")

ReCharredSigh killed jerm with m4a1
(...another kill, then get killed)
*DEAD*jerm: damnit rich, you're just killin me today
*DEAD*jerm: and yesterday
*DEAD*ReCharredSigh: haha
*DEAD*ReCharredSigh: haha
*DEAD*jerm: somethings wrong w/ me, maybe my fingers are getting tooo fat
*DEAD*ReCharredSigh: haha

damn... celtics lost, spurs lost...

wanna know just how unique my online name is? do a google search, and you'll find all the areas i've made a mark in... i'm in the gamefaqs.com's "most contributed" writers list! currently #89! only cause i do quantity over quality...

Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies"
John 11:25

Even for those who are dead inside? Wow...

somewhere in between all the nba playoffs, midterms, late night csing, grade-worrying, vf-watching and sf-playing my inner spiritual self yearns to come out... but it never gets a chance here in davis during school session... because either there's too much work, or i give in too easily to understand what is valuable... i'm pitiful... i come in here from high school thinking i'm gonna remain strong from my summer spiritual growth, and it's torn to pieces in less than six months... so what if i'm going to church and fellowship... i haven't touched my guitar for such a long time, and usually how often i touch my guitar is analagous to how much i desire to worship God...

let's do some reasoning here man:
more time = worship session
earlily finished studies/work = more time
organized work schedule = earlily finished studies/work
not wasting time = organized work schedule
going to sleep early = not wasting time
playing CS late = - going to sleep early
therefore, i am just jacking myself...
where's the self control man?

Switchfoot- Meant to Live
------------------------------------
Fumbling his confidence and wondering
Why the world has passed him by.
Hoping that he's bent for more
That arguments and failed attempts to fly.

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside.

Dreaming about providence and
Whether mice and men have second tries.
Maybe we've been living with our eyes half open,
Maybe we're bent and broken.

We want more that this world's got to offer
We want more that this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life.

man... kings prob lost this game... -20 or so, what's worse, if cwebb is out for the rest of the season, they're gonna lose the playoff finals chance... *sigh* damnitdamnitdamnitdamnit... man...

sixers lost to pistons too... man... ai, those 2 free throws meant EVERYTHING...

i should stop playing SFA3 for a while on my laptop, or at least shell out the money to buy a joystick... ykno how i keep saying my thumb callous is harder than my finger(aka guiar) callouses? there's clear white on my thumb... that's how bad it's gotten

haha... family guy's so funny... i should look for more dl's... the one where Peter gets a new son's hilarious

that VF4Evo movie i dl'd was the shiznit... total edit skill...

Reaction Test Game

good for uping your fighting game and cpu gaming abilities

louis is funny:
(taken from his profile)
here's a mental test for you
1) How do u put a giraffe into a refrigerator?
Open the refrigerator door, put the giraffe in and close it.
2)How do you put an elephant into a refrigerator?
wrong answer: open the door, put in the elephant and close it.
open the door, take the giraffe out, put in the elephant, close the door.
3)The Lion King is hosting a animal conference, all but one show up. Which animal does not attend?
the elephant, he's still in the refrigerator
last one, better get this one if u didn't get the first 3
4)You must cross a river, but it is inhabited by crocodiles. How do you cross it?
You swim across, the crocodiles are at the conference
hehe, owned

sam IS right... espn doesn't suck up to anyone, or cut to anyone in the crowd and stuff... go sixers... make your comeback! (they're down right now... they better mount a comeback)
maybe my attitude towards the spurs will change slightly... it seems i'm taking a liking to ginobilli, that guy is pretty good, and somewhat flashy to boot... i remember watching him getting 2 lakers with his under-the-rim dunk... i still like duncan the most of the spurs though... you know that guy would be considered the best center hands-down if it weren't for shaq...

me: guess which t-shirt i'm wearing right now
luigi: uh oh
luigi: hehe
me: haha

i'm starting to like "the last ninja" the game... it was an ol skool game on the cpu which i never got how to play, but now that finally figured out how to play it it's very entertaining... too bad it doesn't run on my xp laptop... but it runs on my 98 win cpu @home... the series actually goes all the way up to "the last ninja 4- the return" which is gonna be released on the xbox... man... makes me wanna get an xbox... not to mention vf4evo's on the xbox...

i wish i didn't have to sleep or eat in order to remain healthy... those two things take so much time out of your day... then again, if humans didn't need to eat or sleep we would add so much more stuff to do each day, so that wouldn't be any better...

3 packs of guacamole left in my dorm room, 2 packages of dried bananas, 1 and a 1/2 packages of dried pineapples left, 1 package of tortilla chips made w/avocados, 1 package of tortilla chips... and jon's sobe, which i never drink... oh yeah 3 oranges, a couple lollipops which i have never touched(i should throw them away), and a chinese-style raisin pie, which i haven't opened yet...

aye, round 2 of playoffs has been bittersweet for me, on one hand spurs won for the 2nd time against lakers(bowen was just knocking down threes like crazy, and the lakers got into foul trouble early, not to mention ginobilli was just dominating them, go ginobilli!), and kings take a 1-0 lead over mavs, but detroit is 1 up on philadelphia, and nets have been 2-0 against celtics...

this is the first time the annual evolution SF competition is gonna be expanded to host a lot more fighting game genres... VF4Evo will be there! woo hoo! (well, actually it won't matter for me anyways cause i won't attend, and if i do, i'll just get rocked, but it's kinda cool knowing the US is more acceptive of VF now)

ow... VF4Evo Sarah Bryant combo vid made by tragic is 100+ MB in size... ZIPPED... this is gonna take awhile... it better be good...

my lack of self-control is making my college experience unbearable...

back to my paper...

sometimes i feel that me and jon are playing tag-team as to who gets up earlier and who slumbers through the morning... it used to be all me getting up earlier, but recently me and jon are passing the torch back and forth.

bittersweet playoff yesterday; nets > celtics *sniff* although it was a close one; good try celtics, just don't trash talk, and keep on trying harder... battie and walker fouled out :( but paul pierce almost had it too; that tying 3 could've made the big difference... even had a nice open look... he even said it felt good coming out of his hands and he had a wide open look... but good game guys... it was close...
but spurs > lakers, and ginobilli even got a piece or two of some lakers going under the rim for an tomahawk dunk... aside from duncan, jackson and ginobilli are pretty good... those two are the flash of the team, which is why i somewhat like em, although i still like duncan more, cause he's such a good big man... prob the best center in the game...

linkin park - figure... it's a good song...

maybe it's just me, but linkin park, for all their artistic creativity, only talk about problems... i greatly respect and relish their works(they blend turntabling, freestyling and heavy alternative rock very well together, and their poetry is very good, but all they ever talk about are problems, never solutions... they don't talk about sex and stuff, but it's always inner problems... NEVER solutions... i'm wondering, do you necessarily have to be dark because heavy metal is considered dark?
("and now you've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear, i can't separate myself from what i've done, giving up a part of me, i've let myself become part of you")

man, everyone who says they have switchfoot - meant to live for download really have a cut-off version of switchfoot - more than fine...

some expected movies:
X-2: maybe wait til kids quiet down about this one before watching it?
Matrix 2: i'm there
Bruce Almighty: heh heh, this would be awesome to see; Jim Carrey's very funny...
T-3: i dunno... i'm assuming it's gonna be crappy... but it's the Terminator! i remember growing up with T-2 memories...

SFA3 Ryu and Evil Ryu BGMs rox :D

detroit > orlando... which is bittersweet, cause i like ben wallace, but also tmac even more... i knew it was bound to happen sometime or later though; you can't win a championship on only 1 person. ok, 2, cause of drew gooden, but still...

and mavs > blazers, which kinda blows... KINDA...

oh yeah, btw on friday i saw littleduckiesgopeep; heh heh, i had to say that... basically i was walking back to my dorm and saw these ducklings near a duck couple, some were even right under the mother... so cute... amazing... they look pretty neat, some were yellow, with a tint of black, etc. kinda cool just watching them. watching how God lets nature play out... some photographer started taking pics.

yay YAY! celtics advance over pacers.... go battie! go watch the speed stick highlight; he just STUFFED the pacers 3-4 times in one of their possessions; man... whadda blocker...

fave 2K3 NBA playoff plays:
amare stoudamire's fake throw over, pump fake right then dribble left past duncan for the reverse jam
battie's 3-4 blocks against the pacers
pollard comes up from behind and rejects malone's EASY layup
coleman's block on davis' tomahawk dunk
kg's alleyoop
kenyon martin rejected by rim :)

...man... sixers really ARE playing team bball now... i truly believe it... on defense they just know when to swat... offense they know how to run the ball...

haha... hulk hogan looks so much like captain america now; just give him a shield! haha...

and lakers advance :(

didn't get a free scoop of ice cream cause i was too lazy; shouldve just went right after i ate at the cafeteria; oh well; the pocket change i save up could easily buy a scoop as well, although it'd be a pain for the cashier(imagines laying down 200+ pennies... ouch)

i finally found a SFA3 combo exhibition video which showcases some of the more common V-ism combos, and then some other flashy combos; yea... go V-ism Akuma! i wish V-ism Ryu had a demon flip equivalent... then he'd get some serious midscreen VC power... his corner VC's better than V-ism Akuma though... oh well... makes me wanna actually get an arcade joystick for my laptop...

got whupped in our clan match... and btw why don't i ever get a call from my church counselor here in UCD? uh oh... did i leave the ringer off on our dorm phone? *smacks head* i should check to see, cause yeah...

JRich got in trouble w/the cops?!?!?!? aw man!

my soul aches to go home, because sometimes it feels like i'm striving for nothing... college is better or worse than high school depending on your point of view; if you soak info up like a sponge, then it's better cause you don't have to go to class if you want... but if you're the type which has trouble with tests, you'll die... instead of grading you in little spurts, they pack your grade(and indirectly, your future) into 3-4 tests... high schoolers, if you're reading this, be EXTREMELY glad you're in high school, and that they grade you the way you are...

31 baskin robbins:

free scoop of ice cream april 30th from 6 to 10 pm...

let the mooching begin, haha...

also:

iron chef comp for the CTCC yg this friday... interesting... you remind me of when i had to taste-test the cookies you guys made, haha...
bob: you weren't around back in the day
bob: when I was still in yg
bob: and there was a cookie baking contest
bob: where Eric Huang made cookies
bob: with breath mints and tic tacs and fruit loops on them
bob: and they were burned
bob: so gross
me: haha
me: i guess all the candy melted together?
bob: yeah, that
bob: plus it looked gross
me: haha

oh yeah, the actress they hired to play Lady Deathstrike for X-2 looks too nice(and she's prob not even japanese, unless if Hu is a japanese name)... the comic Lady Deathstrike looks a lot more butt-ugly, like Spiral... i'm serious; don't believe me? take a look:
Marvel Comics: Lady Deathstrike vs. Cap America
And this is the actress who plays her

man....

lakers > twolves tonight...
(although kobe had a creative dunk; reverse pump-fake layup, except he jammed it in afterward)
pacers > celtics tonight... in OT too!

ouch...

my favorite NBA playoff plays so far:

game 3 Kings v Jazz: Pollard comes up from behind and swats away Malone's easy layup into the crowd
game 4 Sixers v Hornets: Coleman blocks Davis' tomahawk dunk(that was just crazy... almost anyone blocks a power dunk you have my respect)

notice how so far they're all blocks :)
go celtics, sixers, magic, twolves, and kings!

and no bob, i can't see into the future, though i wish

can you feel me?
do you hate yourself
yet never learn?
do you get up
only so you can fall right down on your face?
i lose sleep
then overgain it
i see sand run dry
and my time's run out
there's a crowd
and they just wanna see
me fall again
so they can benefit from my loss
where are you when
i need you?
i thought you were my strength
when i was weak
where's my hope?
cmon and help me back up
but don't let me fall
let me rise with you
til we're high above everything
(i didn't even mean it to sound nice rhythmically, in case you're wondering, just jotting my thoughts down)

Life After Now's interpretation of the contemporary worship song In the Secret... while the editing's pretty bad(looks like all they used was a mic far away from the amp), and i think the riff doesn't match, because it goes up about 1 key and doesn't match the tempo, this is basically what the song would sound faster-paced, the way i'd do it:

Go here, and click on one of the In The Secret links

davis weather's pretty whack... i thought davis was very environmental friendly, so i'd get REGULAR weather here, and yet it's raining at the end of may! well, then again it may be those damn sac ppl driving back and forth... kinda like the comparison of LA to riverside

booo... twolves and lakers are 2 apiece...

Good Charlotte - The Anthem; though it's much like the stereotypical punk rock song, i like it cause of the DJ turntabling effects during the beginning and the middle of the song sound very nice, when they do some scratching with some distorted guitar power chords... now if only they worked that effect more into the song, they would be labelled as somewhat creative by my standards, which are undefined as of right now by me

osterfag... such a slow ass clumsy baller, he keeps losing the ball... i am stunned that the jazz even won this game, the kings were doing some really stupid things, like double teaming too much, giving the jazz wide open shot-knockdown oppurtunities... they also kept going into the key when the entire jazz team was in there... you guys lost an easy victory guys, seriously... peja just choked on a three too; air-balling the shot completely... i hope the kings come back and whup the jazz game 4; it's not necessarily that i like the kings THAT much(although i do, mainly cause of bobby jackson, and maybe cwebb and/or bibby), but i dislike the jazz; they're a buncha old geezers still playing bball...

what else... the whole jazz team just tries to get fouled, it's annoying me... play the damn game, none of this crap...

haha... on the plus side, scott polland had a NICE block on malone's easy layup, that was just crazy; he just came up from behind and BAM! knocked his wide-open layup into the crowd with a huge swat... you still have to give the jazz credit on that play though, cause a very nice bounce pass set up the mailman for that attempt at the shot

just some final thoughts about spiritual stuff before i go to sleep, since jerm sparked a conversation about it:
-my life's been stagnant; basically, i don't feel incredible joy when i do spiritual stuff; i haven't gotten a lotta time to do really good worship by myself, have trouble reading the bible and keeping up the goal of finishing the entire bible, and haven't been talking with God by prayer as often... do i think that these things make the christian? of course not... legalism isn't what christianity is all about... but if i can do them with incredible joy that i WANT to do them over and over, that shows my love for God, and as for right now, the love's not there...
-i also am thankful that jerm wants to be my accountability partner, that means a lot
-summer i'm gonna crank it up, that's for sure
-also, summer, we're gonna do some serious stuff w/the CTCC ppl

ok that's it; stupid ISDA company won't let me dl Budokan - The Martial Spirit even though EA doesn't even sell the game anymore, and the fact that I actually own the game, just not on a disk that would enable me to play it on my laptop

sooo tired... but i can't sleep... i must not...

i'll write later, when i can muster a bit more strength, and when my 1:10 class is done...

both celtics and twolves win today,so i'm happy... bball-wise... chemwise, that's another story...

btw kenyon martin got his wide-open dunk blocked by the rim :)

go celtics... hope ya beat pacers today... block and rebound them out, battie! last time checked the lead they had was cut down to 4...

hope twolves deal lakers another defeat today... KG4-MVP all the way man! i'm betting shaq's gonna pass more this one when they double-team him...

if any of you are VF fans, i like today's daioh.com match segment... 1 really good sarah player... almost beat 3 ppl in a row, just utilizing smart poking(as opposed to flashiness) and finding good oppurtunities to land her combo starters for huge damage, as well as throws... too bad she eventually was beaten by a kage player, though that loss was a close one... very rare that i see a very good sarah player on those clips often... very rare... my other money character, akira, on the other hand, is seen pretty often, with very good results... ahh... i miss playing VF4 Evo up here...

you should take a look at the way ducks look when they sleep; not only do they sorta turn their head 180 and tuck it under one of their wings, they have a strange way of closing their eyes; a yellowish eyelid actually folds UP to close their eyes, and occasionally it'll open, then reclose... strange...

other than that, i hope i study well today; crunch time's today, and it's game time tomorrow... gotta go; plz pray for me if you can... later

CWebb's back incident

haha.... maybe i'm taking the article out of context, but CWebb was treated at UC Davis Medical Center! heh heh... imagine that... if i keep up what i'm doing and remain here, i might end up treating the Kings in the future!

yay for Twolves...

beat the lakers by 28 pts...

haha... no wonder why my bro wasn't around to answer calls on his bday... he went to the lakers vs twolves game! i wanna see KG! too bad they lost though... and with cwebb recently having troubles w/his ankle or back, that would spell trouble for countering the lakers this year... spurs, it all comes down to you man... do your work plz duncan...

more studying to come today... like it'll ever end...

maybe modify CS scripts, that's all the real entertainment i have planned today... songwriting comes weekend...

matrix reloaded: 5.15.03
T3: sometime during the summer

praise God...
i was feeling kinda down late last night, and even last night was tossing and turning on my bed in the very early morning because my soul was disturbed... after chem, i come back, eat, and when i'm returning, i see one of the most beautiful birds ever for a long time... i dunno how to describe it, cause i've never seen it before... it wasn't a duck, but it was a HUGE bird just walking around with that bobbing stuff walking birds do... its head(which was kinda tiny compared to the rest of its body)was this beautiful shiny green color... and it was just sorta bobbing around looking for things to eat, not really looking frantic... and as i'm gazing at it, basking in the bright sun, i almost sense God going "you see how i can take care of such a creature? and if you're that much 'better' than this creature, don't you think i'll watch over you even more carefully?" it really lifted my spirits just being there and watching this majestic fowl, walk around, carefree, beautiful to behold... and hearing God whisper to me... thanks a lot man, i won't forget it... (btw i think it's a peacock, except it didn't have the huge fanlike feathers protruding from its behind, so that the reason i have doubts about that)

at least that's one upside to UCD over UCLA... nature, as God created it... i tend to see animals i don't usually see at school back home(where all i could remember were seagulls)... and the last time i remember UCLA, it wasn't very grassy or had many trees. squirrels, blue jays, pigeons, crows, ducks, bushtits, peacocks... i've seen all of them... and all of them mystify and entrance me... the peacock especially inspires me though, since it looks so great compared to the other fowl i've seen on campus... but they all look so awesome, you HAVE to believe God made it...

nba final predictions update:
me: kings vs sixers
sam: kings vs sixers
wes: kings vs magic
bob: anyone's grab, but admits kings are fave for west, conceivably sixers for east (*grins* sounds like such a diplomatic answer, but adds not magic, according to him, which kinda sucks, but i think it's true)

bob: ...
bob: man, the East sucks
me: haha
me: that's kinda true

i change my CS configurations more times than a snake sheds its skin... almost got 2 usp 2 deagle kills 1st round today too to save the day for CTs, but i got killed by the last person, and so we lost that round...

maybe i should've gone home this week... it was easter, no one was around even for the church, and i did nothing other than some studying... maybe next time... mom even maybe thinks i don't miss her...

haha... at least my mom suggests not going to the chinese church right now's a good idea; i'm sure you've heard about the chinese-originated disease incidences... although my mom still doesn't like that i know more koreans than chinese right now...

4.20; happy birthday fill... clear your email box plz man...

"help me find the fracture in this dark sky" -12 Stones

current state of mind is very 0_0; i need to get my feeling of optimism and joy back... my best description is that i feel... stunned... unable to move... this is the toll you take when you realize how much things count for you this quarter... and how little you've strove to attain that goal...

the more i think about easter and good friday and their significances, the more i realize that indeed, i am thankful God died for me... the fact of the matter is, i still make mistakes... am i truly regretful that i made them? yes... do i do anything about it? i try, but often i fail again... but somewhere along time God realized those ppl with a true heart for him even sometimes falter and make mistakes... and what God wants most of all is to be close to us... please, easter and good friday as far as you are concerned has NOTHING to do with getting into heaven... it has to do with God being close to you... basically, if those 2 events didn't happen, God could not get close to us... if he did, we would be destroyed by his holiness... so he would have to consign us to a place where he would not even be remotely close to us... but that's not true, and so we are able to take great joy in knowing we can be close to God...

my nba final predictions: kings vs sixers
sam's nba final predictions: kings vs sixers
wes' nba final predictions: kings vs magic

nba playoff talk:

me: as much i don't want it to happen, twolves are prob gonna get stuffed by the lakers
me: KG can't handle shaq
me: only west teams that can are prob Spurs and Kings
wes: naw just the kings
wes: kings all the way
me: really? why not duncan?
me: kobe?
me: no guards that can handle kobe, or what?
me: haha... pretty evident you're using 56K... i'm waiting a long time for your response
wes: heh true but shut down all the other three and kobe and shaq can only score so much
(but wes; lakers ARE shaq and kobe :D)

wes: i think lakers and kings western championship
wes: and kings win in 7
me: for this year?
wes: yeah
me: hopefully they end their streak this year :-)

wes: it will be kings vs orlando for the nba finals :D
me: haha
me: or sixers
wes: no no no orlando
me: you and sam'll tear each other apart if they face each other in the east :-)
wes: tmac will kill everyone
wes: sam likes gooden so he doesnt hate the magic
me: but he likes AI, remember? :-)
wes: yes
wes: orlando and kings in 5
me: haha
me: i'm jotting this down somewhere :-)

me: haha... wes says orlando and kings in 5 for orlando this year :-)
sam: haha..
me: i think it's gonna be kings and sixers
sam: dammit
me: *hopefully*
sam: i was just gonna say that
me: haha
sam: put up in your aim profile
me: haha
sam: and we'll see our predictions
me: i think sixers > orlando, but wes doesn't think so :-)
sam: haha wes just likes tmac
me: haha
me: sixers are a better team now though
me: orlando is just tmac mainly
sam: yea...sixers got good defense
me: not that i don't like tmac
sam: and they dont depend on iverson as much anymore
me: that's true


me: wes also thinks kings > lakers game 7 for west champs
sam: that could be true
...
sam: yea...but spurs might beat laekrs
me: that's true
me: wes thinks kings have a better chance though
sam: they do but spurs will play lakers first
me: yea
me: haha... he told me kings can stop the "other 3" so kobe and shaq can't score as much for the lakers
me: but i didn't say this(and shouldve):
me: lakers IS kobe and shaq
me: so if duncan does his work, there's nothing
sam: haha

various bball talk:

me: haha... i wanna green sweatband... not that i like paul pierce THAT much...
me: just think it'd look cool :-)
sam: and you gotta wear it like jrich
me: of course, anything cool on a black guy = bad on me :-)
sam: where he covers his eyes
me: haha... i'll do that
sam: jrich wears his headband so low it almost covers his eyes
me: i'll buy one during the summer
sam: haha
me: haha... then get safety goggles for my glasses :-)
sam: dont forget we're gonna work on our game in the summer
me: horace grant + jrich
me: that'll just look dorky
sam: haha i was just gonna say horace grant
me: haha
me: let's get wes one of those blue leg things that tmac wears :-)
sam: haha thats a little too much

TERRIBLE....

woke up @3:40...

*sigh* right now i'm in my dorm and not fellowship because for some strange reason they didn't meet... ie i didn't see them, not that i knew fellowship was cancelled or anything... i just didn't see them at the agreed location... ok, next time please give me a clue when you wanna do that about 30 after 7, because not all of us are right-on-time type of ppl!

tv's broken... like stated sometime before... so, *sniff* no watching of nets and bucks today, or twolves and lakers on sunday... lakers better not win... it's a very low-chance of occurring wish, but... man...

you'd be surprised how different guys and girls write on their online not-so-personal journals... girls, it's just.... bam, bam, bam, bam, bam, bam, bam... guys, well, take a look @mine for instance...

oh yeah... it's good friday... jesus died this early morning by asphyxiation leading to respiratory acidosis to cardiac arrest, ~1980 years back... i dunno what else to say about it... well, if it weren't for his gracious act, we'd all literally go to hell.
i think i can give you the whole gruesome details about why he died, cause i have a book, which medically does look at why he died, and there's huge evidence that states he died, instead of faking it.
but what motivated him? what would motivate him to agree to endure such punishment?
"Frankly, I don't think a typical person would have done it. But Jesus knew what was coming, and he was willing to go through it, because this was the only way he could redeem us- by serving as our substitute and paying the death penalty that we deserve because of our rebellion against God. That was his whole mission of coming to earth. So when you ask what motivated him, well... I suppose the answer can be summed up in one word- and that would be love."
-Alexander Metherell, M.D., Ph.D., as quoted from The Case For Christ by Lee Strobel

T-Mac's self feed alley oop is SICK... period...

CWebb's in-close layup was also sick as heck...

KG... damn... that clutch shot in seattle w/2-3 opponents on him was just crazy... haha... he also blocked ZhiZhi Wang!

haha... Kenyon Martin... just throws it down HARD

i wonder how times it takes for an old dog to learn new tricks... because I AIN'T LEARNING EM!!!

(this real-life conversation took place a while ago during spring break)
joe:so where do you go to fellowship in davis, recharred?
me:MSM.
joe:YOU GO TO MICROSOFT???!?!?!?!?

met a girl that i met @MSM at our arcade place... wow, what the heck was she doin down there? prob getting cash from the washington mutual ATM there, but still...

aztec, sat... it's going down... a logical progression of a timeline...

me: me = byron playing mahjong... that's what it pretty much comes down to :-)
laura: haha
laura: well you know how to read the charcters with is good
me: or just gaze at their pretty design :-)
laura: hehe
me: i can SOMEWHAT read some of the numbers
me: for the number suits
me: like 1, 2, 3...
me: after that, all that i learned goes blank...
laura: oh you should learn the rest
laura: it's useful
laura: or you'll keep throwing out the others
me: heh heh

dude... why am i taking naps like crazy now... something's wrong with me... winter and fall quarter i wasn't doing that... can you help me out, cause i dunno what's wrong w/me...
1)sick/allergies? i have a stuffy nose, somewhat... would this somehow affect my attitude towards work?
2)sleep? i've been going to bed around 1:30-2:00 these past days and waking up @7:30... but i've done that the past 2 quarters and wasn't dozing off like crazy...
3)overwhelmed with work? i haven't been keeping up with chem(enough), and i know the midterm's this next friday... also, been losing track of the readings for each class i'm supposed to do
4)lack of worship/communication with my God?
could a brotha plz pray for a miserable bro like me? i dunno what's wrong with me, but i want to change it...

the cause of headaches are inflamed blood vessels that push on your nerves in your head... so, does that mean a stuffy nose leads to inflamed blood vessels? i dunno... all i know is my day isn't THAT good cause i have a headache... i also don't wanna bust out the acetominophen aka tylenol in my stash somewhere in my dorm... i don't wanna rely on medicines...

*dead*jerm: damnit rich
*dead*ReCharredSigh: www.getoutjerm.com
(haha... i was waiting for an oppurtunity to say that in CS :D)

it's going down...
a logical progression of a timeline...

me: haha... this is prob the one cpu game(mahjong) you actually think is good eh?
me: and not evil?
laura: hahaha
laura: i dunno
laura: i dont' like games
laura: that i dont play with real people
laura: hehe in person i mean
laura: it's weird
laura: well i'm weird

*sigh*... now i'm just hoping the warriors finish strong... read something on nba.com about how the suns clinched the 8th and final playoff spot... but they didn't today... lost to LA clippers... man, sam's right... warriors have no clutch... everything else though... it went all downhill when odom hit that 3...

wizards lost today too to the knicks... mj's last washington home game... that disappoints me, but it's like collins said; mj's 40; he can't carry a sub-par team into the playoffs with that age... 25 would have been different(although i say 30 cause he had to gain experience instead of just dunking it on everybody to really get good... i loved his early 30s play, cause then he was just playing SMART... although i admit i never have seen his short-short days... he prob dominated then too)... i'm still wondering who's the next best bet for that team after mj... stackhouse... but who after him? lue? hughes? brown? i'll say it again; as far as experience goes, washington = chicago... still, desire and attitude over skill anyday, that's what mj basically said... heh heh... that gives me hope, cause i can't ball-handle at ALL

i heard somewhere about mj joining the wizards due to 9.11... maybe that's why he got the 9.11 american flag before the game...

and then there's the How Black Are You test... here's my results:

YOU ARE TRULEY BLACK MY FRIEND JUST A FUN LOVING
DIRTY SOUTH PERSON


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the How White Are You test however is only one question; i could seriously make up a better one, heh heh:
6)What happened in episode 6 of Friends? :D(lists 4 answers, one of them saying "Friends... oh you mean my homies?")

heh heh... seriously i don't ever like seinfield or friends anymore... just white-ass shows... i'd rather watch rock, chappelle, the wayans, you get the idea...

Hella asian 100%


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to be honest i think i'm more like 75% azn because i listen to rock(that's white, black if i do ol skool riffs) and sometimes hip-hop(that's black), watch the nba NOT because of yao ming(that's black), play a guitar(that's white), and play CS(that's white too)... well, VF could be counted as azn...

heh heh... lakers lost to blazers... both in real life... and at the arcades... hah hah... some guy was playing Lakers against the Blazers in showtime a while ago @UCD, and it dragged to overtime... then isiah rider made a crunch time shot at the buzzer, and it bounced a bit back and forth... and went in! blazers win by 1 pt! i had to turn away and grin when i saw that... yes...

Relient K- Chapstick, Chapped Lips and Things Like Chemistry... one of those music videos which when you watch, will go, HUH? oh well; it's still a catchy song...

Chris Tomlin- Famous One
Chris Tomlin- Unchanging

yea we raise up holy hands
to praise the holy one
who was
and is to come
-chris tomlin, "unchanging"

the more i think about it, the more i realize i'm a visual learner... even doing stuff requiring auditory learning like playing a guitar i picture how to play the melodies in my mind, having a visual eye of a top-down view of the left hand pressing the strings and the right hand picking... like when i was listening to "unchanging" and listening the awesome way the 2nd guitarist was doing fills, it was alll visual in my mind...

i'm starting to wonder if anger is ever justified as a christian... i feel that inside i feel that anger a lot often... if you're angry you're usually taking a large dislike to something... on the other hand you might argue us humans get angry at stuff that God would never get angry at, like how we hate the person, not the sin that the person does...

>_<

2:39 PM: luigi's away message: "ugh.....lao sai..........i'm dying"

college tests the best inside of you... i wanna rise to the occasion, but it's so hard...