Saturday, March 26, 2005
That Stubborn Sin
hmm, now i wonder, do i need that book i wrote down beforehand? maybe just printing out this article will do.
and in a strange way, it kinda matches the vision that i got from God.
hmm, now i wonder, do i need that book i wrote down beforehand? maybe just printing out this article will do.
and in a strange way, it kinda matches the vision that i got from God.
USATODAY.com - Taiwanese hold massive demonstration against China
Speed Mechanics for Lead Guitar - Tony Stetina: 19.95
Tascam Guitar CD Trainer: 149.99
Tekken 5 data card: 5.00
Say Goodbye to Stubborn Sin: A Surgeon Explains the Psysiological Factors that Trigger It - Clark Gerhart: 13.99
(apparently, your toys just get more expensive as you get older)
damnit, saturn's so high maintenance; looks like i'm gonna have to go nowhere/borrow rides sun - wed as well; hoping they fix the clutch by wed, or that will suck, as that i'll have to bum rides all the time i'm up in davis.
Speed Mechanics for Lead Guitar - Tony Stetina: 19.95
Tascam Guitar CD Trainer: 149.99
Tekken 5 data card: 5.00
Say Goodbye to Stubborn Sin: A Surgeon Explains the Psysiological Factors that Trigger It - Clark Gerhart: 13.99
(apparently, your toys just get more expensive as you get older)
damnit, saturn's so high maintenance; looks like i'm gonna have to go nowhere/borrow rides sun - wed as well; hoping they fix the clutch by wed, or that will suck, as that i'll have to bum rides all the time i'm up in davis.
Friday, March 25, 2005
foot, meet mouth; please insert...
i realized i said the stupidest thing... ever... in the previous post:
chanukuh: begins on 25th day of the Jewish calendar on Kislev. basically, approximately in december before xmas
passover: around the time of nisan, i think the 15th? (starts 23rd of april this year)
easter: feast of eshtar... basically, 27th of march this year i believe
in other words, the actual date for "resurrection day" and "crucifixion day" is a mere 2-3 weeks in difference.
i had wondered why easter wasn't celebrated half a month later...
oops...
goes to show just how little i know about the jewish culture... i should really try to study up on it... reggie white did...
i realized i said the stupidest thing... ever... in the previous post:
chanukuh: begins on 25th day of the Jewish calendar on Kislev. basically, approximately in december before xmas
passover: around the time of nisan, i think the 15th? (starts 23rd of april this year)
easter: feast of eshtar... basically, 27th of march this year i believe
in other words, the actual date for "resurrection day" and "crucifixion day" is a mere 2-3 weeks in difference.
i had wondered why easter wasn't celebrated half a month later...
oops...
goes to show just how little i know about the jewish culture... i should really try to study up on it... reggie white did...
elaborating on the ...of the week's, i thought it was a good idea(to be honest, the idea wasn't exactly OG; i found it out from www.sonichurricane.com, a good SF-related site, and i guess today it just seemed like a good idea to try to begin)... i might have more topics, but for now, we'll keep it at the ones i posted. and when i'll do them, i'll keep it short and post what the thing is, instead of elaborating; if you want specifics on one of them, you gotta comment on which one you want eleboration, and maybe i'll bring out some thoughts.
anyways, sports game of the week: warriors def sacramento on sunday. why's this strike me? because of a number of things: sacramento is TONS better than warriors right now. and yet, it seems like gsw's the kryptonite to many superman-ish-teams. it's funny how pistons can beat warriors, but kings murdered them on a sunday ago or two. but gsw beat kings like mad this season. on sunday, they showed that they got the better of kings in this year's regular season series, losing only 1 home game. what also sparked my interest is this: this time, their player whom they've been having the most problem against, jrich, was missing; troy murphy acted like a white KG and posted his own double-double, leading gsw to the win. i would've loved to go to that kings game and stood up against the crowd to root for the warriors.
btw, seeing how the pistons are sliding again, makes me wonder that maybe every single player on this team is THAT valuable(compared to each other)... look at how much they ran into trouble when ben wallace took time off due to the 6 game suspension, or his death of his bro. now look at how they slide when rip went out injured; i've never seen billups run into so many TO's before! and i have a feeling that if tayshawn ever gets injured in the future, though they never let him carry the team to victory yet, that they'd suffer too; he's their best all-around player. however, the truth about the pistons, is that their best player, is IMO, not even a player: larry brown. that's right. makes me wonder just how much influence a coach has upon the game. i'm thinking that a coach has influence upon the gameplan that a team has to carry through, as well as motivational encouragement; am i missing anything else? maybe reputation? they're more willing to listen to him if he's got a reputation for winning, or turning low-tier teams into winners?
seeing how good friday and easter's coming up, i wanted to paraphrase the book of the week that i read: it was about a jewish businessman whose older daughter converted to christianity; he tries to use logic and research to disprove what she's come to believe, and ends up being converted to a christian, as well as his entire family. he is now a pastor to jews and gentiles alike. anyways, in one of the chapters, he tries to tackle exactly why christianity spread apart from judaism. now, i'm not gonna tackle the entire thing, but i wanted to elaborate on easter, as this book opened my eyes on that issue(it goes far beyond what the bible says; a bit of history is needed)
the reason is this: if you remember correctly, jesus died when? on the 1ST DAY OF PASSOVER. when did he rise? 3RD DAY OF PASSOVER. think about that. why do we celebrate easter about half a year away? wouldn't it make more sense to celebrate it during passover? because the christian gentiles at the time had utter disregard for jews, despite the fact that we all know christianity is a jewish religion 1st and foremost. passover at that time, was celebrated according to the jewish calender, not the secular calender. the 17th of nisan(the original passover date; sometime around late march and early april), was not a meaningful date for christians. so what they did was proclaim at a council in cesarea that ressurection day would be celebrated on the date known as the "feast of eshtar," producing easter sunday. they then widened the gap even further by later proclaiming that all believers celebrate the resurrection on easter sunday, and even later, that anyone who attempted to celebrate passover in the church was to be excommunicated. so sad...
now, i realize that the original passover date was around late march to early april; the date we about have easter sunday. however, i think it would also be a good idea, to ALSO(not exclusively) celebrate easter on what is now present-day passover. does it make you a better christian if you do so? no... but i believe that you show even further respect for jesus if you do so. remember that those who knows more, more will be entrusted with him. now that you are REALLY aware of when jesus died, doesn't it do more justice to him to worship him in a like mind around passover?
just some thoughts.
have a happy good friday and easter; remember all that he's done for you... and then some...
anyways, sports game of the week: warriors def sacramento on sunday. why's this strike me? because of a number of things: sacramento is TONS better than warriors right now. and yet, it seems like gsw's the kryptonite to many superman-ish-teams. it's funny how pistons can beat warriors, but kings murdered them on a sunday ago or two. but gsw beat kings like mad this season. on sunday, they showed that they got the better of kings in this year's regular season series, losing only 1 home game. what also sparked my interest is this: this time, their player whom they've been having the most problem against, jrich, was missing; troy murphy acted like a white KG and posted his own double-double, leading gsw to the win. i would've loved to go to that kings game and stood up against the crowd to root for the warriors.
btw, seeing how the pistons are sliding again, makes me wonder that maybe every single player on this team is THAT valuable(compared to each other)... look at how much they ran into trouble when ben wallace took time off due to the 6 game suspension, or his death of his bro. now look at how they slide when rip went out injured; i've never seen billups run into so many TO's before! and i have a feeling that if tayshawn ever gets injured in the future, though they never let him carry the team to victory yet, that they'd suffer too; he's their best all-around player. however, the truth about the pistons, is that their best player, is IMO, not even a player: larry brown. that's right. makes me wonder just how much influence a coach has upon the game. i'm thinking that a coach has influence upon the gameplan that a team has to carry through, as well as motivational encouragement; am i missing anything else? maybe reputation? they're more willing to listen to him if he's got a reputation for winning, or turning low-tier teams into winners?
seeing how good friday and easter's coming up, i wanted to paraphrase the book of the week that i read: it was about a jewish businessman whose older daughter converted to christianity; he tries to use logic and research to disprove what she's come to believe, and ends up being converted to a christian, as well as his entire family. he is now a pastor to jews and gentiles alike. anyways, in one of the chapters, he tries to tackle exactly why christianity spread apart from judaism. now, i'm not gonna tackle the entire thing, but i wanted to elaborate on easter, as this book opened my eyes on that issue(it goes far beyond what the bible says; a bit of history is needed)
the reason is this: if you remember correctly, jesus died when? on the 1ST DAY OF PASSOVER. when did he rise? 3RD DAY OF PASSOVER. think about that. why do we celebrate easter about half a year away? wouldn't it make more sense to celebrate it during passover? because the christian gentiles at the time had utter disregard for jews, despite the fact that we all know christianity is a jewish religion 1st and foremost. passover at that time, was celebrated according to the jewish calender, not the secular calender. the 17th of nisan(the original passover date; sometime around late march and early april), was not a meaningful date for christians. so what they did was proclaim at a council in cesarea that ressurection day would be celebrated on the date known as the "feast of eshtar," producing easter sunday. they then widened the gap even further by later proclaiming that all believers celebrate the resurrection on easter sunday, and even later, that anyone who attempted to celebrate passover in the church was to be excommunicated. so sad...
now, i realize that the original passover date was around late march to early april; the date we about have easter sunday. however, i think it would also be a good idea, to ALSO(not exclusively) celebrate easter on what is now present-day passover. does it make you a better christian if you do so? no... but i believe that you show even further respect for jesus if you do so. remember that those who knows more, more will be entrusted with him. now that you are REALLY aware of when jesus died, doesn't it do more justice to him to worship him in a like mind around passover?
just some thoughts.
have a happy good friday and easter; remember all that he's done for you... and then some...
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Academictips.org - Memory Techniques, Memorization Tips
i'm gonna have to go back to this site and print its contents out at the library
i'm gonna have to go back to this site and print its contents out at the library
... of the week's(something new that i'd thought i'd post each week that's on my mind):
book: stan telchin - betrayed
song: jeremy camp - restored
food: tsing tao's spicy noodle soup(yes, since i'm home, i ALWAYS think about it)
bible verse: jeremiah 29:13
musical equip: tascam guitar cd trainer
video game: tekken 5
sport game: (haven't thought about it yet)
i gotta find a meditation spot in cupertino; so i've got one in davis, now i need one in my hometown; i'm thinking of memorial park...
so that means i gotta find 4 meditation spots:
cupertino, dry weather: memorial park
cupertino, raining: ?
davis, dry weather: UCD, arboretum
davis, raining: ?
book: stan telchin - betrayed
song: jeremy camp - restored
food: tsing tao's spicy noodle soup(yes, since i'm home, i ALWAYS think about it)
bible verse: jeremiah 29:13
musical equip: tascam guitar cd trainer
video game: tekken 5
sport game: (haven't thought about it yet)
i gotta find a meditation spot in cupertino; so i've got one in davis, now i need one in my hometown; i'm thinking of memorial park...
so that means i gotta find 4 meditation spots:
cupertino, dry weather: memorial park
cupertino, raining: ?
davis, dry weather: UCD, arboretum
davis, raining: ?
i'm back...
and i need to get the saturn fixed... again... i'll do it tomorrow...
it gets so many problems... and started showing me the "service engine soon" sign again on the road, and that's been about 4-5 months since the last time the engine got fixed... ugh...
it's a love-hate relationship, haha...
so while i did plan a LOTTA stuff today, i guess that leaves me with just writing down lessons on "celebration of discipline" today...
there's no snacks in my house, haha... but i'll be okay; i've been trying to check myself to make sure i don't fall too much in love with food.
i'll go to guitar center, bereans and MAYBE golfland(tekken 5!) tomorrow...
(btw, i've begun to realize something; if you're planning on visiting the arcade, you need to blow $2+(or depending upon the machine's cost for 1 game, 8 games) if you intend to get better playing against others... $1 just doesn't cut it no more, so for me, i guess that means i have to cut down on the times i go)
k, showertime, then i gotta write on the cpu
and i need to get the saturn fixed... again... i'll do it tomorrow...
it gets so many problems... and started showing me the "service engine soon" sign again on the road, and that's been about 4-5 months since the last time the engine got fixed... ugh...
it's a love-hate relationship, haha...
so while i did plan a LOTTA stuff today, i guess that leaves me with just writing down lessons on "celebration of discipline" today...
there's no snacks in my house, haha... but i'll be okay; i've been trying to check myself to make sure i don't fall too much in love with food.
i'll go to guitar center, bereans and MAYBE golfland(tekken 5!) tomorrow...
(btw, i've begun to realize something; if you're planning on visiting the arcade, you need to blow $2+(or depending upon the machine's cost for 1 game, 8 games) if you intend to get better playing against others... $1 just doesn't cut it no more, so for me, i guess that means i have to cut down on the times i go)
k, showertime, then i gotta write on the cpu
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
CNN.com - Appeals panel won't order Schiavo fed - Mar 23, 2005
wow... how sad... and the fact that her history spans back 10 years...
ok, i gotta get back to cramming for my last final, but for a quick word: it's made me wonder... if you requested that if you became a human vegetable, that others pulled the plug on you, and it came to pass... would that be committing suicide in god's eyes? and hence, would you be sent to hell for that? i've really wrestled over this question a lot before... well, not really wrestled with it, but i've never reached a definitive conclusion. i mean, how can you be committing suicide if you are basically, beyond recovery? braindead people can't think at all. so they are literally useless. and yet... you're killing a human. and human worth is so high, that to request that others pull the plug on you is still suicide. ugh...
i know that my mom's wishes in this case would've been that yes, i'd be allowed to pull the plug.
wow... how sad... and the fact that her history spans back 10 years...
ok, i gotta get back to cramming for my last final, but for a quick word: it's made me wonder... if you requested that if you became a human vegetable, that others pulled the plug on you, and it came to pass... would that be committing suicide in god's eyes? and hence, would you be sent to hell for that? i've really wrestled over this question a lot before... well, not really wrestled with it, but i've never reached a definitive conclusion. i mean, how can you be committing suicide if you are basically, beyond recovery? braindead people can't think at all. so they are literally useless. and yet... you're killing a human. and human worth is so high, that to request that others pull the plug on you is still suicide. ugh...
i know that my mom's wishes in this case would've been that yes, i'd be allowed to pull the plug.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
ok, after much searching on the internet, i think i've finally found the preamp/miniamp that i've wanted...
TASCAM GDGT1MKII
nice eh? and a good training tool too(i can use the thing to practice on cds)... i'm just hoping that i can use the headphones AND lineout at the same time without a cd inside... if that's possible, i've got one sweet ass preamp...
and it's only 150 at guitar center this month...
TASCAM GDGT1MKII
nice eh? and a good training tool too(i can use the thing to practice on cds)... i'm just hoping that i can use the headphones AND lineout at the same time without a cd inside... if that's possible, i've got one sweet ass preamp...
and it's only 150 at guitar center this month...
Monday, March 21, 2005
NBA.com: Billups, Richardson Named Players of the Week
woot! go warriors and pistons! (haha... warriors beat the kings in series... take that, sacto! didn't even NEED jrich to get the job done for the 2nd time at sacto!)
"i think we're going to be tough to beat the rest of the season, especially for teams fighting for the playoffs. We want to try and ruin a lot of those team's chances. That's all we can really play for right now." -mike dunleavy jr.
*grins* such a nice guy, that dunleavy...
there's so many warriors' last names which i can't pronounce off the top of my head...
here's an interesting nba question; me and jerm went back and forth yesterday; which player has better backup; lebron or kobe? both teams have been slumping a lot lately... jerm argued that the lakers provided kobe with more depth, cause lamar odom is a good big man, and various other guys... (so i guess he's inferring that the reason why the lakers are doing worse is that they need more time to mesh, and or kobe is not as good as lebron) i thought z and eric snow, as well as a buncha others on cavs gave lebron better support. i dunno; maybe the fact that cavs overall do better than lakers is maybe cause i believe lebron will become a better player than kobe, but i'm still a believer in the team concept.
it's gonna be quite interesting in tinseltown if the lakers don't make the playoffs... maybe they're gonna cut loose on kobe? well, i wanna say "i told you so" but then kobe wants this i guess... so either you're gonna look like a genius cutting shaq loose, or you're gonna hafta step up and say "i accept this"
btw, i never got around to answering my stupid little question i threw out there about my bibles and headbands:
i have three of each; 2 of 3 of both my headbands and bibles are blue and green(green student bible given to me from phil, blue pocket bible which i bought and use exclusively on ucd; blue headband is the official ucd headband, and i got the green headband because i was into paul pierce at one point)... the 3rd bible is that old, large, worn out monstrosity that i carry around ctcc for so long, and has tabs falling out left and right. the 3rd headband is a white one made w/dupont, so it's probably the best one, supposedly has a patented fabric that helps keep sweat away from you; i originally got it cause ben wallace is wearing a white headband all the time, but now he's switched to red :( ah well; i'm not gonna bother buying another one; i have too many already.
1 more, that's it; just one more... see you guys back on wednesday.
i have got to stay on track a lot more during spring quarter; if you don't keep up RIGHT at the beginning, it doesn't matter how much you try in the middle; you're gonna end up cramming...
leave it to me to make french toast look like crap... it looked like it was diseased before i put it in the frying pan, due to the chunks of butter... tasted good though, and it WAS my 1st time trying to make it from scratch... next time fools, next time... ask jerm about the tastetest...
Pray for me; looks like i might have to attend jury duty
my jury number btw is 700, so you can see how i'm just hoping the numbers fall short before the week of 27th... it's so close... i gotta find nelson and talk to him on sunday.
woot! go warriors and pistons! (haha... warriors beat the kings in series... take that, sacto! didn't even NEED jrich to get the job done for the 2nd time at sacto!)
"i think we're going to be tough to beat the rest of the season, especially for teams fighting for the playoffs. We want to try and ruin a lot of those team's chances. That's all we can really play for right now." -mike dunleavy jr.
*grins* such a nice guy, that dunleavy...
there's so many warriors' last names which i can't pronounce off the top of my head...
here's an interesting nba question; me and jerm went back and forth yesterday; which player has better backup; lebron or kobe? both teams have been slumping a lot lately... jerm argued that the lakers provided kobe with more depth, cause lamar odom is a good big man, and various other guys... (so i guess he's inferring that the reason why the lakers are doing worse is that they need more time to mesh, and or kobe is not as good as lebron) i thought z and eric snow, as well as a buncha others on cavs gave lebron better support. i dunno; maybe the fact that cavs overall do better than lakers is maybe cause i believe lebron will become a better player than kobe, but i'm still a believer in the team concept.
it's gonna be quite interesting in tinseltown if the lakers don't make the playoffs... maybe they're gonna cut loose on kobe? well, i wanna say "i told you so" but then kobe wants this i guess... so either you're gonna look like a genius cutting shaq loose, or you're gonna hafta step up and say "i accept this"
btw, i never got around to answering my stupid little question i threw out there about my bibles and headbands:
i have three of each; 2 of 3 of both my headbands and bibles are blue and green(green student bible given to me from phil, blue pocket bible which i bought and use exclusively on ucd; blue headband is the official ucd headband, and i got the green headband because i was into paul pierce at one point)... the 3rd bible is that old, large, worn out monstrosity that i carry around ctcc for so long, and has tabs falling out left and right. the 3rd headband is a white one made w/dupont, so it's probably the best one, supposedly has a patented fabric that helps keep sweat away from you; i originally got it cause ben wallace is wearing a white headband all the time, but now he's switched to red :( ah well; i'm not gonna bother buying another one; i have too many already.
1 more, that's it; just one more... see you guys back on wednesday.
i have got to stay on track a lot more during spring quarter; if you don't keep up RIGHT at the beginning, it doesn't matter how much you try in the middle; you're gonna end up cramming...
leave it to me to make french toast look like crap... it looked like it was diseased before i put it in the frying pan, due to the chunks of butter... tasted good though, and it WAS my 1st time trying to make it from scratch... next time fools, next time... ask jerm about the tastetest...
Pray for me; looks like i might have to attend jury duty
my jury number btw is 700, so you can see how i'm just hoping the numbers fall short before the week of 27th... it's so close... i gotta find nelson and talk to him on sunday.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
The Purpose-Driven Life by Warren, Rick - Berean Christian Stores
is this book good? i hear ppl talking about it all the time
also, while we're talking about this, what's a good book to learn about the scriptures that deal w/prophesy? any recommendations?
(for some strange reason, i have always wanted to buy and own sun tzu's "the art of war - victory without combat", but i don't think it's gonna be much use, even if i take up martial arts @ucd)
is this book good? i hear ppl talking about it all the time
also, while we're talking about this, what's a good book to learn about the scriptures that deal w/prophesy? any recommendations?
(for some strange reason, i have always wanted to buy and own sun tzu's "the art of war - victory without combat", but i don't think it's gonna be much use, even if i take up martial arts @ucd)
woooooooowwwwww...
i'm loving the warriors... especially considering they beat a defensive-lacking team, the suns...
the game on thursday was so fun to watch... yes, it killed me to watch warriors not defend all the way, but jrich and davis are so fun to watch when they're hot...
classic, fun(to me) match on sunday... spurs and pistons... call it what you want, but you can't win games w/o defense... you may see airballs and blocked shots all over the place and see a terrible game, but i see the skill and defensive pressure both teams and esp the wingmen and post-defenders are going to put on each other... it takes skill, and both teams are here to win, not impress you...
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don't come to me complaining about how it's no longer sunny and starting to rain again, or how your hair and clothes are gonna get messed up, or how you don't like the wetness, or i may feel angrily compelled to backfist you across the face...
at least it's not downpouring like crazy... light drizzles are kewl... trust me, they are...
tekken 5's gonna be really kewl... they even did the memory card thing that vf4 did... although, i feel that my win record's gonna be crap...
i'm loving the warriors... especially considering they beat a defensive-lacking team, the suns...
the game on thursday was so fun to watch... yes, it killed me to watch warriors not defend all the way, but jrich and davis are so fun to watch when they're hot...
classic, fun(to me) match on sunday... spurs and pistons... call it what you want, but you can't win games w/o defense... you may see airballs and blocked shots all over the place and see a terrible game, but i see the skill and defensive pressure both teams and esp the wingmen and post-defenders are going to put on each other... it takes skill, and both teams are here to win, not impress you...
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don't come to me complaining about how it's no longer sunny and starting to rain again, or how your hair and clothes are gonna get messed up, or how you don't like the wetness, or i may feel angrily compelled to backfist you across the face...
at least it's not downpouring like crazy... light drizzles are kewl... trust me, they are...
tekken 5's gonna be really kewl... they even did the memory card thing that vf4 did... although, i feel that my win record's gonna be crap...
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
MSNBC - Cardinal's plea: Don't read 'Da Vinci Code'
if the cardinal's gonna tell ppl not to read this book, the least he can do is provide reasons why it's false... b/c the way i see it, all this is gonna do to the general unbeliever is make them think, "what's so bad about it that you're trying to hide from us?" and make them want to read it even more. calling a book "rotten food," and then being able to back it up...
and even if catholics want to read it, then you could just provide some books that disprove it...
although, i really don't know... supposedly, if we were to call this book "evil," then it's best not to dabble in it at all, instead of using it to test your faith?
i mean, i have heard the arguments in the book ARE convincing to some ppl, but i think if you're strong in your faith and have a good knowledge of the bible, you should have no problem... it's just that everybody's looking for some reason to disbelieve the gospel.
if the cardinal's gonna tell ppl not to read this book, the least he can do is provide reasons why it's false... b/c the way i see it, all this is gonna do to the general unbeliever is make them think, "what's so bad about it that you're trying to hide from us?" and make them want to read it even more. calling a book "rotten food," and then being able to back it up...
and even if catholics want to read it, then you could just provide some books that disprove it...
although, i really don't know... supposedly, if we were to call this book "evil," then it's best not to dabble in it at all, instead of using it to test your faith?
i mean, i have heard the arguments in the book ARE convincing to some ppl, but i think if you're strong in your faith and have a good knowledge of the bible, you should have no problem... it's just that everybody's looking for some reason to disbelieve the gospel.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
tekken 5's out now(or real soon)! ooooh, now i don't know whether to get espn nba 2k5 still, or to save money to get tekken 5 instead...
(or instead of espn nba 2k5, blow the money on ttt, since i'm playing tekken 3 again, and i can't for the life of me get down jin's EWGF, b,f+2,1>2, DEWGF combo; can't do the DEWGF consistently; i need to work on f,f *pause* d,df~2 more...)
waitaminute, i think i've heard some reports that t5 devil jin = ttt jin...
alright, if they can confirm that i can practice b,f+2,1>2, DEWGF, then tk5 it is...
(or instead of espn nba 2k5, blow the money on ttt, since i'm playing tekken 3 again, and i can't for the life of me get down jin's EWGF, b,f+2,1>2, DEWGF combo; can't do the DEWGF consistently; i need to work on f,f *pause* d,df~2 more...)
waitaminute, i think i've heard some reports that t5 devil jin = ttt jin...
alright, if they can confirm that i can practice b,f+2,1>2, DEWGF, then tk5 it is...
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
man, i dunno what it is with me, but i've been getting blessings and blessings from god this week. and i'm not talking about the "oh, i managed to wake up in time for class even though i hit the snooze button stuff," or "i should've gotten a parking ticket, but i didn't," it's even better than what happened last end of fall quarter. i'm talking about the stuff related to fasting and prayer i did this week. granted, my fast was over yesterday afternoon, but it's enough to show me the power of fasting, prayer, and meditation, all working together. if that isn't something worth talking about, what isn't?
i'll probably pay some extra hours for it tonight, as i've got a lab due tomorrow and other ish, but it's worth it.
i'll just cut and paste the entries i made today... you gotta read it to believe it... plz be patient and read both entries... i hope that you will gain something from it and be encouraged further from it... whatever i quoted was what i wrote directly out of my diary... as King Nebuchadnezzar best put it in Daniel 4:1-3,
To the peoples, nations and men of every language, who live in all the world:
May you prosper greatly!
It is my pleasure to tell you about the miraculous signs and wonders that the Most High God has performed for me.
How great are his signs,
how mighty his wonders!
His kingdom is an eternal kingdom;
his dominion endures from generation to generation.
(this one i started out seeing another weakness of mine, and then it just made me sadder and sadder thinking about it; in case you don't know as I reference in the entry, me, jon, jerm and sam all have a small group thing we do every tuesday night outside of msm and whatever-church-group-sam-goes-to-in-ucsb)
(begin quote)
I see another weakness of mine; I get easily ensnared by the prospect of new things. In some cases, this is good b/c as a genetics future wannabe, it’s good to want to know more and explore and find out more. But this is also bad, b/c it means I am that much more easily ensnared by the “treasures” of this world.
In the case of fighting games, that means I can so easily be ensnared by a game I haven’t tried mastering or playing. As of right now, I am hooked upon the ol skool versions of SFII. It ended up distracting me during my MCB class b/c I started thinking and replaying the matches I played against someone @the MU instead of the class subject.
And I also see this wanting of temporary, new things in the way I buy stuff sometimes. Always wanting new things, never satisfied with what I have; is everything I buy that useful? Is this the meaning of the 10th commandment? To not be envious of what we don’t have? Or the 2nd commandment? This is terrible. Nothing I have tried is really that new, that satisfying in the long run. I can say all I want, but fighting games are basically pushing buttons and tapping joysticks. Music is basically hearing the same notes played in different rhythms; it’s JUST NOISE! Basketball is pushing a stupid ball through a new. And all these things get us angry or saddened just b/c we can’t do them consistently? Useless. Lacking.
Soloman was right(Ecclesiastes 1:8-10); nothing is new. AT ALL. How weak I am. How lacking my soul is. I guess I could tell the others tonight about how I’d feel, but they’d probably brush it off, saying “oh, we all have wants” or “as long as it’s in proper perspective with your placement of God first,” but really now, do you realize how much we think of finding joy in these things?
I guess I really don’t know where I’m going with this; I don’t know exactly how God is going to rid or diminish my want of things new or that I don’t have, and I’m not trying to say we all should give everything away and just be like monks. I guess what I could do is bring forth this issue as a confession before the other guys tonight and ask them to forgive me on part of God, as well as to ask God to begin that work of being content only in God.
(end quote)
(you needed to read the above to truly appreciate the entry i made below; i then spent a long time in prayer just griping to God, and then spent some moments in meditation, trying to let God speak to me; what followed was just gold... i don't know how else to put it... this meditation experience felt the most real to me out of anything i've done; it was like me and god were talking to each other without words; i was adding something with my imagination to the vision, and he was doing the same)
(begin quote)
(We all know that imagination allows us to use our mindpower to create images in our mind, and that it’s a suggestive way to meditate before God, but what I’m about to say next felt more like a communication w/God w/o words, making this feel so genuine, like no other meditation experience I’ve ever felt. I’m trying to recreate the imagery as best I could, but some of the words I said or heard couldn’t be remembered exactly.)
I just had the most incredible meditation experience ever; I was contemplating how sinful I was for wanting temporary things, and then God just took my imagination and used it for his glory. I saw the personification of James 1:22-25 and John 6:33-37;
I was standing in front of a large body-long mirror, which was the perfect law(as seen in James), and then saw my hungry, thirsty self. I looked dead, shriveled, gray. And then I complained to God, saying “How can I ever change myself? I am just so weak, I can never be satisfied. I know I need you, but I don’t know how.” And I said some other things along these lines.
All the while, Jesus was in the same room as me, slightly behind me, looking at me and the mirror. And then after hearing me, he tells me, “Then I’ll become a part of you.” He turns into a slice of bread, then says, “Take me and eat me, and I’ll become you(or a part of you).” But I protested, saying, “My Lord, please, no! My vessel(body) is weak and imperfect! You don’t want to dwell there!” And Jesus replied, “I love you too much. I can’t let and see you go hungry like this again. I’ll let my body be broken and destroyed so that I can live in you and be a part of you. That way, you will become perfect b/c I dwell in you and am perfect myself. You just need to believe in me, and that I can do it.” I said, “Lord, I believe; help me to believe,” and then took him and ate him.
The vision ended there, b/c I started thinking(by myself, not visions given to me) about whether Jesus would come out of my body as poop, but that b/c he’s perfect no poop would come out, so then I basically decided to just open my eyes.
(end quote)
i'll probably pay some extra hours for it tonight, as i've got a lab due tomorrow and other ish, but it's worth it.
i'll just cut and paste the entries i made today... you gotta read it to believe it... plz be patient and read both entries... i hope that you will gain something from it and be encouraged further from it... whatever i quoted was what i wrote directly out of my diary... as King Nebuchadnezzar best put it in Daniel 4:1-3,
To the peoples, nations and men of every language, who live in all the world:
May you prosper greatly!
It is my pleasure to tell you about the miraculous signs and wonders that the Most High God has performed for me.
How great are his signs,
how mighty his wonders!
His kingdom is an eternal kingdom;
his dominion endures from generation to generation.
(this one i started out seeing another weakness of mine, and then it just made me sadder and sadder thinking about it; in case you don't know as I reference in the entry, me, jon, jerm and sam all have a small group thing we do every tuesday night outside of msm and whatever-church-group-sam-goes-to-in-ucsb)
(begin quote)
I see another weakness of mine; I get easily ensnared by the prospect of new things. In some cases, this is good b/c as a genetics future wannabe, it’s good to want to know more and explore and find out more. But this is also bad, b/c it means I am that much more easily ensnared by the “treasures” of this world.
In the case of fighting games, that means I can so easily be ensnared by a game I haven’t tried mastering or playing. As of right now, I am hooked upon the ol skool versions of SFII. It ended up distracting me during my MCB class b/c I started thinking and replaying the matches I played against someone @the MU instead of the class subject.
And I also see this wanting of temporary, new things in the way I buy stuff sometimes. Always wanting new things, never satisfied with what I have; is everything I buy that useful? Is this the meaning of the 10th commandment? To not be envious of what we don’t have? Or the 2nd commandment? This is terrible. Nothing I have tried is really that new, that satisfying in the long run. I can say all I want, but fighting games are basically pushing buttons and tapping joysticks. Music is basically hearing the same notes played in different rhythms; it’s JUST NOISE! Basketball is pushing a stupid ball through a new. And all these things get us angry or saddened just b/c we can’t do them consistently? Useless. Lacking.
Soloman was right(Ecclesiastes 1:8-10); nothing is new. AT ALL. How weak I am. How lacking my soul is. I guess I could tell the others tonight about how I’d feel, but they’d probably brush it off, saying “oh, we all have wants” or “as long as it’s in proper perspective with your placement of God first,” but really now, do you realize how much we think of finding joy in these things?
I guess I really don’t know where I’m going with this; I don’t know exactly how God is going to rid or diminish my want of things new or that I don’t have, and I’m not trying to say we all should give everything away and just be like monks. I guess what I could do is bring forth this issue as a confession before the other guys tonight and ask them to forgive me on part of God, as well as to ask God to begin that work of being content only in God.
(end quote)
(you needed to read the above to truly appreciate the entry i made below; i then spent a long time in prayer just griping to God, and then spent some moments in meditation, trying to let God speak to me; what followed was just gold... i don't know how else to put it... this meditation experience felt the most real to me out of anything i've done; it was like me and god were talking to each other without words; i was adding something with my imagination to the vision, and he was doing the same)
(begin quote)
(We all know that imagination allows us to use our mindpower to create images in our mind, and that it’s a suggestive way to meditate before God, but what I’m about to say next felt more like a communication w/God w/o words, making this feel so genuine, like no other meditation experience I’ve ever felt. I’m trying to recreate the imagery as best I could, but some of the words I said or heard couldn’t be remembered exactly.)
I just had the most incredible meditation experience ever; I was contemplating how sinful I was for wanting temporary things, and then God just took my imagination and used it for his glory. I saw the personification of James 1:22-25 and John 6:33-37;
I was standing in front of a large body-long mirror, which was the perfect law(as seen in James), and then saw my hungry, thirsty self. I looked dead, shriveled, gray. And then I complained to God, saying “How can I ever change myself? I am just so weak, I can never be satisfied. I know I need you, but I don’t know how.” And I said some other things along these lines.
All the while, Jesus was in the same room as me, slightly behind me, looking at me and the mirror. And then after hearing me, he tells me, “Then I’ll become a part of you.” He turns into a slice of bread, then says, “Take me and eat me, and I’ll become you(or a part of you).” But I protested, saying, “My Lord, please, no! My vessel(body) is weak and imperfect! You don’t want to dwell there!” And Jesus replied, “I love you too much. I can’t let and see you go hungry like this again. I’ll let my body be broken and destroyed so that I can live in you and be a part of you. That way, you will become perfect b/c I dwell in you and am perfect myself. You just need to believe in me, and that I can do it.” I said, “Lord, I believe; help me to believe,” and then took him and ate him.
The vision ended there, b/c I started thinking(by myself, not visions given to me) about whether Jesus would come out of my body as poop, but that b/c he’s perfect no poop would come out, so then I basically decided to just open my eyes.
(end quote)
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Davis Police Department Weekly Crime Synopsis - City of Davis
just 4 more hours of fasting to go, or such...
you'd be surprised(or not) what's in your fast food... take a look at jack in the box or wendy's or burger king's official websites... it's like 80% hydrogenated soybean oils, 15% EDTA preservatives, and 5% actual meat(well, not exactly, but the long list of crud that follows the actual meat makes it seem that way)... i dunno if this'll motivate me to eat even more at in n out and redrum exclusively... not that eating out's healthy in the 1st place... man am i thankful i like cooking, or i'd be in a bind...
i guess i am kinda stupid about this, cause the truth is that you KNOW this stuff isn't healthy, so you wouldn't be that surprised, and yet, when you do look @the ingredients, you are taken aback...
have fun eating out... I'M out...
just 4 more hours of fasting to go, or such...
you'd be surprised(or not) what's in your fast food... take a look at jack in the box or wendy's or burger king's official websites... it's like 80% hydrogenated soybean oils, 15% EDTA preservatives, and 5% actual meat(well, not exactly, but the long list of crud that follows the actual meat makes it seem that way)... i dunno if this'll motivate me to eat even more at in n out and redrum exclusively... not that eating out's healthy in the 1st place... man am i thankful i like cooking, or i'd be in a bind...
i guess i am kinda stupid about this, cause the truth is that you KNOW this stuff isn't healthy, so you wouldn't be that surprised, and yet, when you do look @the ingredients, you are taken aback...
have fun eating out... I'M out...
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