playing cops and mexican illegal immigrants with the hide_and_seek map in CS is hecka fun... me, jerm and tim had a blast... either pretend you are the mexican immigrants and try to cross the california border, or that you're la migra and need to stop those idiots w/o a green card... sam, luigi, jon, you guys should seriously try this
(when i told laura about it she laughed and said "you guys are crazy")

ReCharredSigh killed jerm with m4a1
(...another kill, then get killed)
*DEAD*jerm: damnit rich, you're just killin me today
*DEAD*jerm: and yesterday
*DEAD*ReCharredSigh: haha
*DEAD*ReCharredSigh: haha
*DEAD*jerm: somethings wrong w/ me, maybe my fingers are getting tooo fat
*DEAD*ReCharredSigh: haha

damn... celtics lost, spurs lost...

wanna know just how unique my online name is? do a google search, and you'll find all the areas i've made a mark in... i'm in the gamefaqs.com's "most contributed" writers list! currently #89! only cause i do quantity over quality...

Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies"
John 11:25

Even for those who are dead inside? Wow...

somewhere in between all the nba playoffs, midterms, late night csing, grade-worrying, vf-watching and sf-playing my inner spiritual self yearns to come out... but it never gets a chance here in davis during school session... because either there's too much work, or i give in too easily to understand what is valuable... i'm pitiful... i come in here from high school thinking i'm gonna remain strong from my summer spiritual growth, and it's torn to pieces in less than six months... so what if i'm going to church and fellowship... i haven't touched my guitar for such a long time, and usually how often i touch my guitar is analagous to how much i desire to worship God...

let's do some reasoning here man:
more time = worship session
earlily finished studies/work = more time
organized work schedule = earlily finished studies/work
not wasting time = organized work schedule
going to sleep early = not wasting time
playing CS late = - going to sleep early
therefore, i am just jacking myself...
where's the self control man?

Switchfoot- Meant to Live
------------------------------------
Fumbling his confidence and wondering
Why the world has passed him by.
Hoping that he's bent for more
That arguments and failed attempts to fly.

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside.

Dreaming about providence and
Whether mice and men have second tries.
Maybe we've been living with our eyes half open,
Maybe we're bent and broken.

We want more that this world's got to offer
We want more that this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life.

man... kings prob lost this game... -20 or so, what's worse, if cwebb is out for the rest of the season, they're gonna lose the playoff finals chance... *sigh* damnitdamnitdamnitdamnit... man...

sixers lost to pistons too... man... ai, those 2 free throws meant EVERYTHING...

i should stop playing SFA3 for a while on my laptop, or at least shell out the money to buy a joystick... ykno how i keep saying my thumb callous is harder than my finger(aka guiar) callouses? there's clear white on my thumb... that's how bad it's gotten

haha... family guy's so funny... i should look for more dl's... the one where Peter gets a new son's hilarious

that VF4Evo movie i dl'd was the shiznit... total edit skill...

Reaction Test Game

good for uping your fighting game and cpu gaming abilities

louis is funny:
(taken from his profile)
here's a mental test for you
1) How do u put a giraffe into a refrigerator?
Open the refrigerator door, put the giraffe in and close it.
2)How do you put an elephant into a refrigerator?
wrong answer: open the door, put in the elephant and close it.
open the door, take the giraffe out, put in the elephant, close the door.
3)The Lion King is hosting a animal conference, all but one show up. Which animal does not attend?
the elephant, he's still in the refrigerator
last one, better get this one if u didn't get the first 3
4)You must cross a river, but it is inhabited by crocodiles. How do you cross it?
You swim across, the crocodiles are at the conference
hehe, owned

sam IS right... espn doesn't suck up to anyone, or cut to anyone in the crowd and stuff... go sixers... make your comeback! (they're down right now... they better mount a comeback)
maybe my attitude towards the spurs will change slightly... it seems i'm taking a liking to ginobilli, that guy is pretty good, and somewhat flashy to boot... i remember watching him getting 2 lakers with his under-the-rim dunk... i still like duncan the most of the spurs though... you know that guy would be considered the best center hands-down if it weren't for shaq...

me: guess which t-shirt i'm wearing right now
luigi: uh oh
luigi: hehe
me: haha

i'm starting to like "the last ninja" the game... it was an ol skool game on the cpu which i never got how to play, but now that finally figured out how to play it it's very entertaining... too bad it doesn't run on my xp laptop... but it runs on my 98 win cpu @home... the series actually goes all the way up to "the last ninja 4- the return" which is gonna be released on the xbox... man... makes me wanna get an xbox... not to mention vf4evo's on the xbox...

i wish i didn't have to sleep or eat in order to remain healthy... those two things take so much time out of your day... then again, if humans didn't need to eat or sleep we would add so much more stuff to do each day, so that wouldn't be any better...

3 packs of guacamole left in my dorm room, 2 packages of dried bananas, 1 and a 1/2 packages of dried pineapples left, 1 package of tortilla chips made w/avocados, 1 package of tortilla chips... and jon's sobe, which i never drink... oh yeah 3 oranges, a couple lollipops which i have never touched(i should throw them away), and a chinese-style raisin pie, which i haven't opened yet...

aye, round 2 of playoffs has been bittersweet for me, on one hand spurs won for the 2nd time against lakers(bowen was just knocking down threes like crazy, and the lakers got into foul trouble early, not to mention ginobilli was just dominating them, go ginobilli!), and kings take a 1-0 lead over mavs, but detroit is 1 up on philadelphia, and nets have been 2-0 against celtics...

this is the first time the annual evolution SF competition is gonna be expanded to host a lot more fighting game genres... VF4Evo will be there! woo hoo! (well, actually it won't matter for me anyways cause i won't attend, and if i do, i'll just get rocked, but it's kinda cool knowing the US is more acceptive of VF now)

ow... VF4Evo Sarah Bryant combo vid made by tragic is 100+ MB in size... ZIPPED... this is gonna take awhile... it better be good...

my lack of self-control is making my college experience unbearable...

back to my paper...

sometimes i feel that me and jon are playing tag-team as to who gets up earlier and who slumbers through the morning... it used to be all me getting up earlier, but recently me and jon are passing the torch back and forth.

bittersweet playoff yesterday; nets > celtics *sniff* although it was a close one; good try celtics, just don't trash talk, and keep on trying harder... battie and walker fouled out :( but paul pierce almost had it too; that tying 3 could've made the big difference... even had a nice open look... he even said it felt good coming out of his hands and he had a wide open look... but good game guys... it was close...
but spurs > lakers, and ginobilli even got a piece or two of some lakers going under the rim for an tomahawk dunk... aside from duncan, jackson and ginobilli are pretty good... those two are the flash of the team, which is why i somewhat like em, although i still like duncan more, cause he's such a good big man... prob the best center in the game...

linkin park - figure... it's a good song...

maybe it's just me, but linkin park, for all their artistic creativity, only talk about problems... i greatly respect and relish their works(they blend turntabling, freestyling and heavy alternative rock very well together, and their poetry is very good, but all they ever talk about are problems, never solutions... they don't talk about sex and stuff, but it's always inner problems... NEVER solutions... i'm wondering, do you necessarily have to be dark because heavy metal is considered dark?
("and now you've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear, i can't separate myself from what i've done, giving up a part of me, i've let myself become part of you")

man, everyone who says they have switchfoot - meant to live for download really have a cut-off version of switchfoot - more than fine...

some expected movies:
X-2: maybe wait til kids quiet down about this one before watching it?
Matrix 2: i'm there
Bruce Almighty: heh heh, this would be awesome to see; Jim Carrey's very funny...
T-3: i dunno... i'm assuming it's gonna be crappy... but it's the Terminator! i remember growing up with T-2 memories...

SFA3 Ryu and Evil Ryu BGMs rox :D

detroit > orlando... which is bittersweet, cause i like ben wallace, but also tmac even more... i knew it was bound to happen sometime or later though; you can't win a championship on only 1 person. ok, 2, cause of drew gooden, but still...

and mavs > blazers, which kinda blows... KINDA...

oh yeah, btw on friday i saw littleduckiesgopeep; heh heh, i had to say that... basically i was walking back to my dorm and saw these ducklings near a duck couple, some were even right under the mother... so cute... amazing... they look pretty neat, some were yellow, with a tint of black, etc. kinda cool just watching them. watching how God lets nature play out... some photographer started taking pics.

yay YAY! celtics advance over pacers.... go battie! go watch the speed stick highlight; he just STUFFED the pacers 3-4 times in one of their possessions; man... whadda blocker...

fave 2K3 NBA playoff plays:
amare stoudamire's fake throw over, pump fake right then dribble left past duncan for the reverse jam
battie's 3-4 blocks against the pacers
pollard comes up from behind and rejects malone's EASY layup
coleman's block on davis' tomahawk dunk
kg's alleyoop
kenyon martin rejected by rim :)

...man... sixers really ARE playing team bball now... i truly believe it... on defense they just know when to swat... offense they know how to run the ball...

haha... hulk hogan looks so much like captain america now; just give him a shield! haha...

and lakers advance :(

didn't get a free scoop of ice cream cause i was too lazy; shouldve just went right after i ate at the cafeteria; oh well; the pocket change i save up could easily buy a scoop as well, although it'd be a pain for the cashier(imagines laying down 200+ pennies... ouch)

i finally found a SFA3 combo exhibition video which showcases some of the more common V-ism combos, and then some other flashy combos; yea... go V-ism Akuma! i wish V-ism Ryu had a demon flip equivalent... then he'd get some serious midscreen VC power... his corner VC's better than V-ism Akuma though... oh well... makes me wanna actually get an arcade joystick for my laptop...

got whupped in our clan match... and btw why don't i ever get a call from my church counselor here in UCD? uh oh... did i leave the ringer off on our dorm phone? *smacks head* i should check to see, cause yeah...

JRich got in trouble w/the cops?!?!?!? aw man!

my soul aches to go home, because sometimes it feels like i'm striving for nothing... college is better or worse than high school depending on your point of view; if you soak info up like a sponge, then it's better cause you don't have to go to class if you want... but if you're the type which has trouble with tests, you'll die... instead of grading you in little spurts, they pack your grade(and indirectly, your future) into 3-4 tests... high schoolers, if you're reading this, be EXTREMELY glad you're in high school, and that they grade you the way you are...

31 baskin robbins:

free scoop of ice cream april 30th from 6 to 10 pm...

let the mooching begin, haha...

also:

iron chef comp for the CTCC yg this friday... interesting... you remind me of when i had to taste-test the cookies you guys made, haha...
bob: you weren't around back in the day
bob: when I was still in yg
bob: and there was a cookie baking contest
bob: where Eric Huang made cookies
bob: with breath mints and tic tacs and fruit loops on them
bob: and they were burned
bob: so gross
me: haha
me: i guess all the candy melted together?
bob: yeah, that
bob: plus it looked gross
me: haha

oh yeah, the actress they hired to play Lady Deathstrike for X-2 looks too nice(and she's prob not even japanese, unless if Hu is a japanese name)... the comic Lady Deathstrike looks a lot more butt-ugly, like Spiral... i'm serious; don't believe me? take a look:
Marvel Comics: Lady Deathstrike vs. Cap America
And this is the actress who plays her

man....

lakers > twolves tonight...
(although kobe had a creative dunk; reverse pump-fake layup, except he jammed it in afterward)
pacers > celtics tonight... in OT too!

ouch...

my favorite NBA playoff plays so far:

game 3 Kings v Jazz: Pollard comes up from behind and swats away Malone's easy layup into the crowd
game 4 Sixers v Hornets: Coleman blocks Davis' tomahawk dunk(that was just crazy... almost anyone blocks a power dunk you have my respect)

notice how so far they're all blocks :)
go celtics, sixers, magic, twolves, and kings!

and no bob, i can't see into the future, though i wish

can you feel me?
do you hate yourself
yet never learn?
do you get up
only so you can fall right down on your face?
i lose sleep
then overgain it
i see sand run dry
and my time's run out
there's a crowd
and they just wanna see
me fall again
so they can benefit from my loss
where are you when
i need you?
i thought you were my strength
when i was weak
where's my hope?
cmon and help me back up
but don't let me fall
let me rise with you
til we're high above everything
(i didn't even mean it to sound nice rhythmically, in case you're wondering, just jotting my thoughts down)

Life After Now's interpretation of the contemporary worship song In the Secret... while the editing's pretty bad(looks like all they used was a mic far away from the amp), and i think the riff doesn't match, because it goes up about 1 key and doesn't match the tempo, this is basically what the song would sound faster-paced, the way i'd do it:

Go here, and click on one of the In The Secret links

davis weather's pretty whack... i thought davis was very environmental friendly, so i'd get REGULAR weather here, and yet it's raining at the end of may! well, then again it may be those damn sac ppl driving back and forth... kinda like the comparison of LA to riverside

booo... twolves and lakers are 2 apiece...

Good Charlotte - The Anthem; though it's much like the stereotypical punk rock song, i like it cause of the DJ turntabling effects during the beginning and the middle of the song sound very nice, when they do some scratching with some distorted guitar power chords... now if only they worked that effect more into the song, they would be labelled as somewhat creative by my standards, which are undefined as of right now by me

osterfag... such a slow ass clumsy baller, he keeps losing the ball... i am stunned that the jazz even won this game, the kings were doing some really stupid things, like double teaming too much, giving the jazz wide open shot-knockdown oppurtunities... they also kept going into the key when the entire jazz team was in there... you guys lost an easy victory guys, seriously... peja just choked on a three too; air-balling the shot completely... i hope the kings come back and whup the jazz game 4; it's not necessarily that i like the kings THAT much(although i do, mainly cause of bobby jackson, and maybe cwebb and/or bibby), but i dislike the jazz; they're a buncha old geezers still playing bball...

what else... the whole jazz team just tries to get fouled, it's annoying me... play the damn game, none of this crap...

haha... on the plus side, scott polland had a NICE block on malone's easy layup, that was just crazy; he just came up from behind and BAM! knocked his wide-open layup into the crowd with a huge swat... you still have to give the jazz credit on that play though, cause a very nice bounce pass set up the mailman for that attempt at the shot

just some final thoughts about spiritual stuff before i go to sleep, since jerm sparked a conversation about it:
-my life's been stagnant; basically, i don't feel incredible joy when i do spiritual stuff; i haven't gotten a lotta time to do really good worship by myself, have trouble reading the bible and keeping up the goal of finishing the entire bible, and haven't been talking with God by prayer as often... do i think that these things make the christian? of course not... legalism isn't what christianity is all about... but if i can do them with incredible joy that i WANT to do them over and over, that shows my love for God, and as for right now, the love's not there...
-i also am thankful that jerm wants to be my accountability partner, that means a lot
-summer i'm gonna crank it up, that's for sure
-also, summer, we're gonna do some serious stuff w/the CTCC ppl

ok that's it; stupid ISDA company won't let me dl Budokan - The Martial Spirit even though EA doesn't even sell the game anymore, and the fact that I actually own the game, just not on a disk that would enable me to play it on my laptop

sooo tired... but i can't sleep... i must not...

i'll write later, when i can muster a bit more strength, and when my 1:10 class is done...