oh damn; lydia's aim sn is 100% right now... i don't talk to her, but i've never seen anyone like that... you either gotta piss someone off like crazy, or just have pranksters everywhere you go... wonder what happens when you reach 100%; you can't talk to anyone?

just started fooling around w/scripts for CS, aka HOTKEYS... dunno if this is a good thing about 6 hrs before a match... nevertheless, it's still easier, though it'll take a while for me to get used to

twolves lose to lakers...

warriors lose to mavericks...

wizards lose to pistons...

WHAT UTTER BULL...

(the plus side being sixers win over blazers and kings top whoever they played, but i'd rather root for warriors over kings any day of the week)

still shirtless as i'm typing this...

man, i think i'm not going to be able to give my songs serious thoughts until my chem exam's over... and even then i may be shaken up by the difficulty of it so badly that i won't be able to concentrate... just gotta follow the motto that the past won't affect you anymore, and the future's not there yet, so just concentrate on the present...

time spent in UCD w/o going home: 4 weeks(wow...)

UCD spring= cupertino summer... i am currently shirtless in my dorm as i'm typing this, because it feels that hot...

studying... that's all i'm SUPPOSED to do...

worship... that's what i'd LIKE to do...

gaming... that's what i wish i didn't do as much of...

ogl match @6 sat... must get studying done before then...

video game fun:

Mighty Final Fight for the Nes is just too fun... it's better than the original Final fight, and is funny too

CSing w/jon, tim, sam, louis and jerm's fun too... too many memories... like

tim: TIMEOUT!
louis: What, poo?

or my headshot right through tim's head to hit jon in the head i think

or the suicide nading of tim, or attempt to... like getting in his face and yelling "c'mon tim, shoot me! shoot me! shoot me! tim? c'mon!" :)

or the fact that dead ppl in CS look so retarded... like when norm lies down and is spaced out :)

"i'm gonna swing my knife like this... and if you get in the way, it's your OWWWWN fault... ah! ah! ah! ah! ah!"

but yeah... too many memories

great... missed another lecture... I AM SO FRIGGIN LAZY AND CAN'T CONTROL MY TIME... ON TOP OF THAT, I LACK THE SELF-CONTROL TO GO TO SLEEP EARLY EVERY DAY... WTH IS W/THAT?

...perhaps God helps you in everything you do, but you need to take that 1st step... maybe that's why i fail so much... i never take the initiative...

yesterday's dinner was good... central america theme... i especially liked the soup w/beef in it and the desert... pina colada flambe... seems any desert they make w/alcohol in it tastes good :)
(don't worry, i'm not drinking alcohol anytime soon)

my stomach's growling, but i'm feeling fine, it just gets annoying when you have to hear it go on and on... strange, maybe God's strengthened my ability to depend upon him and not material possessions? i'm serious, i don't feel any stomach pains... well, i still gotta go eat though, like right now...

well, i'm wondering why my small group leader didn't call me to pick me up for bible study... eh... maybe jon's dorm phone doesn't work? maybe he already thought i knew where to go? or that he thought i knew that we don't have bible study today? whatever, it's the 2nd to last day of winter break, no probs, just start next quarter, besides i do some bible studying on my own, so it's all good

NOW they tell us that the chem teacher i've been having for the past 2 quarters(who is REALLY good) is available for signup... great... just jacked over my entire schedule if i want to reorganize everything... eh... maybe i'll just study harder...

ok, have fun, maybe think about songs, shower, go to sleep... study like crazy tomorrow

Linkin Park- Somewhere I Belong... granted, i like it cause LP made it, but it doesn't sound like them compared to Hybrid Theory... softer, less turntabling... if the majority of their new songs on their new album sound the same way, i'm taking a pass and going for 12 Stones & Sanctus Real...

lesse... the new album hits stores 2 weeks later... (wow, so soon!)... hmmm...

The Call Revolution...

don't think anybody's doing the 40 day fasting and praying thing seriously? take a look... huge event @candlestick park... for free... April 5th, 7AM to 7PM, limited space though, you gotta register fast, er, quickly... btw, you might wanna click on the "revival" link on the page... wow... whadda parallel to Acts...

huge essay to write up... i wanna get it done by early wed... i really wanna attend bible study on wed w/my new small group in UCD... 9:30 PM tomorrow... THAT'S why(not to mention i got chem to study for... test's on mon)

happy bday laura(is it a good thing to have your bday the same name as an alterative rock group? dunno)...

chapter of reflection for today: Ezekiel 18

i'll look @ it later, but basically, it hammers home these points:
-you are responsible for your own sins... just because a father sins doesn't mean a son will be punished along with his father, and just because a father does right doesn't mean a sinful son will live
-likwise, God will forget all your sins if you are sinful, but come back to him

so, God was reaching towards his people and using this concept of forgiveness even before Jesus came to earth

btw you CTCC ppl... wanna wonder where our ol' skool ghetto CTCC church buildings went? haha... here in Davis! i asked jon if Davis Korean Church reminded him of our church before it was remodeled and he agreed.

finally i find out about the meaning of Lent aka Ash Wednesday, the day which Jesus supposedly rode into Jerusalem where he would later die...

Read about Lent here

so it's not necessarily a period of fasting... although you can make it that way if you want...

my "fasting"(skipping 1 meal for each day isn't much of a fast) admittedly right now has nothing to do with coming to Christ... it has more to do w/bringing down my meal numbers under control... however, i use the hunger pangs that i get for missing breakfast to suck it up and remind myself who provides what for me... and it's really nothing... i've trained myself... or should i say, God's trained me

happy bday sam...

sam: it all depends on how im feeling
sam: sometimes i can go 2:1(in CS)...othertimes its just a bit over 1:1
me: i usually never get over a 50% eff
me: i might at the very 1st 1-2 rounds, but never from there
sam: haha cuz of your damn deagle

haha... tru dat

"school's hard" ppl say... i say, YOU make it hard on yourself... it's your fault, and nobody else's... the second you admit that and realize what you need to beat that... it becomes easy...

and again i set a perfect example of this: because of my laziness, it's 2:27 AM and i'm still working on my chem lab... i could go to sleep and work on it tomorrow(which isn't that bad of an idea, since i'll still have about 4 hrs left before the due date to complete it and finish a prelab, and i'll need to ask my TA some questions, cause i'm just stumped on how to finish one of the problems), but it's kinda a dilemma...

and jon's a good example too... how the heck do you study while playing generals or watch media files at the same time? anybody? anybody?

...

God have mercy on a dickhead... see, if i had just LISTENED to myself and did work on my chem lab, i must've been able to go to sleep early today and STILL have finished all the chem lab stuff... instead, i go to sleep late, my chem lab's not done, neither is my prelab...

ouch, it's a bad day to be a bball fan that likes the same teams as me...

sixers lose to lakers...

wizards lose to knicks(although good effort by mj to try to keep the wizards in the game)...

warriors lose to bucks... and lately they lost to pistons(they're now on a losing streak... :-( )

at least magic beat the nuggets...

Shaun Groves- Should I Tell Them... right now, i really like the melody of this song...

my # of meals... are actually UNDER what they should be... expect me to either do ludicrous things like skipping breakfast or doing "taco-bell runs" or "jack-in-the-box runs" this and next week to keep it in check...

i wonder if they really count how many entries, or visits to a site there are for each blog... now i've got 2 ads stuck on my site, instead of just one... would they actually add a 3rd one?

(to be honest it's not a big deal, but imagine having enough banner ads that you have to scroll down one whole page to reach the stuff i wrote)

shapelle's show is just too funny:

wu tang financial(this was a commercial for a stock market-ish company like charles schwab run by method man and red man, the two guys from the wu tang clan group):
(so they are talking to a white couple, this is what one of the black guys says)
-you need to diversify your options, n*****...

hahahahah... me and jon were cracking up...

daaaaaaammmnnn... when i actually tried GOING to the follow-up fellowship after MSM on friday(they have a fellowship together, then split up by classes ie frosh, soph, etc, and go their own ways to bond, play games and eat food), i met so many people... i think i was introduced to practically every single person that is a freshman and then some @MSM... people there are EXTREMELY friendly... i think i'm here to stay... even got hooked up w/a bible study group right on the spot... even met a couple of korean girls who actually talked to me(prob gonna forget everyone's names, heh heh)... it was a blast

there's this one game that MSM tried that we CTCC youth group ppl HAVE to try... get everyone in a circle, and everyone get something that belongs to them... then everyone takes that object and passes it to the person on their left, and keep doing this, ie passing the objects around the circle AS FAST AS YOU CAN... if you drop the object, you're out and go to the center of the circle... it's kinda funny and fun, cause i remember one korean girl throwing the objects over everyone to get to the other side(and possibly damaging stuff), and when people scrutinized her she was like "i'm too short!" haha

the other game we played was "lightning"... get all the guys in one line, hands behind back, holding hands(hand to hand), forming 1 line(girls do the same forming 2 parallel lines)... now on one side have a person not on either team get a coin, on the other side have a cup filled w/water equidistant from both end ppl... now everyone other than the people on the end can look @the coin(everyone else must look away towards the people nearest the cup)... what the guy w/the coin does is toss the coin up... if it comes down heads, you start a chain reaction of hand-squeezing down the line(ie when you get squeezed on the right hand squeeze the next person's hand on the left), and when the last person gets it he/she needs to cover the cup's opening... then he/she gets to dump the cup of water on the other :) the winning team then rotates(the "cup" person now becomes the "coin-reader" person, and the whole line shifts towards the "cup" person again)... and repeat :)
(i didn't really care that although this was my 1st time here that i got soaked, i really didn't... haha even the guys were like encouraging me :) i also looked very spastic, when i was the "cup" person... just the look of me concentrating on the "cup" made everyone look @me... i think when i was supposed to soak the girl i just beat i came across as very nice... i didn't soak her in the face at all, and made sure she was ready before i did... she even thanked me later for doing that... haha... now every girl there prob thinks i am a nice guy... or just a pussy :D)

biblical lesson: share your talents, your gifts, your riches w/others... do what you can in the church/fellowship if you have talents, give a bit more... when i was listening(and desperately trying not to fall asleep due to my lack of sleep yesterday) i pictured when i was still in 9th grade in sunday school and charles gave a picture of a cup that has no holes and filled up to the top... yet, the cup with has a hole in it will always be filled, because it keeps giving and still has room for more

haha... there's this funny student's prayer laid out on today's bulletin; i'll explain later, cause it'd take too much space...

i guess you could say tonight i pulled a laura :)
me: hey
laura: yo
me: i pulled a "you" :-)
laura: eh?
laura: what di dyou do?
me: THAT'S how many ppl i met @ my christian fellowship today :-)
laura: heheh
laura: oooh
laura: yaY
laura: how many?
me: well, i think almost the entire freshman pop there :-)
me: and then some :-)
laura: oOh
laura: niiice
laura: that's awesome
laura: heheh
me: yeah
laura: hehe

alright, it's too dark... i should be asleep

ever heard of Pascal's Wager? it's an interesting argument as to whether you should believe in God or not... basically, it's this: if I believe in God, and you don't, we both die, and there is no God, we both don't win. but if there is a God, and we both die, you lose everything, and i gain everything. so when in doubt, just believe in God :)
(it's actually pretty reasonable the more i think about it... what's an atheist got an advantage over me on? this life? please, this life's too short, and i already try to live my life to the fullest. are you going to mock me in the afterlife and tell me "hahaha, there's no God"?)

then there the other thought... ever thought of how to drink milk and soda, like in which order? it's a lot like the opposite of the rule of combining acid w/water; you always add acid TO water, but you always drink soda first, then milk. reason's simple... soda messes up your teeth, so the milk'll restore it... you do it the other way, and you just effed up your teeth.

done for today... one of the newer things i've done is linked my away message on AIM of "playing CS" to a web site address pinpointing exactly which server i'm playing at; should make it easier to join and play against me...

SFA3: Intro music and the Ryu BG music's the shiznit...

haha... jon was considering whether to use Megaman BG music for a CS video :) i suggested Chun-Li BG music :)

well, after my 2nd pass time i guess my spring schedule @UCD isn't gonna be TOO bad... only 2 downsides is that supposedly my chem teacher that i chose is not very likable along the campus(i couldn't choose any other; all the other slots were taken, only upside being it's early, so i can get stuff done easier), and my math occurs @5:10-6:00P(the upside is that he's an excellant math teacher; i've had him before)...

it's interesting how the only 4 credit classes that fit into just 2 lecture days always come from the Philosophy department :) heck, if this keeps up, i might end up taking so many philosophy classes that i end up minoring(or possibly majoring?) in some philosophy branch :)

aw, what bull, bulls snap the 6 win streak of the warriors today... oh well, nt guys... but keep it up! i know you guys can make it to the playoffs!

long time since i've talked to Steve, the now-senior of MVHS... water walkers(my hs christian club) is into evangalism right now... i'd comment more, but i don't wanna expose too much... i just am kinda happy know he at least got into UCI and Cal Poly, as well as starting the guitar...

Bebo Norman & Jeremy Camp are playing somewhere near Davis i think; take a look at the church they're playing at Mar 13, too bad i can't get there, since it's not walking distance:

Sun River Church

Warriors and Bulls tonight... alright guys, don't let us norcal ppl down! you've come this far, now don't let up! (8:30 ET) you win this one, you'll come 1 step closer to playoffs!