haha... louis isn't the only one who has a teacher using the word "jostle" to describe something...

"what, did you forget all your chemistry information during spring break? we'll have to jostle those neurons a bit..."

and does louis want jon to get the same discover credit card t-shirt that i have? i thought i saw a dialogue between him and jon last night... still it's a funny t-shirt... too bad i can't figure out the greek god depicted on it, perhaps then it'd be easier to create a wallpaper w/it...

ok, so Linkin Park still is a bit like the Hybrid Theory guys that i remember... heard a couple of the other full-length samples of their music @mp3.com and they sound good... it's just like the Hybrid Theory days where i didn't like the very 1st song they showed on the airwaves, but liked all the rest(think One Step Closer, now Somewhere I Belong)... i'm still gonna wait a few before buying their CD... price tends to go down over a couple months... maybe buy it in the summer...

i think i'm actually lighter than Wes now; i think he's now 127, i could be 124 now... haha... UCD scrapped the word "seconds" from my vocabulary... i should eat more in college, i really wanted to gain weight in college, not lose it...

here's a scenario that happened to me yesterday, see if this doesn't freak you out:
jack in the box run ok? so i come back and it's pitch dark on one portion of a block away from the UCD campus... no lights whatsoever... the pay phone next to me rings... i look closer cause there's some sticker on it... it an anti-war message, that says "THIS PHONE IS TAPPED..." now also imagine the recent screening of "Phone Booth" w/Colin Farrell w/a sniper crosshair trained upon him as he's talking... of course i started getting suspicious and looking around waiting for a sniper to just cut me down...

me: did you just push your brother off his cpu, log him off and log in? haha... i seriously saw his sn disappear, then yours popped up
alice: well
alice: we switched
me: oh
me: but it still looked funny
alice: haha
alice: yes. that's me
alice: alice the aggressor

Crash, by 12 Stones:

As I lie tossing in my bed
Lost in my fears remembering what you said
And I try to hide the truth within
The mask of myself shows its face again
Still I lie time and time again
Will you deny me when we meet again?

And I feel like I'm falling
Farther every day
But I know that you're there
Watching over me
And I feel like I'm drowning
The waves crashing over me
But I know that your love
It will set me free

As I find truth where I found it times before
As I search for your hope
I'm finding so much more
And I try to be more like you
And I deny myself to prove my heart is true

I hear your voice calling
The time has come for me
Inside this life I’m living
There’s nothing left for me
My mind is slowly fading
So far away from me
Each time I start crawling
You’re there watching me

....

just viewed my final grades for winter quarter... horrible... not what i expected...

how the heck do you find strength to get through this thing you call college, and achieve your goals?

ok, i'm out... i'm really praying that God will show me the way and help me to get above an overall GPA of 3.5 really soon...

i might as well go to sleep; CS is unplayable tonight... lag is 300+... totally unplayable...

have you ever wondered what it takes to be a top musical group? some possible criteria suggested by me:

-originality:
do they create a sound that isn't heard or easily classified by the common genres around them? for instance, Linkin Park for their debut album created a sound that isn't often heard around...
-talent:
does at least one of the band members demonstrate an incredible depth and complexity in usage of his/her instrument? i like to think of 12 Stones as one of the best rock bands i've ever heard based upon this: while their sound isn't exactly THAT original, Eric Weaver is DEFINITELY one of the better guitarists heard on the radio during this age...
-morals:
a christian could explain this one to you; enough said... basically, is your life reflecting your sounds? and are both considered to be good?
-poetry:
how bout their lyrics? does it have a very nice flow to them? does it sound profound yet poetic at the same time?

i didn't realize i was wearing such an inappropriate T-shirt to church until the other guys pointed it out to me: it's a naked Greek god in a weird position with a thought bubble above his head thinking about rollerblades... it's a discover credit card T-shirt, but it does look a bit bad for church... still, it cracked louis up, so that kinda made my day...

my dorm-room snacks are much more healtier this time around; dried mangoes, dried pineapples, and dried bananas... however they all are sooo good, especially the dried bananas! the dried bananas are like hardened bananas w/syrup... oooooh...

i dunno if i have what it takes to come out on top of this pre-med game... i really don't know... God please give me the self-control to do it...

too bad i couldn't go visit water walkers @MVHS during my spring break... seems like i had stuff going on both days... sorry steven if you're reading this... no hard feelings k?

overall impression of my spring break:
-let's be honest, i wasted it; i wanted some quiet time to myself to think up of a praise song to record and convert to an .mp3 format, but i didn't get the chance; and i can't blame it on the fact that we CTCC guys/girls spent too much time together either; there were a lotta times i spent in my bro's room, except i was playing CS instead of my guitar... but i know God's merciful, i just still wish i had more willpower and self-control, cause I ALWAYS SEEM TO LACK THOSE PARTICULAR TRAITS! WHY OH WHY! also, i'm guessing wed was wide open for me and wes to get together to songwrite, but i didn't realize that til it was too late... the good part is that i pretty much figured out the lyrics and melodies i wanna use, it's just not recorded on my cpu yet...
-got the 12 stones CD; a major plus; i love 12 Stones; sure, it's hard rock, but it's 10x more talented than about 90% of the bands you hear on the radio out there, guitar-wise... anyone who tells me 12 Stones blows doesn't have the ear to recognize talent, period... next to add to the CD selection: Sanctus Real; i'm waiting for a 3-day weekend when i'll be back, so i'll get it then...
-learned how to cook a few key dishes from my mom, which was very nice... i guess i won't be as helpless as i think sophomore year, although i do know cooking takes a long time...
-I-3's; what more to say?
-car seat fixed; 3 seater becomes a 4 seater
-CS match... perhaps i'm getting too addicted to CS; i gotta learn how to control myself... maybe i take a cpu game fast to see if i can handle it?
-bball and getting my blocks in, but learning i need to get my ball handling in, i just dunno how to start...
-also, i still woke up later than usual, which i hate myself for...

i dunno, maybe i see the negatives in myself more than the positives... i just feel like i could've really made something out of this spring break, and instead blew it...

My Spring Break, a short day-by-day account:

Day 1, Sat:
-Nothing much, really; came back, then we kinda just all went to Applebee's(after realizing that it was junior prom night and we wouldn't get into Outback in a short time)... haha... louis went to junior prom! haha... then tim lags behind because he can't figure out how to drive there...
-mom's so generous to me... found a pair of I-3s @Ross for $17... WOW! that of course sparked a whole talk w/wes, sam and jerm about what the 1st and 2nd AI shoes were...
-back @mike's house, we surprise sam with a belated bday party... uh, that ice cream cake wasn't that good... the frosting looked like paint... knowing it was just butter and sugar didn't help either... we all weighed ourselves afterward... man, i don't eat enough @UCD... i'm now down to 124... haha... i know sam's gonna bug us with that cpu mic we gave him when we play cs... it's a constant...
Day 2, Sun:
-Woke up late for church, cause i went to sleep hecka late, @3:00... everyone's pretty much back... and still everyone can't believe the size of jerm's "fro!" when lydia asks me how finals went i told her i thought i didn't do too well on chem she told me not to take it, which is just great advice :)
-didn't do too much, since there's no college sunday school for guys... just played table tennis, read news on the war in Iraq(some gratefulness those damn protestors give for their kin in Iraq), and listened to tim and jon talk about cs; i then went outside to play w/my bball, and end up dumping my food on jon when a stray bball comes toward me... haha...
-haha... all the girls wanted to ask louis how his prom went :)
-all of us typical college ppl(+the socal girls+louis+wes) go to in-n-out...
-wes gives me the 12 Stones CD... thanks a lot... i really like it...(laura again has to comment how she loves the switchfoot CD she got during her bday) finished the CD while practicing CS on my laptop :) while i admit i don't love EVERY song on the CD, i like about 70% of the songs... i keep wondering why the world doesn't open their eyes to christian music, and specifically the ones which try to do the popular music genre... some of them like 12 stones are just GOOD at what they do...
-...laura's legs are VERY pasty white... she needs a tan... like "white on rice" :) haha... actually, we all need a tan... i think my farmer's tan is coming back stronger...
-try to songwrite a bit, but i can't really think of anything... i basically ended up just testing my recording equipment and playing a few power chords and riffs to get my guitar sense back... i can't believe how long i've gone w/o playing my fender, that it was out of tune when i took it out of the case...
-stuff dinner down and rush to mountain view tap to play a clan match of CS w/louis, sam, tim, and jon(jerm couldn't help out, so i guess i just sub'd for him this time)... i'll comment later...
-back @mike's house i watch them basically do this stupid putting game, except you need to get the ball to jump into a cup, instead of hitting it in... can't believe we wasted so much time during that... then norm almost can't find his car keys... haha...
-i discover of all the things wrong w/the whole telephone has NOTHING to do w/any of the phones or their wires... it has to do w/our cpu... oh crap... i don't wanna get that fixed... i'd much rather have one of the wires or phones broken than the cpu... it's gonna cost a lot to fix or get a new one, and mom won't know how to do that, not to mention i'll be back @UCD when that happens...

CS match today:
-we played @dust2... i guess jerm couldn't help out(gluck w/finals man), so here i actually played an actual role(haha... though i thought he still would've done better, although maybe i aim better, he just hits faster)...
-first of all, we have bad lag coming into the game already, so no surprise that we lost...
-we get murdered when we're the Ts... it's cause we simply have no gameplan thought out carefully... which is strange, cause according to jon we should've been doing a lot better as Ts...
-we come a lot closer when we're the CTs... but we still lost, however it was one point away from tieing them, though we would've had to beat them senseless in order to really tie them...
-concerning me as a T, i simply couldn't help out the others... call it lag, call it not being used to a cpu keyboard over my laptop keyboard, or just call it pure lack of skill, i end up getting only maybe 2 kills... and dying maybe 10+... so much about that... my deagling sucked, heck, everything sucked...
-however, i almost did the complete opposite when we were CTs, i actually got over 50% eff, and at one time was leading our team in stats... it later drifted down to me being 2nd in CT stats, tim being 1st... i was actually getting 2 kills per round pretty frequently... one time i almost saved the day, but since i didn't make a 3rd kill, i died and lost the chance to defuse the bomb and win a round for us... that would've made an enough difference to win as CTs over the Ts... haha... here my deagle and m4a1 skills were actually paying off... so i guess i'm not a COMPLETE n00b... just a novice lacking experience... or maybe i just own novices, not good players :)
-i think when it comes down to it, i do much better playing defensively than offensively; if i have to wait for the opponent to come to me, i can usually give myself enough time to set myself down so i can get good shots off... also, i tend to do a lot better when i tail behind and give support there... when that happens i get a lot of kills, cause i end up cleaning up... when i go first in action, usually i can't do anything and get @best 1 kill per round, usually i end up dying immediately... i still need to work on getting a more accurate burst-fire from assault rifles though...
-it was fun in general... this match... mainly as a CT... pretty memorable... however much practice ahead... though i should always put my grades and worship of God way over that... and if i have time left, then MAYBE i work on my CS skills...

Day 3, Mon:
-i don't think i can go to MVHS and watch how my peeps @water walkers are... my car's in the shop and won't come out til somewhere around 2-3... by then lunch will be over...
-play bball for 1 game(man, mom took so long to get ready to go)... then spend some time watching upn and playing tug-of-war w/sam's dog...

Day 4, Tues:
-learn how to make miso soup... heh heh
-also practice Cs on my laptop again... getting my bursts to go at 1 shot/go...
-get going on my song a bit more...
-go to norm's to bowl w/joe&emily... i did terrrible...
-eat chinese dinner @milpitas... that was pretty cool... i still want a business card from phouc nga... that name cracks me up...
-also watched snippets of MJ to the MAX... that guy was very incredible...

Day 5, Wed:
-i get up late again... ugh... i hate myself... i wish i was an early riser, not a late-ass person... rips so much time outta my day...
-no bball... shucks, had i known, i would've called wes and asked him to come over to do some song-writing... instead, i waste a day @the library...
-learn how to make pork ribs for dinner... wow, takes so long... i'm never making that stuff @UCD, not to mention i'm not sure you can buy cooking wine ie saki or vodka anytime until i'm 21...

Day 6, Thurs:
-play bball... got a couple of blocked shots, which was nice, but i have no bball handling skills... got the ball stripped by jon a couple... by jon! this is why i need to up my bball handling skills, but i dunno where to start
-the bball experience would have been a lot more enjoyable if i hadn't jammed my left index or forgot to cut my fingernails...
-learn how to bake/broil fish...
-bowling, which was ok for me... surprised to see laura and lydia tag along and watch us... i sorta cocked my head every time i didn't bowl right, which reminded laura of how she acts whenever she misses a bball shot...
-went to donut wheel afterward... i love donuts, except i get em for free @UCD's cafeteria, which was why i didn't buy any...

Day 7, Fri:
-praise night, which was kinda cool, except i hated myself for showing up late, and missing the beginning
-go to Tap, and watch some CS action... haha... norm sucks... maybe even more than mike...
-play/observe Risk @Mike's house...

Day 8, Sat:
-observe more Risk @Mike's house... and Smash Bros...
-ok, i should've songwrote more during this week... i feel like i wasted a lotta golden oppurtunities to really think about the lyrics... instead, i haven't even recorded the praise song i wanted to do this weekend yet...
-maybe zip over to Bureans tomorrow and get the Sanctus Real CD before heading back?

hahahah...

memorable quote of today:

so this guy was in our room fooling around with jon's comp, and he was turning up the bass and volume on jon's eminem songs... to the point where our next-door neighbors were annoyed, so one of them sent him a message saying this, and i quote:

"quiet hours not over yet nigger"

hahahahahha...

on the topic of CS, i think here's a tactic you can use if you're going 1-on-1 knifing each other... so nobody uses the primary slash to do damage these days, but it's fast in startup and recovery... use it as a bait move... i was practicing my deagle skills on deagle5 today, and after both teams were knocked out except for 1 T and me, who was the 1 CT, he suggested we knife, so i said, come to bridge, then i followed him to spawn... here's what i did... instead of jumping right @him and trying to knife immediately(which is what i usually do, and it gets me killed), i rushed him, then whiffed my primary slash once a few feet from his face, and it worked; i baited him into jumping @me, so i just followed up with the secondary stab, and got a kill like that...
(btw when it comes to CS knifing if i'm serious, i never play it like that... it usually only comes out when i've run out of handgun ammo, and i'm very close up, and then possibly if the other person's out of ammo, then instead of hunkering away i just run up with the knife and try for a secondary stab... in other words i use it to finish off the person much like ppl use the grenade, except for up-close situations)

uh... do NOT buy more 3 chili-cheese products from jack in the box... i bought 3 chili-cheeseburgers, and 1 chili-cheese curly fries, and i almost couldn't finish the 3rd burger because all of the things tasted the same... i guess next time i only stick w/the fries...

i am still here in UCD, waiting for jon to finish his final... oh wait, he's done... nevermind...

now, i'm confused a bit... if any song is a worship song(just concentrating on different gods to worship), does that mean ANY song i create to God is a worship song? or, maybe what i need to aim at is a worship song that EVERYONE CAN FOLLOW... see, that would be different... perhaps that's the criteria for a praise/worship song... doesn't just apply to the writer, but to all christians...

have you ever felt like the harder you concentrate on trying to grasp the meaning of something, the further it slips from you? feels that way when you try to think of the meaning of joy... one's thing's for sure; it's not like happiness, because you can be in the lowest of lows and still have it... but how's that seen? hope? peace? faith? hmm... dunno...

later... going home manana... should be fun... song writing... bball... just hangin out w/former CTCC ppl... it's all good... getting my Saturn driver's seat fixed... (haha... finally!)

things that cause me to marvel at the works of God:
-animals that are seen in nature
-good music dedicated to God
-whenever i stop to reflect and think how much i have(i guarentee you, you have more than you possibly want the more you think about it)
-the nature environment itself
-etc... the list can get very long
-hearing a good testimony
-when i get an awesome feeling of worship of God
(the list keeps growing and growing... if you aren't living your life with joy every single moment and you're a Christian, you're messed up... seriously...)

pessimist sees the cup as half-empty... optimist sees the cup as half-full... atheist sees the cup as half-empty, and draining... but a christian sees the cup as overflowing... :)

i am currently taking a liking to Lincoln Brewster- Let the praises ring(and i am expecting Bob to any minute jump in and comment, heh heh, i heard his church is in SAC, and that he leads with an electric guitar and sings w/his throat):

lyrics:
Oh Lord my God, in You I put my trust
Oh Lord my God, in You I put my hope
(repeat)

In You, in You I find my peace
In You, in You I find my strength
In You, I live and move and breathe
Let everything I say and do
Be founded by my faith in You
I lift up holy hands and sing:
Let the praises ring!

Oh Lord my God, to You I give my hands
Oh Lord my God, to You I give my feet
Oh Lord my God, to You I give my everything
Oh Lord my God, to You I give my life

i'll write later; it's late @night...

memory flashback...

when jon actually decided to accompany me to Davis Korean Church, all the guys/gals there were friendly to him, they were asking him for his cell phone #(don't get any wrong ideas, heh heh)... and one former Lynbrook girl was like,
"your number has '666' in it... i don't like this number!"

hahahaha...

... oooooh, dammmn... thank YOU god!

so while i'm still praying and hoping that God'll give me at least a B in chem, and an A in LAI, at least he made my Philosophy of Biology final so friggin easy... it was all you God... all you... thanks a lot...

btw, i'm finding my love of NBA bball's rubbing off on me in my christian way of doing things... i constantly give thanks to God, but ever since i've seen NBA players sometimes point to others after a good play and say stuff like "it was all you man!"(watch the new T-Mac shoe from addidas commercial to get an idea), i find i've been doing that everytime i get giddy after God's done something good for me... i'll end up pointing to heaven(or i should say, the sky; dunno where heaven really is), look up and mouth, "it was all you man!" God knows what i'm talking about... i love that feeling... and that's what i'm feeling right now...

should lay off of the caffeinated beverages during dinner... i think i accidently pulled an all-nighter yesterday because i loaded on coke during dinner... i just couldn't sleep... luckily, i don't feel any headaches today... again, all you God...

btw, i'm wondering how God views electronic gaming... especially the violent ones, ie CS, Quake, VF4Evo... does he condemn them completely? or are they something like money, where it's neutral? you're not killing anybody in reality, so i dunno... cause in a way, you could view a competitive game of CS or VF4Evo more as a sport than an actual bloodfest... i'm wondering this cause i wonder if there's computer games in heaven... just like whether or not God lets you play sports in heaven... Bob, any comment? :)

haha... laura's pulling a RT... running to in n out! yeah, that's right! that's the RT way! :)
(btw the list of fast food chains that i've ran to in UCD: Del Taco, In N Out, Taco Bell, Jack In the Box)

i think i'll do a couple things today/tomorrow:
-study for math
-think more about the song i'm gonna record during break
-think more about worship lesson
-buy some books for next quarter
-CS
-QTs and prayer
(i have a lotta time, so i gotta make sure i don't blow it all on CS :D)

um, yeah, that's pretty good...

man, i think my optical mouse's getting worn... i say this because it feels like my mouse wheel's giving more... it used to have a bit more resistance when i tried to spin it, but ever since i played CS and got crazy spinning it, it's got less resistance... i should be a little more careful spinning it... like spin it only one notch at a time...

uh, study time today...

jerm: doh.. gotta pick up sister now
me: haha
jerm: i'm almost all undressed too
me: ahaahhaha
(jerm was about to take a shower, just to get the facts straight... he wasn't looking at porn or anything sick like that)

del taco has 3 tacos each tuesday night for 99 cents... OOOOH! well, gotta make sure it's not just the UCD area del taco...

i love it when crunch time's upon you and you come out on top... shows which side God was on... sometimes...

do we really need this war w/Iraq? we should've ended it a long time ago, now, it's not the right time...

Isaiah 58: the whole point of this chapter is that repentance is not the only thing that will cause God to come back and lift your troubles off your back... you also need to put your feelings into deed... you can't expect words to move God... your actions will speak the whole truth... yea, that was the chapter that i decided to read today...

Skillet- You Are My Hope(Air 1 9.11.01 version)

do you think that the only thing required to turn back your punishment are your words? your feelings, your actions will also say that as well... what else... do you think only the wrong face troubles?

are ppl born evil? no... but it's in their nature... and it's obviously much easier to do evil than good... and your task as you go along this world-life how to break that nature and to come back...

haha... i just noticed how NBA.com has this weird link comparing which colleges produced the best players... it's interesting... check it out:

College Bball Rosters

matches up the best players from each college... damn... seems like a ton of the good players come from Norta Carolina... Jason Kidd hails from Cal? Arizona and Michigan each have their share of good players... Arenas... haha... both AI and Mutumbo went to Georgetown!

i still can't believe i don't have a final test tomorrow... keep checking the syllabus and yes, the final paper was the last thing...

it's so hard to ignore the past and concentrate upon the present even when the future seems so uncertain... like when you don't think your GPA will cut it for what you want... but i realize that it's not the end of the world if you don't make your major... there's always hope... but like i said, it's so hard to put this idea into practice...

yaaaaay, Daioh.com's back up again! now i can watch VF4 Evo tourney matches again!(watches 20+ min disappear from each school day)

btw has anyone gotten a bit queasy about the upcoming confrontation between the US and Iraq? i'm wondering if it's possible for this to lead right into Armageddeon...

haha... maybe i don't have a final tomorrow... all the syllabus for the class' final for tomorrow that i see is a final paper... and i'm done w/that... maybe i should double check... in about 10 min... but i'm so much fun listening to VF4 Evo soundtracks! haha... just like the way Louis has too much fun listening to his ol school video game soundtracks...

*sigh*... now i'm just hoping that God gives me a B in chem for the winter quarter... i didn't really feel too good about that final... basically, i'm hoping that the teach curves it, and curves it really hard, like maybe 40 for the average, and the standard deviation's 10...

and yet, i find this thing called life hard to grasp, because on the one hand, there's what i know i'm supposed to do in hard situations like these(trust in God, keep your cool, stop fretting about what's happened and concentrate on what will), and yet i still have afterthoughts... too many of them... life's hard, no doubt... the hard situations make you, as some put it...

happy bday lydia... though i don't talk to her online, so she prob doesn't even know i put up her bday for everyone to see...

the hard situations will bring out who you really are, no matter what you've done for the good and easy times... and i can see my human nature right now... it's ugly... anger, impatience, frustration, lacking self-control... i wish i could change it instantly, but i seem to be one of those types of people who are good when the going's good, bad when it's bad...

ahh, what can you do... i guess just ignore anything that isn't currently happening and concentrate upon the present... and always keep your cool, appreciating the circumstances you've been handed... i just wish God would make that more and more like my nature, where i can keep cool in the face of adversity

*sigh*... sometimes i really DO wish i could undo all my wrongs... there's just too many... and ykno how everything from the past influences the present? yeap... that's why i have so much to study for for my incoming chem test which is mon afternoon... made it hard on myself...

anyone from CTCC reads this before that time, plz pray for me... i really need an A... i really believe i do...

what is the meaning of Job 6? perhaps Job wants an answer from God... perhaps he shuns his friends because they don't offer him consolation but instead throw accusations at him... perhaps Job wants to know whether or not he's done wrong... i dunno, it get a bit confusing around...

sometimes white girls can be so... weird... i'm not saying ALL white girls are like that, but there's been 2 incidences this weekend where white girls were acting stupid... 2 girls are waiting at a stoplight, and right when it turns into "walk" i cross... they're still talking... when they stop and start to walk it's already turned into a red light... haha... suckers... the other incident is when one girl forgets to lock her restroom portapotty door...

skip church to study chem... and i am still not done... WHY?

i find myself...
lost and unfound
on the ground
trying to explain what it means to be unfree
i never understand what it means to give it up
never knowing the pleasure
of fully depending solely on you
for love, joy and peace

why...
why do i torture myself this way depriving myself of sleep due to material possessions... depriving it over playing my guitar to you, that's ok IMO... but to do it to CS... i'm hating myself...

and ykno what's even sadder is that i'll act like i never learned a single lesson 1-2 weeks later... how shameful of myself...

oh damn; lydia's aim sn is 100% right now... i don't talk to her, but i've never seen anyone like that... you either gotta piss someone off like crazy, or just have pranksters everywhere you go... wonder what happens when you reach 100%; you can't talk to anyone?

just started fooling around w/scripts for CS, aka HOTKEYS... dunno if this is a good thing about 6 hrs before a match... nevertheless, it's still easier, though it'll take a while for me to get used to

twolves lose to lakers...

warriors lose to mavericks...

wizards lose to pistons...

WHAT UTTER BULL...

(the plus side being sixers win over blazers and kings top whoever they played, but i'd rather root for warriors over kings any day of the week)

still shirtless as i'm typing this...

man, i think i'm not going to be able to give my songs serious thoughts until my chem exam's over... and even then i may be shaken up by the difficulty of it so badly that i won't be able to concentrate... just gotta follow the motto that the past won't affect you anymore, and the future's not there yet, so just concentrate on the present...

time spent in UCD w/o going home: 4 weeks(wow...)

UCD spring= cupertino summer... i am currently shirtless in my dorm as i'm typing this, because it feels that hot...

studying... that's all i'm SUPPOSED to do...

worship... that's what i'd LIKE to do...

gaming... that's what i wish i didn't do as much of...

ogl match @6 sat... must get studying done before then...

video game fun:

Mighty Final Fight for the Nes is just too fun... it's better than the original Final fight, and is funny too

CSing w/jon, tim, sam, louis and jerm's fun too... too many memories... like

tim: TIMEOUT!
louis: What, poo?

or my headshot right through tim's head to hit jon in the head i think

or the suicide nading of tim, or attempt to... like getting in his face and yelling "c'mon tim, shoot me! shoot me! shoot me! tim? c'mon!" :)

or the fact that dead ppl in CS look so retarded... like when norm lies down and is spaced out :)

"i'm gonna swing my knife like this... and if you get in the way, it's your OWWWWN fault... ah! ah! ah! ah! ah!"

but yeah... too many memories

great... missed another lecture... I AM SO FRIGGIN LAZY AND CAN'T CONTROL MY TIME... ON TOP OF THAT, I LACK THE SELF-CONTROL TO GO TO SLEEP EARLY EVERY DAY... WTH IS W/THAT?

...perhaps God helps you in everything you do, but you need to take that 1st step... maybe that's why i fail so much... i never take the initiative...

yesterday's dinner was good... central america theme... i especially liked the soup w/beef in it and the desert... pina colada flambe... seems any desert they make w/alcohol in it tastes good :)
(don't worry, i'm not drinking alcohol anytime soon)

my stomach's growling, but i'm feeling fine, it just gets annoying when you have to hear it go on and on... strange, maybe God's strengthened my ability to depend upon him and not material possessions? i'm serious, i don't feel any stomach pains... well, i still gotta go eat though, like right now...

well, i'm wondering why my small group leader didn't call me to pick me up for bible study... eh... maybe jon's dorm phone doesn't work? maybe he already thought i knew where to go? or that he thought i knew that we don't have bible study today? whatever, it's the 2nd to last day of winter break, no probs, just start next quarter, besides i do some bible studying on my own, so it's all good

NOW they tell us that the chem teacher i've been having for the past 2 quarters(who is REALLY good) is available for signup... great... just jacked over my entire schedule if i want to reorganize everything... eh... maybe i'll just study harder...

ok, have fun, maybe think about songs, shower, go to sleep... study like crazy tomorrow

Linkin Park- Somewhere I Belong... granted, i like it cause LP made it, but it doesn't sound like them compared to Hybrid Theory... softer, less turntabling... if the majority of their new songs on their new album sound the same way, i'm taking a pass and going for 12 Stones & Sanctus Real...

lesse... the new album hits stores 2 weeks later... (wow, so soon!)... hmmm...

The Call Revolution...

don't think anybody's doing the 40 day fasting and praying thing seriously? take a look... huge event @candlestick park... for free... April 5th, 7AM to 7PM, limited space though, you gotta register fast, er, quickly... btw, you might wanna click on the "revival" link on the page... wow... whadda parallel to Acts...

huge essay to write up... i wanna get it done by early wed... i really wanna attend bible study on wed w/my new small group in UCD... 9:30 PM tomorrow... THAT'S why(not to mention i got chem to study for... test's on mon)

happy bday laura(is it a good thing to have your bday the same name as an alterative rock group? dunno)...

chapter of reflection for today: Ezekiel 18

i'll look @ it later, but basically, it hammers home these points:
-you are responsible for your own sins... just because a father sins doesn't mean a son will be punished along with his father, and just because a father does right doesn't mean a sinful son will live
-likwise, God will forget all your sins if you are sinful, but come back to him

so, God was reaching towards his people and using this concept of forgiveness even before Jesus came to earth

btw you CTCC ppl... wanna wonder where our ol' skool ghetto CTCC church buildings went? haha... here in Davis! i asked jon if Davis Korean Church reminded him of our church before it was remodeled and he agreed.

finally i find out about the meaning of Lent aka Ash Wednesday, the day which Jesus supposedly rode into Jerusalem where he would later die...

Read about Lent here

so it's not necessarily a period of fasting... although you can make it that way if you want...

my "fasting"(skipping 1 meal for each day isn't much of a fast) admittedly right now has nothing to do with coming to Christ... it has more to do w/bringing down my meal numbers under control... however, i use the hunger pangs that i get for missing breakfast to suck it up and remind myself who provides what for me... and it's really nothing... i've trained myself... or should i say, God's trained me

happy bday sam...

sam: it all depends on how im feeling
sam: sometimes i can go 2:1(in CS)...othertimes its just a bit over 1:1
me: i usually never get over a 50% eff
me: i might at the very 1st 1-2 rounds, but never from there
sam: haha cuz of your damn deagle

haha... tru dat

"school's hard" ppl say... i say, YOU make it hard on yourself... it's your fault, and nobody else's... the second you admit that and realize what you need to beat that... it becomes easy...

and again i set a perfect example of this: because of my laziness, it's 2:27 AM and i'm still working on my chem lab... i could go to sleep and work on it tomorrow(which isn't that bad of an idea, since i'll still have about 4 hrs left before the due date to complete it and finish a prelab, and i'll need to ask my TA some questions, cause i'm just stumped on how to finish one of the problems), but it's kinda a dilemma...

and jon's a good example too... how the heck do you study while playing generals or watch media files at the same time? anybody? anybody?

...

God have mercy on a dickhead... see, if i had just LISTENED to myself and did work on my chem lab, i must've been able to go to sleep early today and STILL have finished all the chem lab stuff... instead, i go to sleep late, my chem lab's not done, neither is my prelab...

ouch, it's a bad day to be a bball fan that likes the same teams as me...

sixers lose to lakers...

wizards lose to knicks(although good effort by mj to try to keep the wizards in the game)...

warriors lose to bucks... and lately they lost to pistons(they're now on a losing streak... :-( )

at least magic beat the nuggets...

Shaun Groves- Should I Tell Them... right now, i really like the melody of this song...

my # of meals... are actually UNDER what they should be... expect me to either do ludicrous things like skipping breakfast or doing "taco-bell runs" or "jack-in-the-box runs" this and next week to keep it in check...

i wonder if they really count how many entries, or visits to a site there are for each blog... now i've got 2 ads stuck on my site, instead of just one... would they actually add a 3rd one?

(to be honest it's not a big deal, but imagine having enough banner ads that you have to scroll down one whole page to reach the stuff i wrote)

shapelle's show is just too funny:

wu tang financial(this was a commercial for a stock market-ish company like charles schwab run by method man and red man, the two guys from the wu tang clan group):
(so they are talking to a white couple, this is what one of the black guys says)
-you need to diversify your options, n*****...

hahahahah... me and jon were cracking up...

daaaaaaammmnnn... when i actually tried GOING to the follow-up fellowship after MSM on friday(they have a fellowship together, then split up by classes ie frosh, soph, etc, and go their own ways to bond, play games and eat food), i met so many people... i think i was introduced to practically every single person that is a freshman and then some @MSM... people there are EXTREMELY friendly... i think i'm here to stay... even got hooked up w/a bible study group right on the spot... even met a couple of korean girls who actually talked to me(prob gonna forget everyone's names, heh heh)... it was a blast

there's this one game that MSM tried that we CTCC youth group ppl HAVE to try... get everyone in a circle, and everyone get something that belongs to them... then everyone takes that object and passes it to the person on their left, and keep doing this, ie passing the objects around the circle AS FAST AS YOU CAN... if you drop the object, you're out and go to the center of the circle... it's kinda funny and fun, cause i remember one korean girl throwing the objects over everyone to get to the other side(and possibly damaging stuff), and when people scrutinized her she was like "i'm too short!" haha

the other game we played was "lightning"... get all the guys in one line, hands behind back, holding hands(hand to hand), forming 1 line(girls do the same forming 2 parallel lines)... now on one side have a person not on either team get a coin, on the other side have a cup filled w/water equidistant from both end ppl... now everyone other than the people on the end can look @the coin(everyone else must look away towards the people nearest the cup)... what the guy w/the coin does is toss the coin up... if it comes down heads, you start a chain reaction of hand-squeezing down the line(ie when you get squeezed on the right hand squeeze the next person's hand on the left), and when the last person gets it he/she needs to cover the cup's opening... then he/she gets to dump the cup of water on the other :) the winning team then rotates(the "cup" person now becomes the "coin-reader" person, and the whole line shifts towards the "cup" person again)... and repeat :)
(i didn't really care that although this was my 1st time here that i got soaked, i really didn't... haha even the guys were like encouraging me :) i also looked very spastic, when i was the "cup" person... just the look of me concentrating on the "cup" made everyone look @me... i think when i was supposed to soak the girl i just beat i came across as very nice... i didn't soak her in the face at all, and made sure she was ready before i did... she even thanked me later for doing that... haha... now every girl there prob thinks i am a nice guy... or just a pussy :D)

biblical lesson: share your talents, your gifts, your riches w/others... do what you can in the church/fellowship if you have talents, give a bit more... when i was listening(and desperately trying not to fall asleep due to my lack of sleep yesterday) i pictured when i was still in 9th grade in sunday school and charles gave a picture of a cup that has no holes and filled up to the top... yet, the cup with has a hole in it will always be filled, because it keeps giving and still has room for more

haha... there's this funny student's prayer laid out on today's bulletin; i'll explain later, cause it'd take too much space...

i guess you could say tonight i pulled a laura :)
me: hey
laura: yo
me: i pulled a "you" :-)
laura: eh?
laura: what di dyou do?
me: THAT'S how many ppl i met @ my christian fellowship today :-)
laura: heheh
laura: oooh
laura: yaY
laura: how many?
me: well, i think almost the entire freshman pop there :-)
me: and then some :-)
laura: oOh
laura: niiice
laura: that's awesome
laura: heheh
me: yeah
laura: hehe

alright, it's too dark... i should be asleep

ever heard of Pascal's Wager? it's an interesting argument as to whether you should believe in God or not... basically, it's this: if I believe in God, and you don't, we both die, and there is no God, we both don't win. but if there is a God, and we both die, you lose everything, and i gain everything. so when in doubt, just believe in God :)
(it's actually pretty reasonable the more i think about it... what's an atheist got an advantage over me on? this life? please, this life's too short, and i already try to live my life to the fullest. are you going to mock me in the afterlife and tell me "hahaha, there's no God"?)

then there the other thought... ever thought of how to drink milk and soda, like in which order? it's a lot like the opposite of the rule of combining acid w/water; you always add acid TO water, but you always drink soda first, then milk. reason's simple... soda messes up your teeth, so the milk'll restore it... you do it the other way, and you just effed up your teeth.

done for today... one of the newer things i've done is linked my away message on AIM of "playing CS" to a web site address pinpointing exactly which server i'm playing at; should make it easier to join and play against me...

SFA3: Intro music and the Ryu BG music's the shiznit...

haha... jon was considering whether to use Megaman BG music for a CS video :) i suggested Chun-Li BG music :)

well, after my 2nd pass time i guess my spring schedule @UCD isn't gonna be TOO bad... only 2 downsides is that supposedly my chem teacher that i chose is not very likable along the campus(i couldn't choose any other; all the other slots were taken, only upside being it's early, so i can get stuff done easier), and my math occurs @5:10-6:00P(the upside is that he's an excellant math teacher; i've had him before)...

it's interesting how the only 4 credit classes that fit into just 2 lecture days always come from the Philosophy department :) heck, if this keeps up, i might end up taking so many philosophy classes that i end up minoring(or possibly majoring?) in some philosophy branch :)

aw, what bull, bulls snap the 6 win streak of the warriors today... oh well, nt guys... but keep it up! i know you guys can make it to the playoffs!

long time since i've talked to Steve, the now-senior of MVHS... water walkers(my hs christian club) is into evangalism right now... i'd comment more, but i don't wanna expose too much... i just am kinda happy know he at least got into UCI and Cal Poly, as well as starting the guitar...

Bebo Norman & Jeremy Camp are playing somewhere near Davis i think; take a look at the church they're playing at Mar 13, too bad i can't get there, since it's not walking distance:

Sun River Church

Warriors and Bulls tonight... alright guys, don't let us norcal ppl down! you've come this far, now don't let up! (8:30 ET) you win this one, you'll come 1 step closer to playoffs!

k, just implemented a comments software or something like that @the bottom of each blog now... you can now comment on my stuff w/o having to wait for me to appear on AIM...

so winded right now, i just finished an 8-page rough essay... i bet the last 2 pages read like crap, cause that's when i started getting tired @2:00 in the morn, but i'll just revise when i get back from my 7:30 chem class... i bet you're wondering how i manage like that... i can't... God does... but i know i can do better... just that i don't have self-control between work and play as much as i would like...

i am the only one to blame for all my troubles and faults... the reason being i give in to temptation... God please help me to never make a mistake like this ever again... give me the heart and desire to learn... please...

...final thought of tonight... if awestruck was an official emotion, i'd rather be awestruck than happy... awestruck gives me joy... and joy lasts way longer than happiness...

go Magic, Wizards, and Warriors!

T-Mac scored 48 today...

enough said, i still have 3.5 pages left to type...

possible ideas for another CS spraypaint:

NAN DOK
Baited.com
RT killed you here
"Ten" (the kanji that appears in SF after you Shun Goku Satsu some opponent)

everyone else i know of has pretty much taken their links to their blogspot or xanga sites off of their AIM profile... except for me, oh well, there's always the links on the left...

i am not a very external person; i don't show my emotions that easily... and i hope i don't get as excited by stuff unlike my mom

warriors just won their 6th game in a row... YYYEEEAAAAHHH!!! they are 30-30 right now, and if they score another 2 wins, they'll be possibly tied w/the Suns for the playoffs... ooooooOOOOoOoOOOOO! go WARRIORS! don't let us norcal ppl down!

sonics are pretty hot too due to ray allen right now... i'm surprised how well they are doing, i seriously thought they'd do a lot worse... esp with the loss of mason...

in case you're wondering, Enimem didn't write Sleep for the Moment; i think the original song was by AC/DC, one of the better old school rock bands; however, the unoriginal bastard decides to just rip off the chorus from them for his own blingbling... way to be original... i could tell that song that he ripped off from them like daylight and night... unless if they let him, but it still makes him seem unoriginal... go create your own guitar riff samples and melodies, bastard...

whadda crummy day for me today(don't worry, i'll bounce back, just like i always do), but here's the skinny:

1)the average score for the chem test i took was a 71, st dev is 12.4, in other words, i would've needed more than 95.8 to get an A. 95.8!?!?! are you kidding? outta 100?!?! (granted, i didn't get in the 90-95.8 range, but i still got a B)... if i study hard and study everything, what am i still doing wrong? perhaps i need to start studying EVERY weekend? probably. but oh... so... hard... to... motivate... myself... where's the motivation when i need it God?
2)found out i had a final draft due today instead of thursday. luckily, i had already finished the final draft, but i didn't print it, and i found out halfway through the class. thus, i had to leave, sprint back, print it out, sprint back to class and hand it in... in 30 min... i am sensing a b for this grade, unless if i actually revised correctly enough beforehand... moral: from now on, i CAREFULLY note the due dates of every paper and test i've gotten... no way am i repeating this all over again...
3)i will have to get a jump on a rough 5-7 paper due this thurs
4)pass 2 registration for classes coming up this friday... have to think about my 4th class...

oh yeah, i'm gonna have to look up the significance of lent; i saw on laura's profile something about her abstaining from a buncha junk food...

can you help me break into song God? i feel in the dumps right now... i would like to show you in my own way how i worship you, but often it doesn't click for me...

it feels like i'm getting 2 midterms per week this quarter, or at the very least, 1 midterm + a couple papers to hand in... but that's 16 credits for you... better 2/week, than 4 for 1 week then nothing...

songwriting's hard... i need a lot of contemplation time to think... which i don't get... boourns...

ok, here was the message i got on sunday, it's a bit difficult, so pay attention, even now i'm still not too sure what it meant(perhaps emailing the pastor would be a good idea):

Daniel 9:24-27

"Seventy 'sevens' are decreed for your people and your holy city to finish transgression, to put an end to sin, to atone for wickedness, to bring in everlasting righteousness, to seal up vision and prophecy and to anoint the most holy.
"Know and understand this: From the issuing of the decree to restore and rebuild Jerusalem until the Anointed One, the ruler, comes, there will be seven 'sevens,' and sixty-two 'sevens.' It will be rebuilt with streets and a trench, but in times of trouble.
After the sixty-two 'sevens,' the Anointed One will be cut off and will have nothing. The people of the ruler who will come will destroy the city and the sanctuary. The end will come like a flood: War will continue until the end, and desolations have been decreed.
He will confirm a covenant with many for one 'seven.' In the middle of the 'seven' he will put an end to sacrifice and offering. And on a wing of the temple he will set up an abomination that causes desolation, until the end that is decreed is poured out on him."

ok, so it's pretty confusing, and now i regret not bringing a pen so i could take notes, but here's what i could remember and decipher:

the 7 7s and 62 7s(or 434-49 years of duration, starting @49 years, ending @434 years afterward) refers to the time that passes before Israel rebuilds their walls... think of Nehemiah(the pastor started using puns, going "yeah, see we see that we're talking about the shortest person in the bible, knee-high-miah *ok, it wasn't that funny, but i chuckled a bit*) who was sent back to Jerusalem to rebuild the walls... this will happen on the 49th year, and continue until the 434th year, when Jesus comes... i am guessing the 62 7s hints more @Jesus' death than his arrival, since the bible says he will be cut off after the 62 7s
the 70 7s(or 490 years) refers to the time that people need to repent before justice comes(this prob doesn't hint @the end of the world, since it comes 490-434, or 56 yrs after Jesus' arrival), but it prob hints at when the Romans tear everything down

from there, we don't get more specificity about the end of the world, except that "the end will come like a flood: war will continue until the end(perhaps this hints back to conflict until the US pulls away from Israel, then the whole thing i wrote down before happens? not too sure)"

the last verse i don't get, here's where it gets shady; does this refer to Jesus? the middle of one seven could be 3(3.5 rounded down is 3), which would make sense since Jesus put an end to sacrifice and offering in 3 days... but the decree about him setting up abomination until the end decreed for him is poured out upon him...
it could refer to Nero, cause it could be a ruler who comes afterward in times of trouble; putting an end to sacrifice and offering in 3 or 4 days would make sense(ala persecution), and that he'd be put to death... but again, not too sure, and i am currently too lazy to look up historical evidence to make sense of it...
it could refer to the Greek ruler who tried to make Israel as Greek as possible(this was the worst antiSematic person to the Jews before Hitler), but that occured before the 70 7s i think...
finally, it could refer to the future antichrist...

some of the Reebok quotes of the week:

SHAQUILLE O'NEAL, C, L.A. LAKERS:
"I think he should just suck it up and show up. I think he should coach through the pain."
--O'Neal, joking about Phil Jackson missing a game to recover from having a kidney stone removed (Los Angeles Times, Feb. 25, 2003)

yeah... only you could do that... cause you're Shaq...

JAMAL MASHBURN, F, NEW ORLEANS HORNETS:
"You don't want to fight Tyson in the first round. You want -- what was the other guy's name?"
--Mashburn, on the importance of having homecourt advantage -- or the equivalent of Clifford Etienne -- in the first round of the playoffs (The Times-Picayune, Feb. 27)

haha... now that just cracks me up... trying to sound smart... when you can't back it up

MARK JACKSON, G, UTAH JAZZ:
"New Yorkers didn't fully appreciate him ... Had Patrick (Ewing) played in Salt Lake City, politicians would've thrown him a parade and named a street after him."
--Jackson, on Knicks great Patrick Ewing being underappreciated by his hometown fans (New York Post, Feb. 28)

tru dat... you stupid byron NY ppl...

thank God...

my mom almost got killed by lightning... during a lightning storm the phone she was holding turned red(y'kno the speaker and earpiece holes? both lighted up red)... immediately put the phone down... after picking it up later, it was dead... so was the 2 phones we had; one upstairs, the other downstairs...

and i've heard stories of people getting killed during lightning storms while talking on the phone or the like w/electrical equipment...

thank God... that he decided to prolong my mom's life a bit longer... i dunno what i would've done if i lost my mom at such an early age... i've already known what it's like to live w/1 parent... maybe God did intend to prolong my mom's life, but just did this to teach me a lesson about being grateful for what i've got...

that would explain why i couldn't call home @saturday...

whoever is reading this blurb of mine, please heed this advice: DO NOT USE ELECTRICAL EQUIPMENT DURING A THUNDER STORM!!! do it for your life, if for anything else! sometimes we take technology so much for granted that we think we're all powerful, and it takes this to remind us how we're not

i dunno, now i don't feel like doing work tonight... too much is racing through my head...

March 2nd, 1944...

happy birthday dad...

if you can see this from where you are, i'd just like to say, i'm so sorry for everything i did to hurt you... you didn't deserve it... you gave me everything you could possibly give out of love, and yet i still took you for granted... you were an excellant model for how a christian should live his life... i wish i could turn back time, because now there's nothing to remember you by, there's no tear that i shed for you because i was so self-centered that i never saw you for who you were until it was too late. forgive me dad.


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i get rocked so easily by those pod-bots...

yeah, i guess i have to learn a bit about house-keeping before next school year... cleaning, washing dishes, cooking... say what?

DKC played "enough" by chris tomlin for one of their worship songs today... good...

Baskin Robbins is on E street... for my own info later...

i was surprised to get to DKC in time for their 2:00 service... i left campus @1:35 i think, and i had about 2.6 miles to cover before i hit it... my fastest mile time in the good ol times was 6:30(i think that's right, this was when i was still swimming, and had to run in class every other day)... surprised to get there @1:55 according to the clock inside... whoa... i mustve looked hecka red and sweaty walking inside... i think maybe next time i take off EARLIER? so i don't look like a nervous wreck? or smell like something outta manure pile?

oh tight, we're pretty much all having the same spring break... too bad mike isn't, i feel bad about that... nevertheless, it's still mostly good... laura, lydia, norm, tim, sam, wes, it's pretty good there... should be fun, maybe songwrite/cook together? haha...

Golden State's just 3-4 wins away from the playoffs... keep it up guys! i'm really impressed!

today marks the very 1st day i did my own laundry... that's pretty pathetic, but it's also the 1st time i've stayed in UCD for more than 2 weeks of a stretch... getting a picture now?

just dl'd pod-bots for CS, which should give me more practice, i think.

yay, Wes got into UCI! at the very least it's HELLO, TIM! :)

(roughly remembered conversation)
me: well cmon, everyone gets into that school(UCSC)
wes: hey man, don't discourage me
me: well ok
me: CONGRATUATIONS! YOU GOT INTO UCSC? WOW! I'M IMPRESSED!
wes: ...
me: better?
wes: nevermind...

back from MSM, for the 2nd time, and it is all good man... i didn't stay for the followup frosh fellowship afterward, but all they have planned for that is pretty much eat and talk... hmph... maybe next time, i don't feel in the mood for eating

i hear Engrish.com has a photo of a Taiwanese bookstore advertising Sports and Hobbits... eh...

joke i heard @MSM(i'll try to explain it as best as i remember, but obviously i don't remember it word for word):

so adam was walking in the garden of eden with god, and god saw that he was down, so god asked him,
"adam, what's wrong?"
"oh nothing, it's just so down when there's no one to be with me"
"oh, then i can create you a woman. she'll be the perfect person... she'll always admit she's wrong first, clean your place for you, cook for you, listen to you, (etc, etc)"
"great, so what's it gonna cost me?"
"an arm and a leg"
"eh, i don't wanna give up that much... how much's a rib gonna get me?"

i guess MSM's not totally korean... the guy there asked me a question in taiwanese after i told him my roots...

UCD... 2nd week streak here and not home... this will be good... i just have to hope my laundry amongst all things turns out ok better than other things! :)

remember what i said and heard once before: if you think Christianity is all about the afterlife and going the heaven, you have the wrong mentality. the whole thing about Christianity is enjoying life to the fullest... NOW. the whole reason, and definition of hell is the total separation of God from man... and ever since that fall of man, God's constantly been looking for a way to rebridge that gap... when you become a Christian, your paradise starts NOW... because from that point on you are one of God's own, and so he's never far from you... it's like heaven in the real world, essentially. stop thinking Christianity is all about going to heaven; IT'S ABOUT NOW... it is now or never

there's a lotta things i need to look for in a good fellowship and church, but it's so hard to compare, and often i have my own criteria... often they seem similar... i guess the only way is to actually stick around and see if they actually are worth something... hard to compare when you've only stuck around 1 day...

i have to fix my sleeping habits... again...

heh heh... bushtit... that word still cracks me up...

btw that AACF thing that was going on yesterday wasn't too bad, in fact, pretty good. it was obviously less geared towards Christians, but more towards drawing in other ppl. so it's a given that it's not as exciting there on fridays... i think for me UCD fellowships might come down to either MSM, AACF, or ABSK, i'm leaning more towards MSM, cause it seems that i might get something better there, but ABSK's pretty good too. i think i just need accountability...

such an awesome day... such beauty in God's natural design in nature that i am awestruck

i love what God has created... one of those things has definitely gotta be birds...

random fact... y'kno what those small, brown birds that sorta hop along the ground are called? bushtits... i'm not kidding... at first i was kinda laughing at that when i saw a t-shirt being sold by some environmentalist group on UCD groups, a t-shirt(this was a women's small tee that i was looking at) that said bushtit in large letters right across the breast area, so i thought it was a joke, like some porn thing... but i read the captions next to it, and yeah, that's what those small, cute, adorable birds are called... not gonna forget that name anytime soon :)

oh yeah, and i saw some medium-small blue bird(blue jay? i'm not sure)... wallowing in mud, then occasionally poking its head under... it looked cute doing that...

i am tired of reality TV, i wish the networks would stop it... reality TV is anything but real, or entertaining now...

my thoughts on Psalm 34:8... basically, i think the 1st part of the verse is the one that is most interesting... basically, David(i think he wrote this psalm) is asking the reader to put God to the test(not like the way Deuteronomy prohibits you to, but to look around, test the waters, search for evidence of him), and you'll see that he still stands... a perfect example would be what Lee Strobel did, or what Louis Lapsides, a born Jew, what these people, did. do your hw... it's there...

part of the journey of success includes admitting you can't do it alone, and admitting you're only human... trust me on this...

i'm feeling lauraish today... usually, i'm just content, but today i'm happy, happy, happy!

http://www.ogl.org

Psalm 34:8- Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

as Jason Mah put it before, "attitude check... when i say God is good you say all the time..."

yeap... God is good... all the time...

and i just had evidence of that proof... i've never taken an easier chem test in my life...

man, i love the deagle when playing CS...

@dust2 today... came down to me and all these other ppl after all my teammates died... i only had the deagle... i managed to kill i think maybe 4 ppl before dying... i started shrieking into the mic at around the 3rd kill cause i knew i was gonna die... but it was crazy how i managed to kill so many... it was like that round in the deagle5 map for me all over again... that is why i love it... so much power for such a cheap price... sometimes i go through entire games almost just relying on full armor, then getting a fully-loaded deagle, and relying on whatever i can pick up...

haha... this was what i just saw on joe's AIM profile stuff while he was away...

"i WILL win Emily in a game of Literati...eventually :-P"

what, joe, you're not getting beat by louis' smart strategy of tagging "S" on everything you write now? :)

the idea of genetic determinism... it's scary, that some ppl believe in it... for instance now in POB class we're currently watching the movie GATTACA, where in the supposedly near future they essentially use your DNA to determine everything... it's a form of discrimination all its own, and we see in the movie the main character is denied a high class job(astronomy-related stuff) on the basis of him having health problems based upon his DNA from blood samples... despite the fact that he knows that he has the talent to do it... i'll explain later, i'm trying to do some relaxing, cause tomorrow i've got a lot to do...

congrats Luwen(former youth couselor)... you've just given birth to a healthy baby boy... Lucas is a pretty good name, i think it'll stick...

haha... i was talking to bob and wondering if i had a kid if i was feeling sadistic i could name him lao, or ban for kicks :)

NBA team standings

oh man, so close... Warriors are just 4 wins from being 8th place in the West Division... SO CLOSE... they're ranked #9 right now... LAL's ranked #7... bull...

oh yeah, Washington's #9... oh man, so close there too MJ... guess he's not going out with a bang eh? well, at least that clutch shot was still tight as heck during the NBA all-star game...

congrats to Bob, for winning the drink test i put up! Bob just won a free drink that is $2.00 or less in value... well, i guess at least he consistently reads my blurbs... although it's kinda nice to hear Louis once read some stuff i put up... ie Little Fighters 2... that is a cool game, it's getting more fun the more i play it

i just realized that boss consistently advertises their eFx pedals at the top of my blurb-site... that ad up there never changes... it's always the same ad up there... haha... maybe they read my blogs, saw what i liked, and decided hey, why not? it's all good... better than something related to "the gay guys from nsync" as stewie griffin on family guy once put it :)

i should fool around with my guitar more... it's annoying me how i don't get enough playing time with it, putting other, more temporary things for entertainment in front of it... after i finish my chem midterm, i'm breaking it out... some calluses on my left fingers need to be built up again... and i need to get my creative juices flowing again...

i dunno if i should be happy... i got my meals left on my id card down to right on schedule... there used to be too many...

for those of you who think 3+ hrs in a chem lab is killer, here's an optimistic thought... hey, you can't go anywhere... but neither can any of the other ppl! it's safe for me to say 1-2 ppl whom i've met and still talk w/in UCD occassionally were the guys/gals i met in chem :)

more stuff to think about concerning LF2, guitar-playing, chem... goes on and on...

man, it's harder keeping a good schedule @the library for studies... i don't have a functioning watch right now... battery's dead... screw that...

(ignore the below; bob already won)
hey, does anybody i know actually read my blogs on a regular basis? i'll do a little test... if you do aim me with a "yeah ReCharredSigh I read your blogs" exactly like that and the 1st to do so, um, i'll buy you um, an under $2.00 drink(ie sobe, what not, includes tax, so no $1.99 drink w/o tax) next time we meet up... this thing's quitting @the end of this week 2/28 @2:00 PM so if i don't get any replies before then you're outta luck... and don't AIM me the above quote mixed up then come back immediately with a cut-and-paste... haha... get it right the first time, or you're outta luck... ok, i wonder if anyone's actually gonna do this...

and don't worry... i'm a man who tries to keep his own word, so even if i forget, i write this down somewhere, so you're drink's safe, but the important thing is to AIM me!

now i'm really wondering if God's helping me along with this go-to-church-while-in-davis routine... i happen to always get fairly little sleep time from sat-sun, and yet i still am able to go to a church... and listen intently... what wonder...

plans for tonight?
-study/hw
-work on FAQ(heh heh)
-play some guitar(which i have not done in a long time)
-bible-reading(just a passage, any passage... gotta start it up all over again)...

what is not immediate has greater worth than what is... this is a lesson you'll learn day by day... i'm learning it myself... and it's hard to get used to... granted, we've all heard something like this before, but we all fall into its trap over and over again...

when playing 2D fighting games, you have to keep in mind the combos don't make the character, their space control options do; being able to control as much space as possible is key. so while a character may be well-rounded, there may be others that control space better than him... i was surprised to learn that most (competent) ppl at SRK.com think Red Venom as MVC1's #1 character, but it's true... his c.fierce controls so much space so quickly and effectively it just zones everything out(except for Gold War Machine, but he has his own problems)

ok, i'm out... everytime i spend too much time typing it ruins my day...

list of fellowships visted so far in UCD(1 time each, except for AACF and ABSK, 2x each):
AACF
MSM
ABSK
Real Life
College Life

list of churches visited so far in UCD:
Davis Chinese Christian Church
Davis Covenant Church
Davis Korean Church(1st time! haha... this was the 1st time i visited a korean church!)

i dunno... should i keep looking? is what i'm looking for the right church and fellowship, or the right person to keep me accountable? or both?

hmm...

DKC's decent... good pastor, good biblical referencing, uh, what else, decent praise band... i mustve looked hecka red cause i had to run there(well, i didn't have to, but i felt like it)... 2.2 miles away from UCD... actually, more like 4, cause i live on the very edge of UCD that is farthest from DKC...
oh yeah, and i didn't bring my NIV bible... so i found it kinda shocking when a guy offered his korean bible to me and asked if i knew korean... i declined... guys, do i look korean in any fashion possible in my face? do i have to paint myself dark chocolate to make you believe i'm not korean?

lesson of today: daniel 6
i think the pastor had 3 points:
1-prayer is used to ask for help
2-God will never send you into a place where he won't be there/help you
3-something about relying on God will give you success
(i really should've brought a pen... i almost forgot what was taught to me that time...)

i don't mean to scrutinize... but jon has some interesting study habits... studies while playing some dvd/movie/anime on his com... even the other dorm guys wonder why he takes so long to complete stuff...

edited my constant thoughts... i realize that almost everyday i have that "God made me a biologist" thought... God made me appreciate so much of what he made, nature-wise, that's it's unbelieveable... if i can't hit 7 ft(which is most likely), and can't play like Eric Weaver(which is also most likely, though i'll never give up my electric guitar playing), or if God doesn't directly steer me away from it, i will always try to find some bio-related field for my profession... sometimes i just stop walking to class, and just stare up at the trees, or look at the nearby blue jays or squirrels... in any case i am amazed...

me: haha... jon just farted
grace: hAHHAha
grace: thANKS for sharing buddy!
grace: dOORKNOB
grace: smack him for me
me: no prob; what are friends for?
grace: hahahah of cousre..
me: naw, no need to... it doesn't smell
me: well, it least i can't smell it yet
grace: ....
grace: yuckkkkk
grace: ahhahaha
me: when it does i'll peg him for ya
grace: ahhaha alrite
grace: tell him is aid hey
grace: wait is the boy online
grace: no he is away
me: he's csing :-)
grace: ahhaha ah is ee i see
me: the last time mandy asked me what jon was doing and i told her that he was csing she was like "aiya" :-)
grace: ahahhah
grace: yeepp..
grace: biascally. ahhah
me: then say it :-)
grace: aiyahhh
grace: thhat boy. cs again?!
grace: ahha how's that
me: haha
me: good

grace: hahahah
grace: eat it
grace: gooood for u
grace: i lve fuirt
me: i already ate one tonight
me: 1 orange...
me: so there used to be 2 oranges behind that laptop of mine
grace: accroding to my philosophyu
grace: one needs at least 5 servings of fruit a day
me: drink milk
me: milk's good for you
me: 3 cups of milk a day is good
grace: ehhhh yeahhhhh not at night
me: ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT :-)
me: that's MY philosophy
grace: hAah what!
grace: why
me: haha... i'm just mocking you... stay short if you feel like it :-)
grace: thats what u did?
grace: u darnk 3 cups of milk?
grace: i did that for 2 months
grace: it didnt do anything!
me: you gotta do it longer, idiot :-)
grace: WELL
me: what is this, the miracle diet?
grace: there waw ss othing to inspier me
grace: nothing
grace: the reason my typing is so bad right now
me: what about me?
me: haha
grace: is cuz i hafta type OVER my bowl of peaches
me: milk complements everything
me: just trust me on this
grace: ok
grace: isnt it too late
me: *turns back clock*
grace: SO IT IS?!
me: there, now it's not too late
grace: wait so
grace: it IS?
me: well, at least you can still keep your bones from breaking :-)
grace: .. so it is.
grace: shucks

MSM's not bad... good worship session, good pastor, good message... is their church worship like this? btw, i dunno how many of those guys are koreans, and not twinks, or even chinks?

oh man... i really felt that the message i got from MSM today was really God speaking to me... or at least the echoing of what george said;

you can't go at your christian life solo... you NEED accountability...

the pastor pointed to eclessiastes, proverbs(27:12, foo!), and showed us how in order for you to thrive and grow you need to have someone back you up... he said something like "your weakness and my strength, plus your strength and my strength, makes a healthy church"

even had a little skit near the beginning w/dr. evil, superman, batman, and robin to prove his point; dr.evil(and mini me) wanted to take over the world, so they planned to cover the superhero's eyes with sunglasses that would keep them from seeing sin... it worked for superman, but for batman, robin kept him accountable(eh? eh?) and so was able to keep him from falling into a trap... haha... they even had a "batsignal" projected over the overheard for effect :)

looking around on luigi's site i got this link to somehow popup:

http://remix.overclocked.org...

it's where he got his remixes on his site...

haha... it's interesting... but i didn't exactly find what i was looking for... i'm not a big fan of techno, i feel it's very soft... so i ended up only keeping the MSHvSF song... i like that one... the rest that i was looking for were wimped out or non-existant...

i really wanted SFA3 Ryu BG music in its original form... this is one of my fav video game songs...(besides VF4Evo Akira's theme music)
also, had no DD3 music(?), and no GG Shinobi music...

currently in work of a Little Fighters 2 combo FAQ... surprised at the number of combos in the game... although it's rare to come across a good juggle combo... louis might like that(no pun intended) :) ok that's it... i gotta go, eat and get ready for fellowship...

plans for:
-new website
-new song
-new FAQ

lotta work to do tomorrow... or later tonight...

i pulled a laura today... actually did social eating during dinner... with my lab partner's friend and her group of friends. sf theme style eating... interesting, eh?

-can you come over and spot me with these weights?
-i spotted you across the room even before you did!
eeerrrr....

nevertheless, i really believe food's food, unless if you're eating in your hometown... then it's soul food *grins*

me: so howd it go?
grace: I PASSED
me: NNIIICCCE!
grace: :-D i knowww
grace: AND THEN
grace: i got my cell phone stolen.
grace: WHHHAT is that!!!!
grace: so i was liek half :-D:-D:-D:-D:-D and like the other liek ROAWOROAORAWr
me: yeah, cause you used to be a tigerkitty :-)
grace: ahahahsdf

what bull... don't tell me almost all my archives are gone...

will experiment w/dennis next time i play Little Fighter 2...

luigi: haha nice lf2 character analysis
:D

luigi: haha i perfected jeremy
luigi: try this
luigi: after u do spin kick
luigi: wait for 3 hits
luigi: and then combo into auto combo
luigi: then when they are on the ground
luigi: do a homing hadoken
luigi: and then wait in front of them
luigi: the fireball will come from behind
luigi: so they can't block it
luigi: and then just do wutever
me: haha... nice

i'm thinking of moving my website to geocities.com so that it has less popups... no one visits it anyways... and reorganizing it...

it'll prob just have the pics i've designed and songs i've written, tabs and actual dls; most of the philosophy stuff i spew out(regarding electric guitars, christianity, fighting games, fav songs) always end up on this site. maybe i'll keep the CTCC words on it, but prob not...

but i don't have that much time, so this is a plan, not actually carried out yet...

man, laura got to watch and meet david crowder band on tues... that lucky socal girl... i asked her if she asked them to teach her how to play "our love is loud," and she laughed and said no... granted i know how to play it, but if i were there, i would've asked anyhow just for the heck of it :)

this was my aim away message during the late night as i was proofreading 2 essays due later this day:

"my essays are so wooden... (that) they make my boners seem soft... ok, enough of the sick talk, if you have some encouragements or wanna talk, leave a message"

that was kinda funny the more i thought about it... although you might not get what the heck "wooden" refers to...

gluck on your driver's license test grace...

*sigh*... it's gonna be easy thurs... just math hw... i'm glad... i worked my ass off afternoon to night today... what i can't do though is stop pressing hard, if i do i'm dead...

my opinions on top-tiers for normal characters in Little Fighter 2(http://www.lf2.net) so far, they may change if i play more characters, but for now, here's what i think:
Louis
Freeze
Henry
Rudolf
-explanations: louis is both fast and powerful and has good moves; similar to Captain America in the sense that he's slow when powerful, somewhat weak when fast. but he's very good, and versatile. freeze has the best weapon in the game due to its range and stun ability, and it's one of his moves, which means it's always with you, and you can save a lotta meter by just relying on it for up-close combat. his whirlwind can take out a lotta people around him. and of course, if you can merge w/Firen, you get one heck of a character, Firzen... Henry is the range character without using magic... if you complement him(the IF is a big part) with a character who can play good up-close, he can blow a lotta people away... if you are careful about your meter, you can play his sonata, which is his best up-close move, taking out a lotta ppl around him and doing a lot of damage. Rudolf is the cable of the game, in that he makes the best use of meter... if you have the ability to keep stocking up on mana quickly, you should keep doing the double Rudolfs whenever you can... you don't even know how good this tactic is til you try it... sure the clones get killed in 1 blow, but if you have about 6+ of those ninjas upon you it's kinda hard to do that... he's essentially a modified Henry, except you want to do less shooting, and more cloning :) only throw shurikens to get some distance or maybe to help your clones, otherwise try to stay away and clone like crazy... don't forget about transforming though... keep enough meter to do that... transforming into Firzen will really upset your opponents :)

i wonder why God created left-handed people? esp considering the fact that God's right-handed(i think, i dunno). (i kinda already know the answer, but hey, it'd be cool to hear you guys' responses) ...although Ehud was left-handed and chosen by God to deliver his people, so i guess i can't say that's a stereotype the Israelites held up for long.

the southwest bball commercial where the announcer can't pronounce the foreigner's name is so frikkin funny... haha

ahaha... morris did the coolest street ball-ish move on the lakers when they hosted the rockets tonight... rocket's ball to inbound from under the laker's net... so brian shaw turns his back to morris, then morris bounces the ball off of shaw, runs in, gets his own ball, then lays it up... sweet...

-dad, what's a rack?
-(Steve Martin snatches back magazine)... it's a country

this is prob the 1st and only time i've ever eaten sushi for lunch at the Davis Cafeteria... God bless...

so much work to do today and wednesday...

Matt 6:25-34

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

man, why'd they have to close Lion and the Lamb... now where am i gonna go to get 12 Stones and Sanctus Real CDs besides the web? maybe Burean, but i dunno exactly where in SJ they are.

cheer me up God... i feel in the slumps...

Wanda Sykes is hecka funny... she just said, "they should just call Joe Millionaire 'Bitches Who Love Money' "...

ahhh hahahahaha!!!

ever realize just how secular this world is? i never truly realized just how much til i tried shopping for christian music today... i go to circuit city, and i can't find 12 Stones or Sanctus Real at all... what troubles me even more is the magnitude of Circuit City's music section, and yet they don't have either albums. and even the gospel section only gets scant mention... scant mention? after looking around the christian music on the web, i come across 10s of 1000s of music, and you mean to tell me you can only come up with THAT?!?!

(then again i have to smack myself, cause i could've gone to The Lion and The Lamb, which i didn't, i will try that when i go back next time, which i am trying not to do that often now, since the only thing i do when i go back is study)

haha... i can't believe how many video game tunes Louis has on a CD in jon's infiniti! haha... it's all good... some of those tunes are catchy, although i don't like techno music... although i'd love to get the SFA3 Ryu BG music on .mp3, if i can find it...

Heidi on Joe Millionaire is such a b****... 'k, i didn't wanna say it, but you know what i was referring to... so shallow and snottish... ingrateful, just ingrateful...

alright, i'm out...

the journey of a million miles begins with a step...
you can't change what you've begun! that's why it's called a plan!

i dislike it when we college ppl have to register for classes... it's totally not like high-school... you log in and 9/10 of the courses that are mandatory for you to take are occupied... so you end up registering for a math class that occurs @5:10-6:00P on friday... do you realize how much that effs up your chance of an early weekend? granted, i plan on doing longer stretches in UCD over the weekend now, but it'd still be nice to end early on fridays.

bah, i bet only UCD ppl have these types of probs so early... laura's surprised i have to register for classes so early... mandy only needs to register 2x @UCB per school year... bah...

i just realized valentine's day is somewhere around here... it prob passed me... not that it mattered... i've been soloing my life companion-wise for a major part of it right now, and i feel content to be single as of right now... i'm not at the stage where i need to spill all my thoughts to a girl and have her spill hers to me... in exchange for cuddling... it'd be nice, but i would eff my grades over in exchange for it... valantine's day even has less to do w/love than i think it was, a matyred christian? i dunno... america has a way with screwing up everything single holiday we have and ruining it, taking it out of context... since when does easter mean a JCPenney 30 hour sale? and yet...

can someone explain to me what is the significance of presidents' day? what is the historical background behind it, and why do we celebrate it? seems a bit vague to me. do we celebrate it just cause of our US presidents? does it have something to do with our more important US presidents? and if so, why don't we call it "Abe Lincoln's day", or "George Washington's day" on part of that?

a text without a context becomes a pretext for a prooftext... in other words, take every judgment you make into context, or it'll just fire right back at you

to be honest, i have no idea if i am getting better at puzzle fighter, even though i've played it a bit now... i know i'm not doing small attacks as frequently as much, but am i really setting up my attacks better? i need to really learn how to chain attacks together! heard they give so much as a bonus! (have i lost the reader? then again, i prob lost a lot of you @the mention of VF, CS, electric guitars, worship, the like...)

(after playing in CS w/sam and doing my work to win a tough round solo after everyone else died i think, i decided to spray my YLT logo on the ground next to the victim... here's the AIM conversation later)

sam: hey rich
me: hey
sam: you like my knives?
me: haha... yeah
sam: wheredd you get your graffiti thing?
me: i made it
sam: thats hilarious
me: haha
sam: send me man
me: sure thing
sam: when i saw you paint it i laughed out loud
me: haha
(ReCharredSigh) wants to send file C:\Sierra\Counter-Strike\logos\YLT.bmp.
(sam) received C:\Sierra\Counter-Strike\logos\YLT.bmp.
me: i think this is it, just put it in your logos folder
sam: ok cool thanks man
me: sure thing
sam: haha i cant wait to spray this after i get a knife
me: i was originally gonna put YLT on it, but i thought not as many ppl know what that means
sam: haha and its kinda edgy and looks hand written so its funnier
me: haha... it wasn't hard for me to make
me: it's pretty cool
sam: haha yea
me: i usually don't spray it
sam: you should do it after a tough kill or a knife or something
me: i usually use it if i see some guy acting like he's a jackass
sam: when youre the last person alive
me: or if i get a streak goin
me: like once i heard this guy on the opposite team talking trash like "yeah, you like that" and stuff like that and saying stuff like "jackass" to us
sam: haha
me: so when it came to a close round i sprayed it on him after i killed him 1-on-1
sam: hahhaa thats hilarious
me: you might wanna change the color of it, cause i designed it to be like the original logos included with the CS game; it's mono-colored
me: so if it's white you can't really see it
sam: green is good
sam: its funny too
me: yeah
me: haha

played w/sam in cs: down to me vs the rest of the team; got 3 headshots in a row on iceworld with an assault rifle... but died on the 4th person. some guy started going "i think that guy's cheating" :) hecka good feeling.

aw... shoot... i had this good philosophical thought in the morning, and now in the nighttime when i'm intending to write it down here, i forgot. ever hate that? you've got a good train of thought goin, and suddenly "what the hell was i thinking about?" and you can't remember what you were thinking no matter how hard you try.

wait, wait, it's coming back.

often, when we have a fear of something tangible, like for say instance, water, we freeze up when we're near it and try to get away from it as soon as possible. being able to overcome fear is being able to be calm in the face of adversity, in the face of fear, uncertainity, doubt, what not. why do people who can't swim drown? they are afraid of the water and so thrash violently. i remember my early years when i just was afraid of the water in that i thought if i let go of the edge i'd drown. but it's a gradual process(drowning); when i was able to realize that, to be calm, i was able to get somewhere, to let go of the poolside and swim. often ppl drown cause they get so hectic in the water that they start breathing in water. when you learn to be calm, to let go, to stare trouble right in the face with calm, you'll make it out ok. peace is one of the fruits of the Spirit, so yes, it is important to keep a cool and be optimistic about everything you do. and i'm trying to teach myself that day by day, especially in a place where work is hectic. (to be honest this thought is a lot less appealing than when i was thinking about it sitting on the can this morning... a thousand thoughts were racing about my head thinking about it)

i realized some time ago that if the hair between my eyes(there is very tiny fuzz there if you look closely) grew more rapidly, i'd have a unibrow... freaky.

"i think that no matter who you are or what you go through you have good days and you have bad days, and it's not those good or bad days that make you as the person but it's how you go about dealing with those days"
-Paul McCoy, vocalist for 12 Stones, on MTV
put another way, if you're optimistic, you're gonna act optimistic in the face of trouble. if you're patient, you're gonna be patient when work overloads you. if you're calm, you're gonna be that way under pressure.

i can't believe our chem lab equipment was dysfunctional for the 2nd time! so i had to copy someone else's data FOR THE 2ND TIME! makes chem lab so boring... easy yes, but boring. might as well just ask the TA to do the lab for us and give the hard data to us.

(sam joins Ts in the dust map that i'm playing just as this happens)
*runs into double doors, kills i think 1 CT...*
*runs further around the bomb site b and checks, i think maybe i killed another CT?, maybe not*
me(on mic): b's open, b's open...
*runs back, some Ts are filling in to help plant the bomb, then i catch a CT running through the tunnel... gun him down*
-Terrorists Win- (i think i get the best score or most disruptive award, don't remember which one)
me(on mic): WHY ELLLL TTTEEEEEEE!!!
sam: hey richard

another time sam died right in front of me... i pick up his mp5navy, then i just aim and shoot... i get 2 headshots in a row, but get killed by the 3rd CT... still kinda sick... 2 headshots in a row... the only other memorable moment of that was when i was playing T w/sam in italy, then a CT comes up to me trying to knife... i turn around, and immediately headshot him, then say, "don't try to knife me :)" then run over to the bridge and see a CT down there... shoot and luckily get ANOTHER headshot... i got the best score award for that round

my CS abilities are like a roller coaster... they are so random... one moment i can be streaking like crazy, other times, i can just get headshot all over the place. often, i never post over a 50% kill:death ratio consistently, although now my ratio is improving slightly beyond ~33%...

(don't remember the exact CS conversation, but it went something like this while me and sam were playing)

p3nis: your voice comes out funny, doesn't sound like you
ReCharredSigh: haha... nasally?
p3nis: yeah
p3nis: you sound like jonathan
ReCharredSigh: what... gay?
p3nis: ah, too bad he isn't playing with us and seeing this conversation right now

i can't believe everyone is so afraid of the cold! i have this heater going on right now in our dorm cause jon's sick(i'll grant him the exception cause he's sick, but he's still weaksauce of the weather compared to me)... he's wearing a sweatshirt & sweatpants, and i'm wearing... gym shorts. that's it... well, briefs if you wanna be more specific as well, but yeah.

man, Jermaine O'Neal had to screw up MJ's exit to the NBA all-star game... he fouled Kobe at the 3-pt line, which gave him the chance to take 3 free throws... he missed one, and so it went into double OT and the west won. it shouldve been that the east won with MJ hitting the clutch shot to win it, in OT, by 2. doesn't matter though; it's sorta neat knowing that every NBA player gives props to MJ because of his greatness in the NBA. haha... tim's prob happy in irvine knowing that KG won MVP this year :)

T-Mac was on fire on the east side... it's crazy... they should've been giving him the ball whenever... the guy's so good at hitting shots now on the outside mark. and KG... man, that guy's awesome.

in any case, my props to MJ for almost hitting the clutch shot to win the game... neat watching AI bump MJ w/his body after he made that shot :)

praise God...

i finally went to church in UCD again! (thanks to jerm & george for praying for me)

nuff said... truly has to be yet another victory, cause i remember trying to go to sleep yesterday, but for some reason i kept tossing and turning around(does root beer have caffeine? i'm pretty sure it doesn't, so then why?) till get this; about 4. maybe satan really was trying to discourage me from going, and this was more than what i thought it was. i woke up at 8, and GOT OUT OF BED! allelulia! got there right when they started; 9:30. as for comments about UCC, the church i went to, lemme just say, i have never seen a buncha old white folks play with contemporary instruments, but they did, however, they played so slowly. i didn't enjoy the praise session, cause it just wasn't fast enough to get my heart beating. however, the pastor and sermon was good; biblical based and all. what's also great was that i didn't feel sleepy! didn't fall asleep. and that's weird coming from the guy who absolutely can't go in a day without more than 7 hours of sleep without feeling fatigued. what's even stranger is that i don't feel fatigued right now either.

btw, i could swear i saw my former chem lab partner at the same church a few rows in front of me.

i feel that i will have to keep on looking... this is, after all, only the 2nd church that i've visited so far in UCD. praise didn't move me, but the sermon did. next time, i try that korean church :)