man, laura got to watch and meet david crowder band on tues... that lucky socal girl... i asked her if she asked them to teach her how to play "our love is loud," and she laughed and said no... granted i know how to play it, but if i were there, i would've asked anyhow just for the heck of it :)

this was my aim away message during the late night as i was proofreading 2 essays due later this day:

"my essays are so wooden... (that) they make my boners seem soft... ok, enough of the sick talk, if you have some encouragements or wanna talk, leave a message"

that was kinda funny the more i thought about it... although you might not get what the heck "wooden" refers to...

gluck on your driver's license test grace...

*sigh*... it's gonna be easy thurs... just math hw... i'm glad... i worked my ass off afternoon to night today... what i can't do though is stop pressing hard, if i do i'm dead...

my opinions on top-tiers for normal characters in Little Fighter 2(http://www.lf2.net) so far, they may change if i play more characters, but for now, here's what i think:
Louis
Freeze
Henry
Rudolf
-explanations: louis is both fast and powerful and has good moves; similar to Captain America in the sense that he's slow when powerful, somewhat weak when fast. but he's very good, and versatile. freeze has the best weapon in the game due to its range and stun ability, and it's one of his moves, which means it's always with you, and you can save a lotta meter by just relying on it for up-close combat. his whirlwind can take out a lotta people around him. and of course, if you can merge w/Firen, you get one heck of a character, Firzen... Henry is the range character without using magic... if you complement him(the IF is a big part) with a character who can play good up-close, he can blow a lotta people away... if you are careful about your meter, you can play his sonata, which is his best up-close move, taking out a lotta ppl around him and doing a lot of damage. Rudolf is the cable of the game, in that he makes the best use of meter... if you have the ability to keep stocking up on mana quickly, you should keep doing the double Rudolfs whenever you can... you don't even know how good this tactic is til you try it... sure the clones get killed in 1 blow, but if you have about 6+ of those ninjas upon you it's kinda hard to do that... he's essentially a modified Henry, except you want to do less shooting, and more cloning :) only throw shurikens to get some distance or maybe to help your clones, otherwise try to stay away and clone like crazy... don't forget about transforming though... keep enough meter to do that... transforming into Firzen will really upset your opponents :)

i wonder why God created left-handed people? esp considering the fact that God's right-handed(i think, i dunno). (i kinda already know the answer, but hey, it'd be cool to hear you guys' responses) ...although Ehud was left-handed and chosen by God to deliver his people, so i guess i can't say that's a stereotype the Israelites held up for long.

the southwest bball commercial where the announcer can't pronounce the foreigner's name is so frikkin funny... haha

ahaha... morris did the coolest street ball-ish move on the lakers when they hosted the rockets tonight... rocket's ball to inbound from under the laker's net... so brian shaw turns his back to morris, then morris bounces the ball off of shaw, runs in, gets his own ball, then lays it up... sweet...

-dad, what's a rack?
-(Steve Martin snatches back magazine)... it's a country

this is prob the 1st and only time i've ever eaten sushi for lunch at the Davis Cafeteria... God bless...

so much work to do today and wednesday...

Matt 6:25-34

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

man, why'd they have to close Lion and the Lamb... now where am i gonna go to get 12 Stones and Sanctus Real CDs besides the web? maybe Burean, but i dunno exactly where in SJ they are.

cheer me up God... i feel in the slumps...

Wanda Sykes is hecka funny... she just said, "they should just call Joe Millionaire 'Bitches Who Love Money' "...

ahhh hahahahaha!!!

ever realize just how secular this world is? i never truly realized just how much til i tried shopping for christian music today... i go to circuit city, and i can't find 12 Stones or Sanctus Real at all... what troubles me even more is the magnitude of Circuit City's music section, and yet they don't have either albums. and even the gospel section only gets scant mention... scant mention? after looking around the christian music on the web, i come across 10s of 1000s of music, and you mean to tell me you can only come up with THAT?!?!

(then again i have to smack myself, cause i could've gone to The Lion and The Lamb, which i didn't, i will try that when i go back next time, which i am trying not to do that often now, since the only thing i do when i go back is study)

haha... i can't believe how many video game tunes Louis has on a CD in jon's infiniti! haha... it's all good... some of those tunes are catchy, although i don't like techno music... although i'd love to get the SFA3 Ryu BG music on .mp3, if i can find it...

Heidi on Joe Millionaire is such a b****... 'k, i didn't wanna say it, but you know what i was referring to... so shallow and snottish... ingrateful, just ingrateful...

alright, i'm out...

the journey of a million miles begins with a step...
you can't change what you've begun! that's why it's called a plan!

i dislike it when we college ppl have to register for classes... it's totally not like high-school... you log in and 9/10 of the courses that are mandatory for you to take are occupied... so you end up registering for a math class that occurs @5:10-6:00P on friday... do you realize how much that effs up your chance of an early weekend? granted, i plan on doing longer stretches in UCD over the weekend now, but it'd still be nice to end early on fridays.

bah, i bet only UCD ppl have these types of probs so early... laura's surprised i have to register for classes so early... mandy only needs to register 2x @UCB per school year... bah...

i just realized valentine's day is somewhere around here... it prob passed me... not that it mattered... i've been soloing my life companion-wise for a major part of it right now, and i feel content to be single as of right now... i'm not at the stage where i need to spill all my thoughts to a girl and have her spill hers to me... in exchange for cuddling... it'd be nice, but i would eff my grades over in exchange for it... valantine's day even has less to do w/love than i think it was, a matyred christian? i dunno... america has a way with screwing up everything single holiday we have and ruining it, taking it out of context... since when does easter mean a JCPenney 30 hour sale? and yet...

can someone explain to me what is the significance of presidents' day? what is the historical background behind it, and why do we celebrate it? seems a bit vague to me. do we celebrate it just cause of our US presidents? does it have something to do with our more important US presidents? and if so, why don't we call it "Abe Lincoln's day", or "George Washington's day" on part of that?

a text without a context becomes a pretext for a prooftext... in other words, take every judgment you make into context, or it'll just fire right back at you

to be honest, i have no idea if i am getting better at puzzle fighter, even though i've played it a bit now... i know i'm not doing small attacks as frequently as much, but am i really setting up my attacks better? i need to really learn how to chain attacks together! heard they give so much as a bonus! (have i lost the reader? then again, i prob lost a lot of you @the mention of VF, CS, electric guitars, worship, the like...)

(after playing in CS w/sam and doing my work to win a tough round solo after everyone else died i think, i decided to spray my YLT logo on the ground next to the victim... here's the AIM conversation later)

sam: hey rich
me: hey
sam: you like my knives?
me: haha... yeah
sam: wheredd you get your graffiti thing?
me: i made it
sam: thats hilarious
me: haha
sam: send me man
me: sure thing
sam: when i saw you paint it i laughed out loud
me: haha
(ReCharredSigh) wants to send file C:\Sierra\Counter-Strike\logos\YLT.bmp.
(sam) received C:\Sierra\Counter-Strike\logos\YLT.bmp.
me: i think this is it, just put it in your logos folder
sam: ok cool thanks man
me: sure thing
sam: haha i cant wait to spray this after i get a knife
me: i was originally gonna put YLT on it, but i thought not as many ppl know what that means
sam: haha and its kinda edgy and looks hand written so its funnier
me: haha... it wasn't hard for me to make
me: it's pretty cool
sam: haha yea
me: i usually don't spray it
sam: you should do it after a tough kill or a knife or something
me: i usually use it if i see some guy acting like he's a jackass
sam: when youre the last person alive
me: or if i get a streak goin
me: like once i heard this guy on the opposite team talking trash like "yeah, you like that" and stuff like that and saying stuff like "jackass" to us
sam: haha
me: so when it came to a close round i sprayed it on him after i killed him 1-on-1
sam: hahhaa thats hilarious
me: you might wanna change the color of it, cause i designed it to be like the original logos included with the CS game; it's mono-colored
me: so if it's white you can't really see it
sam: green is good
sam: its funny too
me: yeah
me: haha

played w/sam in cs: down to me vs the rest of the team; got 3 headshots in a row on iceworld with an assault rifle... but died on the 4th person. some guy started going "i think that guy's cheating" :) hecka good feeling.

aw... shoot... i had this good philosophical thought in the morning, and now in the nighttime when i'm intending to write it down here, i forgot. ever hate that? you've got a good train of thought goin, and suddenly "what the hell was i thinking about?" and you can't remember what you were thinking no matter how hard you try.

wait, wait, it's coming back.

often, when we have a fear of something tangible, like for say instance, water, we freeze up when we're near it and try to get away from it as soon as possible. being able to overcome fear is being able to be calm in the face of adversity, in the face of fear, uncertainity, doubt, what not. why do people who can't swim drown? they are afraid of the water and so thrash violently. i remember my early years when i just was afraid of the water in that i thought if i let go of the edge i'd drown. but it's a gradual process(drowning); when i was able to realize that, to be calm, i was able to get somewhere, to let go of the poolside and swim. often ppl drown cause they get so hectic in the water that they start breathing in water. when you learn to be calm, to let go, to stare trouble right in the face with calm, you'll make it out ok. peace is one of the fruits of the Spirit, so yes, it is important to keep a cool and be optimistic about everything you do. and i'm trying to teach myself that day by day, especially in a place where work is hectic. (to be honest this thought is a lot less appealing than when i was thinking about it sitting on the can this morning... a thousand thoughts were racing about my head thinking about it)

i realized some time ago that if the hair between my eyes(there is very tiny fuzz there if you look closely) grew more rapidly, i'd have a unibrow... freaky.

"i think that no matter who you are or what you go through you have good days and you have bad days, and it's not those good or bad days that make you as the person but it's how you go about dealing with those days"
-Paul McCoy, vocalist for 12 Stones, on MTV
put another way, if you're optimistic, you're gonna act optimistic in the face of trouble. if you're patient, you're gonna be patient when work overloads you. if you're calm, you're gonna be that way under pressure.

i can't believe our chem lab equipment was dysfunctional for the 2nd time! so i had to copy someone else's data FOR THE 2ND TIME! makes chem lab so boring... easy yes, but boring. might as well just ask the TA to do the lab for us and give the hard data to us.

(sam joins Ts in the dust map that i'm playing just as this happens)
*runs into double doors, kills i think 1 CT...*
*runs further around the bomb site b and checks, i think maybe i killed another CT?, maybe not*
me(on mic): b's open, b's open...
*runs back, some Ts are filling in to help plant the bomb, then i catch a CT running through the tunnel... gun him down*
-Terrorists Win- (i think i get the best score or most disruptive award, don't remember which one)
me(on mic): WHY ELLLL TTTEEEEEEE!!!
sam: hey richard

another time sam died right in front of me... i pick up his mp5navy, then i just aim and shoot... i get 2 headshots in a row, but get killed by the 3rd CT... still kinda sick... 2 headshots in a row... the only other memorable moment of that was when i was playing T w/sam in italy, then a CT comes up to me trying to knife... i turn around, and immediately headshot him, then say, "don't try to knife me :)" then run over to the bridge and see a CT down there... shoot and luckily get ANOTHER headshot... i got the best score award for that round

my CS abilities are like a roller coaster... they are so random... one moment i can be streaking like crazy, other times, i can just get headshot all over the place. often, i never post over a 50% kill:death ratio consistently, although now my ratio is improving slightly beyond ~33%...

(don't remember the exact CS conversation, but it went something like this while me and sam were playing)

p3nis: your voice comes out funny, doesn't sound like you
ReCharredSigh: haha... nasally?
p3nis: yeah
p3nis: you sound like jonathan
ReCharredSigh: what... gay?
p3nis: ah, too bad he isn't playing with us and seeing this conversation right now

i can't believe everyone is so afraid of the cold! i have this heater going on right now in our dorm cause jon's sick(i'll grant him the exception cause he's sick, but he's still weaksauce of the weather compared to me)... he's wearing a sweatshirt & sweatpants, and i'm wearing... gym shorts. that's it... well, briefs if you wanna be more specific as well, but yeah.

man, Jermaine O'Neal had to screw up MJ's exit to the NBA all-star game... he fouled Kobe at the 3-pt line, which gave him the chance to take 3 free throws... he missed one, and so it went into double OT and the west won. it shouldve been that the east won with MJ hitting the clutch shot to win it, in OT, by 2. doesn't matter though; it's sorta neat knowing that every NBA player gives props to MJ because of his greatness in the NBA. haha... tim's prob happy in irvine knowing that KG won MVP this year :)

T-Mac was on fire on the east side... it's crazy... they should've been giving him the ball whenever... the guy's so good at hitting shots now on the outside mark. and KG... man, that guy's awesome.

in any case, my props to MJ for almost hitting the clutch shot to win the game... neat watching AI bump MJ w/his body after he made that shot :)

praise God...

i finally went to church in UCD again! (thanks to jerm & george for praying for me)

nuff said... truly has to be yet another victory, cause i remember trying to go to sleep yesterday, but for some reason i kept tossing and turning around(does root beer have caffeine? i'm pretty sure it doesn't, so then why?) till get this; about 4. maybe satan really was trying to discourage me from going, and this was more than what i thought it was. i woke up at 8, and GOT OUT OF BED! allelulia! got there right when they started; 9:30. as for comments about UCC, the church i went to, lemme just say, i have never seen a buncha old white folks play with contemporary instruments, but they did, however, they played so slowly. i didn't enjoy the praise session, cause it just wasn't fast enough to get my heart beating. however, the pastor and sermon was good; biblical based and all. what's also great was that i didn't feel sleepy! didn't fall asleep. and that's weird coming from the guy who absolutely can't go in a day without more than 7 hours of sleep without feeling fatigued. what's even stranger is that i don't feel fatigued right now either.

btw, i could swear i saw my former chem lab partner at the same church a few rows in front of me.

i feel that i will have to keep on looking... this is, after all, only the 2nd church that i've visited so far in UCD. praise didn't move me, but the sermon did. next time, i try that korean church :)

know what sucks? i had to log off just when all my friends were starting to log on... i bet wes would've logged on later. but then, i had to remind myself... which do i value more? God or my friends? i can talk to my friends a couple of times, but my 1st goal should be to get closer to God. hence, going to church. besides, i gotta look at it this way... i can talk to them all i want when we all get to heaven :)

if you're reading this david before sunday, good luck with the fundraising on sunday... i know you guys can do it.

btw, i just realized i'm going sockless this weekend... yes that was a pun, and is true the other way... see if you can figure out what i'm talking about :)

at least my jerseys aren't in the dryer cause i'm going indian :)

ooooh SIIIIICCCCCKKKK!!!! jrich pulled off a alley-oop to self under-the-legs, reverse 1-handed dunk! sick, sick sick!!!! he won!

i got a papercut late last night on my ring finger right at the 1st joint leading out to the end. it's annoying, but the more i think about its parallels to college life, the more i have to say that college is seriously like a papercut; it will hurt, a lot will think it hurts like crazy(much like a papercut), but it is minor in reality, and does very little damage to you... clench your fist, rise up to the occasion, take it in, and you will beat it. stop moaning about its pains and just come right at it head on and never let up. that's the way to survive. and the parallel way you clench your fist is to lean hard on God.

i have to tell about this CS incident i had cause it's pretty funny. basically, I was a counter-terrorist, and headed into a room(aztec, through the double doors if any of you reading this are CS fanatics). late in the round, and i see two terrorists with magnum sniper rifles behind a box, sorta like this:

(corner)
_[xxxx]
T[box_]
T[xxxx]


CT<-(me)

and they're looking perpendicular to me... so they're not seeing me at all. i take the chance and gun both down with my assault rifle. then i turn my back... and get shot by another terrorist who was ALSO behind that box! that was pretty funny the more i thought about it... having 3 snipers huddled all behind 1 box...

there's another incident, not as funny, but made me feel good inside. i had the ak47 as a terrorist, and this was on the dust map. so i'm approaching a tunnel, and sit just slightly outside waiting for the counter-terrorists to show themselves so i could shoot them. so they come out... but instead of rushing well together, they go 1 by 1, with a huge break in-between... so i just started getting all these kills by popping out, shooting, then hiding, rinse and repeat... i got killed by the 4th opponent, but it was hecka cool watching the "kill-detector" on the upper-right corner announcing "ReCharredSigh kills 'name' ", "ReCharredSigh kills 'name2' ", "ReCharredSigh kills 'name3' ", "'name4' kills ReCharredSigh "... all in a row w/o anyone killing anyone else during then... then right afterward one of the guys on the counter-terrorists started dissing his team, going, "why do you CTs keep rushing when we've been losing because of that?" (i think the teams were 5 on 5, so i had severely weakened their team at one go) heh heh :) i have done more damage in other rounds, but here it was cool because the guy apparent got pissed cause his team was losing so bad cause they were rushing, thus indirectly crediting me with their loss :)

oh yeah, i never wrote this down; the DC served kim chee(like real, actual kim chee) yesterday... when's that happened? like actual, authentic azn food at the Davis Cafeteria? most of the time what they serve is weak sauce. while i don't complain about the food i eat at the DC(i'm happy to eat decent food), i have to admit, a lot of times what they try to make is a far cry from what they say the thing is. for instance, since when are won tons made by frying them, so the outside's got a corn tortilla texture?

mandy keeps changing her aim screen name spacing... at times it's just annoying me, but she's bored. eh...

i hate myself... i took notes on how to do the calculations of this one lab, and now i can't decipher what the heck i wrote! i dunno what i wrote means! (ok, so the lab's not due til next week, but it's still pissing me off)... ok, back to work.

damnit... mustard seed ministry didn't seem to want to meet today or maybe they just wanted to meet elsewhere... i tried to go to their fellowship, but literally no one was in the lecture hall when i got there. by then i was just kinda annoyed about it so i just said "screw this" and headed right back to my dorm without going to ABSK or AACF... maybe i'll just stick with one of the two... i haven't even stuck around long enough with either to be able to make a sound judgment.

however, perhaps the main reason why i decided to stay at UCD over the weekend even when jon was going home was so that i could attend church in davis on sunday. we have been to exactly 1 church 1 time out of, well, the start of the school year. i want to change that. i remember george telling me how being a christian isn't just about you and God, it's about daily meeting with other christians to help each other and support each other. that's why i'm sticking here. i mean, i don't even really know of any christians on this campus besides the ones i met in high school.

found this one website advertised at UC Davis in the MU area... check it out on the left... it'll enable you to search for clubs on UCD campus... maybe that'll make my fellowship looking a lot easier.

'k, i'm gonna study the word tonight. i need to think about worship again, as well as other God-related stuff. silence isn't always treasurable, but tonight i'm gonna make it that way.

NBA all-star weekend's this well, weekend... excited? i am. T-Mac, Yao Ming, KG and MJ better be lighting it up.

more to add later, when i have more time and ideas of what to talk about.

this is gonna be a good weekend... i WILL go to church in Davis... i'm serious about this. even if i have to run. then go back and watch the all-star stuff while doing some work.

tetris challenged eh, mandy? i'd rather work on my puzzle fighter skills. game's not as balanced, but it's a lot more complex. and fun.

Philosophy of Biology teacher's not exactly that good... said he was gonna post the next paper topic online by feb 5, and I DON'T SEE IT! (the only reason why i'm still taking this class is cause i can't drop it by now and so far i've been doing good; at least the TA makes us think; wasn't the point of philosophy to think creatively, instead of just listening to dumb-ass lectures and all?)

i never learn from my mistakes... why, oh why?

lesse, i think i'll go eat after my last class, then some work(thinking chem lab, maybe some math hw), worship, maybe jump program? then eat, fellowship, shower, turn in for the night.... i think i'll go w/that.

(comment concerning my song)

"i finally got to listen to it.. MAD SKILLLLLSSS!!!!!!


<3,
mandy"

haha... nice... thanks.

me: hey jerm
jerm: sup
me: can you do me a favor?
jerm: sure.. que es?
me: fill out a survey for me... won't take too long... it's for my language and identity class
me: after you're done, just save the file i'm gonna send over and just send it back
jerm: k
jerm: k
(ReCharred) wants to send file C:\Documents and Settings\ReCharred_Sigh\My Documents\Work-related material\Survey.txt.
(jerm) received C:\Documents and Settings\ReCharred_Sigh\My Documents\Work-related material\Survey.txt.
jerm: darnit
jerm: i got #1 wrong already hehe
me: haha
jerm: i answered. england
me: were you checking to see whether you were right? :-)
me: it's a survey, it really doesn't matter
me: if you want i can explain what i would've said after you finish
me: since you don't have to put your name on it, it's not like everyone at UCD's gonna go, "oh, this here (jerm)'s such a joke"
jerm: lol.. well it said in the US but i said england
jerm: and englands not a state
me: oh, haha

jerm: does Chinglish cou(n)t as a language?
heh heh heh heh

*gasp* y'kno that MV girl who went to christian club at MVHS with me, but we didn't know each other's names? she called me by my first name! (actually, i knew her name the whole name, just that i didn't wanna call her by her name if she didn't know mine) i guess that means next time we meet i have to call her by her name! (if you listen closely i almost never refer to others by their name unless if i'm REALLY comfortable talking around them in person, i dunno if i should stop this, it's just part of what i am) geez, i sound like the biggest loser in the world :)

i think around 1:00 PM me and jon watched some nba short documentary on the '97 Bulls... it was neat, but i wondered if maybe they should've did the documentary on the '98 Bulls, cause that was the one which Jordan hit the outside shot at crunch time in the Delta Center, winning the championship for the Bulls. it's all good though... ykno now i wish i had recorded all the final matchups with the Bulls Vs. Jazz and vise versa on tape... back then i was too young to really comprehend how bball was, i just thought it was a buncha dunking and 3-pt shots. i would LOVE to watch how the young MJ played defense and offense. i mean, he WAS the best bball player, so why not learn watching how he played? some of the clips they showed of him were just sick... goes under the rim with three guys on him and lays up on the other side. or the other where he pulls up at the rim, a guy gets in his face, he manages to pivot his entire body about 90 degrees in the air and make a short-range shot on the other side... sick. and some of his assists.

btw, watching that documentary got me thinking, wouldn't it be funny to have a short documentary on a team on olympic curling? how funny would that be? think: slow mo, up-close shot of broom sweeping in front of the stone... dramatic voice: would the US rise to the occasion? or would they just slick off like last winter olympics? they had been defeated by Germany before, now the game was in Atlanta, home court advantage... etc. just thinking about that got me a huge laugh.

k, i'm going... gonna eat, then some studying, maybe some guitar, then relax for the night. i'm making up for the fact that i got a larger callus on my left thumb doing quarter circle forward motions than i got playing guitar yesterday. God, please give me inspiration when i play; it's perhaps the best way i have of worshipping you. maybe i should dedicate my guitar time to God before each session?

brought my late sleep timing on myself again... it's 1:18 AM and i haven't gone to sleep yet... that's bad for myself... the plus side is that i have only 1 class, which i prob don't even need to go to... the problem is, will i get up extremely late again and waste my time? i pray not...

the only ppl on my AIM buddy list right now who are up are the socal girls... "Sleepless in LA" i bet... prob not the case next morning though

bored? wanna sample full-length tracks to Sanctus Real? click here

sanctus real-say it loud... hits stores feb 11...
twelve stones- self-titled album... already out
spot rock tour- features sanctus real(!), relient k, john reuben, superchick, pillar... a whole bunch of christian bands which are high quality... damnit it's going on everywhere except Davis.

i almost forgot sanctus real is still a punk rock band... it's only after trying to play their songs that i realized that you essentially need the same 4 power chords for each song... it still sounds better than a majority of the other stuff out there.

i can't remember the last time i had this much time to do whatever i wanted in UCD, but here it is, and jon's not in the room... i'm busting out my guitar and worshipping you God... thank you for setting this time up for me, i really appreciate it.

i'm such a fool...

i'm here thinking that jon brought his own troubles upon himself, then God sarcastically told me ,"what type of christian friend are you?" that got me thinking, "oh no... I haven't been sharing the reason why i find joy in christ to him" well, i praise you God for that thought... i will take it upon myself to be more vocal about my joy in you... maybe it'll spread to him... maybe i'll get more thoughts from you like this if i just spent more time in QT more often.

i love Sanctus Real and 12 Stones so much now... did i say that before? yeah, i did huh... oh well... i like too many of their songs, which means only one thing... i am going to buy their CDs... bob, if i find out i don't like the rest of the CD songs, i'll donate it to the church... or we could just chip in together and buy a new Sanctus Real CD... i would compare them to Relient K, but richer in sound... they even got some awards once according to data on their website. and it's prob very cheap, like $10(i remember from last time that 12 Stones was $12) i should bust out my guitar and play their songs... such encouraging words.

i can't remember the last time i liked secular rock... almost all the rock songs that i'm liking now concentrate on God... and that's a good thing... screw the secular world for not opening their eyes to what is definitely beautiful music. seriously, i can't remember the very first time that i went back to cupertino, flipped to 104.9 or 105.3 and got fed up with what i was hearing.

i feel so joyful today... got my math hw done early... and awesome christian rock is filling my ears at the moment... meanwhile jon's knocked out... again... not gonna bust out my guitar just yet out of courtesy(and playing w/headphones would be difficult to appreciate).

i didn't really get a lot of time to do some bible study tonight, so i just looked at one-two verses and pondered them... while listening to sanctus real- audience of one, i came across:

I will praise you, O Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonders. I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High. -Psalm 9:1-2

"it's time to turn this thing around... you and i will be alright, if there's nothing more to come... cause the more i know i sing tonight for an audience of one" went the song...

how true... yeah God, I want that to be instilled on my heart, that i might constantly praise God, tell of your wonders, be glad, rejoice in you, and sing tonight to an audience of one... you alone...

it's gonna be a great day... screw what the others around me always think

letting the christian rock spirit in me loose...

the more i listen to songs from Sanctus Real- Say It Loud(that's their album name) and 12 Stones' self-titled album the more i wanna buy both... sanctus is some of the best punk rock i've ever heard for christian rock, 12 stones is one of the best hard rock bands EVER, not to mention they're christian... i'm serious. btw, one of 12 Stones' songs is going to be on the Daredevil soundtrack i think it was ... maybe this'll be their big break?

some new discovered Sanctus Real songs that i really like:
Audience of One(good in and out, prob my fave Sanctus Real song next to Say It Loud)
Sink Or Swim(good in the middle)
Captain's Chair
you can hear the full-length tracks at www.sanctusreal.com

me: so what have you been doing?
mandy: playing too much
mandy: hehe
mandy: so today was kinda a sit down and read/study/hw day
mandy: as is tomorrow
me: sounds un-berkeleyish
mandy: haha
mandy: i know
mandy: horrible
mandy: HORRIBLE!

everytime i hear a really good christian punk rock song it makes me wish there was a bassist and drummer in UCD that were as passionate for creating praise songs for God by jamming... maybe i'm just not looking hard enough.... but then again, i dunno how and where to start. mandy suggests ABSK, so i'll think of that.

pitiful... that some may find college to be desolate... you just don't know where and how to find joy, do you?

i was originally gonna try reading for my philosophy of biology class, until i found out i would need to cover 70 pages before tomorrow... aack! at that rate, i'll just skim some here and there and take good notes at the lecture instead!

www.thexstation.com... it's a christian rock station... i'll look into it later... right now i gotta type...

grr... wut crap... my site won't update... this is a test... if this pops up... then my site will have been updated once again, if not, then maybe blogspots DO have a limit...

i was bored, so i reorganized the left section of my site... check it out, should be a bit easier to navigate now... i was gonna put something down for real name, expertise, and hobbies like those guys using xanga, but i figured it's useless... you can honestly already figure out what i like by what i listed on the left and as for real name... heh heh.

i feel so bad... our electrodes for our chem lab experiment wouldn't function, so the TA suggested just joining another group... all both of us did was copy notes... felt like i've done no work and got data for free... like i just mooched off of someone... oh well, it'll rub off.

...back to studies...

... wut crap...

why does some of the songs playing on air1 sound so much better than when i dl them for sampling?

here's the two that concern me:
Jeremy Camp- Understand(album: stay)
Paul Coleman Trio- Run(album: new map of the world)

understand sounds like 3 doors down(slightly), run just sounds tight... BUT! dl them and they sound SOOO SLOW!

(a few minutes later)

you can screw what i said about jeremy camp- understand, i found the song i was looking for... damn my mouth for opening before my brain operates

# of ppl i know who use xanga to post thoughts... maybe 5-6?
# of ppl i know who use blogspot to post thoughts... maybe 2

yeah... that's just some random thing i realized...

# of ppl who just type short and sweet on their thinking sites... maybe 2(3 if you count me)

instead of having a drudgery attitude towards work and then having an urgent attitude towards computer gaming, perhaps i turn that around and have an urgent attitude about work and worship first? i mean, if i really want to get it done, perhaps i just set it as my first priority?

someone from CTCC please keep me accountable... i wanna do this 9:00 rule on myself for real... and also try to really get into church @UCD... if you don't know what i'm talking about ask, and if you do good... pray for that.

mandy's got a xanga site going on... interesting... one more girl to see how she talks on an online journal... most girls' online journals just RAMBLE on and on... i'll put it on my site later if i am interested.

can you believe that chem lab carbon copy notebooks will only last you through part of 2nd quarter? geez, gotta buy another one.

d.c.short,c.fierce/\sj.jab,sj.short,sj.up.forward,strong air throw,air shinkuu hadoken... the shiznit reset air combo for XvSF Ryu... it's too good... 1/2 a bar of life gone right there(you can do a similar kickass combo w/Sabretooth, except do sj.strong instead of sj.up.forward, and Berzerker Claw X instead of air shinkuu hadoken)
also, my other fave combo of the game:
d.c.short,c.forward,c.fierce-->spin drive smasher,c.short(OTG),s.roundhouse/\sj.jab,sj.short,sj.strong-->cannon drill w/ XvSF Cammy... also 1/2 life... if you can do it in the corner

i will figure out how to wash and dry my own clothes and this time WRITE DOWN the instructions before i stay more than 2 weeks in UCD... i think i forgot how to. i haven't even opened my detergent stuff yet.

i had no idea this was chinese new year... i guess then i'll go home for this weekend.

haha... everyone's telling jon to go home... laura, dorm guys, me, even bob gave jon a go home message.

my way with sleep is erratic... it really is... i think it boils down to this:
-i WANT to go to sleep as early as possible, and wake up as early as possible
-i do the complete opposite

so that would explain why sometimes i cram, fall asleep really late, have to get up REALLY early, then attempt to struggle through the day on what is essentially 2.5 hrs' worth(happened on wed-thurs)... that's why i detest napping, waking up late, etc... you ruin SO much of your day you don't even know it... sleep has its upsides... but i'd rather stay awake. that said, i like staying awake REFRESHED. sometimes though, it's insanely hard getting my ass out of bed, which i hate myself for... i've contracted the "weng disease" :) (no, i didn't say "wu disease") i STILL get up earlier than jon though... lazy ass sleeps right to lunch. i have trouble motivating myself to get up early on days where i don't have class early... i wish i could change that.

today was a decent day... but i still can't decide whether to go home or not... when i go home on non-break-weekends, i do what i would've done here: study... and that's it... anything else i do i could also do here. it's only when i go home on breaks that i can do something worthwhile at home, and that's spend my sweet time recording songs, catching up with socal ppl, the like.

i wish my springs and summers were cupertino-mountain view weather, and that my winters and falls were davis weather... i LOVE the weather up here... it gets cold, and rains occasionally, but it does that in very light drizzles(USUALLY), and i LOVE that... i really do.

ate so many pickled jalapeno peppers and salsa on my beef taco salad yesterday that i started getting a runny nose...
[i have to admit that was high quality cafeteria food for once, cause you made it yourself, and it actually tasted like the real thing unlike some of the other things in the DC... man, now i want more taco salad]
then again, that usually happens when i'm in campbell eating a #116 at tsing tao as well(the spicy handmade noodle soup)... love spicy food...

it's kinda interesting watching all the guys who have engineering majors in my dorm building struggle with chem 2A... (big grin)... well, chem 2B's still harder than that... way harder.

well, i got a considerable amount of work done today... praise be to that, God...

it's kinda interesting, cause i was very, very tired going to my Philosophy of Bio class, so i was praying that i would stay awake really hard, then the TA stands up and announces that the teacher was sick, so no lecture that day... we ended class right then... wow... coincidence? maybe... maybe not...

sooo tired, 2.5 hours of sleep last night(went to sleep at 2:20, woke up at 7:06, but i constantly got up in the night cause i was way too nervous about missing the chem midterm)... but i'm not gonna quit early today... gonna try my best to get as much work done.

why do ppl have these accusations about christianity without even researching the topic themselves? do they think that no one's written books concerning and countering these topics? such as the validility of the books, whether christ really died, or did ppl really see him rise?

and what's with the slander ppl? why do you post stuff that is completely false?

i've felt that any school-related problems that i have gotten are due to my own mistakes... i've really brought my own troubles upon myself. any reason why i am tired as crazy and skipping classes are because i'm going to sleep very late... any reason that i'm going to sleep very late is cause i'm doing my work and studies way too late. any reason why that's happening is cause i'm playing CS and capcom games when i'm supposed to be doing work. well, not any more... gonna break the cycle and do something right this time.

here's some dorm room irony for you:

jon was listening to some fob music that had the lyrics "i only wanna be with you" in it... i was listening to Superchic- Barlowe Girls, and about the same time i heard in my headphones "but i know for sure it's not easy to be pure... no girl should have to trade her body for love"

i stick in this for the long run... so i'm gonna plant my feet firmly in and never stop rushing at my problems... i WILL finish

i'm beginning to truly understand the reality that we only bring our own downfall upon ourselves... it's no one's fault but ours... i'll explain later... because of my own sins of laziness, i need to study for a chem test that is going down 7:30 AM later, and i haven't even finished taking notes on 4 sections...

i'm sorta like O_O right now... my mind's blank, so i'm finding it hard to finish my essay, which is pretty much 1 paragraph from being done! think about that... 1 PARAGRAPH!

soo much work to do today and tomorrow... got a test for chem which i stopped studying for about 2-3 chapters short... and a paper(which i was talking about previously) that i am THIS close to being done but can't for some weird reason. and i STILL have some reading to catch up with.

louis' xanga site has this annoying techno music... drives me sorta insane... :)

there is so much i want to do, but can't cause of school work. like for instance, songwriting, posting up my previously written song, tab and lyrics, redoing "Unknown to the World" with better sound... returning extra cables and plugs back to RadioShack... thinking more about the lesson on worship... spending time w/God...

haha... i remember hearing "Only a God Like You" from Mustard Seed Ministries' friday fellowship on campus! too bad i missed going to the cafeteria so it closed, that's why i had to jog PAST it to Jack In The Box for some grits.

btw, i dunno how we're ever gonna try going to church... jon doesn't seem to bring his vehicle to UCD anymore(just his friend driving his Lexus now), so i dunno... i'm gonna hafta sprint to church? :) of course i could just ask for a ride from the fellowship guys, but so far we haven't even started really LOOKING! what does that tell you about us?

ok, my funk is sorta going away... back to writing... no, actually, going away to take a crap, THEN write...

KJ-52... Rise Up... this is a great christian hip-hop song... if you've ever heard the blurbs w/KJ-52 on air1, this is the background music playing... again, i gotta say it, it's a great song, though it may get a bit monotonous in lyrics, you'll get the message behind it very quickly :)... wish it had more lyrics, but it's a good song. go to www.kj52.com if you can't hear the lyrics that clearly.

i have a glitchy X-Men Vs. Street Fighter game... 1 super combo when done correctly takes off 90% of the opponent's life. think it's version 1. but it's all good, i love playing it.

the grass may always be greener on the other side, but where there's troubles, you get strengthened and gain experience... think about that the next time things suck for you.

so i glance at mandy's AIM profile, then at jerm's, then talk w/jerm:

me: chocolate fast now?
me: or is that just mandy? :-)
jerm: i forget what i told mandy hehe
jerm: so i'm fasting it too lol

haha :D

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o_O

this christian's coming back... yesterday i attended a fellowship(which i have NOT been attending anything christianish in davis since december); i just felt awesome during the praise session, although i think chinks and caucasians have different senses of humor... there were some things they said that i just couldn't see as being funny... :) didn't seem to concentrate that hard on biblical basis though... still, we see how david was a witness during his work. also, he put God's word over whatever God planned. as for the actual praise stuff, it's always been that different Christians have different ways of worshipping(i need to keep enforcing this thought in my head, cause i had reservations about how some of the others worshipped, how they looked weird, but that means i have sinned, i need to stop thinking what others are doing and what i am doing)... i need to be more physical about my worship... although i was bobbing my head, i should've been bouncing to the beat, something i commonly do alone... i can't really put my thoughts into words, since a lot of it was visual.

God, if you're reading this, help me to concentrate my worship on you and not to get distracted by those around me... this is 1o1... keep reminding me of this.

i still can't believe they selected Vince Carter as a starter for the all-star team; he hasn't been playing for most of the season right now, and MJ didn't make it... that guy has been pulling a lot more than Vince. also, i question whether Yao should have been a starter over Shaq... sure he's tall and been doing pretty impressively... but right now he doesn't have that much experience... of course i don't really like Shaq, but really, it's the truth... Shaq has a lot more experience than him. go KG! (and T-Mac, AI, and Jermaine O'Neal)... i like the tall guys of the west(i like those that can block, rebound and shoot over you :D), but i will be rooting for the east during this game cause i don't like Kobe... damn LA'er has an attitude problem.

no jordan... don't retire... me, mike, and jerm wanna see you make a comeback and take back your NBA champion crown!

this will be a tough day, but one with fun... all in all always remembering the one who created it... help me.

sonic flood's "write your name upon my heart" is definitely one of the coolest worship songs i've ever heard... recently.

God above
in you i live and breathe
and you will always be
Son of God
i owe my life to you
your promises are true

your love goes on and on forever

write your name upon my heart
burn your word into my mind
make a temple outta this body
may your spirit move inside
i have wandered through the valley
i have wondered who i am
you have come to make your mark
so write your name upon my heart

God above
the first the last the same
all glory due your name
Jesus
it's you i adore
Lamb of God and Savior

all my heart and all its strength
are your possession yours forever
how glorious to wear your precious name

random fact; almost all of socal's water comes from northern califonia, from us norcalers... think about that the next time you think socal's the total shiznit. it's not, for sheezy mah neezy.

some of the ppl who try out for american idol just don't get it... they want to hear you sing, not imitate a boy band or christina aguiliera... don't you frikkin get it? seriously, just go and record yourself singing and see how you sound. and what's the deal with the detroit ppl praying for devine intervention here? that's total taking of God for granted; serves you right if you don't make it, treating God like a genie. granted, i would never try out for that, cause i don't just sing, i also play my electric guitar. but even if i did, i sound too flat... no vibrato, no strength coming from my stomach out... it's all in my throat, like the rock vocalists and hip-hoppers.

more AIM dialogue memories:

*i see joe online, so i try to talk to him; here's what happens*
me: joe!
(insert joe's AIM id here) signed off at 4:52:59 PM.

:D happened almost immediately too

i still think wes saying "it'll just brighten your gay" is hilarious...

(wes on the lakers)
wes: its like what mike said..its shaq kobe and 3 guys from the Y

me: eddie griffin: "you mean the NBA instituted the 3-pt shot to give white boys a chance?"
wes: hahaha
wes: black guys can hit it too
me: that's true
wes: just not many white guys taking it hard to the rack
me: but white boys can't do much anything else eh? :-)
wes: cant jump
wes: cept for bird...hes a bleached black man
me: hahaha

wes: if u guys stay inside all the time, your be depressed
wes: at least go to the cafeteria and play cards
(i explain why i don't need to)
wes: hehe at least take walks outside
me: i do, don't worry... had to jog to blockbuster to return "undercover brother" :-)
wes: it'll just brighten ur gay
wes: haha whoops
wes: day*
me: hahahah
me: you just cracked me up

currently, right now almost everyone on my CTCC list is away. on AIM.

i've got this essay to type tonight... and still have to return undercover brother to blockbuster tonight... sigh... i should really start my projects much earlier. but it's so hard to motivate myself. i have a hard time making the most of the every moment i've got. so easy to play games on my laptop. it's like i've got problems... i really need to "say it loud, say it out and loud, forget about, forget about last year, stop wishing it were backwards, it is now or never"

looking at bob's blog makes me wonder why i didn't dedicate a blog to Martin Luther King Jr. so i'll just write some quick blurb up. the man deserves more credit than he gets each year. he used to be a preacher. and his christian principles trickled down into how he fought to combat racism... hate the sin, not the man, so he disobeyed the law because he knew it was wrong, but refused to attack the white man. he recognized the power of love, and saw how hearts needed to be changed, not punished. and what happened was amongst the ways the black man could combat the unfairness around them(submit, full-force disobey, or disobey, but not strike back), this strategy worked the most, it even brought sympathetic white people to his cause.

can't believe we eat the most super bowl sunday. well, maybe we do, considering john tang's super bowl party. GO RAIDERS! just don't burn anything down, for crying out loud!

yeah, that's right, about time judges put a stop to this runaway sue-everyone-for-my-own-problems mess! check out this link!

alright, i'm gonna eat, then lots to do tonight. my mind's blank, so typing up gibberish just wastes my time.

i did not need that y-branched 1/4" cable or the stereo coupler... i hope i can return both, cause i opened both. aside from that, it's all good. i can play on both the laptop and the amp, and they'll both get picked up. what you do is connect electric guitar to 1/4" cable to amp through the input slot. then connect another 1/4" cable out of the output slot(i always wondered where you used that for... i tried it once during church worship practice and found out it didn't work too well, but here it's fine), to a 1/4"-1/8" adapter, to the laptop. so it's all good. only prob is that when i record bass w/wes, that i can't play along without my guitar getting picked up as well.

lex luthor does NOT cross over to the dark side this tuesday's episode! what type of bs is that?

we got the funk... we got the funk... hah hah hah hah :D i should dl that song... so addictive...

johnny english looks like a funny movie... hah hah... rowan atkinson...

talk later... got to... talk and work :)

hooo man... "undercover brother" is sooo friggin funny! seriously one of the most funniest movies i've ever seen. white people are definitely not going to be happy that i said that :)

i think though the main comedy of the movie doesn't go to eddie griffin, but dave chapelle... that guy IS funny. don't wanna give too much away, but one of the funniest things he said during the movie was

"(he was talking about the white man) don't you know they invented the 3-pointer to give the white man a chance?"

let's see if the stuff i bought today will be worth it... i bought something that might help me connect the guitar to the laptop AND the amp. will try it out tonight

weird to say this, but now every time i think of blockbuster video, i will think of davis... i got my membership card here, and it says so on the card. like a remember of where i've been.

when i talked about "undercover brother" with laura she went "oh, martin lawrence, hehe" :) those UCLA white ppl :)

i thought about the fruit-veggie "bittermelon" today at the DC... i remember justin's dad once telling me how bittermelon has a weird sense of sweet flavor to it... and i thought about that... while it's got this nasty upfront bitter taste, if you can ignore that you can taste this hint of sweetness that you don't find anywhere else... he said that's what some people call the "5th dimension of flavor" ie we have 4 different tastes; sweet, sour, salty, bitter. and that got me thinking about how most people will dislike the bittermelon taste when they're young... that was the case with me... but when you grow older, you mature, and are more willing to take stuff... that's when you redive in, and discover what no one else discovers.

and that's the way it is with christianity sometimes... maybe at your young age you rejected it, found it too shallow, or too mechanical, or concentrated way too much on rules. but you grew older, dived back in, and after surviving hardships found the sweetness of it... it's interesting... it's like the biblical phrase "taste and see that the Lord is good."

talk to me... unless you want me to shut up, cause i need to write some.

the rabbit hole just keeps getting deeper the more i spend in college(AIM me if you don't get what i'm talking about);

today's lesson: there are subliminal messages in disney films way too much; go and watch any of their anime; you'll often see(or should i say, hear) how the good guys are portrayed as americans, and the bad guys portrayed as someone else(or some other race). supports that radical statement of how disney's gay... gay indeed(pardon my language)

break down my barriers God; change my heart.

so much work to do....

here's a list:
POB 1 page paper: due tue
math hw: due wed
LAI 3-5 page paper: due thur
math test: fri
chem lab: due fri

on top of that there's the reading i always have to do...

can't talk too much... always too much to do... at least for this week.

thank God for RadioShack... found that 1/4" to 1/8" adapter that i've been wanting to get... it's this dinky little thing, but i think it'll really help when i record... it's even gold plated! :) i bet if i looked around more, i'll be able to find the stuff necessary to connect my electric guitar to both the laptop AND the amp.

is it wrong for a christian to take a biology course which discusses evolution? they don't downplay christianity, but it's obvious they don't give it a good look... the only reason christianity-wise i guess to take it would be so that i could see where evolutionists are coming from.

managed to kill 4 in a row w/no hs in iceworld using a bullpup in one round, and survived for the next one... nice. got the most disruptive and best score award for that round too. i saved a pic, but it got messed up, so this is probably the only validation of that thought. crazy how i just scoped one after the other sniping them out.

non-linguists must be so annoyed at the creation of the internet... it's made the written english language look so informal and like, bad. :)

come back, do some study and work on my 2 papers, buy some recording equipment, start jump program, etc... it's all one big blur. it'll be fun though.

life is one big mystery... those who rush through it are told to slow down... those who take it easy are told to go faster and be adventurous... what ppl want you to do is be plain :) but for me, my entire life's satisfaction lies with God; as long as i'm awestruck/content, i am totally ok with life.

has anyone else noticed how a relationship with God causes you to be even more awestruck at the simplest things he creates or gives to you? or what he is? or are all you just sad and depressed people? i can't remember the last time i started liking rain/wind/fog, and yet here i am giving praise to God for it. i can't remember the last time i relished solitude, but here am i liking it more and more.

anyways, i'll write later... my mind's sorta blank right now.

according to jon, the new CS mod file comes out today, so i'm expecting internet connections at Davis to be slower than usual. sometime it will occur, given the mod's prob about 100+ MB in size, and how many youth guys play CS.

i'll mainly be concerned with studying though, so no worries, well, maybe... if they're still dling at night, the time when i'm supposed to be free.

around 10:30 PM, 1/16/03:

INSPIRATION(big, wide ass grin spreading over my mind right now)...

sometimes the lyrics and melody you just wanna get out come to you at the weirdest of times. it's too bad that i don't remember exactly what i thought up(or for that matter God told me), but the important thing for me was that i got the chorus down. it was surprisingly easy to think up. it's gonna be fun recording and writing down this worship song that was stuck in my head. it's gonna be very fun. just that i won't start actually recording

now i know what is necessary for writing a good worship song; the lyrics just need to apply to everyone. so lay off freestyling, or talking about davis, or talking about guitar or bass or stuff, and concentrate on what a congregation would think. it's that simple. i can't believe i didn't think of that. also, don't get too showy with the instruments when you're singing, though you have tiny breaks to do that.

think i know what i need to buy now:

http://www.hosatech.com/product_page_insert.html
http://www.amusicdirect.com/products/detail.asp?sku=AGRAMINCAB

something like that. it's all good.

it's late... write more tomorrow

super puzzle fighter 2 turbo is SO FRIGGIN fun! well, if you have the credits to play enough of it to get better at it.

how do you guys control your time?

i... will... not... be... overwhelmed... by... the... pressures... of... college... life... because... i... am... totally... above... this!

btw, can anyone tell me what separates a christian rock song from a contemporary worship song? because i want to create a latter one, but dunno what separates them. supposedly it's easier to play/sing and follow along as a congregation, but what about the lyrics and the melody? any help here?

me: damn! 1st 2 times i've gotten a multi-kill!
sam: thats cool
sam: yea i saw you nail like...4 guys in the 1st or 2nd round
me: haha
sam: and i was followin gyou running
sam: and i just saw you shoot
sam: and then your name pops up on the top
me: haha
sam: and then shoot some more

... aw shoot i log in and forget what i was gonna type... oh yeah, it's coming back to me:

NINERS LOSE TO BUCCANEERS! so sad. all i can do now is root for Raiders.

Jon's recently been losing faith(well, not falling away, it's more like losing motivation to soak up life) and hope in Davis... he gets up SO late now, and always goes to bed when he's not doing stuff, even reluctant to do work... another lost christian in college, who lost true happiness... have faith man, have faith...

strange how we never really realize how talking's louder than singing... ditto w/me... until you start freestyling then mixing it with some vocals and go "waitaminute... my rapping totally overpowers my singing!" maybe i'll just have to scream-sing my lyrics :)
in any case God hears ya... don't matter how you worship God, just that you do it with all your heart and concentrating solely on him. "but God, i would truly like a drum set to back me up :)"

i WILL figure out the chords to Psalm 23 by the end of this week! i WILL! which indirectly means i WILL worship this week... it is such a tight worship song when played fast... kinda short though...

must get scholarship form filled out by this week! i procrastinate about it like... like... oh who am i kidding... like myself.

will start jump program soon... MUST start that soon.

you'll never take away my inner contentment... you'll never take away my joy... it's like kj-52 said, happiness lasts only a bit, but joy will always last forever(oh yeah he sounds totally black when he talks, whereas he's more eminem-ish when he freestyles)

i'm out... no really i am...

Today's sermon @harvest.org... here's the notes that I took:

He Believed
-Genesis 12-13

4 steps of ceramics:
-deciding which clay to use
-taking apart the clay, cutting it
-molding the clay
-baking the clay, displaying us

examples:
-Abraham
-Gideon
-Joshua

God wants to bless you, but you have to be willing to change

God detaches yourself from the world
-think of what Abraham had to do to get close to God
-it was BY FAITH that Abraham made his home as an alien in the promised land

God has to develop us
-we have to be tested
-when Abraham didn't trust God, it led to trouble, such as when he travelled down to Egypt
-God doesn't allow things to happen to you without his consent
-Believe means to: trust in, rely on, cling to

God displays us
-Gen 13: Ppl want to do what they wanted first, so Lot instead of being subservient chose first instead of putting his faith in God, and what satisfied his own flesh ended up destroying him
-Lust-> Sin-> Death
-God will give those who follow him EVERYTHING

i don't think that Psalm 23 song me and jon heard at "college life" was a "college life" specific song; Everyone @harvest.org just played that exact same song today, except slightly slower, take a look at the lyrics(i will listen back sometime later this week and figure out the chords):

Psalm 23
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You prepare a table before me
In the presence of my enemies
You anoint my head with oil
And my cup it overflows
With love, peace and joy
With love, peace and joy

Surely goodness and mercy and follow me
All the days of my life,
All the days of my life
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever, forever, forever, amen
Forever, forever, forever, amen

also, it was sweet listening to Everything That Has Breath with a loud bass guitar backup... and good, loud drumming, this is what i miss so much about doing worship solo.

www.engrish.com.... for those times you need to see azns screw up the english language like you never believe(it's also been added to my fave links on the left)... just take a look at the front page.

overall, this is what i gather from wes, bob, and jerm's critiques of my song, "Unknown to the World"

-i need to mix my vocals better; sometimes it's harsh, sometimes it's really soft; granted if i freestyle very fast(don't worry, it's not bust a rhymes fast), you won't be able to tell what i'm saying, but at the very least my volume level should remain the same... clipping's BAD.
-i should place my songs, lyrics and tabs somewhere on the internet(i'm so lazy... i had one started beforehand, why can't i motivate myself to keep it up?); would make it dling stuff a LOT easier for others
-wes can help w/bass(not really a critique, but cool nevertheless)
-wes also suggested asking river of life... they're planning on creating a cd of people's songs, and obviously they'd have better recording equipment than me
-i might really want to consider buying a stereo adapter, it would make the bass more clear... it would make everything a lot more clear. if you see any for reasonable prices, lemme know! i heard radio shack might have these, but i'm pretty sure guitar center might have something too(though it'd probably be a LOT more expensive)... also if i'm getting that, a cable that branches off to 2 parts would be nice too(that way i can hook to my amp AND my computer).
-maybe for future songs i harmonize with myself?
-2 words: live drums :)

it's too bad laura's com is effed over... she can't hear my .mp3 :( oh well, when in doubt, go live :)

i have never seen an NBA team work the other so hard than of tonight, esp considering how both of them before the game had the same record and one of them was #1 in the east conference:

Kings beat Nets on their home court 118-82; at one point of the game it was even(very near the beginning), then the Kings pulled away and just kept on pulling... most of the game they were up by 30+... at one point they were up by 47 pts. damn. Bibby worked Kidd. everyone on the Kings was clicking and landing their shots... all the Nets were missing like crazy. at one point we get this alleyoop from Divac to CWebb. goes to show how the east has no rebounding. none at all. all the tall guys are in the west. GO KINGS!

what was funny though was since wes doesn't have cable, i narrated the entire game to him on AIM. i would start posting the score, time left, who had the ball, who scored and how, etc.

i never realized how being outside and drenched in the rain looking to the sky makes me so awed of God's glory and his marvelous creations... most ppl don't like the rain and so hate it, but i could stand outside and look on in the most awe ever... it's beautiful. it really is. does your gratefulness in God make you stand more in awe of everything he creates and has created? i think so.

added some more links at my links section, for your pleasure.

me: i just dled the yao ming song
norm: you should play it over and over
norm: to annoy jon
me: hahah
me: i haven't told him yet...
me: i'll play it back twice in a row and tell you how he reacts
norm: no
norm: 4 times
me: haha...
me: uh, he doesn't look like he cares
me: .... maybe i didn't play it back enough
norm: louder
me: he can hear it alright
me: hahhah
me: he's leaving the room
me: i think i did annoy him
norm: hehe
norm: high five
me: high five

hehe... the yaoming song sounds so annoying... makes me actually crack up... close to 2 min of just hearing some chorus of "yao ming" over and over...

haha... norm's totally right... socal ppl ARE weaksauce. you don't know what's cold until you've done what i've done: jump into a swimming pool and swim for 2 hours... during the winter in the pouring rain for every weekday... or go to my house and live there during the winter. THAT'S cold. my mom absolutely refuses to use the heater AT ALL, not to mention my house naturally blocks out heat, so i go to sleep sometimes shivering curled up in a ball(and even then, i just wear a t-shirt and gym shorts then, with plenty of blankets). strange how i wake up fine, not sniffling or with a cold. maybe God's just blessed me in this area, i mean, i'm skinnier than a lot of other ppl, so i should be shivering more than others.... something about that, AND formally being on the swim team has perhaps made me more resistant to cold than most of my friends... sometimes i wonder if i'm iceman, cause bobby drake was resistant to cold :) thanks God. i know i wish i could have more at times, being human, but whenever i count my blessings, i rise up in praise. that's amazing.

in my weakness, you are glorified. in my weakness, you make me strong.
("this gives me strength *lost my wealth kept my hide they can't take away my faith only ruin my pride* the fact that i can rise")
sorry, i just had to quote myself, couldn't resist :)

MXPX going to be @UCR... i dunno when though.

i still can't believe louis hit some car w/jon's jaguar... hehehehe

funny saying i heard colin mockery(that how you spell his name?) said on "who's line is it anyway"

... it was the one where they have the actors act out bad blind dates, given props to work with.

colin put on a sailor's hat and just stared at the camera until cut to him, then focused on him.

*long pause*

"all hands on dick!"

:) :) :) :) :)

i was dying...

ok, from now on i go to sleep at 11:30 latest, and wake up 6:45 everyday... it's the only way...

strange how jerm looks all over the local area to buy a Gravis Pro gamepad, and yet i find it instantly when i return to to the bookstore to buy books for my elective classes. i wonder if he's still intent on actually buying it for me, cause if it he is, i could just show him the receipt and have him reimburse me. all in all it's a pretty good gamepad for my laptop(say hello to street fighter and virtua fighter WITHOUT breaking some keys on my keyboard!), though i think it's sometimes hard to hit the diagonals.

... school has started, which may or may not be a good thing.

basically it boils down to:
+i can play CS and MVC1 again, and surf the web like crazy
-i can't liberally record songs(and i left my bro's drum synthesizer at home)
+i will not be bored much now
-i have to work! for what might determine my future! of course i won't be bored! i'll be freaked!

i at 10:08 currently have this hard-ass headache... i think it may have something to do with these factors:

-my hair on my head was recently cut VERY short
-there's been a bit of wind/cold in davis recently(combine that with repeatedly alternating between warm indoors and the cold outdoors, and can you spell headshock?)
-i feel slightly sleepy

but whatever... i've never taken medicine for my headaches, and don't intend to. not when i'm going to bed in about an hour or so.

can't believe i couldn't find 2 books for my philosophy of biology class... what, do you guys who don't take that class just buy those books out of pure boredom?

umm... yeah...

it's all about what comes from the heart... nothing else.

some nice songs that i like that i haven't put down(will do tomorrow):

Santana W/Michelle Branch: The Game of Love
Superchick: Barlow Girls

little critique of my song by jerm:
-shrill at some places
-freestyling and singing part was cool, but i should work on making them blend together better(ie volume and stuff like that)

he still likes it though, so that's a plus... got a lot to think about...

i just checked my grade summary: A, B, B. thus, it's not a bad start, but obviously i've got to work harder. i will go to sleep early, wake up early each day, God willing. hopefully, that'll help me study better.

back in UCD, so expect my blog recordings to pick up speed again.

i guess i'll start with this: GO NINERS! damn, whadda game... whadda game... it was pretty much up to the Giants to muck it up for them to win it... the game was admittedly in their hands... go Garcia! get ready for Tampa Bay, and study up Defense, or you're not going to stop them!

i finished recording my first song, Unknown to the World! anybody want it for a free DL, you hit me up on AIM!

i'll comment on what Bob wrote to me:

"Can God sin? As a matter of fact, this is actually a
nonsensical question because of the very definition of
sin. Sin is all that is apart from God - apart from
His nature, apart from His character. The question is
in the same vein as "Can dark be light?" God is NOT
able to sin any more than I am able to become an
eggplant.

Numbers 23:18-20 - God is not a man, that he should
lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.

Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?

This can be confusing because the gods portrayed in
other religions, such as in Greek or Roman mythology,
are fallible - they get drunk, they sleep with women,
they commit evil. They have no obvious allegiance to
an idea of "good", but instead just have some level of
power, and because of this, they seem to be able to
"do bad things", or what we think of as "sin". The
Christian God, on the other hand, is THE standard for
truth and for good. God's acts are purposeful to
carry out His plan for the universe, and the whole of
time and human history is for God to bring glory to
Himself. What we can be thankful for is God's
character - that His standard is all-good, and that He
has the absolute power to back up that standard."

REPLY: the very definition of God is basically an all-powerful, all-present, all-knowing being who upholds moral right justly, or something along the lines of that. what's interesting, (and you can make a case by this of how Christianity is correct, while other religions aren't) is that other gods of other religions are basically based upon what we think gods are... thus you have these powerful beings who do shameful things... sleep with other beings, are punished by other gods for crimes, and often don't care about upholding moral right. even the Jewish God is somewhat portrayed as this being who does all the things we talked about, but we don't see a tender, caring God. some of us might think "oh if i were God i would be disgusted by the filth that these humans are creating, and would happily punish them." thus, we mold our God, it's not really who God is. the Christian God portrays him as all the things we listed so far, BUT also that he cares for us and is willing to become less of what he is so that we could be joined together. the Christian God has a HUGE emphasis on love; if you've read on the specifics on the crucifixation, the whipping, and the ensurance that someone undergoing crucifixation would die, you would have to realize someone would have to be willing to do this out of love and nothing else.

"A deceptively simple question, but it opens up many
important and deep questions of theology:

Life is not a series of notations in a ledger of
"good" and "sin". God does not look upon His children
with a disapproving eye, thinking, "Hm, I'm going to
wait for Jeremy to look lustfully at that girl and
then BAM! My Son will leave him behind." The gift of
grace is given once for all (Hebrews 7:27), and those
who have accepted this gift are no longer sinners, but
instead saints who still sin.

HOWEVER... does this then mean that we have license to
sin? Not at all! Because this once for all
substitutionary grace given to us because of Jesus'
sacrifice is only evident from the other side; i.e.,
God's. This gets somewhat into the concept of
predestination, which is a fascinating topic if people
don't get too heated or passionate. A short summary
as to how it applies here:

God knows who His people are, and have known since
before He created them. These people will be and are
"saved". However, since we are human, we live within
the scope of time and space, we live based upon what
we know - and what we know is where our heart is with
God right now. I don't know whether I'll still be
following God 10 years from now. I don't know for
ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN whether I'm within the family of
God's people. I think what's most important, though,
is to not worry about each extreme: being legalistic
to the point of paralysis about "sinning right before
Jesus comes", or to be so free and certain about my
salvation that I don't have to continue to grow my
faith. Jesus says that he is the Way, the Truth, and
the Life, and true freedom is found in him. How?

Psalm 37:4 - Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will
give you the desires of your heart.

What do we do? Delight ourselves in the Lord. Enjoy
His Word, pray, sing and make music, live lives of
faith, tell others about Him - in other words, to not
just do the things He wants us to, but to cultivate a
heart that enjoys this life. And our heart's desires
will be molded to those of God, and we draw closer to
Him as a result. This is freedom - freedom from fear,
freedom from laziness, freedom from the trappings of
this world that so easily entangle.

So what's the conclusion? Live a life of faith.
Don't be thinking about sinning and not sinning, but
instead dwell upon and delight in God and His
presence. The rest will take care of itself."

REPLY: thanks for reassuring me. perhaps the reason why this concept disturbs some Christians is this verse: "We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?(Roms 6:2)" so some might take the act of sinning as being cut off from God's family AGAIN. and i guess i have to remind myself how we shouldn't mold God into the person we want... he probably is more compassionate to us than we think. live a life of putting him in the center of your life, and you shouldn't have a problem. i remember reading "The Case For Christ" and in one part of the book Lee questions a pastor why God would confine people who don't believe in him to hell. his response? something along the lines of this: in the beginning man sins because he begins to see himself in the middle of the universe; as a result, all sorts of crimes we hear about happen: murder, adultery, rape, robbery occur. God doesn't confine others to hell because they didn't believe in him; he does it because these are the type of people who repeatedly think the world revolves around them. they refuse to give up their spot in the universe for something better. another look at it: if God took his hands off the world, we would essentially create hell.

"End-times prophecies can be fascinating and fun to
corroborate with real-world events, but I do think
there's a danger in spending too much time with it
because we can't know for sure what is being referred
to in these prophecies. Some that we think are
fulfilled may not actually be fulfilled, and others
which we think are a long way off may have already
come to fruition.

Matthew 24:36,42-44
36"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the
angels in heaven, nor the Son,but only the Father.
42"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on
what day your Lord will come. 43But understand this:
If the owner of the house had known at what time of
night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch
and would not have let his house be broken into. 44So
you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will
come at an hour when you do not expect him.

We don't know for sure. We can see some clues. But
the goal is to keep watch, and to prepare."

REPLY: i guess it is true: you can't tell for sure when the Son of God is coming back, or when we'll be pulled up towards heaven. however, there are few signs which hint that the end is coming near, aside from that, it is very vague(we can safely say that God promises that trouble will constantly escalate in magnitude for Christians until the day of judgment, and Jesus even notes how there are certain signs which HINT at what has to happen before he'll come back, though he doesn't tell the exact time when he'll be back). and even aside from these clues, we have our own individual deaths to deal with... just because sign X hasn't been fulfilled doesn't mean i can wait out some 20 some more years... what if God decides to take me early? there was this janitor who struck it rich in a Vegas casino by simply placing 1 coin in the slot machine while cleaning up, and then he died on a huge vacation trip to celebrate his winnings to a hopeful future life. i think though all of this is useless, true or not; as a Christian, do we really need to worry about the signs that hint at the coming of the end of the world? we have accepted Christ, are in his family, are walking in communion with him every day, and have a guarenteed spot in heaven. there is no need to worry about what will happen in the future, because God will take care of us each and every day.

there's so much i have done and have NOT yet done on my winter break... i'm surprised it's slipping by so fast... this sunday i'm going back up.

yes, i am going to miss my cupertino home and living area while in davis: i admit it: it's basically on 2 counts: 1)my friends... sniff 2)phil's room... for the 3 weeks that i have been at home during december, i have been just setting up and leaving all my guitar equipment, laptop and lap mic all ready to go in there... i could not do this in davis in my dorm room for security reasons, not to mention it's always very quiet in my house, ideal for recording. it's not like i cranked out a complete album this break period, but i've had substantial time to love the way that i worship God :) it's too bad that i hadn't figured out to use the drum synthesizer kit beforehand, or i would've saved having to rerecord a song and thus i could start on my 2nd one. *note to self: create fast-paced worship song before next break so that you and wes can jam together*

there's a lotta stuff that has happened this break... i'm surprised how much we've gotten together to hang out... there's too many memories for me to scratch my brain and write down... i know, i usually write everything down in great detail like Luke the doctor of the Bible, but it's all too fast.

-wed, went w/the others to TonyRoma's to celebrate Jon and Norm's bday. it's kinda funny cause Jon's so lazy he couldn't even choose where to eat that quickly... i remember taking 1 second to choose where to eat on my bday when i was asked. before that we had played bball, so that was nice *i miss being able to play bball w/the others so much, it was fun getting some hook shots in as well as a couple of blocks* *i need to find some program to up my jumping height! i really want to be able to dunk on a rim that's about the height of the one found at redwood christian park! i am SO CLOSE to being able to dunk, well, i dunno, i can just barely reach over the rim, i need maybe 6 inches more God, just 6 inches more!* i still can't believe Laura doesn't like cheese or bell peppers... dude, that's already 2 of my favorite foods!(well, uncooked red bell peppers rank pretty high amongst my favs of veggies)! well, it's cause she ordered french onion soup, and didn't know that it came with cheese... the cheddar was clotted together to the onions making it look like a huge booger(hey, i would've eaten it if i had ordered it, but i was full) lesse, we came back to mike's, and then we gave jon our presents: he got happy feet from the others, skechers from mike, and a gi-joe 2-pack w/snake eyes and cobra commander from me(i was very pleased to see that he liked my gift). we watched some espn and iron chef too(there were some jokes like the instant replay and slow-mo... what else, a pen?) those chefs are very creative... bread in soup... i'm not used to that concept though... although the steak looked nice. for me though, food's food... if you take the time to appreciate it, you'll enjoy eating almost anything... maybe that's why i can eat just about anything. oh yeah, it was funny weighing myself @mike's cause i was leaning to one side and thus shocked to see that i was 114... what, i lost THAT much weight? then i straightened up, and saw that i was 124... whew... some weird farting exhibition when nearly every socal person except norm had left... and some weird stick m&m's into my navel stuff too... haha...
-day before, we got to mike's house to celebrate new year's day... watched "she's all that": the "super size my balls" joke was funny. watched the strong-man competitions... those were... interesting... i can't really remember what we did there... a bit too shady, just TV and some stuff. i remember song recording earlier...
-monday, we just got together at lunch for some taco bell, then headed towards norm's house... we then headed to sheng kee for dinner(haha... we saw some restaurant that literally said "Phouc Nga")... since we couldn't bowl or do other stuff. haha... norm ordering in chinese was hilarious. i still can't believe the chinese word for sandwich on the menu was "san do wich" :) ordered grilled eel... that was good... i love that stuff. so at the sixers vs. warriors game, it was really good... i think we got a good game that night. noteworthy moments:
*it took a while for me to get used to not hearing any announcers, since i've never been to a bball game... it was kinda funny hearing jeremy say out loud, "why aren't there any announcers?"
*also funny was how the girls were cheering for AI and the boys were cheering for the warriors... you could just tell from listening to the crowd... i even heard a girl shout "GO Allen Iverson!" and how the crowd that cheered for the sixers sounded more feminine... not to stereotype; i like the sixers too, it's just that it was warrior territory...
*arenas flipped the bball into the air... richardson then sprinted over for an alley-oop attempt, but missed it... it was kinda funny how everyone in the arena was like "OOOOHHHH.... awwww" i think mike saw it first(he went "OOOOH!" first) cause when someone flips a ball near the top of the key, you KNOW they're attempting an alley-oop... no one shoots like that
*ok, so the announcer had some promotion deal going on where if the warriors shot over 100 pts, everyone would recieve a coupon for a free chalupa @taco bell... when we got to 99 pts norm and jerm's chants changed from "go warriors" to "chalupa!" of course, you know what we said when he shot that free throw and hit 100... :) so it was kinda funny... jerm was chanting for the warrior girls (:D), norm was chanting for the chalupa (:D), me? i was chanting for boykins (:D), who, btw...
*boykins got 10 pts... so it wasn't groundbreaking, and he didn't lead the warriors, but i was surprised... it was just fun to cheer for some guy who's THAT short... 5'5... it's like a kid playing ball w/a 30+ year old! that layup attempt+ a foul for a 3 pt conversion was SWEET... occasionally i heard "c'mon, take him(referring to A.I.) boykins!" from the crowd... haha... i was alternating between yelling "yeah boykins!" and "go number eleven!"
*jaimison hit a 1-handed dunk wide open going for a fast break point... got the entire crowd out of their seats and cheering...
*overall, i think mike summed it up when he said that there were a lot of turnovers during this game... there were a LOT of missed shots and bad passes, strips... on both teams... it was still a very good game... the warriors tried hard... dunleavy made a lot of good 3s... oh yeah, jaimison hit a 3!
-sunday, we got together @laura's house again... haha... fun, fun... and watched die hard 3(samuel l. jackson can't load an mp5navy... that's sad, oh yeah, it was funny how they were so smart solving all the riddles in the movie) as well as con air... while eating 31 ice cream... that was simplistic, but fun.

i'm gonna log off, too much talking... but here's some final thoughts...

i'm hoping that someday we(CTCC friends) can just get together and just jam... like how we've been meeting up together this break constantly and just doing stuff? imagine just getting together like that, but bringing our instruments... it's cool how we hang out and how some of us love worshipping God with our instruments... maybe i'm daydreaming about this, but maybe it's not too far out of reach? i know wes expressed to me how if i wanted some bass help for recording songs he'd help me, so maybe it's not too far out of reach...

i think i'll dl jake-army of love when i wake up... i really like that song.

oh geez... nobody calls me to hang out this break... i'm gonna end up wasting it... either jerm's taking care of his sis @home, or, yeah... maybe i'll just call back... right after i sign off...

oh, my gawd(pushes hand downward)... like, LIKE OH MY GAWD(pushes hand downward)
(geez i hate how some teenage girls talk... and i can't believe it took me 19 years to finally jot something like this down... then again, i'm just writing what comes to mind right now)

'k, i'm signing off... i can't think... something about being home for 2 weeks w/o work to do has really numbed my thinking process... but that could be due to the fact that i'm not doing anything so there's nothing to note.

*sigh* i am so lazy getting up these days i get up at noon, so i'll make my message for thur and Xmas short so i can rise up early and praise God...

I HATE NETZERO POPUP ADS! 1 PER 10 MINUTES IS OK, BUT STOP SPAMMING ME EVERY SINGLE MINUTE! GEEZ...

ok, yesterday i went over to justin's house for dinner, which was nice... hahah... dinner at the lins'... you might get wrong impressions if you didn't know WHICH lin family i was talking about... it was very nice... sukiyaki... and then i played some cs @their house afterward. like i said before, i have the weirest CS config for movement, i don't think the 2 could figure out why i use pinky-ring-middle to move. i think i am either getting good at that game(or i should say better, i still get about a 25% kill:death ratio), or the students in the bay area suck a little. cause i got overjoyed somewhat when lotsa ppl named "Player" showed up, cause then you know they're a newbie, esp if they don't even know how to name themselves :) i should get their IP address sometime, so i can play w/them more. 2 memorable instances playing w/them:
-throw a flashbang down a tunnel, then attempt to rush in when some terrorist on my team misthrows his flashbang, and it blinds me... kinda annoyed and laughing, so i backtrack so i'm not in the line of fire, then type out "next time aim your flashbang better"... he basically threw it from behind me so that just as i was about to enter the tunnel it bounces off the arch overhead and lands at my feet
-'k, so another round... i've rushed in as a terrorist w/an ak-47, taken out 1 counter-terrorist, then guarded the bomb site so a teammate planted his C4 explosive. ...then i hear the bomb ticking faster and shriek outloud "AACCK!" (justin heard me and laughed) so i pulled out my knife(running speed's faster when you carry light weapons) and rush out, but a newbie counter-terrorist is there and starts shooting very slowly with a weak weapon at me(i know it's either weak or he's a newbie cause i was getting hit maybe 10 times in slow intervals before i died)... but i'm panicking and more interested in getting my ass out of the bomb site than shooting him down(which now reflecting if i did i would've gotten an easy kill), so i continue dumbly running straight ahead with a knife and taking the hits til i died... HAD i pulled out my AK-47 instead, i mightve gotten a kill AND still made it out

too bad the celtics got murdered by the nets... ok, it was kinda expected, since the nets are #1 in the east, but still, by a 30 pt deficit? and what... you get 38 to 1 in the 1st quarter? now that's just pathetic. but at least the kings won, on laker territory! so happy about that... down w/la! too bad i didn't watch THAT game... it was highly anticipated, and a huge rivalry feeling(fight between fox and christie, shaq calling kings "queens")... no handshakes during the tip-off. btw, this is kinda late in knowing, but i'm relieved that christie was the one who got into a fight w/fox, and not bibby... had for such a time thought it was bibby... nice... so his beliefs DO reflect how he acts on the court :) oh yeah... t-mac got some HUGE pts yesterday too! that's really nice in knowing...

btw i find it hilarious that divac's doin a "It's Crunch Time" commercial now... haven't seen it, but is it sorta like the dialogue that Shaq does? would be kinda funny... you can't really tell what either player is saying :)

ok... so Case For Christ really is a really nice read(btw happy late bday Jesus!)... it was interesting, cause one of the experts Lee Strobel interviewed in the book is this Christian pastor... who's a Jew... Lee then sidetracks from the usual immediate interview to ask him how he came from a Jew to know Christ and... it was just awesome... basically, long story summed up, the man went back into the Old Testament, read it carefully and found SO many predictions about Jesus being the Messiah, that he calls up his mom to send him a Jewish bible just to be sure Christians weren't tossing about words, and it turns out it's the exact same thing! he then goes into the New Testament and finds out Jesus is actually about Jews in the gospel! reads further, and finds out the Jews are actually the ones who tried to get the news to the Gentiles first! what's more, Lee also shows the example of another jew who is so shocked by what he finds in the old testament about Jesus that he challenges 3 rabbis to disprove this evidence, and they simply couldn't... it's really amazing... go read the book... my short schpew won't even really cover what i think right now and know from reading it...

just to end, a short conv clip w/laura that i thought was funny(and maybe it's just me):

me: plans for tomorrow?
laura: mm nope
laura: well watching a basketball game
laura: at 7
laura: but other than that
laura: nothing
laura: i dont htink
laura: i'll make a bag
laura: hehe
me: haha
me: that's cool... what type of bag?
laura: handbag
laura: haha
laura: id unno
me: what material?
laura: cloth
laura: y
laura: ya

ok, and my mouse's crapping up too, so i'll just quit right now... plans for tomorrow? read more Case For Christ, finish my song(which i have NEVER gotten around to finish recording), then see what's up... oh yeah get IP addresses for CS... etc, etc.

Unknown to the World: about say, 40% finished recording... i'm about done with the chorus and verse one, BUT need to rerecord the power chords for the chorus. guess there's a reason ppl tune down the volume during chorus. it still sounds kinda nice. might want to record some tambourines just to get a rhythum sense in there... damnit wish i could play a drum set. and/or owned one... turntables would also be nice. but when that's done, i'm concentrating on writing a worship song so that me and wes can get together and jam for it. that'll be fun.

NBA double header on Xmas day: ok, Kings better wipe the damn Lakers' asses across the floor. as for the other game... GO MUTUMBO! (and/or Paul Pierce)

what else...

The Case For Christ is starting to become a very interesting read for me. Jesus has always stated how ppl who believe without seeing are going to be more blessed than those who believe BY seeing... but it's still awesome and spellbinding how much evidence there IS of Jesus existing, of him performing miracles and of him being the Son of God that even as a believer seeing that evidence can increase your grasp of Christianity tenfold. for instance, the fact that Jewish ppl referred to Jesus as a sorceror actually means he DID perform miracles. they could not disprove that. so instead, they tried to find some other explanation for it, but of course some of the other explanations don't sound as reasonable. it's really too much to cover what i've learned... part of it would take too long for me, and part of it would also take too long on this site.

it's strange how i miss PART of Davis, though it almost has to completely do with the high speed internet access part: watching VF movies and playing CS... but i'd rather be here playing my guitar in near-perfect silence recording songs to God any day than that deserted place. sometimes i wonder if silence really IS golden... it can be in a lotta cases.

kinda interesting watching my friends play Mahjong yesterday... hmm... Monopoly and/or Risk CAN take friendships apart... sorta... it can look kinda funny playing it with your friends. oh yeah, and it's been so long since i've played Super Smash Bros... Captain Falcon and Link are so fun to use.

friday's fun night was... interesting... the skit section was better last year, but i think other than that Alice did a very nice job of duplicating and even going beyond what we college freshmen tried last year. the skit might've been better if more ppl brought wacky props. that why last years' skit contest was better. but the poems were still very funny, probably the highlight IMO of the contests... esp our groups' fob poem :)

i am BLANK, pretty much unloaded all my thoughts just now...

nothing else satisfies me like worshipping God with all my heart... for this moment in time...