y'kno, it's gonna get to a point where i just detest ANY cafeteria food at Davis... like right now my breakfast was almost entirely composed of fruit... haven't had any juicy stuff for a long time. most of my 5-a-day has been from vegetables here. steamed ones.

whoopdedoo, laura's getting a guitar around winter break. probably an acoustic one, cause she feels that she isn't so HARDCORE right now, like she says. hey, whoever said i'm hardcore? just need to extend your listening to something i dunno, beyond punk rock?

i'm still surprised that justin wants to know how to play drums... god bless that good man :)

this is the 1st time i've gone nearly total commando style in davis... jon's a veteran though :)

me: btw, you must be pretty happy to type in yellow and pink right now :-)
laura: haha
laura: ya
me: see, if i did that, people would think i'm gay :-)
me: heh heh
laura: haha
laura: no not true
laura: well if you're so not gay
laura: then it's just funny
me: you mean i am? :-)
laura: huh?
laura: well my friend has a pink background
laura: and it's just funny
me: heh heh
me: so maybe i should change my bg to a light purple color and my font color to a bright pink color? :-)
laura: no
laura: that's a bit too much
me: 'k, so *heh heh* how much is "just-right" gay? :-)
laura: mm dont be gay
laura: unless you that secure about it

go watch the music video of Linkin Park's "Cure For the Itch"(techno version... y'kno, the title which isn't spelled correctly) at Launch.com... pure entertainment... nothing but breakdancing during the entire video... and very good turntabling... 2 thumbs up for Hahn's DJing abilities.

my fingers ache... ditto w/my eyes... the road to writing up chorded versions of worship songs is hard and tiring... but the end is worth it

jon: are you going to get jeremy anything for his birthday?
me: i dunno, i don't have a lotta money, so i'll just end up giving something like "this is what i think of when think of you" type of gift
jon: you mean food?
me: yes.... i mean NO!!!! well, maybe i could give him a dog chew bone
jon: help him lose weight

but yeah, seriously, what AM i gonna get him?

i think what'll end up happening for me this year, is that this'll be the 1st year i end up buying something for myself this birthday... i was too lazy to reply back to my brother, and HINT about what i wanted for my bday... oh well, there's always christmas. but i'm starting to not really care... God's blessed me with so much that at this point i'm not sure an additional tangible thing would be necessary, aside from maybe a 12 Stones CD.

to bed i go... class @7:30. don't wanna be crapped out for the rest of the day... gotta finish revising my essay and print it out. and finish writing up the rest of the songs we wanna do.

there's more to pray about than we think... >D

how can jon think davis is chilly now? i seriously love the current weather state... sunny, with occasional gusts of wind... so not too hot, not too cold. if this was heaven's climate, i'd be so happy. just get an extremely great feeling outside, pure adorance of God.

you don't know how much of a relief it is to be done with the 1st draft of your midterm paper... it's like the clouds just broke apart and the sun just burst forth. will edit later, and tomorrow.

David Crowder Band- Our Love Is Loud

nothing gets me in the mood than a good worship band, all playing together in harmony in each instrument's distinct way. like the song i just stated.

heading off to lunch now.

i'm supposed to be typing up my SAS midterm paper right now so i don't have to overwork myself the next 2 days, so lemme make what i wanna say for now short...

after buying the DOD AC adapter, and going back to Davis, it turns out that i bought an AC adapter which won't work... at least they still sell an AC adapter for discontinued fX pedals like the one i have... so i'm gonna have to return it and get the correct one this time... no more mistakes, reach. don't worry though... i still have some batteries, so i'll just have to do this worship session with batteries... well, actually i could do the actual thing with the adapter... just that the practices will have to be with batteries.

jerm needs help losing weight... he really does... pray for him...

that's it... keep encouraging me, bob(and whoever from our church is reading this): i can get pretty lazy at times.

oh yeah, i know we don't usually talk about the taiwanese congregation side of our CTCC church, but if you read this, please pray for Pastor Tong... a large part of the taiwanese congregation doesn't like him. it seems like he's just taking advantage of his long contract. according to my mom, he spends at least 1 week out of 1 month in Indonesia, and when he's here, his sermons are hardly scripture-based. no lesson to them either. and sometimes it also seems like his pride gets in the way... like one time he told the taiwanese choir right in front of the entire congregation that their music wasn't good and that when he was in the indonesian choir, everyone lined up to believe in jesus. what else... oh yeah, how bout the fact that he barely knows anybody from the congregation by name? also, we can't get rid of him, cause we signed a contract that puts him here for 4 yrs i think? so i think the only solution is to pray that the elders will have the courage to talk to Pastor Tong and tell him that some of his actions aren't right and that he needs to change them. now, i'll be honest... i haven't been going to the Taiwanese service, i'm going strictly by what i heard from my mom... haven't asked around the others to see if what my mom's saying is true. but if it is, once again i ask ya to pray for the elders. geez, all this plus what's going on with the youth group makes me wonder how much our church is crumbling apart.

w00t! w00t! w00t! i'm gonna love worshiping God! let's get it on!

grace: im boreddd
me: so i'm helping kill your boredom right now :-)
me: oh yeah, did you check my email?
grace: yessir
me: sir... 1st time i was ever called that... i haven't matured THAT much?
me: but yeah, you gonna come to that?
grace: HAHA
grace: i am not sure yet
me: c'mon, you get so bored when all us college guys leave, and now you cop out on us? way to express your feelings :-)
grace: ahhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it's not you guys
grace: its jsut i dont like fj;aoiuwre yaeh;fouaoir nm
me: oh yeah, i understand THAT :-)
me: *backs off* my bad, my bad :-)
grace: ahahah yes exactlayyy

while the games area on UCD is far from perfect, the MVC1 there's pretty much a steal... 25 cents to play, but wait... 25 cents gives your 5 CREDITS! heh heh... no wonder why everytime i watch someone play against the computer, they offer me to play against them... THAT'S WHY. and yet i STILL can't combo into Chun-Li's air super combo after 20 credits?

lesse, i just visited this site on the net... somewhat sick, but has all these really funny pictures... check it out if you can stomach yourself....

http://www.aardvarkarchie.com/pictures/index.htm

my personal favorite was the squirrel which had male genetalia... heh heh

another lesson relearned: better to study spread over day by day, than by trying to cram it all in the last day. too much info. well, for me, almost like that... i crammed it in the last 2 days. not good, not good. another mistake re-done... how many times til i actually learn God? anyways, if i do get an A on this chem test it would certainly be all you; not that i did that bad, but i don't feel too confident either.

if i can just find some pro audio recording gear... that is under $20... for a laptop.

watched some guy wiping the floor with Chun-Li playing MVC1... oh man, must re-learn that game...

aside from the SAS term paper #3 and Math midterm #3(concentrating on the big events here), i'm pretty much free til thanksgiving break... gonna have some fun breaking out my guitar and going to the MU(they're separate events... i don't play the guitar in the arcade).

AAAAAAAAAA IIIIIIIII! w00t! wipe that floor! wipe that floor!

reading plans... get done with "The Case For Christ" and "Celebration of Discipline" before i end this school year.

although i still yearn for home... there's still another advantage to being in davis besides the high-speed internet access... the winter's a lot more pleasant around here... it's not THAT frigid in the morning, you might even think that it's a somewhat cold spring going on. i get along just fine with a t-shirt, jeans, and long-sleeved jersey.

and i thought norman and laura's legs were white when we went to socal... the cold's kinda pushing all my blood vessels away from my skin. yesterday, when i was taking off my socks to go shower, i seriously took a look at my feet and wondered out loud... "what the hell?!? am i turning byron?!?" pasty-white feet of mine...

how sick would it be to high-5 someone while you're taking a piss?

i wonder how many classes jon's gonna miss in the morning... as i sit here typing this, he just missed another one

ok, so i know god wants us to learn from our mistakes; problem is, we want instant results whereas god tries us and wants us to be patient; i wonder how many mistakes it takes for me to take before i start learning not to make them... stuff like forcing myself to study, to give my teachers what they expect in a paper... geez, that bad omen of mine? somewhat true... not that i got a 65%, but that i got what i didn't want... a par grade. so again... how long? how many?

persistence is god-sent... so is self-control, both of which i need to train myself in...

heh heh... the davis cafeteria's serving trix "nooo... silly rabbit, trix are for kids! damn longears trying to take easter away from jesus! ok you were saying?"

i really dislike how the construction workers are NEVER done with installing the firm alarms in the buildings... for crying out loud, just get it done, instead of trying to wake us all up with your annoying drilling every day! even those that are up are having a dang hard time trying to study above that ruckus.

ok, gonna turn off laptop, and head to the library to study for chem midterm on thursday. i really need to be hard on myself... it's not that i haven't been trying to keep up with work, but i personally work better in TOTAL silence. my stomach's full, so that guarentees maybe 1-2 hrs worth of good study time. pray for me.

diaoh.com... too good; too many good Virtua Fighter 4 Evolution tournament matches to watch...

ok, the blurb-site problem WAS my computer... got it fixed... thanks again, bob.

conversation with a long-time MVHS friend:
me: is work hard @ berkeley?
nikhil: hahaha
nikhil: no, not especially
nikhil: just normal I guess
nikhil: more reading though
nikhil: but less writeen
nikhil: so it balances
me: yeah, i guess there's less written stuff in college, but it seems like there's so much less time, since you actually WANT to be prepped for class
nikhil: hahahaha
nikhil: That may be
me: except for my short calc class... i can fall asleep in that and be just fine :-)
nikhil: hahaha, I do that with mine too

i just HAD to run outta correction tape yesterday when i COULD'VE gotten my chem lab done... auuurgh.

bad omen? dream of getting a 65% on a midterm essay... another prediction from God? tossed and turned last night wondering if it was going to be true.

ok, back to work... somebody please tell me if they're seeing the background of the tables(or boxes) of this blurb-site of mine as a green... it's been ticking me off, but it may just be me.

you have to check this out: go to downloads.com, and download this:

Ots CD Scratch 1200

too funny, like your own turntable for your PC... for free... too bad you can't record what you make, or play mp3s. but then you could always burn your mp3s eh? the only REAL problem is that you can't use 2 hands while doing this... only 1 action essentially at one time. no scratching while messing with the crossfader. but anyhow, had too much fun screwing around with my Linkin Park CD.

ok, just came back from church... online church... ain't that a weird feeling? http://www.day7.tv i've said it before, all of us have grown spiritually, even though you don't think about it; see, norm even invited me to watch his church via the online site. and we had some chit-chat about how the worship service seemed shallow cause we were watching it more than participating. then he joked how he should go wearing something noticeable and tell me to log in.

then wes asked me how my spiritual life was goin, and we had some chit-chat about that... sez he's into ecclesiastes.

nevertheless, here's what i got from the sermon on Genesis chapter 4:

Genesis 4
-The 1st physical death
-This followed the 1st spiritual death, separation from God
-Children have this sinful nature due to the 1st couple
-After man's sin, they were commanded to work
-It could be a testimony to work hard for Christ; he commands us to
-2nd Tess: If you don't work, you don't eat
-You could have fellowship with God AS LONG AS you have the proper attitude; a proper attitude simply comes from the heart(which is the reason why God didn't look on favor towards Cain)
-When 2 or 3 are gathered in my name, I am there with them
-Part of worship is giving
-David: a man after God's heart
-Think about when Jesus saw a widow giving out 2 copper coins
-God loves a cheerful giver
-Most of our anger hurts ourselves, since the other person doesn't even know about it
-God WAS trying to reason with Cain and help him
-NOTHING is hidden
-Ecclesiates: Fear God and keeps his commands, cause God will bring every action into judgment, good or bad
-Matt 10:32-33: If you acknowledge Jesus b4 men, he'll acknowledge you b4 God, but if you disown him b4 men, he'll disown you b4 God

(conversation on group worship on thanksgiving friday)
jerm: i remeber that last year. we really stunk it up at least hahah
me: yeah, he communicated that to us too
jerm: yeye
jerm: hehe
jerm: and her names jenni
jerm: lol
me: uh, plz explain? heh heh
jerm: OOOPs
jerm: wrong im box
jerm: sorry
jerm: lol
me: heh, i thought you were talking about jen su and her FRIENDS
jerm: HAHAHAHHAHAHHA
me: so i was confused, thinking, did jen su ruin your worship last thanksgiving friday?
jerm: heheh
jerm: nope

(me trying to type with my right hand while eating tacos from del taco)
wes: whats luwen's email
me: gimme a sec, i've got hot sauce on my left hand
wes: haha
wes: aite

damn site still doesn't fix the weird green background color! and i am honest in saying i'm not doing anything to the site! i really hope it clears tomorrow.

you'd think i'd learn after the 1st mistake but nooo.... i woke up at 9:00, shut the alarm clock off, and went right back to sleep... right til 12:00. so marks another weekend of missing church. i wonder if God's annoyed at me... i remember thinking to myself why we need a church, and based on what i've thought of, of course it's not necessary as long as you can find ways to learn from God and praise him, but still... we need to keep the sabbath day holy, and unless if i can find some way to do it today, uhh...

heh heh... 1:30 AM marks the 1st time i played mahjong... against lydia, jerm and norm. that was fun. of course, lydia beat us all ;) too bad jon wasn't in on the fun.

right now there's something weird going on with this blurb-site of mine... the background color of the tables are all green... usually they're white. but i don't remember typing any new commands in the template... so i think it should clear up soon... hopefully.

i am so tired today... just work, work, work today.

i hate chem labs... now i didn't say i hated chem, i said i hated chem labs... those things take forever to do a write-up... god knows how many times i screwed up, scribbled out my errors, and continued writing today. i could've been studying for my upcoming chem test if i didn't have that to do... and my midterm paper. and beyond that... couldve been playing guitar. and i'm not even done with that as i sit writing this.

just to write this down so i don't forget the numerous churches around here: http://www.davis411.com/cat/subcat/churches.cfm; will try the University Covenant Church tomorrow.

there are mostly parks around here, not much outside of that. though there's some japanese eateries, pho, and some chinse.

Linkin Park- High Voltage sounds so much better when it's recorded live, like during their House of Blues concert.

-finish chem lab
-start chem prelab
-study for thur chem test
-midterm paper due wed before thanksgiving
and on top of that, i should finish writing down the chorded versions of our planned worship songs... see how much time you high schoolers get? be grateful for what you've got.

11:00 PM; this marks the 1st time i ever saw fog in davis... just went outside and *whoa*... felt like i was seeing right through smoke... when i picked up my pace to jog a bit around, it got my hair sorta wet. when you can't see something about 5 feet in front of your face, that's pretty bad.

stephan marbury with the layup to beat the clock and win the suns the game! oh man... heh heh... yao ming got a dunk!

anyways, the games area had this special today: $8 for use of all the facilities inside... for free. well, technically it's more like unlimited usage, but for me, if i could shell out extra money, i would be content playing VF on my laptop for a long time so i declined. besides, i don't wanna play Area 51 THAT bad.

am i pumped up for worship? oh yeah... but in what ways? expecting others to join in and show huge attitudes for christ? or expecting my college friends to play extremely well? well, it's more the fact that we are getting together to jam... i wouldn't care if we all sounded like whack... the fact that we get together is it. and our attitude. at least THAT'S what's supposed to count.

God bless david c. back at CTCC... he's helping out the youth, even though things look dire... ditto w/alice t. grace w. has a bit to work there though ;)

recently, everytime i turn on my laptop, all i think about is God and worship... heh heh... if this keeps up, i'm gonna suffer so badly in class ;)

matt redman- holy moment
tim hughes- jesus, you alone
10 shekel shirt- meet with me

^ roXoring worship songs

alright... must pull oneself away from laptop and study....

registering for classes is such a biatch. as is my time that i waste.

Tim Hughes/Paul Oakley- Jesus, You Alone... this worship song roXors! haha... i had to say it, somebody had to say it!

you can see a very distinct difference between the way youth/young college ppl write online to the young adults... take a look at how me and david write online, then take a look at bob, chris, reni, etc... they write so much more.

i had no idea ZhiZhi Wang was now on the Clippers... jon calls him useless, heh heh. well, at least he can inbound the ball ;)

time to hit the MU; my trigger finger's itchy...for those of you who don't know, that's the Memorial Union, the arcade/bowling/pool area on UC Davis(http://gamesarea.ucdavis.edu). it's not the best thing(i would totally prefer X-Cape in UCLA or SVGL), but at least Area 51 is 1 quarter with 5 lives. and besides, i'm pooped; i don't feel like writing the rest of tonight, except for maybe relearning some worship songs.

11.29.02... ARE YOU PUMPED? that's right kiddies, break out the distortion pedals, tune your fenders, tighten the snare drum, and test the reverb on the mikes... we are gonna jam all for God!

244--- <-- G power chord

i can't put anger, frustration, and rage into words, cause there's just no way; i might be able to describe it picturesquely though. so i'm just gonna make a footnote here that i still have a long way to work for what i want to become. some ppl just get on your nerves, and they don't even know it... and yeah, i DO hate the way i feel tonight.

i am a definite long shot from what you would consider to be chink. oh sure, i look asian, but my thoughts are anything but chink. aside from the notion of working hard.

is that all there is to life? just... material possessions, a partner, and children? seriously... how superficial can we get?

i see girls and fame
that's the game
rushing past to claim
anything but true wealth
i find it so hard
living the life you want me to live
this is the tart of life
when you're shallow
it never really gets sweet
and people stop there
never willing to go deep

have you tasted the bread of life?
have you found the truth of unchanges?
until you can open your eyes
i will always be miles above you

according to wes, there was an earthquake in his home about a while ago, mini one, a sway back and forth

FINALLY i finished organizing my winter quarter... i can go back to wandering in my mind.

snl: litter critters... that cracked me up for some time.

haha... thanx for the pics norm

can't wait til thanksgiving... so much to be thankful for...

so many empty promises... so many naive ppl... but i feel some of us are beginning to see the light... that gives me hope...

(referring to a church in berkeley)
mandy: it feels kinda weird though cuz everyone thinks im korean
mandy: cuz chang could be like a korean last name too
mandy: and well they just assume im korean
mandy: and this lady just like randomly started talking to me in korean in the bathroom
me: heh heh; maybe if you squinted your eyes and pushed them upward at the edges ;-)
mandy: HAHAHA
mandy: i know! i totally have chinky eyes, not gooky ones
mandy: aaaaah well

when's the last time someone AIM'd me FIRST? heh heh. and it just happened twice today. from 2 girls, both from CTCC.

if you have not discovered just how superficial this world has become and how much we've become trapped by this system... you don't know just how high i've become... not a single care in the world, and unlike the drug high, mine won't ever wear off... ever.

vacation recap:

this was overall a very nice veterans day weekend that i got, mainly above all that all us CTCC guys/gals got together in socal and just did stuff together. pretty much everyone farted too ;) hey, actually i STILL am! ucla's beans caught up to me, as well as all the meat i ate there. the worship cd we were listening to in the car was also very nice.

Notable stuff:

Friday:
car trip:
-a traffic jam plus me not wisely going to the bathroom when i got the chance meant that i had to so desperately go that we had to pull over on the side of the road while i jumped out, ran a couple of feet into brush and pee for 5 min(can anyone say a retreat repeat?)
-then there was the ever-famous dog incident: after the traffic jam cleared, we sped up, going around 80. the van on the right started slowing down, and right when we were about to pass them 2 large, bulky dogs ambled out slowly. jerm slammed on the brakes, but we still hit them insanely hard and rolled right over them. knocked out a fog light and bent the license plate. jerm was so distraught he wouldn't drive for the rest of the trip down.
-then we saw a buncha trash on a truck that looked so much like an elephant; jerm noticed it first.
-jon also ate most of jerm's onion rings
-jerm farted in the car
-jerm talked about fatsoburger. then he also forgot what tsai translated to in english.
-we had a really nice DEEP spiritual discussion in the car... something that we've not really delved into before.
-honestly, so much happened on the way TO riverside we wondered if we should just go home ;)
at riverside:
-the campus where norm rooms LOOKS SO NICE! it is really something.
-met neeraj... nice. turns out he rooms next to norman. also found out what's up with nik and vik.
-i joked to laura about Davis being the burmuda triangle of girls
-then there was the incident where jon looked like he was soiling himself
-woke up from listening to a conversation between norm and lydia; farted twice. went to sleep. woke up, farted twice more.

Saturday:
-went to tim's apartment building... very nice. we spent the time in there playing pool, watching snl, and later in tim's room playing cs, playing guitar, and doing some fantasy bball
-separating 2 fish from the crab in tim's room
-snl: "f is for friendship!" ;)
-"hey, look it's a bisexual bathroom!" (guys enter) ;) this cracked us up, which prompted lydia to say to laura; "c'mon laura join them; it's a bisexual bathroom!"
-then we thought about crowding the front of the elevator when it would open... only the OTHER door inside opened. heh heh.
-dinner at claim jumper was nice... norman ordered a kiddie dinner and said we should eat super(heh heh), and the waiter had a bet with tim, lydia, laura, and jerm that if they could finish a large meal, he would buy them a rack of ribs. but they felt too full to do so(besides, it would've killed jerm)
-i stepped in a crack between 2 matresses, and fell, which cracked us up a bit.
-played 2 on 1 cs against tim. was nice to know i got about 2-3 kills on him... which is so rare, considering how many times i got raped.
-@tap: laura told jerm to get her honeydew; jerm ordered "honeything" ?!? heh heh.

Sunday:
-this was the fun day... though we didn't do too much, we had a LOTTA good laughs and fun times.
-woke up, and sat on jerm to fart on him.
-went to NewSong church... dang; too much ahead of us! i dunno where to say they are hype or help. cause they have a full worship band(they go as far as to have a special soundbooth for the drummer, have special camera angles and transparencies, and sometimes do body worship.), but a really good speaker who is brief, but used a passage for his message. you get a comfortable, casual feeling going there. feels very hi-tech too. however, at times you wonder if they're so big that they forget to concentrate on fellowship(i can't say for sure cause i of course only went there for sunday). and at times you get a feeling of pride of this church over other churches; the point is to be together as christians, not inside of a church.
-then we had lunch w/paul. that was nice. discovered tuffy almost diarrhea'd all over isabel. and that norm's dog tried DIVING into eating crap. then mike told us why he hated greens... cause they're greens ;)
-laura was right... so many stairs at ucla. the dorm food's really good though; so much variety, and very good. now i understand what the hell laura means in her away messages when she sez "puzzles." hah; we spent some of the time passing around burgers turns out we also saw janet(goes to ucsd) and her friends. their curfew system is VERY strict though. it was hard as heck trying to get in. i'm getting the feeling that it's really how the attitude that you use to approach a college, not the college itself; at the dinner we all realized that there wasn't really anything good within walking distance of any of the uc's. so, in all reality, laura's having the most fun because she's the one who's actually going out making friends.
-saw both of the ucla girls' dorms. they're nice. but crowded.
-some rocky jokes... norm and mike raced up the long set of stairs, then were too tired to walk ;)
-played bball with a pink WNBA bball; heh heh. it was so weird, all of us were missing shots we would've normally made(something to do with the weight and ridges of the bball). got a couple of my single-handed weird hook shots in. got a couple of blocks in too. the ucla outside bball court looks weird; like a modified tennis court.
-you can hear EVERYTHING coming from the bathroom in the building that laura lives in. heard norm dropping his "black child" heh heh.
-hah hah... then there was the incident where norman was trying to look at his boxers by pulling down his gym shorts to see if he DID crap in his pants(it had first emerged when he was talking about holding in his crap til it would come naturally) and then this ucla girl comes around looking hecka shocked at norm while all of us were cracking up like crazy.
-at ucla, we closed the elevator, then rang the emergency bell and norm and mike proceeded to box each other out ;) that was funny
-when we went to santa monica, we just walked around(laura brought up the idea that it would be tight if i had my guitar with me), then we ended up at this mini carnival, so we just spent a few minutes playing some of the games. we didn't make the bball game AT ALL; 0/7. which blew, considering all of us guys tried; ALL of us. hah hah. there was some cracks about the games at that too. like the bball game, and the ladder game. tim gave jerm 10 cents so he could view the weird "back to nature" machine, which cracked him and us up. also mike got the weird toy. i would've played some of the shooting games, but didn't have enough chen. and we saw birdies(or should i say lil duckies, heh heh) trying to run into, then away from the nearby ocean tide.
-showering together w/jerm and tim; too funny. gave both of them a high-five(actually, since of my height, it was hard for tim to give me a high five, and i had to give jerm a low-five), and we shoved soap back and forth under the stalls. jerm tried peeing towards the entrance, and found out it goes through the stall. we also got a butt massage from the shower.
-then there was the incident where we turned off the lights to go to sleep in the study room... then jerm shrieked like crazy after seeing the 2 glow-in-the-dark figures. i quipped that it was lucky that me and sam didn't have our lenses on at the the moment(high-5). heh; he hyperventilated for quite some time.

Monday:
-woke up, and countered jerm's fart. then jon farted on norman.
-bid farewell.... did the socal farewell with i think norman and/or sam, i think maybe hugged norm, but me and laura high-5'd; guess she isn't as socal as we think; there's still hope; we haven't lost her yet ;)

that's it... all in all, it was just fun hanging out with the socal girls this weekend. would've been cool if we had deep conversations more often though. i know it's about that time. augh, can't wait for thanksgiving, then we can jam with god. brought up the subject will all who can help, and they seemed to be willing. that's cool; i'm looking forward to an awesome thanksgiving friday.

but for now, i need to quit... stuff to do... grr

when you wish upon a weinstein - heh heh, optimus prime's a jew. "sisters, lock and load!" and the parody of "The Graduate" had me cracking up like crazy.

then when brian's in love with lois - one of the funniest parts was when peter was talking about the drive-in movie that sucked... wmwhhahaha!

the rain and wind last night was VERY strong.... it nearly ripped up my umbrella.

that's it... gotta study, plan for classes....

this is the 1st day that i've seen rain in davis. actually, it was more wind than rain; i was more troubled by the harsh cold breeze than the light sprinkle running to chem class.

also, i was pretty tired from staying up til around 1:30 last night... so after coming back from chem i decided to settle down for a 1.30 hr nap... until i hear the mechanics drilling holes in every1's dorm in order to install the new fire alarms. don't worry, i got sleep.

heh heh... lydia called jon hon yesterday, so i told jon to call lydia sweetie.

so much i wanna do... so little time each day. you should see the plans that i have written somewhere... but i never get around to finishing it any time.

gotta find a DOD AC adapter... i wanna be able to use my flanger whenever i use my Fender.

"cause i hate the way i feel tonight and i know i need you in my life cause i hate the way i feel inside and i promise to make a sacrifice" -12 Stones

wes: u know relient k right?
me: yeap
wes: u know the song pressin on?
me: yeap
wes: good song
me: yeap
wes: u know how to play it?
me: i might...
wes: maybe we can play it for worship sometime along w/ a number of other songs
me: yeah, that'd be tight
wes: hehe we start to practive now so it'd be like the real them when we play

i've realizing my left index finger's been hurting right where the free edge of the cuticle starts recently... perhaps i clipped some skin when i clipped my nails.

norman wanted me to hit jonathan, so i'll do that tonight.

so much to do... gotta make sure i do as much as possible b4 taking off to socal.

where do we draw the line between needing to grow more in christ and being ready to minister? i admit you can and should never stop your walk, but at what point are you considered able to minister to others by God? at what point? recently mike put off the decision to preach to us on december cause he felt he wasn't ready. but all of us are still growing as christians... our job is not to scrutinize others and say well, maybe i'm not fully sound in the gospel to do this... if you have the heart, God will give you the preparation you need. that's the truth. if preachers and pastors are still constantly growing as they help us grow in God, how much more us, when we try to minister to others!

jerm and me had a semi-online prayer session praying for others... might be a kinda cool idea to pray on AIM...

memorable conversation tidbit w/grace:
me: hey
grace: HIIIiiiii
me: i thought you said milk was gross :-)
me: so why are you drinking it?
me: not gonna answer me huh?
grace: IT IS!
grace: i madea deal with my aunt
grace: ahahha
grace: hold up shower timee
me: oh, leaving now that you can't answer me huh?
me: hey did my words pass over your head? :-)
grace: HAHA HEY
grace: THA'TS MESSED UP!
...
me: gnite... and drink more milk
me: or i'll have to talk down at ya... get it? *slaps knee*
grace: ... dork. hahahah gnitte

nobody's on aim at 9:13 AM; only i am. jon's still sleeping like the lazy bum he is, according to joe. speaking of which...

haha... joe lin's online! 10:15 AM! what a rarity! i gotta jot this down! ;)

criteria for church/fellowship:
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goes beyond sensationalism
concentrates on fellowship/accountability
teaching based upon the Bible(not topical based)

recent tidbit conversations w/joe:
joe: sitting in a conference call right now
me: oh; so you haven't quit like you said yet?
joe: nope
joe: i suck'
joe: :-P

me: jon's still sleeping
joe: lazy bum
me: haha... did you know he fell outta bed while sleeping maybe 2-3 wks ago?
joe: nope
joe: but i did hear that he got a speeding ticket

me: CTCC's youth group is crumbling apart ever since we left...
me: although there's potential
me: david's been telling me how no youth leaders, but a lotta ppl wanna get into leading worship
me: cept no one cept bob has a guitar
joe: yeah
joe: that's a problem
me: and most ppl don't know how to play the guitar; those that do, like i said, don't have a guitar and only know like 1/2 chords
me: like grace and clement
joe: well...u gotta start somewhere
joe: but i dun think ppl really encourage others to learn
joe: 'cause our church some ppl had interest so a bunch of folks got together a jam session every wk
joe: where the ppl that knew taught folks that didn't
joe: and if there's enough interest...ppl will go buy themselves a guitar

joe: anyways, i gotta go...finished my morning mtgs...gotta go in the office now
me: alright; talk to ya later... maybe i should just call you up if i wanna talk instead, seemingly how you're never online
me: heheh, you gotta go just when jon gets up
me: no wait, he's lying down again
me: now he's trying to type from his bed :-)
joe: lazy bum
joe: haha...i've gone through 3 meetings and countless e-mails already by the time he gets up
joe: haha
joe: ah...the college life

one of the three boards(the middle one) holding up my matress in my dorm room is broken, so if i die, it's totally God's will. and if i live to see the light on this earth after this school year in 1 single piece, then praise God.

"isn't it a beautiful day, Mr. Sun?"
"it's always great with 2 scoops of raisins, Peter"(proceeds to dump, no, HAIL gigantic raisins on the earth; one smashes into a car and sets off its alarm)

"Peter points to the sky and Chris looks up to see batsignal; Chris then points to the sky and Peter looks up to see a shadow of a dog in front of a light, Brian then gets up and leaves* heh heh... too good.

"what the hell is this? for crying out loud somebody throw a pie!"

nha un doc... ngay... masturchise...

enough.. must read some before hitting the bed...

just finished writing my SAS midterm paper... while listening to Lifehouse- Spin for about 2 hours worth... glad that's over(not the song i mean). i'm too tired to do editing... i'll do that tomorrow. right now i gotta eat. then figure out more about the courses i wanna take. and read/study... augh, so much.

veterans' day's coming up... kinda weird how we "honor" it by going down to socal to meet with laura, lydia, sam, norm, tim, josh... heh heh... now i'll see just how good UCLA's dorm food is...

i dunno why everyone acts like they'll starve to death if they skip a meal... i'm at best slightly hungry around mealtimes(not that i don't eat up)... and it doesn't really hurt me... maybe i've mastered the spiritual discipline of mini-fasting?

"...while the world keeps spinning around... my world's upside down and i would never change a thing... i've got nothing else to lose... i lost it all and i found you and i would never change a thing... oooh you and i would never change a thing..."

g'luck david on writing a skit for Xmas... hope the black man idea gave you hints... then you can call it "A Very Black Christmas..." heh heh

ok, after trying the reload-with-your-finger trick at Area 51 yesterday AGAIN, i truly have to say it's much better than conventionally reloading by shooting offscreen... got some killer 25 shot streak, and was able to hit a lot more stuff in a smaller portion of time. might make the game too fun.

i just came back from 1 church... Davis Chinese Christian Church. very small, just like CTCC... only even smaller, space-wise. man, i miss the way CTCC is; the way i used to worship on sundays, the sermon(this is a new one, but it was kinda hard to get used to the pastor's way of preaching... seeing how the transparency was tilted due to the wall and more bible verses than explanation), even... dare i say... the legroom ;) will probably look for another church... we've only started, but not next week... will be back... and go even south to visit some of our CTCC friends... whoopdeedo

kinda pissed that they didn't show us the registration guide stuff about winter quarter more specifically... but it's ok... i still have time to register and figure what to take.

family guy- the one where stewie's a cheerleader's hilarious... hearing chris talk black and stuff.

current faves on puzzle games: internet reversi and atomica... you can find out more about both at www.zone.com. i like reversi cause it's very simple, but lotsa mind games to go over... and the games go faster than chess, which a GREAT thing. i really love the competition of that game... i also like atomica, cause you can do combinations, and it's very interesting. i still want a gamepad for VirtuaFighter though

oh yeah... i've been recently trying to change the look of this site... some notable changes:
mini-profile on left: i say some stuff about myself, some you may care about, some you may not... i even list my current music gear and some of my abilities, some of my philosophies, ht/wt, etc.
constant thoughts: thoughts that i put at the top since i don't think i'll change these often... kinda like when you have an AIM profile and leave something a constant on it, but change everything else.
variable thoughts: my actual blogs, which change day to day
links: i've been updating these a couple of times, some notable ones that i've added:

mp3.com; if you wanna dl some free music, but aren't too sure if it's legal, go here first... and often the dl times will be better than on kazaa. i've been recently spending more time dling music from here than at kazaa, though i still use kazaa to dl family guy episodes
VF4fx, Daioh, Tbzone... if you don't think VF is a fun competitive game... go here and dl the videos of top players playing... it's beautiful, and you can learn a lot from watching them.
Translate to ebonics... haha... now this is my favorite! i got this from spending time on VF.com and finding out someone posted this site... when you go there, type in the address of a website, and all the contents will be translated to ebonics! check out what they translated for 11/2/2002 for me:
"anotha glorious dizzay from God... 'n all whack i'll be spendin' most of todizzay hustlin' on ma midterm SAS paper... more to be like as i think up stuff"
very funny... but do beware that they use swearing... if you're paranoid about that stuff

tired, but i'm gonna try to work a bit today... got to find out more about registering classes, read some chem, and work on my paper... talk to me if i'm online.

another glorious day from God... too bad i'll be spending most of today working on my midterm SAS paper...

more to say as i think up stuff.

bob(or any CTCC or former CTCC bud); Eddy Foye's a pretty interesting worship leader. well, from what i got from at mp3.com, i haven't seen any original stuff of his. BUT, he has some interesting interpretations of some popular worship songs. go over to mp3.com, type in Eddy Foye in the search engine, then find his artist page.

click on the 2 songs:
Everything That Has Breath(i say this one's interesting cause you get more soft distortion in this, plus the electric guitar fills; i personally like it; gives me ideas of what i could do next time i help out a worship band, and i won't have to worry about my pedal drying up the batteries this time)
Be Glorified(again, very interesting fills for the bassist; i'm sorry, i meant electric guitarist, i wasn't listening too carefully)

and if you have the current Windows Media Player, i think you might even be able to save the .mp3 files.

i should go to sleep; i'm gonna pull a later again. but i really should finish my SAS journal before that.

hah hah; grace w. talks SO FAST and SO INACCURATELY on aim; it's like a runaway ferrari. (thinks of possible buddy icon project)

oh yeah bob; i finished Ch 8; if you wanna chat sat, i'm open.

.... everything that.... everything that.... everything that has breath the praise the lord....

what i learned this week:

look at jesus when he was crucified... THAT was how much God HATED SIN... i guess it's a new spin on an old viewpoint... we tend to think that THAT was how much God LOVED US, and in many ways, it's true. but this is a new concept i picked up from a fellowship today... THAT was how each of us was going to suffer for our sin... actually worse, cause in hell, you just die an everlasting death for the rest of eternity. so, you were going to suffer worse than 40 lashes in the back, wearing a crown of thorns, mocked, spit, and struck, then carry this large burdensome piece of wood up to a hill where they were going to drive nails through your limbs into the wood and hang you up until you couldn't breathe and die. makes you so thankful that Jesus DID die for us now, eh?

Christianity isn't about what happens AFTER we die... it's about what we get NOW... well, it is partially, but it's more like what we get NOW, and FOREVER. many philosophies that ppl share are something like this:
"so why do you want to work your butt off?"
"so i can get a good job, find a wife, marry, have children and die..."
why wait to feel happiness in your life? do you realize that when you decide to live in communion with God everyday, your joy can start NOW, and never stop?

Christ preached revolutionary thinking; to LOVE others, to submit to others; by submitting you will listen to others and feel free to not HAVE to have your own way. he even commanded children and wives to obey this, like they HAD a free choice. he ALSO told masters to love their slaves... to take care of them, look after them. but we should only submit til it becomes destructive.

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need a mic that can attach to my laptop... it'd be so cool to hear my own songs played back. i've never gotten the chance to record anything and save it. and after hearing a sample of what josh recorded on his computer... i admire him.
what else: gamepad, AC adaptor for flanger pedal, delay pedal?

g'luck wes on your sat2 tomorrow; chinse and math; don't get masturchis'd!

nice memorable quote: my SAS class on thursday had a guest speaker, and our teacher was trying to adjust the wireless, handless mic so he(the guest speaker) could speak. so he went up to him, and said, "let me just turn you on" ok, so i may have a sick mind, but that was funny.

to much to do, too little time: 1 paper due wednesday, 1 prelab due wednesday, a journal fill-in, math hw, and i STILL need to read some in every class, plus i need to find out more about registering for winter!

'k; i'm out, cause i have nothing to say.

i haven't been playing my electric guitar lately... i should start building up calluses on my left fingers again, and learn to play scales... scales are good practice to play riffs.

i have a feeling that halloween isn't all about evil or something like that, or going door to door to get candy. that's about as realistic as the idea that christmas is about a fat man wearing red clothes going around giving out gifts to kids who are good. the real story of halloween is that our deceased relatives come back to visit us(supposedly), and we're supposed to pay them respects. so while i'm not exactly getting into the mood by dressing up and trick-or-treating, i am celebrating this halloween by honoring my dad. i'm so sorry dad that i treated you so badly while you were still alive; i wish i could undo all the hurt i caused you. you didn't deserve it, at least not from your own son. i hope that you're reading this from heaven and accepting my apology. you really were more than the father i thought and treated you for.

just watched Family Guy - Too Sexy For His Fat... the episode where Chris is trying to lose weight; pretty hilarious; i should've kept it; i'm gonna go dl it again. the exterminator scene cracked me up like crazy.

more to add...

saw some guy who had like 10+ ice cream sandwiches trying to sneak out of the cafeteria... a woman caught him, and made him put all the sandwiches back, telling him that she was going to tell his room adviser that he was stealing. not good, not good. i was wondering why he was pulling all these ice cream sandwiches outta his sweatshirt pocket.
there's this good jap restaurant on J street, according to my doom floor neighbor; she said you get an all-you-can eat for 8.99. not bad. but all i want is some bento. btw, she said there was this weird debate at berkeley w/norcal and socal ppl; and the socal ppl said "we take the 5" whereas nocal ppl said "we take 5", referring to driving on interstate 5. i said to her, "well, you shoulve said, 'well, now you're in norcal, so get used to saying the 5.'" then i wondered to her whether there was such thing as a "CenCal," and of course i had to talk about the little incident in CTCC where we were discussing whether there was a CenCal.

yao ming sucked for his 1st game.. NO points and only 2 rebounds. you may say, big whup, it's his 1st game, but compare that to David Robinson, or Shaq, or the candy man, all which did a LOT better than that in their 1st game in the NBA.

yeah, KG...

heh heh... mj missed a dunk again... i mean, i like the guy(when he was still on the bulls, he was fav bball player), but seriously, miss a dunk AGAIN?!? sheesh, stop repeating the 2K2 all star game.

yeah... right now blazers are 20 pts ahead of the lakers at halftime...

(i'm a genius in a dumbass class... everytime i go to Short Calc, i falll asleep, because i can afford to do it, so far, that is)
fred: why do you go to the math lectures, ReCharred?
me: yeah... why DO i go to the lectures?

king david's wise... read my previous blog this day.

had a dream last night... thought the cops were going to my dorm and busting it open cause they thought i had illegally downloaded mp3 files and were putting me to jail for it... i'm sure it's slightly farfetched(since most of my mp3s are legal, cept for maybe 1 or 2), but it could happen. not to mention i think they can retrace all the things you did on your computer, which would reveal how many mp3s i've illegally dl'd and deleted. it's going to make me extremely paranoid; it already did for me; i had a hard time going back to sleep last night; tossed and turned quite a bit. i wonder if God's predicting the future for me.

strikes me how much King David was wise: there's a lotta examples, but here's a scenario i recently stumbled upon; 2 Sam 15:25-26; read it and compare it with 1 Sam 4:1-11. Do you see the difference? The Israelites in 1 Sam thought that by bringing the ark of God into battle, they would succeed; they trusted too much in earthly shelters, thinking that the ark of God was a good luck charm, in essence. Compare that with David's reaction when he was fleeing Absalom; though the priests were bringing the ark of God with him, he told them to take it back into the city, indicating that if God was pleased with him, he would bring David back into the city and let him see it again. But if God was displeased, then David would be ready for whatever God wanted to do. David recognized that God was not a good-luck charm who could be manipulated to do what he wanted. He saw that God was an actual being who could live anywhere he wanted. Now, i can't say the exact reason why God let David live and let disaster fall upon Absalom, but it could have been due to David's wisdom here.
moral of the story for you here? stop trusting in your temporary shelters, stop looking at the temporary, stop looking at the earthly ways to satisfy yourself, and look to the eternal, the heaven-bound rewards.

*sigh* today makes for the 2nd time i MISSED chem... skipping chem and missing chem are 2 entirely different things; i unintentionally skipped chem. and i blame it on the way i've been going to bed lately. do you hear me God? i need help... i've SKIPPED math before, but that was because i was confident enough sitting in the lecture and looking at the homework that i could figure out what it was... i guess God does give to us, but we're used to growing up in a culture that demands immediate results, and often those types of results are only temporary. i need to be more patient; the things that take just a bit longer to wait for are the things that are the most worthwhile in life.

i need self-control... just self-control. i can't control it when i'm playing VF, i lose track of time. and when i turn off the alarm clock, recently i have no incentive to get up, so i just lay back down and that just jacks up my day often. if you're reading this bob, it'd be nice if you pray for me here... also, i haven't gotten around to finishing Ch 8 yet though... i'm hoping to do so by the end of this week; i know i said i was going to finish it last week's thursday... just wait a bit.

what am i made of?
do i get up when i fall?
how bout when i'm overwhelmed?

i think the proverbs i put down under the constant thoughts can give hope to anyone.

http://artists.mp3s.com/artists/305/losing_daylight.html; Looking to that Day sounds really nice.

current list of stupid things we college freshman have done so far(i may or may not have been witness):
-jon falling outta bed while sleeping
-norm sleeping right through his midterm
-norm having trouble falling asleep then making farting sounds to himself and laughing about it
-sleeping through 1 class(i know we've all done that); i've slept through chemistry once(good thing it was only a lecture that i had prepped for)
-me falling asleep daily in my math class and doing fine(in fact i set the curve for the A range for the last test)
-weird photos that josh and norm do
-laura saying that she's been to the UCLA library and can't find the books cause she's a freshman(taken off of lydia' profile)
-mandy being asked if she would like to smoke pot
-me and jon falling asleep right through a possible oppurtunity to visit a davis church

ok, i'm sure there's more, but i'm too tired to write... i know this will carry right over to the next day, since i'll end up waking up, turning off my alarm clock, then wake up again at 10:00; i should go to sleep or this'll happen, i know it already will.

all we need is a spark... will a worship session and mike's talk in december be it? will it be a large enough spark? damnit i hope so.

it came to my mind that i'm not necessarily bored of Davis... it's the fact that i am bored with both my home AND Davis. so, that means me and jon actually need to explore around, instead of biatching every day. i sense a trip to sac...

sniff, giants lost. if any socaler goes "SO-CAL!" tomorrow, i will lose it. i'm tired of socalers acting like they're on top of the world. not to say that all socalers are like that... this guy named stanley on our dorm floor is actually pretty cool, and doesn't do any of that weird stuff.

i should bring my VF2 to Davis, and get a good gamepad for a laptop, or buy CS... nothing to do. the only disadvantage of doing this is i might get totally sidetracked from studies and worship... mwhahah... VF2 Lau juggle combos...

the only arcade games i play around in Davis is Tekken 3(Nina's awesome in that game), Area 51, sometimes MVC2, and Raiden(the raiden machine at Davis is on free play, so hey, it's a free game). i miss VF4 Evo...

something to try the next time i play Area 51 here in Davis; reload by putting my right index in front of the handgun and shooting; the gun only detects if i'm NOT shooting the screen, so in this way i could be able to fire more often... i saw a tip like this before, well, i'll have to try it myself... heh heh, doing this w/the automatic shotgun could be very nice.

the Man Show Boy is pretty funny.

ok, enough of this rambling... i need to do some hw... except i hear some saxophone going off in the building...

some blogs that i meant to put down for previous dates, but didn't have access to high-speed internet(well, there's one disadvantage to being not in Davis, if any)

10/26/02

deep thinking time:

Now i'm gracious that i actually had the oppurtunity to come back for the weekend and did; Mike, Wes, and Jerm were all there at church, and while we didn't really do anything, it was Mike's plan to talk about his experiences and what he wanted to pass onto us college freshmen as well as Sam and Tim that was the kicker. i was thinking, God, it's so good that Mike's here telling us this. anyways, he basically told us that so many ppl jump into relationships or want a friend who is a different sex. but at the age of around 18-21, you're probably not doing it for marriage, so for what? and if you seriously think about it, would you really want to be involved in something which you know is going to end? would you be comfortable telling your friend, i want to have a relationship with you just to see what it feels like? no, of course not. the fact is ppl are searching for the temporary things, and they think that that's all there is to life: work your way up to get money, get a lover, have children and die. the problem with ppl today isn't necessarily that they don't believe in God, it's that they don't take the time to sit down and deeply think.

here's something that might enforce this thinking; think of the cross as our relationships with each other, the 4 basic relationships of a christian: the 2 side extensions are spouse/lover and peers respectively, the one on top is your leaders, and the bottom are the ppl you lead. now if you concentrate too much on your lover when you're still developing, you're ignoring 3 aspects that would greatly influence the way you are, and what God wants you to be.

and believe me, God, i am so thankful for what you told me through Mike tonight. thanks for the message. thank you for everything you gave me and how far you've brought me. now help me not to forget this, ever. give me the strength, willingness, and love of you that you want me to have. help me to love worshipping you and communicating with you, and to never let this desire die down, but to continuously feed it the fuel needed for it to keep burning brighter and brighter(like the proverb that i noted beforehand). amen.

10/27/02

technically, this should be 10/26, but i'm writing this very late, so i guess that's the irony of it, if any.

anyways, actions speak louder than words. why am i repeating this cliche? because the presence of God is not reflected in how many things we spew outta our mouths. it's reflected in how i think everyday when i'm NOT reading my bible or playing my guitar. it's reflected in whether i take a few quiet moments each day(whenever i can) to think of what i'm sensing and it's connections with God or what he's trying to tell me. in a sense, it's like bob said once, "God is most real in your everyday life." i can tell everyone that on my profile that i say that God is my #1 priority in my life, but unless if i prove it to you by how i act, it's nothing more than me just being another present-day Pharisee. isn't that why so many ppl get turned off by Christians? they're in your face, telling you this and that, then they lose their lover and lose it. or adversity comes down in their face and they cower before it. which brings me to another thought...

what makes you think God can't do what he wants? ok, so he's merciful, but don't you think he knows so much better than we do? so we get pissed when we fail our midterm or get a B or something. or when we lose our lover. and so we biatch about it, thinking why, why, why... i'll tell you why; God knows better. and who can tell God, what have you done? God is God, as Steven Curtis Chapman put it, and like so, can we tell God what to do? no... of course not. of course, not to say i'm above any of you, i struggle with problems like these a couple of times, since i DO have my dreams and such. but if we feel that it should only be about us, you have forgotten to try to see things the way God would see it. don't ever doubt God's strength; what makes you think his arm is too short?

CTCC youth group is crumbling apart... i sense it. in fact, i sense impending doom, drawing closer and closer each day in just about everything... i need to have a word w/God...

i have a feeling we're all growing and maturing with wisdom... mike feels that the next time we gather together, we're probably going to be talking about DEEP things, rather than shallow things such as farts and CS. i feel it too; even though some of us(like me) have kept deep thoughts under rapts, maybe it'll all just come out soon.

finally, i close with this thought... we don't resolve problems in the world by b***hing about them; we solve them by actions... it doesn't matter whether they're small actions or large actions, but if we keep at them, they will make a difference. you may not see the difference you make, the results might not even be reaped in your lifetime, but they WILL be reaped. don't tell me what you want done... SHOW ME.

be a good sport when i play internet reversi against ya. plz.

REALLY funny Family Guy episodes:
British Pub(too many spoofs to list; the King of the Hill spoof cracked me and jon up)
Screwed the Pooch(this one's the most funny Family Guy i've ever seen)
And the Weiner Is(some sexual references, but it'll make you crack up)

(to self): Reach! Reach! you have to start setting a regular sleep schedule, like 11:00 to 6:30; if you don't, you're seriously going to eff yourself to hell everyday!

i am very sure that God flows around us, and that he knows everything. sometimes, i wonder if it's even necessary to tell him what i want or am thankful for, because he knows what i'm grateful for or what i need. so why tell him? you don't need to thank him or tell him what you need; not like God forgets. not like God's sitting in heaven going "did i do something wrong," and we need to go, "no, God; you're doing a great job" and God goes "that's GREAT!" but i see it like this: God created us in his own image; in that sense, he wants company as much as we do. that's why; he wants to converse w/us everyday, in every aspect.

1st priority to God is worship, the 2nd priority is servitude... worshipping IS the way to follow God. so when i let ya pervade my soul, it's all good.

will be back for the weekend

Terminator 3's coming out July 2K3... i dunno whether it'll be worth it... part of me tells me it's going to be a rehash of the past stuff, but yet, i dunno... a lotta us guys have grown up on Terminator, so, oh man.... at least now we get to see John Connor as an adult and the future world. but now the cyborg against the humans is... a female? heh, when i brought up that tidbit to jerm, he told me she was probably sexy, so we'll all know the REAL reason jerm goes to see T3; for the rest of us, though, heh heh.

oh yeah, i finally found out who the band behind the Pepsi Blue commercial... Sev. the song? Same Old Song(monk mix). i don't think they're christian though; checked the site; no references to God, Jesus or Christ. still, it's a nice, creative song. it's closer-sounding to Linkin Park than most of the other hip-hop/rock hybrids that i've heard, but still just not it.

just came back from another fellowship, called Real Life. my impressions? very similar to the College Life(which was lovingly referred to as the "white fellowship" by me and jon for a bit), in that great worship band(drummer, percussionist, pianist, bassist, 2 guitarists, the worship leader, who is one of the guitarist, had about 5+ fx pedals on the ground next to him, and had an acoustic and electric guitar to work with.), good speaker(guy reminded me of a white, old Joe Lin, whatever that means, ask me if you don't get it), and a LARGE mainly white fellowship. UNLIKE College Life though, no one talked to me AT ALL, and it seems their emphasis is more upon God than fellowship(while you should be concentrating on God, the point of a fellowship is to get together and build each other up), but then again, they are also known as "Campus Crusade," so maybe that explains it. while they have good worship, i feel that delving into this group would cause me to look more into spreading the word than growing and keeping others accountable.

YYYEEEEAAAA... giants won game 5, 16-4. all you need to do now, is clean up on game 6 and then IIIITTTT'SSSSS OOOOOOVVVVVVVVVAAAAA! (and don't get fresh with me, all you ppl who are from SoCal)

heh heh... also just had my 1st cream-sicle in a long time... those things are a real treat. i've forgotten how good they are(now i'll have to grab more the next time i frequent the cafeteria).

if i'm hungry because it's 2 hours past my usual chowtime and my stomach's acting up, i won't complain, i'll take the pain, and remember that it will help me to build myself back towards God. it will help me to remember my dependance upon God, then i'll go eat. besides, it takes about 40 days before your body actually starts feeling the pain from hunger... if you drink adequate water before then, it won't matter(although you'll lose a buncha weight before then i think). all you ppl who don't act like this is true, go read Celebration of Discipline by Richard J. Foster, and look into the Discipline of Fasting.

i am really pissed at the way some ppl who play the Internet Reversi on windows behave... while i get some really good comp against others around the world, some ppl just leave the game without saying anything when they notice that i'm probably going to win... nothing, no "good game," or anything. i just played(i might comment, a REALLY competitive game against) this intermediate chinese player who just left when he(or it could be she) saw that i got 1 corner. nothing, just left. like being a bad sport or something. auuugh, you piss me off. if i weren't about halfway around the globe and so cool-headed on the outside, i would've smacked you upside the head just about now.

mwhahahah.... jon fell out of bed while he was sleeping! i think he rolled over too much and just fell right out. i wasn't wearing my glasses, so all i heard was a loud noise similar to dropping a huge block of metal onto the ground from 5ft rather recklessly. my comments when he actually told me what happened during the night?
"good thing i don't have 20/20 vision, or i would've laughed my ass off the rest of the night." ;)
now how did other ppl react? most of the church guys gave a nice hahah, jerm and norm said i should've taped it, laura gave an "awww, poor jon", lewis said it funniest; "what a loser."

keep your eyes open, in order to see dif perspectives from different sides of the picture... (lemme just rest my eyes for a bit, i just got up to the sound of my jarring alarm clock)... oh shoot! it's 7:30 AM! i'm late for chem! (augh, screw it, i already took notes)... and now i find out i didn't study, well, enough for that test. @#%#$%$^!!@?!!?!?

(some recent Davis dormroom conversation between some guy named Brice and me and Jon)
Brice: so you doing anything thursday night? we got bible study, it'd be awesome, come along
Jon: (casually) oh lemme see... (a moment passes by)oh... (casually)i got to go to the World Series
hahahah....

it is currently 10:38 PM desolation time, and my head SO FRIGGGIN HUUUURRRTTTTSSSS!!!

just got my test score for Chem... 83. not too bad, except the problem is that i really wanted a 90+ and i felt for the amount of effort that i put in as well as the problems on the test i thought i really knew my stuff... what the hell is going on? and don't tell me that it's curved... that was the RAW score... ?!?!? i hope i find out soon why the heck i got such a messed up grade(i really hope it's an error)... geez it blows when you really think you know it on the test, and then you get your grade and it's totally 20+% lower than you thought. do TAs dock off 13+ pts on a single question?!?

keep your eyes open... always look at perspectives from both sides of the picture. that's what i'm learning.

"what makes what goes down, get back up?"

and as i struggle not to be the hypocrite, i have to keep telling myself, "Reach, don't eat your own words." auuuughh, so hard. i think i have to talk to God sometime.

(some recent Davis dormroom conversation between some guy named Brice and me and Jon)
Brice: so you doing anything thursday night? we got bible study, it'd be awesome, come along
Jon: (casually) oh lemme see... (a moment passes by)oh... (casually)i got to go to the World Series
hahahah....

i think i'm going for the delay pedal.... both the chorus and phase pedal are essentially modified effects pedals... maybe just get adaptors for the stereo flanger and wah that i have, so i won't have to use batteries.

just listened to Delirious- Deeper, the '99 Mezzamorphis album version.... that's so NIIIICCCCEE... so full sounding. i guessing the use of a wah. you HAVE to listen to this! BIG encouragement to get a wah pedal, dist pedal... fender... full band ;)

should i sign up for IM vball? should i? 5'11 ppl don't get too many spikes...

Hitler Show on Family Guy's hilarious!(don't worry you pacifists... it's nothing racial)
Kool-Aid Man! mwhahahah!

list of notable Proverbs I wrote down(so far), as well as some comments:
4:18-just sounds awesome; i will look to blue horizons, anyone? ;)
9:10-fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom- nuf said
10:25-the righteous have what it takes to stand a storm
11:2-pride leads to disgrace, but humility leads to wisdom
11:4-wealth's worthless in the days of doom, but righteousness delivers
11:28-see 11:4; just another way of saying it; don't trust in your riches
11:30-fruit of the righteous=tree of life; remember this? the tree of life seen in the beginning of time which Adam and Eve DIDN'T EAT?
13:7-better to pretend you're nothing when you have everything than vise-versa... is Soloman telling us to lie? or is he hinting at humility?
13:8-see 11:4; another way of saying it
14:9-make amends for sin... fools mock it, but goodwill's found amongst the upright
14:12-what seems a right way to man... leads to death
14:21-God commands us to love our neighbor, so if we despise those, we sin... we are blessed if we are kind to the needy though
14:26-A God-fearing man has a secure fortress... so it protects his children
14:27-Fear of the Lord=fountain of life... turns a man from the snares of death
15:3-God's everywhere, he sees everything
15:4-A tongue that heals=tree of life(think of the tree Adam and Eve DIDN'T EAT), and a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit

chorus, delay, or phase pedal? one thing's for sure... no octave pedal... found out you can't play chords on it w/o messing up the sound! i would've meant to buy that for uping my chord sounds, but i guess that's a no-no. that's what the other pedals are for(btw, i'm still figuring out if a phase pedal's basically a flanger pedal except more options)

ugh... arm cramps from chem... prelab AND lab report, both of which need to be written instead of typed...

i think i should hit the SNOOZE button on my alarm clock when i'm getting up... i tend to shut off the alarm, then say to myself, just lay down for a few more minutes, and of course, i'm back asleep, except this time i've got nothing to pull me back up... cept maybe jon's alarm clock. but he gets up a LOT later than i do. it should be only after i've gotten up that i turn the alarm off.

currently it's 11:10 PM here in davis... time for a shower, then get back, and maybe jam some before i hit the bed... g'luck for all you guys who know me who are taking a midterm or a test or quiz or something this week... i'll hold up a prayer for all of ya.

note to self; NEVER go to sleep past 1:00; it's already pushing my ability to get up; i should really go to bed around 11:30; me and jon missed an oppurtunity to visit some church here in davis due to that. at least i visited some new fellowship during friday; AACF. comparing it CTCC youth group when i was a freshman... small size, ignorant ppl to the newcomers, good worship attitude.

i should write down the funny stuff i remember from family guy; one episode:
Peter: so you want me to whack a guy? off a guy? whack off a guy?
another part of the episode:
On board navigation computer: There is a fork in the road... (russian accent)In Russia, road forks you!

another episode(which was FUNNY)
Chris: is dad mad at me?
Lois: No, of course not... now get some cereal and meet me at the 10 inches or less line... ITEMS!

hehe... and Mintos

I am tired of byron style food in the Davis Cafeteria!

yeah... whatever... worship tomorrow... with me and God!

thank God it's over! 1st midterm over! and not only that, i have a REALLY GOOD FEELING that i did well... thanks a lot God, i owe you one...actually, i owe you more than a couple ;)

jon went to berzerkeley to visit some friends, while i'm still stuck here in davis doin my own thing... how boring of me. but then most of the ppl from MVHS who went to berzerkeley are nerds, ppl who i wouldn't care about. so desolate on saturday here in davis.

what i think so far of the fellowships i've gone to:

College Life: well-intentioned, great worship band, friendly, but possibly over-friendly(they literally won't leave you alone)
ABSK: just-right friendly, good speaker, but a bit large, and i still don't know about how well their worship is
AACF: think CTCC size... somewhat friendly, good worship attitude, but they didn't really talk to me, aside from the get-together times and this one girl who was a bible study leader... ahhh, feels just like CTCC youth group when i was a freshman... heh heh.

i think my song's lyrics need tweaking... figures, you can't figure out the lyrics and expect ALL good guitar fills to go along with it.

Giants: 1 game, Angels: 0

btw, while i was walking around today in davis, i noticed some recycle trash can with a small hole in it: on the top, a label: "cans, ass, plastic." ok, so the ass was really glass, with the gl part off, but it was so funny to me... think about it... small hole, etc. made me crack up for a good 15 sec while no one was luckily around... how childish of me.

yeaaaa.... 1 last test, and it's math! study? are you kidding? i could fall asleep in that class and still do ok(which i do often, heh heh)!

you won't believe the free stuff you get from on-campus christian groups; what i've gotten so far... 4 new testaments(i've been running past the gideons guys for about 2+ times, and got a paperback one(!?!) from an on-campus christian fellowship), "The Case For Christ" by Lee Strobel, 3 christian CDs(2 are multimedia, one is a sample of an underground music group, one is a "witness CD" and the last one is a collection of some of the common christian artists), a weird yoyo, a drawstring mesh bag, tons of candy/munchies, and 2 free dinners.

steak dinner yesterday... great.

phil hartman's hilarious, so are peter and stewie griffin.

one man pretends to be rich, yet has nothing; another pretends to be poor, yet has great wealth -proverbs 13:7
the fear of the lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding - proverbs 9:10

chorus, delay, or phase pedal?
(after looking at the online prices, i am so freaking shocked; ~$100/pedal?!? ack; worship isn't true worship unless you sacrifice something, but oh man...)

paper down, 2 tests to go this week; i feel a trip to the library coming... today. and i need scantrons.

haha... snl... w/phil hartman(his voice's so funny when he's trying to act funny)
-may i introduce you to the classic b**ch electric shaver... but when i say classic b**ch, i mean it in a good way! it not only shaves, it pulls and tangles your hair up... or you can get the classic lesbo electric shaver!
mwhahahahahah! ;)

in SAS1, we were discussing environmental problems as well the current UC strike going on and one guy brought up the thought of "what can we do to help? i dunno where to start." and i replied, "well, we can do either big or small actions." we don't need to do anything big; there are ppl who choose to picket, but we can just do everyday small decisions, like actually eating all the food that's placed on our plate, instead of throwing some away. it doesn't matter whether the actions are big or small, they'll add up, and make a difference. just like how we can't see the difference our misdeeds make in the short term, ditto with our good deeds; we might not even be able to see the fruits of our labor in our lifetime. but it all makes a difference. and who cares really how the other countries act towards us when they don't realize that we HAVE helped? do hungry ppl need to really know where food is coming from?
and that's how i view our ministry of christianity; we don't need to get on the streets and preach to make a difference; the way we live our lives, the kindness we show to others, the gratitude we give, it all adds up. we may not see the fruits of our labor in our lifetime, we may even get insulted and falsely accused for not helping others, but do the hungry really need to know who helped them, as long as someone from God brought them back to him? do they?
(maybe SAS1 IS interesting... still a lotta work though, but i'm getting there)

guess how many free pocket bibles i've gotten from gideons international at davis so far ;) come back to me with an answer

http://www.lpfan.com/main.php3?page=video; currently like looking at the Linkin Park live videos of:
Conan: 1 step closer
House of Blues: Papercut
House of Blues: Pushing Me Away

i've been meaning to say this for a long time, so lemme just get it off my chest:
as far as i can tell; FIRST-BORNS HAVE ALWAYS GOT IT BETTER THAN THE SECOND-BORNS. there, i said it. and you can see it, even today in our beloved CTCC church. for the most part, it's been true. daniel goes to berkeley, mike goes to some community college. joyce goes to davis, sam goes to santa barbara. laura goes to UCLA, jen... i dunno what she's going to get into. grace goes to berkeley, lydia goes to UCLA(marginal here, and arguable, but based on college prestige, yeah, it works). dan goes to berkeley, mandy also goes, but has to start later in the school year. joyce goes to UCLA, carolyn doesn't get into UCLA, but goes to berkeley(now i'm basing it on the fact that she didn't make her 1st choice school). jon goes to davis, lewis goes to... i dunno. and not to exclude me, my AWESOME bro phil goes to UCLA, i get into davis. of course, there's probably going to be differences once in a while(like maybe jerm and his sister, or grace and norman, wes and steph, justin and calvin's a push), but not many times i think. you 1st borns always get it easier; be glad if you're 1st born. ;)
(except for the two albinos Nikhil and Vikas; both of them go to riverside, but they're all cool)

go look at my 10/13/2K2 entry to see my praise to God; i gotta figure out how to play this rant with an electric strat sometime, but i think i'll need to toy around with my flanger. will i need a phase, reverb/delay or chorus pedal? or another AC adapter? i hope not as that means i'll have to shell out even more bringbring. tempting though.

alright; i'm out. been a hectic day of writing, writing, typing, more writing. but yet, i feel that something's been carrying me through, like something "saw me and called me 'gain, pulled me up now i find what it takes to float," to quote myself ;)

final lyrics to my new christian rock song:

Unknown to the world
(the fat of this based upon Proverbs 9:10)

-ReCharredSigh

(everything is rushing right over my head
drowning down right in a pool of thoughts
not swimming just sinking trapped down
in a world of shallowness
now, inside this world knowledge is power
but you saw me and called me 'gain
pulled me up now i find what it takes to float
and i can say)

doom crowds near
word penetrates the filth
unknown to the world
are the secrets you show me
this gives me strength
the fact that i know you
(lost my wealth
kept my hide
they can't take away my faith
only ruin my pride)
the fact that i can rise

(like a flame that consumes inside me again
flaming warmth setting fire so to mend
the spirit of one who loves the weary
his patience lasting for all
they will never extinguish out this gift
the burning for you the warmness of bliss
fearing you now my wisdom is tenfold
to jam in song)

a circle of tension surrounds the loner
the flames nearly consume him
a filter of light peeks outta his chest
and it disperses his pains

doom crowds near
word penetrates the filth
unknown to the world
are the secrets you show me
this gives me strength
the fact that i know you
(lost my wealth
kept my hide
they can't take away my faith
only ruin my pride)
this i cannot hide
(all in all
hype aside
i don't ever wanna leave you
be by my side)
the fact that i can rise

kinda hard to get your 5 fruits and vegetables a day at Davis WHEN THE FRUIT IS SO ROCK HARD I CAN'T SCOOP MY KIWIFRUIT OUT OF THE SKIN, ISN'T IT?!?!? geez, you're actually DISCOURAGING me from my 5-a-day.

still have to edit my lyrics of my new song a bit, then comes the fun part... the guitar filling.

http://www.computerpranks.com/download/images/megaflicks.jpg
mwhahaha! louis was right; megaflicks indeed! ;) (you HAVE to see this)

top this, shakespeare ;)
(this is what i've got so far for my next song)

Unknown to the world
-based upon Proverbs 1:7

(freestyle)
everything is rushing right over my head
drowning down right in a pool of thoughts
not swimming just sinking trapped down
in a world of shallowness
now, inside this world knowledge is power
but you saw me and called me 'gain
pulled me up now i find what it takes to float
and i can say

doom crowds near
a word permeates the filth
the unknown to the world
are the secrets you revealed
this gives me strength

(freestyle)
like a flame that consumes inside of me
a flaming warmth that you set on fire to see
the spirit of one who loves just cause it's he
and never ever forsakes me
they will never put it out this gift
the burning for you the warmness of bliss
fear the Lord and the wisdom begins
acknowledge him and the healing is in

a circle of tension surrounds the loner
the flames nearly consume him
a filter of light peeks outta his chest
and it disperses his pains

talked some w/this girl i knew back from the christian club at MVHS in short calc; weird how i know her name, but she doesn't know mine, but we talked some; mainly it was about math and fellowships though. no introductions to each other though; i guess it's just cause we've seen each other in the club, but never really talked w/each other.

current hobbies to pass the time(when i'm not studying) in Davis:
-watch Jon play CS
-chat on AIM w/ppl from back home
-watch Family Guy episodes dl'd from the net
-watch VF tourney videos
-surf the net: VF, effect pedals, music, email
-listen to (christian) rock/hip-hop
-jam on my guitar
-songwrite
-watch TV
-play MVC2, Tekken 3, CVS2 (sigh, no VF4 Evo)

and yet i'm bored... why? cause i can do ALL of those things at home, except the high-speed internet stuff and cable stuff, but that really doesn't bother me: i never really spent too much time online at home. and notice how there's no socializing placed up there, because that's how much ppl keep to themselves! but i guess it's not THAT bad; from what i gather from David's blogspot, it seems the youth group at home is getting just as desolate as well. all in all, all of us are probably looking forward to Thanksgiving when we come back.

yay... david from back home picked up me or bob's habit of typing crud on a website! (see link on left)

i feel so sleepy... 5.5 hours just doesn't cut it. feelin better as the day goes by though... until i have to go to my next class.

oh yeah, my headphones are great... they block out all the noise i heard outside, but everything sounds muffled outside. and since i wear glasses, it hurts my ears.

memorable quote for quite some time: i was in my Science and Society class, and we were discussing the issue of immigration. someone brought up that we aren't as mixed together as we think we are; for instance in high school we are intent on sticking together in our own little ethnic groups. that prompted some line from the professor that went along the lines of:
"so then America's not a melting pot; it's tossed salad?"
;) mwhahahahah

there really HAS got to be more to life than studying, work, and success. how can this ever keep you happy?

... blank for now, and i hate the fact that everything overwhelms me. EE-VEE-RYY-THING. nothing really lifting me up. or it could just be that the amount of work i think i need to do overwhelms me. i dislike the idea that i just can't get everything done right now. and that i have no motivation to do partway work right now.

...maybe i should just try going to the gym.

amp, flanger, (wah,) overdrive/distortion, (octave,) guitar; hmmm.... good setup? technically, i could just lose the flanger, but i'm not too good with the whole foot timing with the wah.

i'd really like to get an octave pedal. the octave pedal enables you to play @2 different octaves in the same key at one time. enables solo guitar playing to sound a bit more "full."

yeah... the wah or flanger CAN work into worship songs; Chris Tomlin - Forever; go back, listen to that(adds that to list of songs to play on Thanksgiving break)

still love the effect pedals.... LOOOOVE them.

pho is good.... it's the only sign of azn-ish ness around here in davis.

oh yeah, family guy is THE SHIZNIT!

recently found a new praise song that i like; or i should be more specific; that i've heard many times but forgot what it was and what it was called: Hungry. if you're sampling from the internet, i suggest the Matt Redman or Vineyard version, cause then you can hear the overdrive sound for the fills and the nice riff. still doesn't beat Not Be Shaken, Forever, and Arise though; i still think those give you the best ability to kick loose and just WORSHIP GOD! YEEEEAAA! and definitely doesn't beat 12 Stones(ok, so they're not a worship group, but they still KICK ARSE! heh heh)

i think i'm finding out more and more i am not really interested in electric guitars; what i mean is that while i LOVE my fender squire stratocaster, when i look up music-related gear on the web now, i find i'm becoming ever increasingly more interested in the various pedals such as those found on bossus.com. i mean, i'm finding more and more that most ppl have stuff that extends beyond the distortion, wah and flanger pedals. besides, if you have about 15+ effect pedals, you can cover up just about ANY mistake ;) i think weaver(12 stones' guitarist) uses these pedals(check this out):

Boss phase pedal
Boss delay/reverb
Voodoo groove chorus pedal
Crybaby wah pedal

and i think he has 3 more pedals. ack; how much money i need to shell out to be able to play like that(not to mention i still can't play riffs that complex). i think though if i can fool around with my flanger pedal so that it doesn't fluctuate the notes, i won't need a chorus pedal(i usually don't use the flanger for that purpose anyhow). that gives me SOME ideas. ack, does that mean i'll have to shell out 20 more bringbring, since i'll be using the flanger a LOT more? after all, i feel the undistorted part of their songs still doesn't sound exactly like it was clear, and it's definitely not overdrive. but i still don't get how the chorus part of "Broken" seems to play at 2 different octaves in distortion; he didn't mention that he uses an octave pedal on the website. (btw thanks george again for fixing the flanger for me); i think though i'm starting to get an idea of when you use certain effects; use overdrive for lead, distortion for chorus, and then chorus for the verse would be good. hooo... i'm learning.

i hate writers' block, and i'm not talking about writing a term paper(although i am, kinda); i'm talking about writing a song, when you feel the lyrics aren't good enough and your ability with the electric guitar just doesn't cut it, as if you can't improv and immediately find something good to work with. hate, hate it.

i think i pulled a lydia; i'm starting to hate school; i don't like chemistry on anticipation of the hard work, i don't like SAS because i need to write a term paper and don't know how to start, and i WILL hate math, although right now i'm ok with it. i know that's not the case w/laura though; probably loves school compared to all the rest of us; me and jon are bored, lydia hates school(seriously, how can you HATE UCLA?), norm wants to transfer, jerm just wants to get away.... i think mandy's ok with Berzerkeley, but i never asked her. me, personally, i kinda would be ok with it, as long as i could crank out as many creative, original, neat sounding songs on my electric guitar, but recently, that's not been happening. auuurrrggghhh! i need to find ppl to jam with(which is going to be so rare based on what i want; do you realize how rare it is to find ppl who love being a christian, love modern rock, some elements of hip-hop AND are musically talented with all the proper gear?)

still miss every1, all you SoCal ppl. and NorCal ppl. come back and jam w/me(those of you who can)!

hey you dummies! cut and paste the link below to see how you should REALLY learn guitar! heh eh
http://www.geocities.com/sage_tripper/guitar_guide.htm

possible topics for next song of mine:
-Graduation(i STILL haven't finished it)
-Being Grafted into God(STILL haven't finished this either)
-Prov 1:7(the fear of the Lord is knowledge; hey; i'm a dumbass in Davis)
-Standing alone(the flame in my heart should never die)

also, should i use freestyling in my song(i've touched upon the fact that i can freestyle while playing power chords)? should i use that WITH a complex riff? or just the riff?

help me out here you guys if you ever come across this! plz! i'm getting VERY bored here! you help me out, i just might come back and PLAY the song i wrote for you guys!

damnit; 12 Stones is touring with Creed, and they'll be in Mountain View, October the 11th! gonna miss a great show(i really like both bands), not to mention i don't buy concert tickets anyhow. what's ironic about the 2 bands is while 12 stones is just beginning to emerge and its members are young, not to mention they lay it on thick like metal, they're christian, and Creed, while they're much more successful so far and more like alt rock, they're searching for God, but NOT a christian band. but who cares; both guitarists are EXTREMELY good. and like i mentioned; both are GOOD. screw you all who can't see a good musical group beyond the singers.

after relistening to 12 Stones - Broken, i think maybe drums don't need to be that audible ALL the time; i still love the sound of drum sets when they're loud, but when you lay on the distortion REALLY THICK, you can't really hear anything else, eh?

Broken still has some of the coolest lyrics i've ever heard. great song. makes me wanna get out my electric guitar, except i've got chem in about 30 min; damn chem; you're keeping me from worshipping God with music! ;) www.12stones.com

currently at this moment the As are KILLING their opponents! 9-0; crazy!!

some thoughts about davis:

it's been a common occurance at Davis here for air raid sirens to go off near noon EVERY SINGLE DAY. of course, we then see a fire truck go speeding off in a direction. so we(me, jon, his friends) have been wondering, why the heck every day? there's nothing much around davis, crime rate's probably low. so why? well, pastor dan brought up the thought that it could be that they're on their lunch break ;) yea, i could see that; makes me wanna be an EMT.
-so, where you wanna go for lunch?
-how bout in n out?
-how long's THAT gonna take?
-oh... 1... 2 minutes?

also, there's a common sight of statues called "eggheads" around campus. while journeying towards the Shields library, i saw one with his face planted facedown into a book; that's not studying; that's FALLING ASLEEP WHILE STUDYING; heh heh.

"daily in my sin i take your life"
-how true, 12 Stones; and if you can keep forgiving me Jesus despite all this, that's really something.

just visited the Davis library; oh man; and i thought there were silent places in the world, but oh man! nothing tops this! it's like the closest thing to soundproof booths! really good place for studying! oh problem is that you hear EVERYTHING in there; i think everyone heard my broken sneakers as i was walking through there.

running out of things to do in Davis that are INTERESTING. only thing left? songwriting. yeap.

ok, i should sleep. seriously. the lack of sleep seriously affects my ability to stay awake in lectures; i think i woke up chuckling to myself in SAS 1; i hope no one heard me.

zzzzz
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-_-

and i miss the way it used to be in my senior yr in high school. REALLY BADLY. spent nearly the entire day studying. moral of this story? plan ahead; don't procrastinate. so you can get in your break times, instead of cramming in everything at 1 single shot. and find a good quiet study area.

38th Parallel - Horizon
"So you're at the end of this day, when the world is shaded in vain, I will look to blue horizons and watch for you to come, When my hope is tired and torn, when my faith is weathered and worn, I look to the blue horizons."*
The song, according to the band, is supposed to the "sound of hope." Lyrically and melodically. It does seem like that, as it starts out meloncholy, then adds a dash of tension, right into... glory. Too good. Too bad this is probably the best, and possibly only good song of theirs. Their other songs sound more like rock with hip-hop lyrics, with some vocalist sounding like the Guns N Roses vocalist. They have more influence from Korn than some actual hip-hop vocalist, explaining that too.

9/29/2K2 has a quick asessment of what i use for guitar playing.

* the lyrics may not be exactly what they say; i based this upon what i remembered

i FINALLY got that AC adapter for my Boss SD-2 pedal that i needed; thank God! almost like getting a new pedal for the money and the # of batteries that i use, plus the fact that the batteries run down SO FAST. this should be fun. but i still need a good set of speakers for my laptop, or it just won't seem like home.

hey you CTCC guys, check out what i use! maybe you can base the idea of your getting a sunday worship electric guitar on this:
list of MAIN electric guitar equipment that i use:
2 long guitar cables
1 Peavey Blazer 158 mini-amp(has built-in distortion) for the cases that i play by myself
Boss Dual OverDrive SD-2 pedal w/PSA 120 AC adapter(tite reliable pedal; options between overdrive, distortion, and clear)
American Squire Stratocaster electric guitar(which, sadly, i haven't figured how much Phil spent on it yet; sad, really, considering how so many ppl ask me all the time)
1 medium guitar pick
1 set of headphones(face it; not everyone will appreciate your jamming)
price of all this? i have NO idea; i'm guessing $500+; hey, true worship isn't worship unless if you sacrifice something eh? ;)

i usually don't fool around with the DOD flanger and Crybaby wah pedal that i have unless if i feel in the mood(which is rare).

i should study now, or at least go to sleep early so i can wake up early to study.

what else...

i miss all the jam sessions i used to have; "when 2 or 3 are gathered in my name, i am there with them," or some bible verse like that. jamming by myself just isn't the same. i need to find a drummer and bassist.

i miss all the ppl i used to know; can you believe some of the ppl i am mentioning are now 8 hrs away instead of 5 min?

show me the joy of worshipping you God!

Lifehouse-Spin's lyrics:
http://www.air1.com/chart/images/btn_lyric.gif
(really great, if you're listening while looking at them)

bob sez that 38th Parallel sounds like Linkin Park, so i'll look into them later.