some weird dreams of mine...

the other night i had some dream... kinda hard to remember, but i remember seeing a large spider, but with tiny, thin legs... yet i was freaked to death...

i have not be scared of spiders for a long time... used to be so scared of them when i was young, but somewhere along the line i got used to it by beginning to appreciate all that they do...

so, that begs the question; am i really just denying the fact that i am still afraid of spiders?

some weird dreams of mine 2...

but i can remember the one this night vividly...

i think it was during retreat and college were playing against the adults as usual...

i was in charge of guarding and playing offense against pastor dan...

but all game, i could not box him out... i got down, and pushed my ass into him trying to push him out of the key when i thought the ball was going up, but it took all my strength out of me, and got him nowhere...

and i could not do anything w/my post game on the offensive end either; i couldn't push him anywhere...

interestingly enough, i woke up with the bedsheets in total disarray... mustve pushed hard enough for something else to happen...

begging the question...

is pastor dan really fat, do i really suck, or do i really need to bulk up?