*sigh*... summer's about 2 weeks left...

i hate how bogged down with concerns my mind is sometimes... all our problems are the result of our own worries, which really sucks, but the more you realize it, the more it sinks in...

got a cell...

i've realized that more and more each of the gospels has its own appeal... i used to think mark was only for fast-paced people, but there's advantages of each book

TFC looks like fun; playing CS leads to a lotta spectating at times... i forgot how fun Quake-style gameplay can be... running into battle with a missile launcher and getting kills by splash damage... looks like i'm gonna hafta actually play some of the other half-life games my bro got me in the bday pack... good thing he gave me that instead of just CS...

my saturn's in the shop... boourns... the plus side is that at least i got it in before i did some major damage to it... the coolant temp was pretty much 1 notch away from being overheated... THAT close... i had to pull into a shaded parking lot immediately and let it cool down before i drove to a shop... this happened on thurs...

i'm in isaiah right now... and it's dawned upon me how many predictions of the messiah are seen in this book... a LOT... also, though isaiah was often the messenger of bad news, he never relished giving it... i was thoroughly shocked to see how he mourned the predicted destruction of moab, an enemy to the israelites... what intrigues me most though, was the prediction he gave regarding egypt, in chapter 19, he gives an interesting prediction about how 5 cities in egypt will dedicate themselves to God, and how one of the cities will be named the City of Destruction; and more; i don't really remember the rest of the chapter, but it looked intriguing; there's also the prophesy how Assyria and Egypt will together worship God; is this a prophesy of something to occur at the end of the world? or has it already occured, because Assyria doesn't exist today...

ucla lost today to colorado... tough loss, because they lost 14 to 16, and chiller(that's his name?) managed to block a colorado field goal attempt to turn the ball over to ucla near the end of the game for an attempt to win...

cal i think lost to washington?(not too sure who they played)... it looked pretty bad when i last checked... 7 to 20 before i switched away...

sf won over d'backs today... they won in the 11th inning(!) when the pitcher lost it and ended up walking with bases loaded, 2 outs...

even though it was mainly a TV sports day(fox had mlb, kron had a cal game, abc had the ucla game and a usc game, and cbs had the us open), i settled upon tennis most of the time to watch andy roddick come back from a 2 game deficit to thoroughly whup his Albanian opponent... i just remember laughing at his funny last name a few days ago when i heard about him... today was the 1st time i saw him play... DAMN! he HAS to be one of the best new rising stars in us tennis! he reminds me so much of philippoussis, except he's a lot faster! he just ACED so much times during the match that i watched him! mustve been 35+ for a duration of 5 sets! the guy's got talent, and i wouldn't want to go head-to-head with one of his 135 mph wide-angle serves! go roddick!

ok, for some reason i wrote up a HUGE bunch yesterday, only to find the library's internet somehow got rid of my entire entry... let's try this again...

why do i wear a green headband when i play bball? i dunno, really... i know for SURE i don't play like Paul Pierce(although i like him, and i like his style, aside from just liking the color green, all reasons why i wear a headband, specifically a GREEN one)... makes me wonder if i wanna get a green elbow band and put it on my right hand just to make me look more like a left-handed Paul Pierce... although my right elbow doesn't break out in sweats that much...

i think my post moves on offense are MUCH stronger than i first imagined... i had fairly good success playing against hubert on sunday... POSTING UP! imagine that! of course, i wasn't owning him on offense(a couple of my post-up hook shots missed, though they weren't blocked), and i was lucky to even block his shot once on defense, i again, had fairly good success... sunk a couple of up-close hook shots with him d'ing up on me, better than if i were trying to use my foot speed to beat him... i combined that with a few outside perimeter jumpers, and that was good enough...

i'll add more later... at home, and mom needs to use the phone... *sigh*... college stuff is beginning to bog me down, just thinking of what i need to do now... i hope God helped me to make the right schedule additions to my sophomore schedule...

sammy ward - it's for you
(i like this song; oldie but goodie)

song of songs gives the impression that God did intend man and woman to be together; their words are often erotic, and they take turns praising each other. what you notice though, is that for something to be this erotic and be in the bible, it is natural, the way God intended. there's no flirting, everything's sincere, and what they get too heated, they remind each other not to arouse love until it desires. there's also no dominance; it's mutual.

ecclesiastes is bogging me down... well, it shouldn't, cause people who wrote this only thought life ended when you died... 6 more chapters to go...

man, it IS labor day weekend! what the? how'd time slip outta my grasp?

time's winding down for this summer break... i gotta make something count... fast...

i find todd agnew's insights upon worship to be rather neat... www.air1.com... breathing worship concept... hmmm...

later, library's closing...

today's engrish.com is so friggin bad... prompted me to whisper an "UUUGGGH!" at the library... it's funny, but i still can't believe i saw it...

i notice backblog is down... not that anyone but bob reads AND comments on my writings anyhow... (well, ok, steven, but off the top of head, that's about it)

warriors are really confusing me as to all the trades they've done... they claim that now there's stability in their team, but really, they were MAJORLY set back... playoffwise...

Proverbs 21:2...

FM Static - Crazy Mary:

CRAZY MARY'S A SLOGAN, WHO LOOKS UP TO NO ONE, WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR A COLD ONE, AND WISHES SHE COULD FIND HER WAY HOME. SHE'S GOT THAT LOOK ON HER FACE, AND HER STARE'S LIKE A RAY GUN, AS WE WALK BY EVERYDAY AND, I WISH THERE'S SOMETHIN' I COULD DO FOR HER.

MAYBE IF, I TOOK A LITTLE TIME TO TALK, THEN SHE'D HEAL A LITTLE IF SHE WANTS TO, SHE CAN RUN, BUT LET'S TEACH HER HOW TO WALK AWAY NOW. I'LL SHAKE A LITTLE IF SHE WANTS TO, SHE'LL, LAUGH A LITTLE IF SHE NEEDS TO, THERE’S A KEY TO THE DOOR THAT SHE'S HIDING BEHIND

SHE WATCHES THE WORLD PASS HER BY LIKE A FREIGHT TRAIN, AND THEY ALL CALL HER THE SAME NAMES, LAUGHING AS THEY POINT AND STARE AT HER. SO SHE CRIES, OUT TO GOD UP IN HEAVEN, BEEN PRAYIN' SINCE SHE WAS ELEVEN, FOR HIM TO SEND SOMEONE TO MEET HER THERE.

AND WHO KNOWS OF HER THOUGHTS AND HER DREAMS, AND IDEAS SHE'S GOT, AND CONTAINS INSIDE, SHE'S SO BROKEN APART, AND HER HEART IS STILL LOOKING FOR SOME WAY TO FEEL ALRIGHT.

(this song is, IMO, a song which is ministry; do we reach out to people like these? they're commonplace people, and yet, we ignore them)

thank you God for sending Rev Terrance Nichols to our 2K3 retreat; part of me feels bad for him though; azns are SOOO unexpressive sometimes in worship and sermons... (someone plz say "sho, yo right!" or something :D) in any case, i hope i don't lose the messages he gave us; i hope i go deeper and am willing to leave everything behind... i know God is probably using him in such a great way...

so, without spewing out EVERYTHING into my journal about how retreat went, i'll just put down what i thought was noteworthy...

-i should never ever forget that being a christian means you need to go DEEPER with christ; if you don't, you should seriously deny being a christian in the 1st place... i won't forget nichols' reference to Alexander the Great and his cowering soldier sharing the same name; what he alluded to was so true; either change your name, or change your ways. how can we call ourselves christians in the 1st place if we can't demonstrate how much we're in love with christ and loving life, fishing for men? remember, if we don't we're just doing the "woulda, coulda, shoulda"... part of me wishes laura and lydia joined us, but i can't comment, because i didn't hear colleen wong's sermons; perhaps they were equally effective or better...
-God bless CTCC's sound system; i never realized how much i took it for granted until i plugged 2 efx pedals into a surge protector @Redwood... you could hear some buzzing noise throughout the speakers, and i had to force myself to not tune down the guitar(when i did, you couldn't hear my guitar at all) that static when playing in worship out of embarassment... all in all though, after a few minor mishaps the 1st day, i was able to settle in... ah yes; worshipping in casual clothing... on sunday... i've only done that in church, ONCE...
-i really appreciated terrance nichols' attempts to get to know us college guys during one of our discussions; it showed he cared... he sat in with us, and talked with us...
-basil was around most of saturday... dude, that guy's funny... right up there with louis, and yes, louis cracked me up during retreat as well...
-campfire was also good; giving thanks, playing songs, eating smores later(mmm... now i want some...)... only complaint was my lack of a flashlight, making it hard to see... again, being at retreat just makes me see how much justin has changed spiritually...
-laura said "chee-sze" thinking that might've been taiwanese for cheese during our church photo; i of course had to tell her that "chee-sze" was a taiwanese swear word, and that i personally found that out when i copied my mom saying that word and got rebuked for it :D
-saw mars(so bright, it was rather easy too); and a buncha other stars; DAMN! when there's no smog, the sky is BEAUTIFUL! just like God intended! indeed! the heavens DO declare the glory of God!
-bball: first off, i didn't take care of myself too well the few days prior to the retreat, so i was playing with a stuffy nose; that contributed to my fatigue; i felt it HARD when i was resting on one side of the court defensively and waiting for the others to come up... but excuses aside, the current young side of the youth group IS very energetic, calvin is going to be an even greater baller, and they won, i can't contest that... our team was a youth group-young adult team of george, louis, jon, justin and me(strangely enough, this team was comprised of 2 brothers, 2 cousins, 2 collegians, 2 youth groupers, and 1 former counselor to 2 former youth... think about that...)... it was fun, cause there were highlights, despite our loss:
1)i landed 3/4 hook shots... that IMO was huge...
2)2 blocks... on grace's friend(why didn't i ask what his name was? oh well)
3)it was easy for me driving into the lane... however, part of the reason we lost was cause right after going in, i just passed it to someone, and then it got stolen... also, on some fast breaks, i couldnt get the ball and land the shot...
4)jon was AND1 during this game... haha... i remember him rolling the ball between michael's legs, running behind, getting the ball then shooting it... that was funny...
(and also not part of the 2 games i played, but... i think maybe i can actually do a pump-fake layup... i was surprised to get it off a couple times during my practice... if i work on it, i could get a pump-fake reverse layup... work on my ballhandling and foot speed, and i might be able to do more damage on the inside... also, note to self: work on post moves, like getting the hook shot DOWN)
oh yeah, basil called me walter macarthy :D just like a buncha others did; do NOT call me paul pierce until i can get my spin move down and can throw pump-fake layups all over the place, as well as nail perimeter shots anywhere...

but yeah... i pretty much threw out all the thoughts i had in general about retreat... i like how it seems as time passes by just how much God has matured all of us; this year we did ball of course, and hard, but we were also paying attention to God when it mattered(i think)...

oh yea, part of me sees how the greater our gifts, the greater the responsibility we have to exercise; the guys stayed up LATE on saturday(going til 4:30; ack!) i had to excuse myself around 1:00(and that was already pushing my biological clock) to go to sleep; when God gives you a desire to worship and the gifts to do it, you gotta follow through...

i now realize that i can actually bring my laptop into the saratoga library and set up a cable connection... so technically i could actually cs a bunch in the library now during the remainder of summer! i'd also be very tempted to start dling a buncha songs and games(and get caught in the process), but i think i'd just settle on dling X-Men COTA(i miss the game already; shouldn't have deleted it from my laptop in the first place), and the files necessary to run the free guitar software i found on the internet recently.

i'm getting better at mahjongg... i've improved a bunch playing it on my cpu, and even won some! i think i really know how to play the game now... just need to rememeber what the chinese numbers are...

santana- why don't you and i (featuring the lead singer from "the calling")
i love this song... great to know there's still some REAL lead guitar talent in contemporary music.

phil's right; the drum roll loops on my "in the secret" song sound like the drummer just od'd on meth or something... is there such thing as being high on god? :D i need to improve it; most drummers transition with maybe a snare, tom-tom1, tom-tom2, tom-tom3, bass, then high crash; mine, eh, let's just say it literally sounded like a drummer on crack...

steven seagal... when's the last time i watched something from him? anyways, under siege 2's awesome though... like joe from family guy says, "YES! YES! BRING ON THE PAAAIN! BRING ON THE PAAAIN!"

sugar-coated happiness is really stupid, cause in the end, when you lick off the sugar-coated layer, there's nothing left... what i'm talking about is happiness that is just frontal, and is comprised of surrounding yourself with a buncha friends or money or something like that... shallow stuff... who are you kidding? the joy that comes from God will never change, despite your circumstances. i can be in the lowest of lows, and still be able to hold my head up high, why? cause the peace of God, which transcends all things, will guard you.

for some reason my nose is stuffy recently; that has forced me to breathe through my mouth when i sleep, making it dry and that meant my throat hurt everytime i tried to swallow; i compensated by making extra sure that i breathed through my nose the 2nd day, but that only caused a headache and increased fatigue(breathing through stuffy nose=less O2)... i feel better today though, so praise God...

simple-minded ppl, fools, and mockers; the 3 things proverbs warn us never to be; simple ppl are always too lazy to change, and never do much, fools are a LOT harsher in the bible than anywhere else; a fool is moral-deficient, and gets no sound advice from anyone. mockers are the worst; they not only rebel against God, but mock others.

note to self: save engrish.com photos from aug 18 and aug 7... go look at them readers... they made me die... aug 7 ESPECIALLY made my brother die too...

2 events that happened this weekend... wesley senior nite occurred, and chris liu came back... i plan on giving wes the .mp3 of the song i made when i return to davis and get high-speed internet going again... a buncha good ol fun-n-games, as well as a few goof-off blunders about wes' gifts(i still can't believe someone said "make out room" not "make up room" should be appropriate for a door sign)... as for chris liu, it was awesome to see him back... he gave a great sermon on sunday... not often we see a powerpoint sermon... it could be because our church is so bright inside(that could be something we could consider pouring money into; curtains that we could lower to darken the building during the day if necessary)... anyways, more or less the sermon emphasized that God's all that we need, and he showed us 5 gods we often put before him:

1)popularity; it doesn't even have to be getting everyone's attention; just how do you want people to react to you?
2)success; self-explanatory; society puts a HUGE emphasis on this, and i just wish i personally wouldn't succumb to it as much
3)entertainment; anything we do to give us a feel-good feeling goes under here, even eating and sleeping; probably my weak spot; in that i'm a sucker for fighting games, and sometimes, i can devote a lotta time to this online journal; i should remind myself that i don't HAVE to write down every single aspect of my life here...
4)relationships; some ppl have this more than others, but yeah...
5)god-service; this one's interesting; do you serve for unwarranted motives? i know i have to struggle with this everytime i'm onstage sunday

(on a side note, it was funny seeing the powerpoint blunder of "Chris Jesus my Lord"... i think everyone saw that)

so phil's back... and gone... since the last time i wrote this... hot pot city is actually a pretty nice eatery... too bad it's so far away... i pretty much stained a large portion of my "KG4MVP" t-shirt(!!! i wish i had brought a dark t-shirt! i had no idea you'd get stained fairly easily) diving into korean BBQ ribs all night... spending time with phil's just awesome... it's really too bad that he has so little time to spend with me nowadays... makes me really wish it was still in the 90s just so i could reexperience the times i spent in the summer with phil... but the interesting thing is i'm seeing how maybe God really did intend that i go to UCD... as opposed to somewhere else... it seems that the med school that phil goes to tends to send him to the UCs to do med work to where of all places? davis! now i just gotta see why else God intended for me to go to Davis over someplace else... oh yeah he recorded a song on my cpu using my recording equipment too :D i'll need to mix it so that it sounds good :D phil also gave me a KG bobblehead; you won't know how much this thing cracks me up til you see me play w/it in my room! and the last thing: spending time w/phil makes me really wanna reconsider learning low-post moves; he convinced me i'm more suited for it than i think... i'll give it a try sometime soon, but of course i also wanna learn to get the spin move down; there's a reason i wear a green headband :D

i remember coming across this in the psalms; seems that sean hall was influenced by psalm 63 when he wrote "water":
1.O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
3.Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.
(i wish i could be influenced by the psalms in writing a new song, but seems i just don't seem to have anything click; i should go back a reread the psalms carefully; maybe i'll find something)

after coming through job, it seems that the psalms(as i'm almost done with the book) are more out-of-place in the bible than i first imagined! there's so much cursing on your enemies! i have to remember though, that these psalms expressed AGONY; this was how the psalmists felt when they were writing these poems in times of hardships; it's just like job in the midst of his 3 friends; he was yelling out things, but he was just being a lot more vocal about how he felt; a lot of us don't say the same things in our troubles, but we feel the same way inside. another thing is that this was written before jesus came and offered forgiveness, and that they in essence paved the way for it. also, the thing about old testament writers was that they had a REALLY vague idea of the afterlife; your relationship with God CAN continue or end permanently in the afterlife; because they had no idea that this could occur, they expected justice to occur NOW

btw, i came across something that confirmed what i remembered a jewish classmate when i was in 6th grade said; the israelites crossed the Sea of Reeds, or the Reed Sea, NOT the Red Sea; if you look upon a map, you'll see the Reed Sea blocking the path northward from Egypt; i think the Red Sea is somewhere off. at first i didn't see how the bible confirmed this, but then i noticed a footnote in the NIV bible which pointed this out; so praise God; his words' still intact and precise; our bible is no different than the jewish-accepted old testament... we just need to read the footnotes a bit more occasionally

i'm out; i've already written too much: my agenda for tonight/tomorrow morning?(ignore this you readers; one of my personal notes again)
songwriting, finish psalms, steven seagal, denzo software

the current xanga crisis makes me glad i'm a blogspot-er... for the moment... :D

Psalm 49: the psalm which shows how money and fame are nothing... eh... when i reread it, i'll decide whether to include that in the links above(there does seem to be a LOT of bible verse i'm linking)

Psalm 53 is like a deja vu of the Psalm 14... strange, eh?

i wonder why david exhibits such angry words for his enemies in the Psalms... i know the Psalms were truly written from the heart, but IMO it gives testamony to how david was not a perfect man... ppl of the Old Testament believed that justice would be served in the earthly realm, as they had no conception that life would continue in the afterlife. and yet, david exhibited such love for saul... goes to show how much more david wasn't perfect, eh?

i'll write later today... i have more to say, but can't think of anything right now...

1st time this summer i played bball with the young adults this sunday... (while i still wish i was 7 ft'd so i could be a better baller and could dunk, part of me is spiritually glad i'm not that tall... it forces me to be a team player, as opposed to doing everything myself, and thus crucifies my pride everytime i have to remember that; nevertheless, i still wish i were taller)
in any case, i think it's really how evident how much i should cherish my youth, or if that's not the issue, my quickness in feet, and using that to be a team player; i was all over the place setting screens for others(funny how john actually out loud thanked me for setting a screen for him while the ball was still in play :D) and try to block ppl repeatedly(a lotta times, failing, but i had my gems of moments)... trying to break free to get some uncontested buckets... i remember hitting 3 jumpers in a row, and another time, ALMOST hitting a reverse layup... too bad i had to do some idiotic travelling violation when i lost my mind some other time... *cringes*... i do have to admit it's fun having george and torrence on your team... torrence has some nice inside moves, and george can hit a lot of jumpers pretty well... but maybe we'll just attitribute torrence's dominence to "ERIC!" :D

perhaps it's really dawning on me just how much old testament writers didn't believe in an afterlife; you see this during the psalms; emphasis of the bad getting what they deserve, and the good getting what they deserve; modern-day christianity we know acknowledge that sometimes life in this world isn't what we want it to be, but the afterlife will be fair. btw, when i stumbled upon psalm 22, i notice just how much similarity it was compared to jesus and his suffering; v7-8 refers to how ppl mock him and tell him to save himself, v14 refers to jesus' side being pierced, producing a flow of perecardial fluid... and blood... as well as the crucifixation dislocating his shoulder joints... v15 alludes to jesus thirsting on the cross... v16 refers to the hand and feet wounds of the nails... v18 refers to how jesus' clothing was divided... v22-23,27,31 refers to the need for evangelism... v26 refers to the promise of salvation... and it goes on... so surprising... i'm sure the only old testament passage which really compares to this is the ones found in isaiah...

oh yeah; niners WHUPPED the chiefs on saturday... 24-6... WOW... go niners! gluck garcia, plz recover soon!

i might need a usb drive... kinda tough transferring a 6+ MB file from my bro's cpu to my laptop... and i'm not too sure the filesplit program i have can do the trick...

have a lot to say, and library closes in 30, so let's get down to it:

bball yesterday: it was fun. first of all, i finally made my first under-the-legs layup(not in a real game though, sadly)... sam attributes it to my hangtime, which is why i keep wanting my ideal height to be 7 ft; nothing like being able to dunk and shoot over other ppl... strangely, i kept missing all my shots again(except for one layup i think)... and THEN, when it actually gets dark around 8:30, all my outside shots start hitting over wes' block attempts! what the? (and i mustve shot at least 3 shots in the dark)... maybe it's my night vision... thank God for the vitamin A, eh? i love crossing from right to left, then pulling up immediately to fire one... and tim gave me a couple pointers that might improve what i do when i get a screen...

celebration of discipline: it's done... what intrigues me is how foster ended the book on the discipline of celebration, and it got me seriously thinking: ykno, he's right; christians do have the truth in them, but they're not supposed to wander around depressed about life(and yet all these youths and college ppl around me are doing so), hoping to just get through this life; we're supposed to be breaking forth, dancing about, and stuff! soak up life! it was also nice how he ended with it, emphasising how joy helps us to carry through on those disciplines, and the disciplines' end result is joy, producing a never-ending cycle... do i celebrate? yes, and no; for me personally, i can ALWAYS celebrate when i worship; for me, it's just natural now; even if i'm alone and just listening to christian worship or christian rock .mp3s on my laptop, my head starts bobbing, and randomly i'll get up just to jump around and point to heaven... but i feel that i'm taking the other disciplines too seriously... i just wish God would help me out there...

concerning my bible study: i'm done w/job, and beginning psalms; i'll comment on psalms later, but for now, i'll list these verses, as they stand out in my head:
Ps 16:8, Ps 19:1

as for job, the thing you have got to remember is that God seemed very far away; for job, all that mattered was that he saw God; that was it; you noticed how after God saw job that that was all job wanted; he admitted he had nothing else to say, and repented, even while still in ruins. basically, God told job, "who are you to question what i do? if you can't even take on the best of my creation, how can you take on me?" however, one of the things i have realized is that God felt that he was always far apart, and didn't really ever get suffering; that's why Jesus came to earth; to die for our sins, but also so he could relate, as he suffered pretty much all there is to human suffering, so now when we gripe, "God you don't understand" his reply will be "i have been there; don't think for one moment that i don't understand how you're feeling; don't lose heart; i'm bearing the burden with you as we speak"

to end, i watched kqed today when they had "grilling maestros" on, and it was interesting how the 1st guy explained how they were going to grill a new york steak(mmm....) with sauteed shallots, crab meat, asparagus, and melting brie cheese all on top... oooh man... they called it like a "steak oscar" or something like that; i'll look to see if they have the receipe somewhere online, but man, that much be hecka tasty, but killer on your health...

hmm... corporate guidance... never really thought about that one before... haven't we all been concentrating upon what God has to do to guide the individual? the early church was so powerful because they met together in unity and prayer... (come to think about it a huge problem i believe with the modern church is that there is too little emphasis on solitude when it's needed, and too little emphasis on individualism when unity is needed; the 1st occurs when we're too busy to set aside time each workday to come before God and to REALLY ask what he wants or just to chill with him, the 2nd occurs when we think that what we hear from God by ourselves is immediately true and don't try to verify this feeling with others)

speaking of which, why don't christians ever get together in small groups just for the idea of praise? the idea was brought up in "Celebration of Discipline," and i'm wondering why we don't even try bothering with that idea... we get together for small group bible study, we get together for small group prayer time, but we NEVER get together JUST to praise God... and yet the bible commands that we should! you, reader, tell me, why DON'T we ever do this? why must worship be considered a "large group" thing? i'm starting to feel like this more and more, and i'm wondering why we can't do something about this... and i'm talking about no more than 10 ppl type small groups... i mean, outside of our praise band's saturday morning practice, there's never the sight of small group praise... we should make it more commonplace... i think it's a good thing... comments?

air combo finishers that initiate the flying screen effect in XvSF that cause an arc lead to some pretty POWERFUL corner combos; for some reason the damage that they do don't scale down that easily, and they take off the red life bar a lot better than the other moves, not to mention infinites that involve them almost NEVER dizzy the opponent

love this XvSF Charlie combo:
d.c.jab->c.strong->s.fierce xx sonic break(mash fully), sonic break(mash 4/5th of the way), repeatedly wavedash, then
d.c.short->c.fierce/\ sj.jab->sj.short->sj.strong->sj.forward xx forward air somersault kick, sj.roundhouse(otg)\/c.fierce/\ sj.jab->sj.short->sj.strong->sj.forward->sj.fierce->sj.roundhouse, sj.roundhouse
does a TON of damage(i'd say about 7/9 of the entire life bar); i'm wondering if it's fully guarenteed though... maybe the opponent can roll after the air somersault kick? otherwise, it looks like a guarenteed combo outside of that...

netzero's just keeps getting slower; i was lucky to be able to dl kazaa lite AND windows media player 7.1 yesterday... so i guess i'll just have to figure out "cry holy" tonight...

i'm wondering if i'll ever be able to finish what i had in mind for this summer...

i think i'll try to tab sonicflood's cry holy tonight(if i can dl it for that simple purpose); y'kno, something about sonicflood; sure, i think they're a great worship band, but a bit simplistic on the guitar... nevertheless, that's what different bands are for; besides, it's not that they're completely unimprovisational...

i kinda liked how i backed up bob on sunday during "everything that has breath;" while he was playing E, D#, C#m, A, B x2 to intro the song, i backed him up by coming in with this on the 2nd loop:

000007, 000900, 000900, 000007, 000900 (played this while he was playing E)
000800, 000800, 000007, 000800, 000007, 000800 (played this while he was playing D#)
000600, 000600, 000007, 000600, 000007, 000600 (played this while he was playing C#m)
000007/000009, 000009, 000009, 000007 (played this when he was playing A, B)

looks confusing? intimidated by what i wrote? don't worry; it's hard writing down EXACTLY what i played, but that's the skeleton of what i played; it sounded pretty good IMO; one of the reasons why i like having 2 guitarists in music bands now; one is the rhythm guitarist and does the skeleton of the melody, ykno, the chords, while one's the lead guitarist and can fill; i have a preference for lead guitarists, but sometimes when they're just riffing and filling away, the air sounds empty without any background noise; not so when there's a rhythm guitarist... (also semi-explains why i don't see it as "acoustic guitarist" and "electric guitarist" anymore)

though the college freshman girls joined us during the young adult's sunday school, i did internally wonder if they were confused on the stuff and would rather be with the youth group's sunday school... but girls aren't dumb... more or less i was wondering if they needed to hear the previous weeks' lessons to really get it...

wasted most of the day again... figures... i stayed inside and didn't songwrite so far...

more job-age today... it was essentially more of the same thing; the conversations got to a standoff though; job solemnly swore he did NOT do wrong, and that pretty much ended the debate... now i just have to read elihu and god's conversations, and i'm done w/the book...

man, should've checked out robin cook's "shock"; now i can't find it, but heck, maybe i can find it at barnes & noble and just read that... i don't need to be control of EVERYTHING...

a net-less hoop DOES throw off your shot... seems like the net gives a sense of persception that isn't found with just the rim... no wonder i was playing "team player" more successfully on saturday than doing stuff myself and shooting... i still would've been playing "team player" regardless because i haven't played bball for at least a week now... it's too late for me to get some serious practice today, but i can try tomorrow...

dude... As > NY yesterday... i loved the 9th inning... NY was up 1-0, and were first up; As managed to hold them back... then comes the As' turn... with a runner on 1st and 3rd, Miguel Tejada comes up to bat, and almost homers it to win the game; the outfielder couldn't catch the falling ball, since it rocheted off the wall, then he made an error in picking up the ball... As win 2-1... that's right! leave it to Tejada!

ok... i'm pretty much sitting blank right now at the cpu, cause i can't think of anything witty/insightful to type, so apparently i've run outta juice... i'm out...

library's gonna close really soon...

i wish i could be unashamed to praise God whenever, wherever...

ok that's it; i'll write later...

i remembered that there were some new testament verses in the bible that jesus said about plain honest speech; mainly, letting your yes be yes and your no be no, so i decided to add that to the bible links i had up there(sometimes we can be so flaky, so i want that verse to be easily referenced by me that i might never forget it; i am very tempted to point fingers at who doesn't keep their word, but sometimes i do it too, so i'll leave it at that); there was one i found in james, but i thought the one found in matt 5:36-37 was better, although i find the thought of james the person interesting; here's why; he was jesus' biological younger brother. imagine that; now i'm not too sure how many siblings jesus had, but i'm sure james wasn't the only one. still, imagine what it would be like to be james; jesus is your brother, and yet, also creator of the heavens and the earth! so on one point, he is totally in line with you, but on another token, he is beyond anything you are. also, correct me if i'm wrong, but james ended up believing in jesus AFTER he died and rose again. i'm sure most of us younger siblings often feel proud of our older siblings(you have NO IDEA how much i admire my bro, who is about 8 years older than i am), but imagine what it would've been like to be james... it boggles my mind...

(on a side note, it's strange concerning older and younger siblings, how most of my closer friends are all older siblings of their respective families...)

i wonder how the idea that jesus would come from the line of david makes sense; you realize that joseph never had any sexual relations with mary before she became pregnant(cue bill clinton's "i did NOT have any sexual relations with that woman"); but then again, it's understandable; to say that the savior would come from mary's lineage would sound kinda disgracing, since the jewish people at the time placed great emphasis on men. to be anal though, you'd have to say that the messiah would come from mary. still, the prophesies aren't really UNTRUE; you realize that joseph DID come from the line of david, and jesus WAS joseph's son... in a way, you could say joseph adopted jesus from the holy spirit, and thus the savior DID come from the family line

close to 2 chapters from finishing Celebration of Disciplines; i know it looks like i'm concentrating too much on finishing the book to pay close attention, but sometimes i feel tedious note-taking ruins the fun of reading; the hours just get eaten... so once i'm done i'll go back and reread to really get it... i realize one HUGE temptation of reading this book is to say "oh i didn't do discipline 'x' like Foster said!" but really, if you just have Christ guide you, everything'll be alright; one thing that DOES concern me is how i sometimes am not too sure God is speaking to me; God is not just a god of words, and so that leaves some mystery in how he communicates with us; but i'll pray about it, and ask that he might continue to help me hear him out; hey, it'll heighten my worship experience! :D

jeremy camp - take my life

HERE I AM BEFORE YOU NOW
LIKE A CHILD I'M REACHING OUT
HERE I AM I'M GIVING ALL I CAN
BREAKING MY PRIDE I FEEL I'M THROUGH
SHATTERED INSIDE I RUN TO YOU
AND NOW I GIVE IT ALL TO YOU

TAKE MY LIFE
TAKE MY MIND
TAKE MY SOUL
TAKE MY WILL
I AM YOURS NOW AND I GIVE IT ALL TO YOU

LAYING ALL DOWN BEFORE MY KING
OFFERING ALL MY EVERYTHING
LAYING ALL DOWN BEFORE THE I ONE I SERVE
I CAN UNDERSTAND THE REASONS WHY
YOU CAME ON THIS EARTH AND DIED
AND NOW I GIVE IT ALL TO YOU

I CAN FEEL YOU ON MY SHOULDER
SO I KNOW THAT YOU ARE THERE
I CAN SEE YOU PAINT MY PICTURE
THE BEAUTY IS ALL THERE

today's engrish.com cracked me up a bit; if i wasn't in a library i'd be laughing my @$$ off:
it's a woman wearing a sweatshirt that says "no guy will ever fancy me"
(ugh! you drive a hard bargain!)

i read up to ch 20 of job today, and i'm starting to feel that maybe people who don't understand why God feels so far away when good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people should read this book. the student bible i have that phil gave me had a good insight in it concerning the book, but i kinda wanna look at that later, but what surprised me was the coming across of this extremely high-hoping thought by job, even when he was in the midst of his greatest despair:

Job 19:25-27
I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand upon the earth.
And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God;
I myself will see him with my own eyes-I, and not another. How my heart yearns within me!

it appears that people make the misconception that good people prosper, and bad people suffer IN THIS LIFETIME; that was the big mistake of job's 3 friends. but it's not true; what IS true is that that justice only gets served after the end of the world has come about. no wonder why there's such a misconception amongst the secular society that many people will go to heaven cause they've been a "fairly good person"
another thing you'll notice about job is that the best advice you can give to a suffering person is simply to sit in compassionate silence; look at the damage that was done by job's 3 friends! i keep seeing how job constantly asked his friends, "why aren't you being supportive?"

man, i haven't read robin cook's stuff in a long time; so when i tried to today, i was a bit confused for a while seeing all the medical jargon he uses; at least i was intelligent enough to know the procedure he was describing at the beginning was the process of cloning by nuclear transfer...

i'm sorry, i meant what cell phones were better... but more or less you can still throw your inputs out...

today's verse of the day:

1st John 2:17
The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever

it never occurred to me just how meaningless the secular life is; i fall victim to it too; like i wasted a TON of time today just marvelling at how i can now do the full 4-hit chain for Psylocke's air combo in MSH today cause of some special setup i found out; and then a voice inside my head hit me; "is that all you can lean on for substanence?" i mean, really, what gives? maybe i really should get back to what my life should be all about... what i intended my summers should be all about...

wow... my mom surprised me by asking me what cell phone deals were better yesterday; i asked why; she said she might be considering to getting me one; so if you guys have any deals you think are good, throw em out on the comment link below; i'm all ears

it's wes' bday today!(kinda makes me wish i had about 30+ already recorded .mp3s, then i could just give him a USB drive for his bday; one chock full of those 30+ songs, that is)

man, i should've gotten up earlier today; i could've gone to CTCC and helped out w/their VBS...

something that confounds me is how some ppl APPEAR to look pumped up for christ during school days; then they come back, and everything looks unchanged... like why the heck do you keep showing up late for church, as well as joining the youth during sunday school, instead of the young adults? i thought you were refined! where's the deeds portion of your faith?

its amazing how sometimes ppl you THINK you know surprise you by paying attention in sunday school, and showing interest

j.forward->j.fierce\/d.c.jab->c.fierceXXqcb+2k,c.short(otg)->c.fierce/\sj.jab->sj.short->sj.forwardxxqcb+2k

sometimes i just wanna be left alone w/God... let me muse in my own thoughts, and let the holy spirit whisper things into my ears; don't bother me or call me up during these times; you ruin the potential there; you and your gotta-always-do-things-in-a-rush-w/others-mentality...

i started on JOB today; i'll comment later tonight or tomorrow...

newest find on the web for me today(will add it to the links sometime later):

Shareware Music Machine

this site's great for songwriters and stuff; you can find all the freeware and shareware music software stuff you ever need, more or less, to record or have fun, music-wise; very useful; chances are, it's linked somewhere here. one of the gems i found yesterday was the Audio Phonics Guitar Tuner; a freeware guitar tuner software program that is IMO THE best guitar tuner i've ever used; just plug either a mic or cable into your sound card, open the program and pluck the guitar strings; the program can even read octaves higher or lower so the correct key isn't a problem. it can even save special key preferences(like if you like playing with 1/2 step down from a drop D a lot); the 1st time i used it, i was surprised just how sensitive the tuner is... personally, i already have a tuner, but this makes it a LOT more convenient if i'm tuning at home; no need to unplug my whole guitar setup, plug into the tuner, just to tune it; all i need to do is just open the program...

i was surprised to see how the discipline of servitude extends beyond the act of serving; more or less any act which puts others first is an act of serving; listening to others, holding others in high regard by not gossipping, etc, are all excellant ways of being a servant... even letting yourself be served is an act of serving(you're recognizing spiritual authority, hence serving others)

joe's belated bday dinner was cool; we went to frankie, joannie, and luigi too! i'm still not really used to ground beef into tomato sauce; the whole thing tastes pretty salty! i had the veal parmigiana from last time... so that was good...

western conference comments on my fave teams there:
looks like minnesota's gonna be formidable again... spree, cassell, KG... i dunno what you did in minnesota phil, but i love it!
spurs... are always gonna be spurs... i hope they counter lakers again this year... go ginobili and duncan!
hope the best for kings, and warriors, as always...
(i hope they broadcast US bball on local TV when it comes up...)

james 2:14,17-19,26; added to my list of bible verses; seriously, it is that important; james emphasizes the important of faith WITH deeds; of course, deeds by itself is legalism... but it is hard to see faith without deeds... it really is...

dude... i just came across the most coolest-looking fender stratocastor picture today when i was venturing in my bro's room; phil has MOUNDS of books/mags for guitars, and in one of the mags, i saw this full-page picture of a completely CLEAR, SEE-THROUGH fender stratocastor(i'll have to show you a pic of it bob); it's beautiful; it was originally worth $1,000, but now it's probably worth 50x+ more than that now! it was the one they showcased to introduce the fender to the guitar world...

oh yeah, i read in reader's digest of how maybe the view of a soul isn't so far-fetched, medically-wise; there were reports of people who were in surgical procedure; brain-dead, but somehow they had an out-of-body-experience and could see themselves being operated upon; doctors still don't buy it, and i'm not surprised; "if they will not even believe moses, then they will not believe when someone rises from the dead" was something jesus said during his life on earth. if you wanna google this, the term used is called "near death experience," or NDE