grace: im boreddd
me: so i'm helping kill your boredom right now :-)
me: oh yeah, did you check my email?
grace: yessir
me: sir... 1st time i was ever called that... i haven't matured THAT much?
me: but yeah, you gonna come to that?
grace: HAHA
grace: i am not sure yet
me: c'mon, you get so bored when all us college guys leave, and now you cop out on us? way to express your feelings :-)
grace: ahhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it's not you guys
grace: its jsut i dont like fj;aoiuwre yaeh;fouaoir nm
me: oh yeah, i understand THAT :-)
me: *backs off* my bad, my bad :-)
grace: ahahah yes exactlayyy

while the games area on UCD is far from perfect, the MVC1 there's pretty much a steal... 25 cents to play, but wait... 25 cents gives your 5 CREDITS! heh heh... no wonder why everytime i watch someone play against the computer, they offer me to play against them... THAT'S WHY. and yet i STILL can't combo into Chun-Li's air super combo after 20 credits?

lesse, i just visited this site on the net... somewhat sick, but has all these really funny pictures... check it out if you can stomach yourself....

http://www.aardvarkarchie.com/pictures/index.htm

my personal favorite was the squirrel which had male genetalia... heh heh

another lesson relearned: better to study spread over day by day, than by trying to cram it all in the last day. too much info. well, for me, almost like that... i crammed it in the last 2 days. not good, not good. another mistake re-done... how many times til i actually learn God? anyways, if i do get an A on this chem test it would certainly be all you; not that i did that bad, but i don't feel too confident either.

if i can just find some pro audio recording gear... that is under $20... for a laptop.

watched some guy wiping the floor with Chun-Li playing MVC1... oh man, must re-learn that game...

aside from the SAS term paper #3 and Math midterm #3(concentrating on the big events here), i'm pretty much free til thanksgiving break... gonna have some fun breaking out my guitar and going to the MU(they're separate events... i don't play the guitar in the arcade).

AAAAAAAAAA IIIIIIIII! w00t! wipe that floor! wipe that floor!

reading plans... get done with "The Case For Christ" and "Celebration of Discipline" before i end this school year.

although i still yearn for home... there's still another advantage to being in davis besides the high-speed internet access... the winter's a lot more pleasant around here... it's not THAT frigid in the morning, you might even think that it's a somewhat cold spring going on. i get along just fine with a t-shirt, jeans, and long-sleeved jersey.

and i thought norman and laura's legs were white when we went to socal... the cold's kinda pushing all my blood vessels away from my skin. yesterday, when i was taking off my socks to go shower, i seriously took a look at my feet and wondered out loud... "what the hell?!? am i turning byron?!?" pasty-white feet of mine...

how sick would it be to high-5 someone while you're taking a piss?

i wonder how many classes jon's gonna miss in the morning... as i sit here typing this, he just missed another one

ok, so i know god wants us to learn from our mistakes; problem is, we want instant results whereas god tries us and wants us to be patient; i wonder how many mistakes it takes for me to take before i start learning not to make them... stuff like forcing myself to study, to give my teachers what they expect in a paper... geez, that bad omen of mine? somewhat true... not that i got a 65%, but that i got what i didn't want... a par grade. so again... how long? how many?

persistence is god-sent... so is self-control, both of which i need to train myself in...

heh heh... the davis cafeteria's serving trix "nooo... silly rabbit, trix are for kids! damn longears trying to take easter away from jesus! ok you were saying?"

i really dislike how the construction workers are NEVER done with installing the firm alarms in the buildings... for crying out loud, just get it done, instead of trying to wake us all up with your annoying drilling every day! even those that are up are having a dang hard time trying to study above that ruckus.

ok, gonna turn off laptop, and head to the library to study for chem midterm on thursday. i really need to be hard on myself... it's not that i haven't been trying to keep up with work, but i personally work better in TOTAL silence. my stomach's full, so that guarentees maybe 1-2 hrs worth of good study time. pray for me.

diaoh.com... too good; too many good Virtua Fighter 4 Evolution tournament matches to watch...

ok, the blurb-site problem WAS my computer... got it fixed... thanks again, bob.

conversation with a long-time MVHS friend:
me: is work hard @ berkeley?
nikhil: hahaha
nikhil: no, not especially
nikhil: just normal I guess
nikhil: more reading though
nikhil: but less writeen
nikhil: so it balances
me: yeah, i guess there's less written stuff in college, but it seems like there's so much less time, since you actually WANT to be prepped for class
nikhil: hahahaha
nikhil: That may be
me: except for my short calc class... i can fall asleep in that and be just fine :-)
nikhil: hahaha, I do that with mine too

i just HAD to run outta correction tape yesterday when i COULD'VE gotten my chem lab done... auuurgh.

bad omen? dream of getting a 65% on a midterm essay... another prediction from God? tossed and turned last night wondering if it was going to be true.

ok, back to work... somebody please tell me if they're seeing the background of the tables(or boxes) of this blurb-site of mine as a green... it's been ticking me off, but it may just be me.

you have to check this out: go to downloads.com, and download this:

Ots CD Scratch 1200

too funny, like your own turntable for your PC... for free... too bad you can't record what you make, or play mp3s. but then you could always burn your mp3s eh? the only REAL problem is that you can't use 2 hands while doing this... only 1 action essentially at one time. no scratching while messing with the crossfader. but anyhow, had too much fun screwing around with my Linkin Park CD.

ok, just came back from church... online church... ain't that a weird feeling? http://www.day7.tv i've said it before, all of us have grown spiritually, even though you don't think about it; see, norm even invited me to watch his church via the online site. and we had some chit-chat about how the worship service seemed shallow cause we were watching it more than participating. then he joked how he should go wearing something noticeable and tell me to log in.

then wes asked me how my spiritual life was goin, and we had some chit-chat about that... sez he's into ecclesiastes.

nevertheless, here's what i got from the sermon on Genesis chapter 4:

Genesis 4
-The 1st physical death
-This followed the 1st spiritual death, separation from God
-Children have this sinful nature due to the 1st couple
-After man's sin, they were commanded to work
-It could be a testimony to work hard for Christ; he commands us to
-2nd Tess: If you don't work, you don't eat
-You could have fellowship with God AS LONG AS you have the proper attitude; a proper attitude simply comes from the heart(which is the reason why God didn't look on favor towards Cain)
-When 2 or 3 are gathered in my name, I am there with them
-Part of worship is giving
-David: a man after God's heart
-Think about when Jesus saw a widow giving out 2 copper coins
-God loves a cheerful giver
-Most of our anger hurts ourselves, since the other person doesn't even know about it
-God WAS trying to reason with Cain and help him
-NOTHING is hidden
-Ecclesiates: Fear God and keeps his commands, cause God will bring every action into judgment, good or bad
-Matt 10:32-33: If you acknowledge Jesus b4 men, he'll acknowledge you b4 God, but if you disown him b4 men, he'll disown you b4 God

(conversation on group worship on thanksgiving friday)
jerm: i remeber that last year. we really stunk it up at least hahah
me: yeah, he communicated that to us too
jerm: yeye
jerm: hehe
jerm: and her names jenni
jerm: lol
me: uh, plz explain? heh heh
jerm: OOOPs
jerm: wrong im box
jerm: sorry
jerm: lol
me: heh, i thought you were talking about jen su and her FRIENDS
jerm: HAHAHAHHAHAHHA
me: so i was confused, thinking, did jen su ruin your worship last thanksgiving friday?
jerm: heheh
jerm: nope

(me trying to type with my right hand while eating tacos from del taco)
wes: whats luwen's email
me: gimme a sec, i've got hot sauce on my left hand
wes: haha
wes: aite

damn site still doesn't fix the weird green background color! and i am honest in saying i'm not doing anything to the site! i really hope it clears tomorrow.

you'd think i'd learn after the 1st mistake but nooo.... i woke up at 9:00, shut the alarm clock off, and went right back to sleep... right til 12:00. so marks another weekend of missing church. i wonder if God's annoyed at me... i remember thinking to myself why we need a church, and based on what i've thought of, of course it's not necessary as long as you can find ways to learn from God and praise him, but still... we need to keep the sabbath day holy, and unless if i can find some way to do it today, uhh...

heh heh... 1:30 AM marks the 1st time i played mahjong... against lydia, jerm and norm. that was fun. of course, lydia beat us all ;) too bad jon wasn't in on the fun.

right now there's something weird going on with this blurb-site of mine... the background color of the tables are all green... usually they're white. but i don't remember typing any new commands in the template... so i think it should clear up soon... hopefully.

i am so tired today... just work, work, work today.

i hate chem labs... now i didn't say i hated chem, i said i hated chem labs... those things take forever to do a write-up... god knows how many times i screwed up, scribbled out my errors, and continued writing today. i could've been studying for my upcoming chem test if i didn't have that to do... and my midterm paper. and beyond that... couldve been playing guitar. and i'm not even done with that as i sit writing this.

just to write this down so i don't forget the numerous churches around here: http://www.davis411.com/cat/subcat/churches.cfm; will try the University Covenant Church tomorrow.

there are mostly parks around here, not much outside of that. though there's some japanese eateries, pho, and some chinse.

Linkin Park- High Voltage sounds so much better when it's recorded live, like during their House of Blues concert.

-finish chem lab
-start chem prelab
-study for thur chem test
-midterm paper due wed before thanksgiving
and on top of that, i should finish writing down the chorded versions of our planned worship songs... see how much time you high schoolers get? be grateful for what you've got.

11:00 PM; this marks the 1st time i ever saw fog in davis... just went outside and *whoa*... felt like i was seeing right through smoke... when i picked up my pace to jog a bit around, it got my hair sorta wet. when you can't see something about 5 feet in front of your face, that's pretty bad.

stephan marbury with the layup to beat the clock and win the suns the game! oh man... heh heh... yao ming got a dunk!

anyways, the games area had this special today: $8 for use of all the facilities inside... for free. well, technically it's more like unlimited usage, but for me, if i could shell out extra money, i would be content playing VF on my laptop for a long time so i declined. besides, i don't wanna play Area 51 THAT bad.

am i pumped up for worship? oh yeah... but in what ways? expecting others to join in and show huge attitudes for christ? or expecting my college friends to play extremely well? well, it's more the fact that we are getting together to jam... i wouldn't care if we all sounded like whack... the fact that we get together is it. and our attitude. at least THAT'S what's supposed to count.

God bless david c. back at CTCC... he's helping out the youth, even though things look dire... ditto w/alice t. grace w. has a bit to work there though ;)

recently, everytime i turn on my laptop, all i think about is God and worship... heh heh... if this keeps up, i'm gonna suffer so badly in class ;)

matt redman- holy moment
tim hughes- jesus, you alone
10 shekel shirt- meet with me

^ roXoring worship songs

alright... must pull oneself away from laptop and study....

registering for classes is such a biatch. as is my time that i waste.

Tim Hughes/Paul Oakley- Jesus, You Alone... this worship song roXors! haha... i had to say it, somebody had to say it!

you can see a very distinct difference between the way youth/young college ppl write online to the young adults... take a look at how me and david write online, then take a look at bob, chris, reni, etc... they write so much more.

i had no idea ZhiZhi Wang was now on the Clippers... jon calls him useless, heh heh. well, at least he can inbound the ball ;)

time to hit the MU; my trigger finger's itchy...for those of you who don't know, that's the Memorial Union, the arcade/bowling/pool area on UC Davis(http://gamesarea.ucdavis.edu). it's not the best thing(i would totally prefer X-Cape in UCLA or SVGL), but at least Area 51 is 1 quarter with 5 lives. and besides, i'm pooped; i don't feel like writing the rest of tonight, except for maybe relearning some worship songs.

11.29.02... ARE YOU PUMPED? that's right kiddies, break out the distortion pedals, tune your fenders, tighten the snare drum, and test the reverb on the mikes... we are gonna jam all for God!

244--- <-- G power chord

i can't put anger, frustration, and rage into words, cause there's just no way; i might be able to describe it picturesquely though. so i'm just gonna make a footnote here that i still have a long way to work for what i want to become. some ppl just get on your nerves, and they don't even know it... and yeah, i DO hate the way i feel tonight.

i am a definite long shot from what you would consider to be chink. oh sure, i look asian, but my thoughts are anything but chink. aside from the notion of working hard.

is that all there is to life? just... material possessions, a partner, and children? seriously... how superficial can we get?

i see girls and fame
that's the game
rushing past to claim
anything but true wealth
i find it so hard
living the life you want me to live
this is the tart of life
when you're shallow
it never really gets sweet
and people stop there
never willing to go deep

have you tasted the bread of life?
have you found the truth of unchanges?
until you can open your eyes
i will always be miles above you

according to wes, there was an earthquake in his home about a while ago, mini one, a sway back and forth

FINALLY i finished organizing my winter quarter... i can go back to wandering in my mind.

snl: litter critters... that cracked me up for some time.

haha... thanx for the pics norm

can't wait til thanksgiving... so much to be thankful for...

so many empty promises... so many naive ppl... but i feel some of us are beginning to see the light... that gives me hope...

(referring to a church in berkeley)
mandy: it feels kinda weird though cuz everyone thinks im korean
mandy: cuz chang could be like a korean last name too
mandy: and well they just assume im korean
mandy: and this lady just like randomly started talking to me in korean in the bathroom
me: heh heh; maybe if you squinted your eyes and pushed them upward at the edges ;-)
mandy: HAHAHA
mandy: i know! i totally have chinky eyes, not gooky ones
mandy: aaaaah well

when's the last time someone AIM'd me FIRST? heh heh. and it just happened twice today. from 2 girls, both from CTCC.

if you have not discovered just how superficial this world has become and how much we've become trapped by this system... you don't know just how high i've become... not a single care in the world, and unlike the drug high, mine won't ever wear off... ever.

vacation recap:

this was overall a very nice veterans day weekend that i got, mainly above all that all us CTCC guys/gals got together in socal and just did stuff together. pretty much everyone farted too ;) hey, actually i STILL am! ucla's beans caught up to me, as well as all the meat i ate there. the worship cd we were listening to in the car was also very nice.

Notable stuff:

Friday:
car trip:
-a traffic jam plus me not wisely going to the bathroom when i got the chance meant that i had to so desperately go that we had to pull over on the side of the road while i jumped out, ran a couple of feet into brush and pee for 5 min(can anyone say a retreat repeat?)
-then there was the ever-famous dog incident: after the traffic jam cleared, we sped up, going around 80. the van on the right started slowing down, and right when we were about to pass them 2 large, bulky dogs ambled out slowly. jerm slammed on the brakes, but we still hit them insanely hard and rolled right over them. knocked out a fog light and bent the license plate. jerm was so distraught he wouldn't drive for the rest of the trip down.
-then we saw a buncha trash on a truck that looked so much like an elephant; jerm noticed it first.
-jon also ate most of jerm's onion rings
-jerm farted in the car
-jerm talked about fatsoburger. then he also forgot what tsai translated to in english.
-we had a really nice DEEP spiritual discussion in the car... something that we've not really delved into before.
-honestly, so much happened on the way TO riverside we wondered if we should just go home ;)
at riverside:
-the campus where norm rooms LOOKS SO NICE! it is really something.
-met neeraj... nice. turns out he rooms next to norman. also found out what's up with nik and vik.
-i joked to laura about Davis being the burmuda triangle of girls
-then there was the incident where jon looked like he was soiling himself
-woke up from listening to a conversation between norm and lydia; farted twice. went to sleep. woke up, farted twice more.

Saturday:
-went to tim's apartment building... very nice. we spent the time in there playing pool, watching snl, and later in tim's room playing cs, playing guitar, and doing some fantasy bball
-separating 2 fish from the crab in tim's room
-snl: "f is for friendship!" ;)
-"hey, look it's a bisexual bathroom!" (guys enter) ;) this cracked us up, which prompted lydia to say to laura; "c'mon laura join them; it's a bisexual bathroom!"
-then we thought about crowding the front of the elevator when it would open... only the OTHER door inside opened. heh heh.
-dinner at claim jumper was nice... norman ordered a kiddie dinner and said we should eat super(heh heh), and the waiter had a bet with tim, lydia, laura, and jerm that if they could finish a large meal, he would buy them a rack of ribs. but they felt too full to do so(besides, it would've killed jerm)
-i stepped in a crack between 2 matresses, and fell, which cracked us up a bit.
-played 2 on 1 cs against tim. was nice to know i got about 2-3 kills on him... which is so rare, considering how many times i got raped.
-@tap: laura told jerm to get her honeydew; jerm ordered "honeything" ?!? heh heh.

Sunday:
-this was the fun day... though we didn't do too much, we had a LOTTA good laughs and fun times.
-woke up, and sat on jerm to fart on him.
-went to NewSong church... dang; too much ahead of us! i dunno where to say they are hype or help. cause they have a full worship band(they go as far as to have a special soundbooth for the drummer, have special camera angles and transparencies, and sometimes do body worship.), but a really good speaker who is brief, but used a passage for his message. you get a comfortable, casual feeling going there. feels very hi-tech too. however, at times you wonder if they're so big that they forget to concentrate on fellowship(i can't say for sure cause i of course only went there for sunday). and at times you get a feeling of pride of this church over other churches; the point is to be together as christians, not inside of a church.
-then we had lunch w/paul. that was nice. discovered tuffy almost diarrhea'd all over isabel. and that norm's dog tried DIVING into eating crap. then mike told us why he hated greens... cause they're greens ;)
-laura was right... so many stairs at ucla. the dorm food's really good though; so much variety, and very good. now i understand what the hell laura means in her away messages when she sez "puzzles." hah; we spent some of the time passing around burgers turns out we also saw janet(goes to ucsd) and her friends. their curfew system is VERY strict though. it was hard as heck trying to get in. i'm getting the feeling that it's really how the attitude that you use to approach a college, not the college itself; at the dinner we all realized that there wasn't really anything good within walking distance of any of the uc's. so, in all reality, laura's having the most fun because she's the one who's actually going out making friends.
-saw both of the ucla girls' dorms. they're nice. but crowded.
-some rocky jokes... norm and mike raced up the long set of stairs, then were too tired to walk ;)
-played bball with a pink WNBA bball; heh heh. it was so weird, all of us were missing shots we would've normally made(something to do with the weight and ridges of the bball). got a couple of my single-handed weird hook shots in. got a couple of blocks in too. the ucla outside bball court looks weird; like a modified tennis court.
-you can hear EVERYTHING coming from the bathroom in the building that laura lives in. heard norm dropping his "black child" heh heh.
-hah hah... then there was the incident where norman was trying to look at his boxers by pulling down his gym shorts to see if he DID crap in his pants(it had first emerged when he was talking about holding in his crap til it would come naturally) and then this ucla girl comes around looking hecka shocked at norm while all of us were cracking up like crazy.
-at ucla, we closed the elevator, then rang the emergency bell and norm and mike proceeded to box each other out ;) that was funny
-when we went to santa monica, we just walked around(laura brought up the idea that it would be tight if i had my guitar with me), then we ended up at this mini carnival, so we just spent a few minutes playing some of the games. we didn't make the bball game AT ALL; 0/7. which blew, considering all of us guys tried; ALL of us. hah hah. there was some cracks about the games at that too. like the bball game, and the ladder game. tim gave jerm 10 cents so he could view the weird "back to nature" machine, which cracked him and us up. also mike got the weird toy. i would've played some of the shooting games, but didn't have enough chen. and we saw birdies(or should i say lil duckies, heh heh) trying to run into, then away from the nearby ocean tide.
-showering together w/jerm and tim; too funny. gave both of them a high-five(actually, since of my height, it was hard for tim to give me a high five, and i had to give jerm a low-five), and we shoved soap back and forth under the stalls. jerm tried peeing towards the entrance, and found out it goes through the stall. we also got a butt massage from the shower.
-then there was the incident where we turned off the lights to go to sleep in the study room... then jerm shrieked like crazy after seeing the 2 glow-in-the-dark figures. i quipped that it was lucky that me and sam didn't have our lenses on at the the moment(high-5). heh; he hyperventilated for quite some time.

Monday:
-woke up, and countered jerm's fart. then jon farted on norman.
-bid farewell.... did the socal farewell with i think norman and/or sam, i think maybe hugged norm, but me and laura high-5'd; guess she isn't as socal as we think; there's still hope; we haven't lost her yet ;)

that's it... all in all, it was just fun hanging out with the socal girls this weekend. would've been cool if we had deep conversations more often though. i know it's about that time. augh, can't wait for thanksgiving, then we can jam with god. brought up the subject will all who can help, and they seemed to be willing. that's cool; i'm looking forward to an awesome thanksgiving friday.

but for now, i need to quit... stuff to do... grr

when you wish upon a weinstein - heh heh, optimus prime's a jew. "sisters, lock and load!" and the parody of "The Graduate" had me cracking up like crazy.

then when brian's in love with lois - one of the funniest parts was when peter was talking about the drive-in movie that sucked... wmwhhahaha!

the rain and wind last night was VERY strong.... it nearly ripped up my umbrella.

that's it... gotta study, plan for classes....

this is the 1st day that i've seen rain in davis. actually, it was more wind than rain; i was more troubled by the harsh cold breeze than the light sprinkle running to chem class.

also, i was pretty tired from staying up til around 1:30 last night... so after coming back from chem i decided to settle down for a 1.30 hr nap... until i hear the mechanics drilling holes in every1's dorm in order to install the new fire alarms. don't worry, i got sleep.

heh heh... lydia called jon hon yesterday, so i told jon to call lydia sweetie.

so much i wanna do... so little time each day. you should see the plans that i have written somewhere... but i never get around to finishing it any time.

gotta find a DOD AC adapter... i wanna be able to use my flanger whenever i use my Fender.

"cause i hate the way i feel tonight and i know i need you in my life cause i hate the way i feel inside and i promise to make a sacrifice" -12 Stones